you almost killed me

death.

These two terrible words are so heavy for a boy who is only a teenager.

You Chengcheng didn't expect the bad news to hit him suddenly.

Should he tell his family this secret?Can he tell his family?

Because he has someone he likes in his heart, he is cursed, if the person he likes doesn't like him, then he has to die - how can he say such a thing?It was humiliating and pathetic, and he couldn't say it.

He couldn't help coughing twice again, it was really a bloodshot little flower petal.

You Luocheng was about to cry.

Why is it him?

Why was he the one who had to endure such a terrible thing?

He held his throat, as if there was some terrible ghost in his throat, and he really wanted to dig it out.

But Hao Xiaoyin came over and knocked on his door: "Are you okay inside?"

You Luocheng immediately went over and blocked the door while rolling and crawling.When this kind of thing happened, his first reaction was not to find someone to tell, but to never let anyone know.You Luocheng was panting, his throat hurt from psychological effects, and his voice was hoarse: "...I'm tired, I want to sleep for a while..."

"May I come in?"

"No... I'm changing my pajamas... I'm not wearing pants..." His mind was full of muddy confusion, and You Luocheng bit his lower lip to keep himself from making strange noises.

"That's good." Fortunately, Hao Xiaoyin didn't have any suspicions, "You should have a good rest."

You Chengcheng waited behind the door until he was sure that Hao Xiaoyin had left, then slowly sat down on the ground.

There are too many things in my mind, and they are lumped together, becoming a blank space where I can't feel anything and a darkness where I can't say anything.

You Lacheng didn't even dare to leave the door.When Hao Xiaoyin left, he pretended to be asleep and didn't go see him off, and when he was having dinner, he said he wasn't hungry and didn't go to eat.

Pulled the curtains and turned off the lights, hid in bed and cried with eyes closed.

He cried until his forehead became dizzy, but he couldn't sleep.Scared, helpless.The hallucinatory reality hit him like he was floating.

You Chengcheng didn't know how long he had been huddled under the covers. Anyway, it was around one o'clock in the morning. He got up from the bed, lit the lamp and lay down in front of the desk to write his suicide note.

A piece of pale A4 paper, with the word "suicide note" written in the middle, if you look carefully, there is a small teardrop between the words.

You Lacheng is afraid of death.

The thought that I might die made me terrified.

So while thinking about what to write in the suicide note, tears kept falling.

The suicide note is naturally written to the family.

He wrote "Dear Mom, Dad and Sister" very formally and politely, and after clicking two colons, he opened a new line with two blank spaces-very sad to leave you.

As these words were written, the scenes of getting along with his family in the past ten years played out in You Chengcheng's mind like a slideshow.

How grateful he was to be adopted by the couple.

They have never looked at themselves in a different light because they are monsters, nor have they joked about themselves because they are monsters but have no ability to be like ordinary people.

In human society where the number of monsters is still a minority, no matter what the mainstream media advertises, there are still very few people who dare to actually adopt them.At first they were also opposed and stopped by their relatives.But whenever someone talked about topics that would embarrass a child in front of You Chengcheng, they would always stand up to protect themselves.

Before You Xinyao came, You Chengcheng was also afraid that if there were too many younger sisters, his parents' concern for him would decrease.

But they didn't either.

Although there are always times when a bowl of water is uneven, and there are times when it is hard to tell which piece of flesh is more in the palm of the hand, but they have been working hard to learn how to be a pair of qualified parents, and try their best to be impartial to their children. lean on.The brother-sister relationship between You Chengcheng and You Xinyao is so harmonious and close, thanks to their proper education.

When You Luocheng thought about it, he felt very sad, and when he thought about it, he began to regret it.

The parents who treated him so well, the parents who had raised him for more than ten years—but because he had a crush on someone who he might never like in his life, he was about to lose it.

Will they be sad?It must be very sad, right?

You Luocheng was also very sad, thinking that everything he had now would disappear in a short time, and he hated why he didn't cherish it when he was enjoying it safely and soundly.

He was crying while writing this suicide note, crying and writing, and the paper was soaked by his tears several times in the middle.Wet and waited for it to dry before writing, and then accidentally got wet after writing, and finally finished writing a piece of paper, the paper was already crumpled, and I don't know how much time has passed.

You Luocheng held the paper, didn't think about where to put it, and stuffed it under the pillow.

At this time, You Lacheng's eyes were swollen from crying, and he felt top-heavy.

He fell on the pillow, dizzy.

The next morning, You Lacheng had a fever.

Mother You called him many times in the morning, but he didn't wake up, so she went to his room to look for him, but she couldn't wake him up no matter what.When I touched my forehead, it was terribly hot, and then I realized that I had a fever.

Fortunately, Father You hadn't left the house at that time, so he immediately ran to the hospital with You Complete Cheng.

