Master, he has to report his thoughts every day [Rebirth]

On November 2004, 11, in a remote and simple rental house on the outskirts of Hangzhou, a haggard middle-aged man lay quietly in the cold room. There were few wrinkles on his face, but his hair was already grey, and his body was thin and skinny. A corner of the severely faded red nylon cloth was tightly clenched in his hands with exposed veins, his face was burnt yellow, and there was a faint ominous grayness, and the rise and fall of his chest was so weak that it was almost non-existent.

The sound of children crying came from the large courtyard outside the rental house, and the faint voices came to the ears of the people in the house, and the free consciousness was pulled back. After years of wandering and wandering, men can easily understand the accents of Sichuan children Strong hometown dialect, one of the dolls comforted the crying child and said: "Brother, don't cry, just wait for Dad to come back."

Hearing these words, the chest of the man in the room rose and fell rapidly a few times, his throat made a loud sound like pulling a bellows, his eyes that had been closed tightly opened suddenly, and the cloudy eyeballs turned a few times in a daze Then he suddenly stopped in one direction, his lips trembled slightly, and a tear slowly flowed down the corner of his eye. He closed his eyes, his tense body suddenly relaxed, and let out his last breath quietly.

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"Good evening, all viewers. Today is February 1984, 2, the first day of the first month of the lunar calendar. Welcome to the "News Network" program. First, I will introduce the main content of this program: more than 2 people from all walks of life in the capital gathered together to celebrate the New Year , united and struggled to welcome the new year with outstanding achievements. Party and central state leaders and famous people in the folk art circle spent the Spring Festival together....... The US space shuttle "Challenger" astronauts spacewalked....... "

Despite the cold weather, a small courtyard was still full of people. A 12-inch black and white CRT TV was placed in the center of the courtyard. The wires were pulled out from the crack in the door. The sound of the TV was turned up to the maximum. Although the people were cold, they all stared at the TV with huddled faces. Some children were so short that they couldn't see them, and they were even carried on their shoulders by their parents.

The owner of this house naturally occupies the best position, but his eyes are not focused on watching TV. He always looks at the expressions of his fellow villagers from time to time, and then shows a self-satisfied smile.

There is another family separated from this yard by a wall. Compared with this spacious and bright brick house and the flat and clean concrete floor in the yard, the family next door is much poorer, a dilapidated adobe house, The yard still retains muddy land. It’s okay to say in winter, but every time it rains in summer, it’s muddy soup. There are some chickens, ducks, and geese scattered in the yard. At this time, the food bowl was empty, and the hungry animals creaked and screamed.

Amidst all the noise, Shu Wangbei woke up. He was lying on the cold kang, feeling weak all over and feeling sick. Caressing his chest with thin hands, he crawled to the edge of the kang and retched a few times. His stomach was empty and he didn't spit out anything.

It took a long time for Shu Wangbei's heartbeat to return to normal. He suppressed the feeling of nausea, looked around blankly, his eyes suddenly froze, he sat up suddenly, touched his body indiscriminately, As if he didn't know him, he raised his hands and put them in front of his eyes for a long time, his eyes were full of shock and doubt.

His eyesight was still good at that time, and he saw the calendar on the table by the bright moonlight. Someone circled the words "first day of the first month" with a pen, and this day represented that this person was one year older .The one who draws this circle is none other than Shu Wangbei, or the 1984-year-old Shu Wangbei in 20.

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The light in the adobe room was turned on. The person who turned on the light had been standing in front of the mirror for more than ten minutes. He looked at the familiar self in the mirror with incredible eyes. His gray hair and wrinkles on his face disappeared. Ri is a thin and ordinary-looking boy who is unusually young.

This face can barely be called delicate, the eyes are neither big nor small, the eyeballs are light brown, the bridge of the nose is straight, the mouth is a little bit bigger compared with other facial features, and the face is a small Chinese character face.

He is very familiar with this appearance, he is growing old day by day from this time, working day and night until he finally dies.

