Best Actor in A Dream of Love [Entertainment]

The wind blowing from a distance is mixed with the damp and fishy smell of the river.Chu Xun bent over the edge of the guardrail, retching.When he returned to the urban area yesterday, he didn't eat much.The stomach was empty, and now it seems to be stuffed with sand, and it hurts heavily.He couldn't vomit food, and his stomach acid went back into his esophagus, making his throat hot and tingling.

Chu Xun was familiar with this mild pain mixed with a faint corrosive feeling.In the first year in Nancheng, he often couldn't eat normally.The food he ate, the drink he drank, and even a glass of plain water seemed to be highly poisonous, and his stomach strongly resisted it.He sometimes vomited five or six times a day, and his throat and esophagus were repeatedly burned by stomach acid, which weakened the mucous membranes.At that time, he was almost afraid of food. Whenever he saw or just smelled the aroma of street food, his stomach would start to convulse reflexively.The stomach acid surged up, filling his body cavity with sour pain.

Chu Xun hated himself like that.His eyes are dull and his bones are thin.The skin was dry and dull, and seemed to emit a nasty smell.Coupled with the hideous scar on the left side of his face, he looked like a strange monster.Occasionally, seeing herself in the reflection of the glass window, Chu Xun froze in panic.

He knew very well that if he continued to fall into that state, the rest of his life would be ruined.

Chu Xun began to force himself to bask in the sun.I don’t want to go out to meet people, so I sit on the balcony of the rental house exposed to the sun every day; I don’t want to be in contact with people, so I talk to myself;

He also watches many, many movies.Immersed in other people's sad or happy stories, if you are lucky enough, you can temporarily forget yourself for an hour or two.Perhaps since then, for him, movies are no longer just a simple dream, but also a salvation that allows him to escape from pain for a short time.

That year, Chu Xun struggled desperately in the quagmire of remorse and despair.When I am too tired, I think of my parents who died young.Thinking that they tried their best to protect themselves at the moment of danger, they must not want to see him give up easily.If he let go, he would really sink into the mud, even if he died in the future, he would have no face to see his parents.

Chu Xun gritted his teeth and endured day by day.Slowly, he learned how to smile and how to greet people.He found a job and was able to eke out a living.When strangers point out the scars on your face, you will no longer panic and fear.Later, he met Wang Meng again.He has his own circle of friends, and he will gather with friends and listen to their troubles when he is busy with his livelihood.And he himself will occasionally tell his friends about some irrelevant troubles.

Six years later, he finally returned to the normal life track.

Of course he knew that Chu Xun today was far inferior to Chu Rong six years ago.Chu Rong is bright and proud, and as many people love him as hate him.His every move is the focus of thousands of eyes.But so what?Chu Rong's personality can't survive the days in Nancheng.Chu Xun is ordinary, insignificant, and perhaps has some weakness deep in his bones.But he can forgive himself, and he can forgive others.More importantly, he can bear regret, accept failure, and allow himself to live without being perfect.

In the distance came the whistle of a cruise ship.Maybe someone was having a party on the cruise ship, and the faint laughter was blown to the shore by the river wind.

Chu Xun's shoulders trembled slightly, and he tightly covered his ears with both hands.

Fu Jingchen said that he would not get angry and angry now, and live without blood and flesh.In fact, who can't even get angry?He also used to be angry and even resentful, and every time he thought about the past, his heart seemed to be on fire.But after going around and hating for a long time, the person he hated the most was still the one who taught him to miss him the most.

