my girlfriend is dead

"Xiaoying, thank you for accompanying me. I'm fine and it's getting late. I'll ask Uncle Li to take you back," Li Yingxue said.Maybe it was because she had been crying for too long, her voice sounded a little hoarse.

"Xiaoxue, we are good friends who grew up together. I know you, and you naturally know me too."

"So, you should also be very clear that I won't just go back like this," Xiao Ying sat cross-legged on the bed, staring at Li Yingxue with her eyes fixed on Li Yingxue, as if she would never give up until she asked.

"I, I have someone I like, and I didn't know my feelings for her until today," Li Yingxue said after hesitating.

Xiao Ying's expression changed, and a look of astonishment flashed across her face. She didn't know what happened today, which would make Li Yingxue understand that her feelings for Qian Mingyu were not friendship, but love.

However, that person has already left. Such a result is really too cruel for Li Yingxue who has only now figured out what she wants.

"However, I know that such feelings are wrong. I never thought that I have such feelings for her."

"I always thought that I wanted to be close to her, to know her, to stay by her side, just because I wanted to be friends with her, but...I actually...to her... "."

"Xiaoxue," Xiao Ying patted her on the shoulder, but didn't know what to say.

"Xiaoying, why are you not surprised at all?" Li Yingxue looked up at her friend, "Why, you are so calm."

"I...", Xiao Ying looked at her with some hesitation.

"So that's the case. Have you noticed that I have this kind of feeling for her?"

"So, it's only natural that she would leave. She would want to avoid me. She must have sensed my thoughts."

"That's why I resisted my approach so much. In the end, only I was the last to know."

Seeing her friend's reaction, Li Yingxue already knew the answer. It turned out that she had already made it so obvious.

"Xiaoxue, I didn't know that you had such feelings for that guy before. I didn't doubt it until I saw what happened that time."

"I've been hesitating how to tell you about this. I originally wanted to wait for you to discover it slowly."

"Because I don't think that guy doesn't care about you. Although I don't know why she always avoids you, maybe as you said, she has noticed your thoughts."

"After all, not everyone can accept such feelings, so I didn't tell you what I found."

"But now, since you have noticed it yourself, I will naturally not say anything to make you give up."

"Perhaps in the eyes of many people, such a relationship is abnormal, but in my opinion, there is nothing wrong with love itself. No matter who you love, everyone has the right to pursue love."

"Because I know you well, I won't persuade you to give up. From a selfish point of view, after that guy leaves, I don't want you to be aware of your own thoughts."

"Because I always think, as long as you don't know what kind of thoughts you have for her, then you will always regard her as a friend, and then slowly forget her."

"But I know that this is impossible, because I know very well that that guy has already lived in your heart, whether you will notice your feelings or not, it is impossible for you to forget her existence."

"So, Xiaoxue, I won't try to persuade you to avoid your feelings, I just ask you, do you want to see her?" Looking into Li Yingxue's eyes, Xiao Ying said seriously.

"I...I miss her very much, I want to see her even in my dreams," Li Yingxue said softly.

"Xiaoxue, if you could see her again, would you confess to her?" Looking at Li Yingxue, Xiao Ying asked again.

"I..." Li Yingxue clasped the clothes on her chest with both hands, and exerted more force, as if she wanted to tear the clothes and touch her heart.

"Xiaoxue," Xiao Ying looked at her worriedly.

"I, I want to see her, I want to convey my heart to her, I want to tell her that I love her and I want to be by her side."

"I don't want to see her alone again, as if the whole world is rejecting her existence. Every time I think of that picture, my heart hurts and I feel so uncomfortable."

"In the face of such feelings, I thought I would be afraid, but after I said it, I realized that my liking for her made me no longer afraid."

"Even if I will be disgusted by her in the end, I still want to tell her that she is not alone in this world, but Xiaoying, can I still see her? I still have the opportunity to express this feeling "?

"Yes, you will definitely see her," Xiao Ying whispered in her ear as she stretched out her arms to embrace Li Yingxue.

Yes, you will definitely see her. If you look forward to it like this, God will treat you kindly.

"Xiaoxue, wait for me here, I'm going to buy some ice cream," Xiao Ying pointed to the ice cream shop opposite.

"Well, you go, I'll wait for you," Li Yingxue nodded, her interest was obviously not high, and she also seemed to have no energy.

