[Entertainment] The name of faith

Because of the needs of the plot, and because the weather is not completely winter, they stepped up and started to catch up with outdoor scenes.

Lu Chen was disheartened every day, he endured the dry wind in December, he endured the cold that almost penetrated into his heart.

The wound on his arm is slowly scabbing, Lu Chen always feels itchy, but he can only control himself not to scratch it.The dense itching felt like ants had climbed up his arm and touched his skin, making his scalp numb, making him almost want to scrape off this layer of skin to find peace.

But I don't have time to think about too many things, because I have been filming all the time, and I am immersed in the emotions of the play little by little every day, entering the plot, and constantly deepening my own experience.

Abandoned, chased and beaten, enduring malice from this world, enduring doubts and persecution from all, but still struggling, wanting to live.

As he immerses himself in the role a little bit, it also makes him feel that he is a little bit alienated from himself, from that "Lu Chen".This is a very strange and strange situation.

Lu Chen felt that he was in an unknown dazed state, and he was often in a daze during the rest time. Although he usually also likes to be in a daze, this is another feeling that he has never experienced before. Consciousness, my mind feels blank, empty, but it feels full of things. Countless grotesque pictures flash through my mind, but in a blink of an eye, there is nothing left.Although I know it would be strange and contradictory to say this, it is indeed Lu Chen's real feeling at this time.

He often wakes up in the middle of the night, and starts to suffer from insomnia all night long. Filming during the day is tiring, and he often has to catch up on night scenes. Lu Chen almost contracted half of the night scenes of the entire crew, so the sleep time is greatly shortened. So every time he goes back to the hotel to sleep, it is worth cherishing for him.

Originally wanted to be in a good state to face the next day's shooting, but the sudden insomnia disrupted all his plans.No, no, it didn't come out of the blue, but it was forewarned.

Lu Chen has always known that he has been suffering from insomnia recently, but he still wants to try to avoid this problem, go to Min Yunqi, Tian Zhengguo, and ask them to accompany him, but he didn't tell Min Yunqi the reason, just like acting like a baby She told Min Yunqi like a fool that she was afraid of sleeping alone. '

But after reconciling with Tian Zhengguo later, he knew that he couldn't hide it from Tian Zhengguo, after all, he shared a room with him, so he couldn't hide it either.But Lu Chen only told Tian Zhengguo that he often suffers from insomnia recently, so he came here, that's all.Other than that, Lu Chen didn't say anything.

Moreover, he was avoiding Park Jimin intentionally or unintentionally, because Park Jimin was really too sensitive, even though Lu Chen didn't say anything, but he was the first person who discovered that Lu Chen's state was not right, and he was slowly groping Test Lu Chen's current state.Lu Chen was very scared, but wanted to rely on him subconsciously. This kind of contradiction evolved into the current situation. He was trying to hide from Park Jimin, but he couldn't help but want to talk to him.

After waking up in the middle of the night, Lu Chen couldn't sleep anymore. He even thought about whether to get some sleeping pills, but his choice now was to stare at the night outside in a daze while facing the French window of the hotel.

Lu Chen watched the lights of the city go out one by one, like will-o'-the-wisps leading to the other side, and as they got closer to the other side, they disappeared one by one.In the end, the whole city turned dark and fell into a gloomy silence. It felt like he was the only one left in the darkness.

Lu Chen didn't know what time it was. He felt that his mind was in a mess, and it was about to explode. The chaotic thoughts filled his brain. He touched himself, but he didn't have a mobile phone.

Looking around the room, he remembered that he had put his mobile phone on the bedside table. He wanted to get it, but just got up from the ground, and before he even stood up straight, he stopped his movement abruptly. He didn't care about it. The coldness on the ground made him lie directly on it again, his cheeks touched the floor, the cold touch brought back some of Lu Chen's sanity, and made him sober for a moment, but then he fell into a deeper panic. Wrong, panic.

Not now.

No, let them worry.

It's okay, just be patient.

It's okay, it will pass.

He could only tell himself this way, to constantly appease the restlessness and anxiety in his heart.

