dead innocent

In the evening, Fu Yi pushed open the door, just in time to see the setting sun outside the floor-to-ceiling windows of the living room facing the door.His wife sat by the bay window with her back against the wall and a laptop on her lap.The corners of her snow-white skirt hang down along the prism, and her body and the wall present a beautiful arc. The warm yellow light outside the window envelopes her silhouette, creating a hazy halo all over her body, as beautiful as a mural.

Hearing the sound of closing the door, Shu Qing pulled the long hair that was hanging down her face behind her ears, looked at Fu Yi with a smile and asked, "Where's Yinyin? Didn't you go pick her up?"

Fu Yi took off his coat and hung it on the hanger, and walked towards her with a packing bag. Because his leg injury had not completely healed, his steps were more steady and slow than before.

"I asked my colleagues to take Yinyin away and take care of her. It's just the two of us tonight."

With that said, Fu Yi walked to the bay window and sat down beside her, the smile on his face was gentler than the sunset outside the window.

Shu Qing put the laptop aside, raised her arms to wrap around his neck, raised her face, and smiled cutely: "Why?"

Fu Yi smiled and said nothing, then picked up the packaging bag on the floor and handed it to her: "A gift."

"Why did you suddenly give me a gift?"

Shu Qing was pleasantly surprised, she took it with both hands and did not forget to say thank you: "Thank you."

Their marriage was as smooth as calm water, and the way they got along was to raise their eyebrows and respect each other as guests.Even though Shu Qing was the wife he was marrying, Fu Yi always kept a respectful and polite distance from her.Fortunately, Shu Qing didn't think there was anything wrong with the way they got along with each other. She was born in a scholarly family, and she received the education that women regard subtlety as beauty since she was a child. Moreover, she is elegant and pure in nature, and managing a good relationship and married life is like being in a relationship. Serving flowers and weeds is full of the amorous feelings of a famous lady who is as close as she is at a distance.

She is not enthusiastic, she is noble and indifferent, and there are some people who are willing to give enthusiasm to her, but Fu Yi is not included.

"Polaroid camera? How did you know I wanted this?"

Shu Qing said in surprise.

Fu Yi took off his glasses, pinched the center of his brows and put them back on again, saying: "I remember when you watched a movie last time, you said that you liked the heroine's attitude towards life, and you also wanted to travel around with a camera on your back."

"Just talking casually, I forgot myself."

Shu Qing happily lowered her head to fiddle with the camera, and suddenly saw a small box in the packaging bag: "Is this for me too?"

While speaking, she had already opened the lid of the box, but the charming look in her eyes faded instantly when she saw the contents in the box, as if she was frightened, and the smile on her face gradually froze and stiffened.

Fu Yi didn't seem to notice her reaction, took her notebook and put it in front of him, holding the frame with one hand, and swiping the webpage with the other.

Just before he came back, Shu Qing was still browsing the intranet of a fashion design college in California.

"Have you decided which school to apply to?"

Fu Yi seemed to have known for a long time that she was planning to go abroad to complete her unfinished graduate studies four years ago, still so gentle and caring, and asked her with a smile.

He didn't hear the answer for a long time, so Fu Yi closed the computer, raised his head and looked at Shu Qing, and saw that her face was dazed, her eyes were flustered, and her hand holding the Bulgari men's ring was trembling.

Seeing her like this, Fu Yi felt pity in his heart, sighed and said, "Did I scare you? I'm sorry, I've been thinking about how to talk to you about this, and I'm waiting for you to take the initiative to talk to me Let’s chat. But now that you’re leaving, I don’t have time, so I decided to have a chat with you tonight.”

Shu Qing panicked for a moment, avoiding Fu Yi's gaze on her, and looked around blankly, trying to escape the predicament at this time, but found that there was no way to escape.

Since you can't escape, just face it.

"sorry."

With eyes full of tears, she lowered her head like a little girl who did something wrong, held Fu Yi's hand, apologized to him, and cried for his forgiveness.

To be honest, Fu Yi still doesn't feel that she needs to apologize. Instead, he feels a little guilty because he scared her.