Mother You blamed herself.You Luocheng had a cold for several days, but because it didn't look serious, no one took it seriously, thinking that it was a small cold that would be cured after taking medicine.She blamed herself thinking that when You Chengcheng said she didn't want to eat last night, it would be great if she could go up and take a look, otherwise maybe such a thing would not have happened.

After being sent to the hospital, You Chengcheng was conscious for a period of time. He knew he was in the hospital and that he was going to get an injection. He heard the doctor's questions and his parents' words.It was just because the burning was so uncomfortable that he didn't have the strength to speak, and fell asleep again while hanging the salt water.

Father You asked for leave, and stayed with You Luocheng for injections in the hospital, and took him home after the injections.

It was around four o'clock in the afternoon that You Lacheng really woke up.

He slept for nearly a day, and when he opened his eyes, his limbs were lying stiff.

Sitting beside his bed, Mother You finally breathed a sigh of relief seeing him wake up.

Wandering into a fog, his head was empty at that moment, he didn't seem to remember anything, he just felt very uncomfortable in his body: "...Mom..."

"Hey, you're awake."

You Luocheng touched his swollen forehead and remembered something about the hospital: "...I have a fever?"

When You Luocheng fell asleep, Mother You kept blaming herself. When You Luocheng woke up and was fine, she couldn't help but want to say a few words: "You, you're not a child anymore, why don't you even know what's going on with your body? Fortunately, when I came to see you today, your father hadn't gone to work, otherwise it would be too troublesome, and I couldn't carry you to the hospital."

"..."

"The doctor prescribed the medicine for you and said that you should take it after you wake up." Mama You kept the medicine ready at all times. "There is also this special medicine. The doctor told you that you must take it for fear of you getting rabies."

Listening to Mother You's words, You Lacheng felt an inexplicable sense of peace of mind. He sat up with support: "...the doctor is too good, I'm not a dog."

"Who says you're not?" Mother You pinched his nose, "Aren't you just a puppy!"

You Luocheng took the medicine, and almost remembered everything that happened the day before.

He has haemorrhoids, and he is dying.

When Mother You touched his forehead to test the temperature, You Licheng immediately hugged her and began to cry aggrievedly.

Mother You was taken aback: "What's wrong? Why are you crying when you're fine?"

"... woo woo woo... Mom..." You Luocheng cried like a child who had been greatly wronged, but he knew that he should suppress his voice, and it was not too loud, "... woo woo Woo..."

Mother You was distressed, but You Licheng was very cute when he cried.She couldn't laugh or cry, hugged You Chengcheng, and touched his head: "Is it hard for you? So bad that you want to cry?"

"... woo woo woo..." You Luocheng just hugged and cried, as if the next scene was the parting of life and death between him and his family.

"Where is it uncomfortable to tell your mother? Where is your body uncomfortable?"

You Lacheng actually wanted to tell the story of flower vomiting. After all, he was only a sophomore in high school, and it was too cruel to bear this reality alone.But when he thought of the pain in his throat, he realized very belatedly... There is no discomfort in his throat at this moment?

He was surprised and slowly calmed down.Then he realized that while he was gasping for air, his throat didn't have the itchy feeling of wanting to cough a few days ago.

You Lacheng coughed twice on purpose... His throat really didn't feel like a foreign body at all...

That's weird...

Could it be that he was dreaming about what happened yesterday?

You Lacheng immediately forced Ying Xi's face to appear in his mind with a bit of masochism - but there was no reaction at all, and his throat didn't hurt at all.

You Luocheng was stunned.

Mother You didn't know what was going on in his heart at this time, and seeing that he was no longer crying, she took a tissue and wiped the tears still dripping down his face: "Crying finished?"

You Lacheng nodded blankly.

"Wipe your tears quickly, or your sister will laugh at you when she comes."

Unexpectedly, as soon as Mother You said the last sentence, You Xinyao opened the door and came in the next second - it would be fine if she came in alone, but Hao Xiaoyin followed You Xinyao.

You Luocheng was dumbfounded.

You Xinyao definitely didn't expect that You Luocheng would look like he just cried, she was also stupid, she definitely didn't really want You Luocheng to embarrass him in front of Hao Xiaoyin.

Hao Xiaoyin has come to their house too many times, your father and mother are very familiar with him when they see him.

"...Hello, Auntie..." Hao Xiaoyin was probably surprised by You's complete state, but he still politely greeted You's mother first.

"Hello." Mama You stood up, "Did you come to see Ah Luo? Let's talk, I'm going down to make dinner too."

You Xinyao was very guilty. As soon as Mother You left, she wanted to leave quickly: "Well, senior Hao, talk to my brother, I'm going out too."

So in the small room, only Hao Xiaoyin and You Chengcheng were left.

The author has something to say: When I wrote the suicide note, I was actually laughing all the time, so much that I almost wondered if I was too bad