Chu Xun's parents died at the age of 12.Fu Jingchen was like a ray of light, shining into his life that suddenly turned into night.He walked out of the long night leaning against that light and worshiped it like a god ever since. At the age of 14, his grandmother who loved him the most died.Uncle was dissatisfied with having him as an extra burden in the family, so he didn't have good looks with him all day long.Chu Xun didn't care, he thought his uncle was nothing, and when Brother Xiaochen was found, he would be hurt again. At the age of 16, he just entered the second year of high school, and got into a catastrophe and was dismissed by the school.My aunt asked people to find a new school for him.Chu Xun, however, was like a bird breaking free from a cage, and couldn't wait to fly to City C.While he was working, he was looking for people everywhere like a headless chicken.But City C is so big, the vast sea of ​​people can't see the edge.He had no choice but to hope like a dream, that one day he could directly meet Fu Jingchen on the street. At the age of 17, she was discovered by scouts and worked as a graphic model, and later filmed the first MV for others.Almost overnight, his face became popular on the Internet.Many film and television productions approached him to sign contracts.Chu Xun picked and picked, and chose the one with the most pleasing name.After signing the contract, he suddenly realized that Brother Xiaochen was actually his big boss.

Even though so many years have passed, Chu Xun still clearly remembers how he felt when he saw Fu Jingchen again that day.He wept with joy, and ran into Fu Jingchen's arms regardless, tears and snot rubbing against his straight suit.

Fu Jingchen stroked his hair lightly, and laughed at him, "I've grown up so much, why do I love to cry more than when I was a child."

"Brother Xiaochen," Chu Xun raised his eyes, sobbing and belching, "Grandma... Grandma is gone too."

The man hugging him had a slight redness at the end of his eyes.Fu Jingchen kissed his forehead, just like in the past, patted his back and said: "It's okay. There will be Brother Xiaochen in the future."

Fu Jingchen dotes on him regardless of effort or consequences.Chu Xun was already arrogant, but being protected by Fu Jingchen in the palm of his hand, he became even more lawless.Back then, Fu Jingchen had many lovers around him, and he was still unwilling to accept Chu Xun's pursuit and settle down.For this reason, he also tricked Chu Xun, promising that as long as he could be admitted to the Central Academy of Film and Television, he would consider agreeing to be his boyfriend.At that time, Chu Xun hadn't had time to show his talent in acting, and he was exaggerated and artificial in front of the camera, and only knew how to show his figure and appearance with concave shapes.But since Fu Jingchen spoke, he plunged into the training class without thinking about it, and concentrated on preparing for the exam day and night.A year later, Chu Xun was admitted by Central Film and Television with the double first rank in professional courses and cultural courses.The company was taken aback.Chu Xun excitedly went to Fu Jingchen to fulfill his promise, but Fu Jingchen changed his mouth and denied it.Chu Xun was so angry that he vented his anger on a little star who was most pleasing to Fu Jingchen at that time.Fu Jingchen was really irritated by him that time, and refused to see him for more than ten days.But later, he was used by the little star to splash dirty water, and Fu Jingchen could deal with him immediately, and even apologized to Chu Xun himself.

Even when meeting Xue Rui later, Chu Xun also thought that Xue Rui was no different from the little stars before...

The cruise ship drove away, and the laughter gradually dissipated.Chu Xun's face was buried in his arms, and he muffled the choking sound in his mouth. .

How else could he hate?Fu Jingchen did not owe him anything.He just met someone who really moved his heart, and he didn't want to be his brother Chen anymore.And Xue Rui...he is the person Fu Jingchen cherishes, so in what capacity can Chu Xun resent him?

After thinking about it, it seems that it is still his fault... During these years, Chu Xun used this reason to convince himself.Only in this way can I get a little peace in my heart, and I won't feel so painful every time I think about the past.

It's about love, and it's more liberating to be wrong than to be wronged by others.

It's a pity that even if he has long since resigned to his fate, there will always be someone who wants to shatter this weak balance.

Chu Xun straightened his body and gripped the railing tightly with his palms.

He can accept losing to Xue Rui in love.But when it comes to movies... The corners of Chu Xun's lips are cold and sharp.The flames flickering in the eyes ignited into a prairie fire.When it comes to movies, he doesn't want and will never lose to anyone.

"Fu Jingchen, do you really want me to hate you that much..." Chu Xun stared at the water waves farther away, tears slowly slid down the corner of his eyes, "Then I will let you get your wish."