"It's not your problem, it's my problem."

Fu Yi put his hand on the back of her trembling hand, and said gently: "I know very well that I didn't give you a sense of belonging and security, so I forgive you for what you did, and you don't need to apologize to me."

Shu Qing lowered her head, her nose burst into choked sobs: "You knew it a long time ago, right?"

Fu Yi gently lifted her long messy hair to her shoulders: "Yes, I have noticed. If you don't want to continue this topic, I won't force you. I just want to discuss with you how to solve this matter. "

Shu Qing raised her head suddenly, the delicate light makeup on her face had been blurred by her tears, holding Fu Yi's hand, she cried bitterly, "You won't forgive me, do you want to divorce me?"

But Fu Yi said: "I will not propose a divorce with you. You married me for four years and gave birth to a daughter for us. As long as our marriage is what you want, I will never take it away from you. I can continue to be with you. You live, maintain our family, guard you and Yinyin. The question is, do you really want the life I can give you?"

Shu Qing was taken aback, but was stopped by his question.

Fu Yi looked at her and continued, "If you want our family, why would you go to study in the United States without telling me?"

Suddenly, an empty but full of remembrance smile appeared on his face: "Actually, I can understand you. You married me at the age of 22. In order to marry me and have children, you gave up your graduate studies. Now Yin Yin grows up We are older, we have spent four years of married life, maybe I was your choice at the beginning, but now, your choice is obviously not me."

Shu Qing had to admit that he was right.

At the beginning, she chose to give up her studies and marry Fu Yi, and chose to build a family with him, just because she loved him, and she wanted this man to be her husband.As long as she can marry Fu Yi, she is willing to pay any price.This is the choice she made following her heart when she was young, and she has never regretted it until now, but after four years of unremarkable married life, she remembered the choice she had abandoned at the crossroads of her life. I can't help but start to imagine, if she was not in a hurry to marry Fu Yi at that time, would she have lived a different life from now.

She is free and easy by nature. When she resolutely married Fu Yi, she was dissuaded by her family, but she only listened to herself.After graduating from fashion design, she gave up her professional counterpart job only because of her hobbies and opened a pastry shop, but she only listened to herself.Now, she wants to pick up the possibility she once abandoned, and she also just wants to listen to herself.

At this moment, she understood that Fu Yi was asking her for another choice. No matter what her choice was, whether to continue to maintain the marriage and maintain the status quo, or to change the status quo to find a more desirable life, Fu Yi would respect her decision , and try to cooperate.

But she is also aware of her selfishness and greed. She doesn't want to lose Fu Yi, her husband, nor her dream, freedom, and distance.

"Would you blame me?"

She asked.

Fu Yiyou sighed for a long time, a tired and helpless smile overflowed from the corner of his lips: "How can I blame you? You have paid enough for me, maybe now you realize that your original choice was a mistake, I will not deprive you of the opportunity to correct your mistakes. You are still so young, so beautiful, and you still have time to start over, I can only bless you, and thank you for the youth you gave to me, and thank you for your four years of company."

She curled up beside him like a kitten and lay down on his lap, still holding his hand tightly on her heart, closing her eyes and crying, "If I leave, you Will you divorce me?"

Fu Yi stroked her long hair gently, and said: "In the four years between me and you, I have no choice. It should be said that I have never had the opportunity to choose the life I want. When you leave, I hope to have the opportunity restart."

"...What about Yinyin? What about Yinyin?"

"Even if we are divorced, we are still her parents. Children should not be obstacles to each other. When she is still young, she should not passively bear the choices adults make for her. When she When I grow up, I will explain to her and ask her forgiveness, and I think she will forgive us."

Shu Qing put his hand to her lips, tears flowed more violently: "I want to tell you something."

Fu Yi lowered his eyes, and there was a gentle tide in his eyes: "What's the matter?"

"The photos your parents received back then were sent by me."

Before the words fell, she was sobbing.

The tide in Fu Yi's eyes gradually subsided, his eyes were in a trance for a moment, and he actually smiled.It's just that the smile became more bitter and helpless.