The arm started to hurt again, Lu Chen was very surprised, it was obvious that the scabs had scabbed over, and it was almost healed, it wasn't even a serious injury, it was just a small injury, this kind of injury usually healed quickly, It was no big deal all the time.But this injury, as if to torture him, squeezed his nerves, vowing to let him remember this pain, deeply engraved into his body.

At this time, for some reason, he recalled the night when his father died, everyone dispersed, leaving him alone in the empty home, it is more appropriate to say that it is a house rather than a home, Without the human touch, without the existence of familiar and close people, no matter what, it is not a home.

At that time, he already knew more deeply what "death" meant.

That is, his father would never appear in front of him again, touch his head, talk to him with a smile, cook for him, take him out to the supermarket, buy things, and praise him proudly.

I also know that from now on, I am the only one left, and I am the only one left in this world, so I have to learn to live alone.

He sat on the sofa in the living room in that dark, empty house all night, his tear ducts seemed to be plugged, preventing him from shedding a single tear.However, the eyes are extremely dry and painful.

Perhaps since then, the lack of a sense of security has been deeply imprinted in his body and soul, but it has not been discovered and has been deliberately ignored.

Slowly holding my arm, it's really cold...

Lu Chen thought that his state might affect the filming, so he was always anxious, adjusted himself hard, and kept flipping through the script, even though he was familiar with it by heart, he still read it over and over again, he was really scared, scared Looking at the eyes of the people around him, he was afraid of everything.

However, what is strange is that the scene that Lu Chen expected to affect the shooting did not appear. It is not so much that he did not appear, but rather that he acted better and more vividly.

Lu Chen didn't realize how well he acted. Everything depended on the reaction of the crew on the shooting scene and Chen Liming's reaction.Chen Liming gave himself a thumbs up, with undisguised excitement in his tone, he kept praising himself, and he kept telling him that this was the Wu Cheng he had imagined.Wu Cheng is the name of the character he plays this time.

An unexpected existence, just like his name, Wu Cheng, accomplishes nothing.

Self-abandonment, self-exile.

Lu Chen felt that he probably did a good job. Even during lunch time, someone would come to talk to him and tell Lu Chen that his acting was really good. It gave people the feeling that he was just like Wu Cheng himself. The character creation is well done.

Sometimes even while acting, he can be in a sober state, he knows what he is doing, what he wants to do, and what he should do to be the best.

This is a very mysterious state and situation. He feels that only when he is acting can he belong to himself and he can find himself.

The entire crew didn't even notice Lu Chen's abnormality.Because Lu Chen's state is so good, he immediately entered the state as soon as the filming started, and the emotional transformation was almost completed in an instant, as if he had been waiting for a long time, waiting for this moment to enter the scene, to enter this role, All preparations are just for this moment.

Even if he doesn't like to talk during the break, they only think that he is shy, uncomfortable in the face of the new environment, and uncomfortable in the face of strangers.

The reason why they didn't think about the worst was probably because Lu Chen's "bribery" worked a few days ago, leaving a very good impression on them, and they were always helping Lu Chen find reasons unconsciously.

Lu Chen was carrying the boxed lunch given by the crew. He didn't ask the assistant to ask the crew to buy some more delicious and better-looking meals for himself, which was the same as all the staff on the scene, and it was unintentional. , pulling a lot of favorability.

Lu Chen ate in sips, his appetite was a bit poor recently, he was almost forcing himself to eat, he knew he couldn't do without eating, it was fine if he didn't have time to sleep, if he didn't eat, then he really couldn't hold on.

Just as he was chewing on the food in his mouth, the mobile phone that was put aside rang at this moment.

Seeing the words displayed on the screen, Lu Chen was taken aback.

"Brother Yunqi."

Why are you calling yourself all of a sudden?Ah... Maybe it's because he really hasn't been in touch with them for a long time, and he's so immersed in the scene that he doesn't care about other things at all.

Perhaps, it was also because I kept telling myself before, no, no, no to call them.

The phone was still ringing, and it didn't mean to stop.

Lu Chen stared blankly at the flickering screen, and then reacted as if waking up from a dream, stretched out his hand, his fingers stayed on the screen, moved slowly, and finally pressed——

Deny button.

This was the first time he hung up on Min Yunqi's phone.