After the conversation last night, she didn't want to force herself to maintain a smiling face anymore. As Xiao Ying said, they were friends who grew up together, and they knew each other better than they knew themselves.

Therefore, she knew very well that her disguise was meaningless in front of Xiao Ying.

But she still forced herself to put on a smiling face before, and she would do it not so much to deceive others, but to deceive herself.

Seeing that she is still the usual self in the eyes of others, she can tell herself that she is not in pain, and she is not sad at all.

Because, she is still the usual one, isn't she?Then, it's as if she really is still the same person she used to be.

Seeing Li Yingxue's wandering mind, Xiao Ying sighed helplessly. After Li Yingxue vented yesterday, Xiao Ying didn't want her to be bored in the room, so she brought her out, but...

Hey, shaking her head, Xiao Ying walked towards the opposite side.

"Miss Li Yingxue," Fu Lu called out in surprise, looking at the girl sitting on the bench with blank eyes and wondering what she was thinking.

He was very impressed with this girl, so it was hard for him to imagine that that bright smile like the morning sun would one day cast a shadow.

"Huh?" Hearing someone calling her name, Li Yingxue looked up at the person coming, blinked her eyes in a daze, then seemed to remember something, and stood up abruptly, but it might be because she was too surprised to let her She even forgot how to respond.

"Miss Li Yingxue," the old man called out again when he saw the girl's stupid look.

"Grandpa Fu, why are you here?" Xiao Ying, who was on the opposite side, saw this scene, and ran over quickly without even being able to pick up the ice cream handed over by the clerk.

When she recognized Fu Lu, she was also quite surprised, but then she realized that if this person was here, it meant that Qian Mingyu was also here, and that bastard really hid.

"It's Miss Xiao Ying, are you out to play?" Fu Lu asked with a smile. Xiao Ying had accompanied Li Yingxue several times before, so she naturally knew this cheerful girl.

"Yeah, after the exam, I wanted to come out and relax," Xiao Ying said with a smile, suppressing her urge to curse. "Grandpa Fu is out shopping."

"I think the weather is good today, so I decided to come out for a while. Besides, the lady's milk is almost finished, so I'll buy some for her," Fu Lu said with a smile.

"Grandpa Fu came out specially to buy milk for her," Xiao Ying rolled her eyes, not knowing what she was thinking.

"Miss's sleep has been bad, and I don't feel relieved to ask other people to buy it," Fu Lu said with a look of worry on his face.

"I don't know how student Qian Mingyu is doing recently. We have been busy with exams recently, and we don't have time to visit her. If it's convenient today, we would like to visit her too," Xiao Ying said, looking at the old man.

"Xiaoying," upon hearing that person's name, Li Yingxue seemed to have regained her ability to think, and looked at Xiao Ying in surprise.

Xiao Ying blinked at her, but didn't speak. Judging from the old man's reaction, he probably didn't know about Qian Mingyu's dropout.

"Miss has been staying at home and hasn't been to school during this time. Although I am worried, there are some things that I can't ask about alone."

"It would be great if you could go see her," Fu Lu said, looking a little helpless.

He still doesn't know the reason for Qian Mingyu's move. In addition, since the move, Qian Mingyu has stayed at home and never stepped out of the house.

Although he was worried, there was nothing he could do. Meeting Li Yingxue and Li Yingxue here today made him plan to let the other party go and see Qian Mingyu.

Because in her opinion, Li Yingxue seemed a little special to Qian Mingyu, so even if Xiao Ying didn't mention it, he would still make a request to them.

"Then we won't bother you," Xiao Ying said as she helped him share some things. Li Yingxue didn't speak, but silently picked up the things that were put aside.

"It's really troublesome for you," Fu Lu did not refuse the actions of the two, because the car was nearby, and they couldn't walk a few steps.

That person is still there, and she hasn't left the country. So, is it really because of herself that she dropped out of school?

Would she feel disgusted because she realized that she had such feelings for her?Surely, otherwise, why would she leave? Sitting in the car, Li Yingxue held her hands, her body trembling slightly.

"Xiaoxue, do you remember what you said before? Don't you want to see her? Don't you have a lot to say to her?"

"Now the opportunity is in front of you. Isn't this moment what you've been waiting for for a long time!" Xiao Ying said softly, holding her hands.

"Well, I'll work hard." Hearing Xiao Ying's words, Li Yingxue calmed down a little.