In the summer of that year, when he was preparing courseware at school, he was suddenly called home by his parents.He will never forget the scene of the second elder holding a photo of him holding hands with a man and questioning him angrily and sadly. He will never forget the scene in his life. Facing the sadness and anger of his parents, he only feels panic and guilt.That unsuccessful coming out of the closet became a mark of shame in his life, and he was thrown out of the house by his parents like a bereaved dog.

At that time, he only had despair and shame in his heart, and even thought of dying.

But Shu Qing appeared, and she proposed to him, giving him a hope of survival.As if he had grasped a life-saving straw, he had no choice but to marry her.

Shu Qing cried and said: "I love you so much, I want to marry you, I want to be your wife, I want to give birth to you, I want you to be my husband, I really love you! I know you don't Love me, you have only responsibility to me, I agree to divorce you, I apologize to you, please don't—don't hate me."

Fu Yi was in a trance for a while, until the sky outside the window was dim, and the room was painted with a layer of darkness. Shu Qing was lying beside him and weeping softly like a docile little animal.

"I--"

After only one word, Fu Yi couldn't continue. He found that his voice was very hoarse, as if he had been thirsty for a long time, and it became extremely difficult to speak.

He took off his glasses, pinched the wet corners of his eyes, propped his forehead for a while, and then whispered: "I don't hate you."

As if comforting himself, and comforting her, Fu Yi seemed to be coaxing a child to sleep, gently stroking her shoulder, and said over and over again: "It's all over, it's over."

Yes, it's all over—

Shu Qing was very quiet, as if she was really put to sleep by him, so she spent the night curled up beside him.

The next day was a fine day, with a cool wind on an early autumn morning.

With the breeze blowing, they walked into the Civil Affairs Bureau and ended their four-year marriage.

Walking out of the Civil Affairs Bureau for the second time, Fu Yi looked at his photo on the red ID card, still feeling dazed, but this time the smile printed on the photo was no longer strenuous and fake, although there was only a very faint smile, it was It was he who felt relaxed and happy from the bottom of his heart.

It took Shu Qing a day to say goodbye to her daughter, and the next day she arrived at the airport with her luggage and the camera Fu Yi gave her.

Fu Yi stood at the boarding gate with his daughter in his arms, watching her cry and disappear at the boarding gate while laughing.

The last promise he made to her was: No matter where you live in the future, domestic or foreign, you will always be Yinyin's mother, and I will not let her forget you.

After Shu Qing left, his life became more busy. He had to transfer his daughter to the kindergarten where his younger sister taught, and moved to a place closer to the kindergarten. He kept compressing his working hours so that he could spend more time with his daughter , to be a qualified single parent.

After arranging everything properly, he returned to work at the Municipal Bureau and found out that Yang Kaitai hadn't come to work for several days.And Chu Xingyun knew that he also allowed Yang Kaitai a long vacation and gave him time to adjust his mentality.

Fu Yi is very busy. The cake shop run by Shu Qing has not been operated since she left, but the lease of the shop is still there for many years, so he has been looking for suitable candidates to sell the shop.He received dozens of calls in four days and brought dozens of different people to visit the store.

Finally, on a Saturday, a young couple wanted to take over the store for catering. The price they offered was fair and reasonable, and they could pay the full amount within a month.On Saturday, Fu Yi signed a contract with them in the store, and then sent them out of the store.

He stood in front of the cake shop in the downtown pedestrian street, shaking hands with the young couple to say goodbye, but before he turned around, he saw Yang Kaitai standing in a crowded place, looking at him.

Yang Kaitai was indeed adjusting his mentality, but he was not successful in adjusting. It was not until he walked out of the house and walked on the street that he realized that he had found the wrong way.

Walking in the crowd, looking at a few more unfamiliar smiling faces, the joy, anger, sorrow, and joy around him are instantly overwhelmed. Those sad and bad emotions don't need to be hard to forget, and they will gradually dissipate.