Tears slowly trickled down Shu Wangbei's cheeks, and flowed down his neck into his collar. His body trembled slightly as if he had been scalded. Unexpectedly, after his lonely and painful death at the age of 40, he would To go back to the past and live again,

His eyes gradually became sharper, he reached out his hand to wipe away the tears a few times, and said to the mirror, "Shu Wangbei, this time, you have to live like a human being!"

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The next day, Shu Wangbei woke up very early. After feeding the chickens, ducks, and geese in the yard, he ordered himself a bowl of longevity noodles, and took out an egg from the chicken coop to lay in the noodles as compensation. birthday yesterday.He ate this meal very slowly and carefully.

In the previous life, he left hungry, and when he died, he was alone, and there was no one to see him to death.After breakfast, he swept the yard thoroughly, packed the poultry droppings in baskets, and transported them to the back garden to keep the compost, and spent half the morning cleaning up the house thoroughly. , Throwing out a lot of rubbish, after cleaning it up, he looked around, although it was still broken, but at least it was much cleaner and pleasing to the eye.

At the age of 20, his father passed away just five years ago, and his relatives have not seen each other for many years. He was left alone at home to make do with his life. The old-age pension is his main income. Sometimes he really can't get rid of the pot, so he goes to work for other people's family as a part-time job, earns a few money, and then goes back home to dawdle.The house is dirty and messy, and he doesn't care about it, the clothes are so dirty that he can't even see the background color.

Later, he wandered around and made his home everywhere. He even had to eat, and he didn't pay much attention to it.

Now, he was reborn, and he decided to be a little more particular from now on.

He boiled hot water, took a good shower, and changed his clothes again, so that he looked a little decent.He was rubbing his khaki coat with no visible background when someone walked in from the courtyard door. He looked through the window and recognized that it was accountant Ma from the village branch.

Accountant Ma smiled when he entered the room, "Are you busy?"

Shu Wangbei also curved his lips and smiled politely, "What can Uncle Ma want from me?"

Guessing it was too cold outside, Accountant Ma rubbed his hands a little awkwardly before answering, his eyes were a little unnatural, "The village chief is looking for you and asked you to go over now."

The village chief looking for him?Shu Wangbei was stunned for a moment, not wanting to understand why the village chief, who hadn't had much contact with him since his father's accident, wanted him.

But he still didn't say anything, put down his clothes and wiped his hands, and left with Accountant Ma.

The village branch was a little far from his home. Accountant Ma rode a broken bicycle. Shu Wangbei’s poor family couldn’t even afford a wheel, so the old man had to work hard to carry him to the branch.

Just halfway through the walk, Accountant Ma's evasive eyes suddenly reminded him of a possibility. Shu Wangbei thought he knew what the village chief wanted from him.

When he arrived at the village branch, old man Ma was already wheezing and wheezing. It wasn't because of Shu Wangbei's weight. In fact, his body was very thin after years of hard life.

Shu Wangbei said a few words of concern to Accountant Ma, then patted the dust on his pants from the bicycle and entered the branch office.

As soon as he entered, he saw the uncle sitting in the corner of the village chief's office. When he came in, he looked up at him and turned his eyes away. Then he turned back quickly and smiled stiffly, "Wang Bei is here."

Shu Wangbei felt disgusted in his heart, and nodded his head if there was nothing, but didn't say anything.

The village chief sat on the armchair behind the desk, his expression was not as relaxed as in the past, his back was straight, and he looked at the middle-aged man sitting opposite the desk with some restraint.

This person is about 50 years old, slightly bald on the top of his head, of medium build, well-dressed, with shiny leather shoes, and looks dignified.

When Shu Wangbei met this person, he knew that he remembered correctly. He frowned slightly, greeted the village chief, and stopped talking. If he remembered correctly, this was the first time he met this person. , do not know each other yet.

