Xiaochu

The wind blows the earth, and the fallen leaves are silent.The withering of winter was not buried because of the joy of Christmas. People shuttled back and forth on the streets decorated with lights, either leisurely or in a hurry, without any expectation and struggle of life.

Yu Xiao climbed down from the ladder, and the Christmas tree was finally decorated.During this period of time, apart from sitting in the Ning'an Group, she was basically preparing for Christmas.An Ran will come back from school in two days, as for Yan Ling, she is still the same, treating herself like no stranger.

It's been the sixth year. From the beginning of preferring death to submitting to her coercion and temptation, no matter what she does, she has never really admitted it.If it was the past, Yu Xiao would never have imagined that he would have such a miserable time.People who are stuck in a deadlock can never find a way out.

"An Ran?" She connected her phone, "It's only a holiday tomorrow?" Yu Xiao sighed slightly, "Okay, okay, let's celebrate tomorrow! I'll pick you up then" and hung up the phone , Yu Xiao stared blankly at the gifts he had piled up under the Christmas tree, and shook his head with a weak wry smile.In fact, no matter what I do, you won't even look at me!

Click, there was a sound of opening the door, and a slender figure came into Yu Xiao's eyes.Yan Ling seemed to be getting thinner and thinner. Although her appearance was not haggard, it was definitely not very good.

"I'm back." Yu Xiao smiled slightly, trying not to look so awkward.

The other party nodded wearily. Recently, calls from Canada have become more frequent, making Yan Ling a little anxious. "Why did you come back so early?" She asked pretending to be calm.

Yu Xiao raised her chin towards the decorated Christmas tree, "I'll come back to get this, but An Ran won't be back until tomorrow." She said with some regrets, the gift she finally found, she couldn't wait to give it to Yan Ling, As a result, he was dragged down by An Ran.

Yan Ling nodded after hearing this, "Then let's wait until tomorrow...the more people there, the more lively it will be." As soon as he finished speaking, Yu Xiao was stunned.It seems that they haven't talked in such a peaceful way for a long time. Every time, Yu Xiao speaks and Yan Ling listens. After a long time, they will become lifeless. Yan Ling still doesn't speak, and Yu Xiao vents all her anxiety on others , Sometimes she can't help but want to get close to Yan Ling, but once she crosses the line, it will trigger a more protracted cold war.

"Yes,,, yes." Yu Xiao looked at Yan Ling, and her originally cold eyes turned crystal clear at this moment, as if they would shatter if touched.

"What's wrong with you? Why are you looking at me like this?" Yan Ling looked at Yu Xiao with a gentle smile, her warm palm unexpectedly pressed against the other's cheek, "Is there something wrong with your body?"

"No,,, no." Yu Xiao gasped for breath, feeling a little dazed. "Xiao,,, Xiaoling,,," she looked at him blankly, "What's wrong with you today..." Why are you being so nice to me all of a sudden?She couldn't ask the last sentence.

Yan Ling slowly withdrew her hand, with a gentle smile still on her face. "What's the matter? Today is Christmas, you forgot?" She replied as she turned to take off her coat. "Why don't I cook today? It seems like I haven't cooked for you for a long time?" She answered naturally, without pretense, and went to the kitchen to put on her apron.

Yu Xiao looked at her moving back, but couldn't react for a while.It has been a long, long time since I have heard Yan Ling speak in such a tone and manner, and I have never tasted the food she made, which made her feel as if she had passed away for a while.

"What's wrong with you today?" She blurted out without thinking, but realized her gaffe in the blink of an eye. "No,,, I didn't mean that,,,"

"Is it true that I treat you so badly?" Yan Ling interrupted her without turning her head, and there was no trace of disturbance in her calm tone.

"No, no, you are very good to me,,, very good,,," uncontrollable sadness welled up in her heart for a moment, making her almost cry. "It's because I'm not good enough for you..." Yu Xiao looked away, and his words were filled with sadness, which was unbearable.

"Oh." Yan Ling laughed softly, "Then you should treat me better in the future." She answered softly while cutting vegetables.Even their words seemed so lonely in the empty room.

Yu Xiao couldn't bear this kind of atmosphere anymore, she walked up to Yan Ling's back and hugged him tightly, lowered her head, sniffed the scent of Yan Ling's hair, opened and closed her trembling lips, "Okay, I In the future,,, I will treat you well..." Her body was trembling slightly, but she stretched out her hand to hold Yan Ling's hand, "I swear,,,"

"You hug me like this, how can I get food?" Yan Ling said angrily, "Hurry up and go away,,, you hurt me." The soft-spoken accusation made the people behind let go of their hands .