Walking aimlessly down the street, he turned into a cold drink shop and bought an ice cream, walked out of the cold drink shop and looked around, only to realize how honest his legs were.

He arrived near Shu Qing's cake shop.

Fu Yi divorced, and the news of his wife going abroad spread like wildfire in the city bureau. Even he was on vacation when he was called by Master Qiao to inform him. Now no one should know about it.

Only he knew the reason for Fu Yi's divorce. After he got the news, he really wanted to call Fu Yi, but he didn't know what to say, and he didn't dare to disturb him, let alone visit him. Hang up before calling.

While thinking and walking along the way, he came to the vicinity of the cake shop. Perhaps with some luck, he continued walking along the pedestrian street, but he did not expect to see Fu Yi.

Fu Yi was wearing a loose light brown sweater and a pair of black slacks. He stood upright at the door of the store, holding hands and talking with a man. After a while, he heard Fu Yi say with a smile: "Okay ,See you."

Caught off guard, Fu Yi turned around in the direction where he was, and met his eyes at a glance, making him unable to dodge in time, as if he was caught in a bag of embarrassment.Standing in the crowd, he blushed before he could speak to him.

Fu Yi stood in front of the store just like that, adjusted the frame of the mirror, smiled slightly, and looked at him without saying a word.

He threw the rest of the ice cream into the trash can, walked towards him with his head down, stopped in front of him, and whispered: "Captain Fu."

Fu Yi looked at him and remained silent for a while.

Yang Kaitai wore a simple white sweater and a pair of blue jeans today, his hair was messy and fluffy, his brows were covered slightly by a thin layer of bangs, his dark eyes were clear and bright, his body was covered with Youthful and fresh youthful spirit.

"I—passing by."

Before he asked about the purpose of his trip, Yang Kaitai pretended to be guilty, lowering his eyes and not daring to look at him.

Fu Yi still didn't say anything, just gave a low 'um', then turned and walked into the shop.

Yang Kaitai stayed on the spot, tilted his head to look into the store, and quickly retracted his head when he saw him suddenly turning his head.

"Aren't you coming in?"

Fu Yi looked at him amusedly.

There was a sign of suspension of business on the door of the store, and the employees had already been dismissed by him, so he was the only one in the store at this time.After Yang Kaitai came in, he closed the store door and walked towards the cooking counter.

"I'll help you."

Yang Kaitai saw him tidying up the ingredients and tools in the window pane of the cooking counter, so he hurried over to help.

Fu Yi pointed to the cardboard boxes on the table: "Put them all in there."

There are mostly tools and ingredients for framing cakes here. Yang Kaitai rolled up his sleeves and tidied up while looking around the empty surroundings. After hesitating for a moment, he still asked bravely, "Sister Shu Qing isn't coming back yet?"

Fu Yi was very calm, and said lightly: "Maybe, maybe I will come back in two years, maybe even longer, maybe never come back again."

Yang Kaitai carefully looked at his profile: "Then, will you wait for her?"

Fu Yi seemed to be amused by him, and looked at him helplessly: "We are divorced."

This seems to be an answer, but it doesn't seem to be, but Yang Kaitai didn't continue to ask, he let out an oh, and stopped talking.

After tidying up the things above, Fu Yi squatted down again to tidy up the things in the cupboard.

Yang Kaitai also squatted beside him, helping him take boxes of chocolates, jars of nuts and other mounting ingredients out of the cupboard.

"How are you? Are you emotionally adjusted?"

Fu Yi asked suddenly.

Yang Kaitai took out a chocolate box from Kaifeng and stuffed it into his mouth, muttering, "It's all right, I'll go back to work tomorrow." He held a piece of chocolate and handed it to Fu Yi: "Do you want to eat it?"

Fu Yi never liked to eat sweets, but he paused for a moment, opened his mouth and bit the chocolate he handed to his mouth.

He just got rid of his bad mood, and now he doesn't want to talk more, so he shifted the topic to another place: "Are all the things in the store going to be moved?"

Fu Yidao: "It's enough to take these ingredients away, and the other things are all out."

"Did you give it to the couple just now?"