Sure enough, the village head stood up with a smile and introduced him, "Xiao Shu, you should know this one. It is Mr. Xie who came to our Mishui Town to invest and build a factory. The dairy factory under construction in the town is invested by Mr. Xie." Yes, you also know that the farmers in our country all raise cows, and they used to rely on the milk powder factory in the town to collect milk. But last year, the milk powder factory closed down due to poor profitability. The town leaders are worried about this. Mr. Xie came here Yes, this really helped our town a lot."

The village chief didn't forget to praise him when he introduced him, but when he peeked at Mr. Xie sitting across from him, he found that the expression on his face was indifferent, and he didn't mean to argue at all, so he was a little disappointed.

Shu Wangbei didn't care about the village chief's little thoughts, he just nodded his head to show he knew.

Naturally, he had heard of this person. It should be said that most of them here had heard of this person.The man's name is Xie Jianye, and it is said that he came from Beijing.

After the milk powder factory in the town closed down, no one was collecting milk. The surrounding farmers had planned to kill their cattle and raise other poultry. As soon as Xie Jianye came over, he said that he would invest in building a factory, which solved the problem at once. He also promised that after the dairy factory was built, all the workers from the original milk powder factory would be recruited.

This really quenched the near thirst and solved their big problem here.For a while, the residents here talked about this Mr. Xie after dinner, and they all wanted to make a statue for Xie Jianye to worship.

The village head turned to Xie Jianye, and pointed to Shu Wangbei who was standing in the middle of the office respectfully, "This is Shu Liang's son, named Shu Wangbei. His father used to be a doctor in our village health center. People always go to him to see a doctor, but unfortunately something happened later... Alas, this person is gone, let's not talk about it."

Shu Wangbei's eyelids drooped, his face was expressionless, but his half-covered hands were clenched into fists, and his veins were exposed.

The other two people in the room didn't notice anything unusual about him. Fortunately, Xie Jianye wasn't interested in that. He didn't answer the village chief's topic. He stood up and looked at Shu Wangbei carefully. He seemed to be satisfied with his appearance. nodded.

"How old are you this year, and when will you be in school?" He asked slowly.

This question was endless, but Shu Wangbei didn't find it strange. After he met this person, the memory of this past was much clearer, and he advised himself to relax.

"I'm 20 years old this year. I haven't gone to school since I graduated from junior high school." Shu Wangbei replied obediently. His tone was calm, but the turmoil in his heart was no less than a river and a sea.

Xie Jianye didn't seem too satisfied, he frowned and pondered for a while, then looked at him again, seeing that he looked very well-behaved with low eyebrows, he sighed and said, "It's not a big problem, anyway, he's still young , I can still go to school if I have the opportunity in the future.”

What he said was inadvertent, but the listener paid attention.

Shu Wang's life in the north has been suffering from a lack of education, coupled with the mentality of muddling along, he lived alone all his life, and when he heard that there was a possibility of continuing to study, he couldn't help but tense up.

Xie Jianye didn't speak any more, sat back on the chair, and glanced at the village chief, who immediately understood what he meant, dragged a stool next to Shu Wangbei, and asked him to sit down.

"Wangbei, you don't need to be too nervous," the village head patted the back of Shu Wangbei's hand, "Since your father left, you have suffered a lot, you are such a poor child."

As he spoke, the village chief wiped the corners of his eyes, and the wrinkles on his face were huddled together, looking sad.

Shu Wangbei didn't like other people bringing up this topic, so he asked directly, "What does the village chief want from me?"

The village head wiped the corner of his eyes again and said, "Time flies too fast. I remember that your mother was born in the first year of the new year. You will be 20 after the new year. You are not too young now. Uncle has always wanted to help you." It's a pity that the village branch doesn't have much ability, and now the opportunity has finally come to solve your lifelong affairs, and you have a good home, so I can rest assured."

Sure enough, Shu Wangbei sneered in his heart, didn't he just want to marry him to that sick man, it sounded nice.