"Xiaoling,,," Yu Xiao wanted to say something else.

"Go out, what's the matter, we'll talk about it after dinner." Yan Ling turned around and looked at her gently, making Yu Xiao not know how to refuse, so he could only walk out.

The dinner was served soon, Yan Ling made an exception and brought out a bottle of red wine for herself and Yu Xiaoman, and said without raising her head, "Although there are only two of us, let's celebrate!"

Yu Xiao couldn't keep up with her rhythm at all, because Yan Ling had always guarded herself strictly against her, leaving no room for herself, why did she dare to drink in front of her at this moment?No, this is so wrong.

But just when Yu Xiao was unbelievable, the person in front of him drank one cup after another.

"You said, do we have a future?" Yan Ling looked at the wine glass with blurred eyes, as if he was drunk, but also sober.Without waiting for Yu Xiao's answer, she suddenly stood up and walked in front of Yu Xiao, leaned casually on the corner of the table, lowered her eyebrows, and looked at the bewildered person in front of her with a smile.It turned out that she also had such eyes.

Yu Xiao turned her head unnaturally, "Of course there will be", she can probably guess how chilling Yan Ling's next words will make her feel, "You will be with me, forever." She bit the last three words hard. Words, the stubbornness in the eyes is self-evident.

"Hehe,,, a lifetime,,," Yan Ling slid on her lap, put her arms around Yu Xiao's neck, and moved her face towards Yu Xiao, as if she had heard some funny joke, "You think that forever, ,, Is it as easy as you said?" She tilted her head and looked at the person she had been entangled with for so many years with a playful expression, feeling a little dazed for a while.Willful, persistent, crazy, domineering, cruel, and even rich.If I hadn't been so stubborn, would she have been a good lover, and would they have been happy too?

"Xiaoling, I don't know how to convince you, but I never thought of giving up on you." Yu Xiao looked into her eyes and said calmly, "Even if I trade everything I have, I am willing,,, "

Yan Ling blocked Yu Xiao's unspoken words with her hands, and hugged her tightly, her eyes were sore at this moment.So many days and nights, such a long watch, who can not be tempted?

"Yu Xiao,,," she murmured.

"Yeah," Yu Xiao replied softly.

"I'm drunk, can you help me back to my room?" She didn't dare to raise her head, for fear that the tears in her eyes would burst out.

"Oh,,, good,,," Yu Xiao tightened her arms and pulled Yan Ling up, and she was surprised that Yan Ling had really lost weight, which was quite different from when she came overseas.Is it yourself, really pushing too hard?

Yu Xiao helped her to the bedroom and let her lie flat on the bed. "I'll go to the bathroom and get a towel to wipe your face..." Before Yu Xiao turned around, Yan Ling grabbed the corner of his clothes.

"Will you stay with me? I don't want to be alone..."

Hearing this, Yu Xiao sat down, "What's wrong with you today?"

"I want to hear about our past...you can do whatever you want..." Yan Ling's eyes were covered with mist, making Yu Xiao unable to look away.

"Okay,,, I remember the first time I saw you,,," Yu Xiao spoke slowly after hesitating for a moment, his quiet tone seemed to echo from another world.

",,, If you hadn't been able to stand in front of Yan Dong at that time,,, I might not even know that he still has a sister like you,,,"

"Xiao?" Yan Ling interrupted her.

"Ok?"

"Hold me, okay?" Yan Ling longed for her hug for the first time, "Can't you?" Her eyes looked a little pitiful.

"Ah? Okay,,, okay,,," Yu Xiao stretched out his hands and lowered his body.

"Can you hold me,,, until I fall asleep?" Yan Ling's eyes gradually cleared up, shaking Yu Xiao a little absent-minded.

"You today,,, are really drunk,,," Wei Wei's self-deprecating tone, anyone can hear the loss in her heart. "Don't be so defenseless, I'm someone Xiao has missed you for many years."

Hearing this, a frivolous smile appeared on the corner of Yan Ling's mouth, "Then I'm drunk,,,, you just got it right?"

"You think I don't want to?" Yu Xiao interrupted Yan Ling's words, and finally looked directly into the eyes of the girl on the bed. "I have been, have been waiting for this moment,,," she kicked off her slippers, turned on the bed,,, one night,,, sleepless,,,.

The morning light had not yet entered the winter bedroom, and there was no residual warmth from Yan Ling on the bed.No anger, no quarrel, Yu Xiao quietly watched Yan Ling leave.She knew that this girl who had been entangled with her for so many years would definitely not be able to accept this fact for a while, but it didn't matter, she had plenty of time to spend with her slowly.