"Ah."

Fu Yi seemed to be in a low mood and didn't speak much. Yang Kaitai glanced at him secretly and saw that he was packing up the bottles and cans very seriously, so he didn't say anything, just calmed down and concentrated on his work.

Assessing that there are still considerable ingredients to be transported, Yang Kaitai took out jars such as nuts and chocolates and put them in the box. After taking the last few cans of preserved fruit, he saw several jars of more than ten centimeters high that he had never seen before in the depths of the cabinet. Air pressure tank.

"What is this?"

He took out a can and asked, his hands already on the top of the can.

Soon, he knew what was inside, it was whipped cream, and when he pressed the cream jar, there was a white spot on the ground, spraying all over the floor.

He wanted to throw away the jar that had caused trouble, but unexpectedly, the jar suddenly fell out of his hand and fell into the cream.

"sorry Sorry."

Seeing that the clean floor was messed up by himself, Yang Kaitai quickly apologized, and then wanted to pick up the jar that fell in the cream.But his hand was too slippery, and the jar slipped too. The pad of his left index finger scratched somewhere, and he hissed in pain. He took it out and saw a blood hole hidden in a layer of milky white cream.

He was just about to find a piece of paper to wipe his hands clean, when Fu Yi suddenly pulled his hand over, and then gently wrapped his fingertips in his mouth——

Yang Kaitai froze for a moment, stared at him blankly, and clearly felt his tongue pressing on his fingertips, and there was a subtle itchy and numb pain in the wet wound.

Fu Yi was only worried about the infection of his wound and helped him stop the bleeding, so he quickly took out his hand, looked at a small wound on his fingertips, and said, "It's not serious, go to the bathroom and take a shower."

Yang Kaitai looked at his face with an almost stupid expression, he couldn't hear what he was saying, he only noticed that the lower lip where he had sucked his fingertips just now was stained with a little white cream——

He knelt on the ground with his knees on the ground, and he didn't even know how he leaned towards him. When he regained consciousness, he had already gently pressed his lips against the corners of his lips.

Fu Yi was also surprised, he only saw Yang Kaitai suddenly leaning towards him from the corner of his eyes, and then the corner of his right lip touched the soft touch with the fragrance of chocolate.

The contact time was very short, before he could react, Yang Kaitai had already withdrawn.

Yang Kaitai, who realized what he had done, was extremely flustered, blood all over his body soared to the top of his head, and his face and neck were red in a short while, he was at a loss and panicked and continued to salvage the air pressure tank in the cream.I just felt that I had done an extremely stupid thing on impulse. If there was a crack in the ground, he would tear it open and get in!

The jar was too slippery, he couldn't pick it up no matter how he picked it up, and it was all over his hands. He blushed and hurriedly tried to stand up from the ground: "I, I, I, I, I'll go and wash it."

He had just moved when someone grabbed his waist and was forced to turn to the left, and then a figure pressed down on him.

Fu Yi held his waist with one hand, so that he couldn't back away. With the other hand, he shuttled through the cream all over the floor, and successfully found his hand on the ground, and his fingers, which were stained with cream, moved all the way to the The back of his hand, and then wrapped his hand under his own.

Yang Kaitai opened his eyes wide, looking dazedly at Fu Yi's dark and soft eyes that were close in front of him.

"I want to kiss you, can I?"

Fu Yi lowered his head, touched the tip of his nose, and asked in a low voice as if whispering to him.

The heat on Yang Kaitai's face remained high, he felt dizzy as if he had a high fever, and felt like he was dreaming...

Suddenly, he swallowed forcefully, raised his left hand to grab Fu Yi's shoulder, moved forward a step closer to his lips, and gasped, "Please, do this."

When Fu Yi kissed him, he finally got his wish and tasted the drop of cream on his lower lip, the tip of his tongue swept it lightly, it was as sweet as he expected.Later, as the kiss deepened, he tasted the chocolate flavor buried deep in his lips and tongue.

Slowly, he couldn't tell whether Fu Yi's kiss was creamy or chocolate--