my girlfriend is dead

"Miss, good morning."

"Good morning, where are my parents?" Xiao Ying asked

"Master and Madam have gone out," said the woman.

"Oh! I see, Aunt Liu, please help me take a leave of absence from school today, I have something to do," Xiao Ying rushed out without giving the other party a chance to respond.

Seeing the closed door in front of her, Xiao Ying pursed her lips and kicked hard a few times, "Qian Mingyu, come out for me, I know you are inside."

"What do you want to do?" The sudden cold voice made Xiao Ying jump up in fright, looking at the person who suddenly appeared beside her, Xiao Ying swallowed, and looked at her strangely, "Qian Mingyu... "She called out the name with some uncertainty.

Pursing her lips, Qian Mingyu ignored her, opened the door and walked in.

Xiao Ying was stunned for a moment before following.

"It was you I saw yesterday!" After a long silence, Xiao Ying shifted her gaze from the coffee cup in her hand to the person standing by the window.

"Yes," an affirmative answer confirmed someone's suspicions.

Xiao Ying stared at Qian Mingyu's turned eyes, trying to see something from them, but she had to turn her eyes elsewhere because of the glare of the sun outside the window.

"That's why you left Xiaoxue," Xiao Ying said affirmatively, staring at the cup.

"Yes! After all, I am a special existence compared to you," Qian Mingyu narrowed her eyes slightly as she looked at the dazzling sunlight outside the window. Although there was no expression on her face, it was slightly The squinted ice blue eyes were full of sadness and sarcasm.

"You to Xiaoxue..." Xiao Ying paused, but didn't know how to say the next thing.

"Ha!" Laughing self-deprecatingly, Qian Mingyu said softly. "I love her, only this heart has not changed."

"I'm sorry," Xiao Ying clenched her clasped hands.

"I know what you want to say," Qian Mingyu came over and sat opposite Xiao Ying, "I am Ming, the legendary messenger of hell, to you, I should be a cold, heartless person without a trace of humanity." Death!"

"Cruelly taking away fresh lives, like a demon. Speaking of which, the fact is like this, but I still have human feelings."

"I thought I had abandoned human emotions a long time ago, but after I met her, I realized that my heart was not dead, it was she who pulled me up from the darkness, and let me see that I once longed for long light."

"It was she who made my wandering soul belong, it was she who taught me to look at the world again, it was she who reinjected my soul into my puppet-like body, it was she who made me live like a human being again. "

"Because of her, I re-accepted this world. Because of her, I no longer resented, no longer confused, and re-accepted human beings. She is a light in the dark, allowing me to see hope. However, she is the person I long to touch. The sunshine, but it is also the warmth that I am afraid to avoid."

The girl's voice was calm and without a trace of emotion, as if she was talking about something that had nothing to do with her, if it wasn't for the bloodless hands clenched tightly on the teacup, or because of what she saw when the other party lowered her head. With those eyes full of sadness and pain, Xiao Ying would also think so.

"Qian Mingyu..." After calling out this name, Xiao Ying realized that she couldn't say anything or do anything.

"You've got the answer you want, you can leave," Qian Mingyu calmly ordered to evict the guest after taking a sip from the teacup.

Seeing someone with a calm expression, the corners of Xiao Ying's mouth twitched a little. When she was still struggling with how to comfort him, he had already calmed down and asked her to leave.

"Your eyes" Looking at those icy blue eyes, Xiao Ying froze for a moment, and popped out a sentence inexplicably.

"Eyes" Qian Mingyu was stunned for a moment, and then said a little self-deprecatingly. "That's how I work, in order not to be affected by unnecessary emotions."

"What are you going to do about Xiaoxue?" Xiao Ying frowned and stopped looking at her.

Qian Mingyu's hand holding the cup froze, and soon returned to normal, "This is good, she will forget about me and find new happiness," the girl said in a cold tone, with a little sadness and loss, There is also firmness that cannot be ignored.

"She loves you very much. You know better than anyone else how much Xiaoxue loves you. It's not easy to let her forget you," Xiao Ying sighed helplessly.

"Time will dilute everything, including this relationship," Qian Mingyu bit her lips, "I was too stupid to fall when she approached me. At that time, there was only one thought in my mind , I want to protect her, I want to stay by her side, I want to give her happiness, but now think about it, what qualifications do I have to stay by her side! I... can't give her a normal love. "

"At that time, I ignored many problems, no..." Qian Mingyu shook his head, "Maybe it's not that I ignored these problems, but that I didn't want to face them, and I didn't dare to face them."

"After talking with my uncle and aunt that day, I realized that some things can't be solved by deliberately avoiding them," Qian Mingyu's eyes darkened when he said this.

"I have an endless life, I will not grow old, I will not grow up, in your eyes, I will always remain like this, I... can't give her real happiness, let alone accompany her through this life, I don't even know when my own life will end."

"I can't grow old with her at all. How can a monster like me stay by her side, how can... delay her life, I can't promise her to grow old together!" In the sky, the girl's face was filled with silence, and her ice-blue eyes did not show the slightest expression.

"Qian Mingyu..."

Xiao Ying bit her lips, and there was an emotion called distress in her black eyes, "Xiaoxue...she won't mind, she loves you so much, you...know it."

"She doesn't mind my appearance, but I can't. After all, I'm just a dead person." Closing her eyes, the girl's cold voice was no longer calm, but trembling .

Slap, the cup in his hand fell to the ground and fell to pieces, while the owner of the cup just stared blankly at the girl who was leaning on the sofa and closed her eyes. The strange atmosphere spread from the two of them to the entire hall.

"You..." I don't know how long it took before Xiao Ying withdrew her dead hands. After a long time, you still couldn't form a complete sentence.

"You should go," Qian Mingyu got up and walked to the window, hiding all his emotions, and issued the order to evict the guest for the second time.

"Farewell," she stood up, and took a last look at the other party. Xiao Ying didn't know how she stepped out of the door. Looking at the house behind her, she saw the girl's eyes full of sadness, and the girl who laughed at herself when she curled the corners of her mouth. The other party's trembling and desperate words, "I'm a dead man", still echoed in my ears.

Xiao Ying gritted her teeth, she didn't know how to face this matter, and what kind of mood she should use to face her friend.

"Snow……"

The corner of her mouth forced a sad smile, Qian Mingyu curled up and hid under the window sill, letting the bright sunlight pass through the window and cast a dazzling light on the floor, laughing at her numbness intermittently. .

Looking back at the place where she came out again, she touched the schoolbag on her back, thinking of the words she heard before stepping out of the gate, Xiao Ying clenched her lips.

"Instead of worrying about my affairs, it is better to think about your own affairs!"

Is it your own business?That's right... that's right!It's also time, there should be a break.