"Mr. Xie asked me to tell you a matchmaker. The other party is Mrs. Xie's nephew. He has worked in the middle school in the town for several years. Xiao Shu, I remember you went to school in the town, maybe you still know each other."

The village chief observed Shu Wangbei's expression, but he didn't see anything on his face, so he continued, "His name is Zhou Xi, I've met him before, he looks good, he's polite and thoughtful, he's 30 this year, He is older than you, but he can take care of others when he is older. Besides, his teachers are educated and his salary is high, so you won’t suffer when you marry, that’s just..."

The village chief looked at Shu Wangbei's expression again when he said this, as if he didn't know what to say. He took a peek at Xie Jianye, gritted his teeth and said, "It's just that he is not in good health. There was an accident, and Teacher Zhou was also unlucky, and the person who was looking for it in the past was implicated and hurt his leg, but don’t worry, it’s not serious, the coking plant will be responsible for the medical expenses to the end, and maybe it will be fine if you take care of it for a few years.”

As he said that, the village chief smacked his lips enviously. Seeing that Shu Wangbei still didn't respond, he asked tentatively in a low voice, "Mr. Xie came to our village for this purpose. Wangbei, do you have any ideas?"

After hearing the village chief's words, Shu Wang didn't show it on his face, but his heart was already churning several times.The village chief praised Zhou Xi like a flower in his words, but he knew that things were far from that simple.

When the village chief of the previous life mentioned this to him, he was a little hesitant at first, but after asking someone he knew in the town, he found out that this person was either injured a little, or he was paralyzed, and he was not even fertile. Now, it's hard to say whether I will be able to stand up in the future.

He wondered how it is possible for a man with such good conditions to find a man wife. Although the country allows same-sex marriage, men cannot bear children after all, and marriage between men and women is the mainstream.Individuals in the village who have found male wives are all too poor to get rid of it, and they just make do with it when they can't find a wife.

Thinking about it, it was probably that their family really had no other way, so they thought of him for some reason, but that's right, he had no relatives and no reason, and his family was poor, so he was easy to bully.

So, at that time, he ran to the village branch and made a big fuss, scolding the village chief.Originally, he thought that he really didn't want to, so let's forget about it.

Later, this Xie Jianye went to him several times, but he refused.Later, he heard the wind, saying that Mr. Zhou recruited a group of people to arrest him, and said that he wanted raw rice to be cooked, and he got on the bus first and then paid for the fare. Packed up his things and ran out of the village. After walking like this for 20 years, he died alone in a foreign land.

Seeing that he hadn't spoken for a long time, the village chief suspected that he was reluctant.He glanced at Xie Jianye with some anxiety, Xie Jianye had a serious expression on his face, and the corners of his mouth were tightly pursed, as if he was a little displeased.

The village head thumped in his heart, not wanting to lose face in front of him, he glanced at Shu He in the corner, "Old Shu, tell me something, Xiao Shu's parents are gone, you are his closest relative, You have to decide the marriage of the younger generation!"

Shu He smiled awkwardly, the wrinkles on his face were crowded together, he stood up from the corner, walked in front of Shu Wangbei with some hesitation on his face, "Wangbei, I think this marriage is good, If you have no opinion, uncle will make the decision for you."

Shu Wangbei was extremely disgusted in his heart, with a smirk on his face, "Uncle, your family Shuli is not young, and she has no one to date. My younger brother is also anxious. The teacher's conditions are so good this week. I can't just take care of myself, I think it's appropriate for Shu Li to marry and enjoy the happiness."

Shu He was so angry that he almost fell on his back, the village chief quickly supported him from behind and barely stopped.

Xie Jianye's face was also not very good-looking, he stood up and looked at Shu Wangbei, "Xiao Shu, what conditions do you have, we can talk about it."

Shu Wangbei bowed his head and pondered for a while, then looked up at Xie Jianye, "I want to see him first before making a decision."

Xie Jianye seemed a little hesitant, but finally nodded, "Okay, I'll arrange it."