sleep anchor

If only half a year ago, Ren Xuan could cry out excitedly when he heard this.But now he is very clear-headed, neither his head is blank, nor his heartbeat squeezed into his throat, and there is a bit of sincerity in Chen Sui's words, and he already has Cheng Yunfeng alone.

He wasn't sure if Chen Sui had seen the photos on the bookshelf, or he didn't take it seriously when he guessed casually at the door that day.The few times Chen Sui flirted with his face made Ren Xuan uncomfortable. Although Cheng Yunfeng was occasionally rude, he could always feel cherished from a certain kiss.And Chen Sui's kiss was urgent and vulgar, as if he was teasing a cheap lover.

"Chen Sui, I have a boyfriend, you met that day." Ren Xuan thought for a long time, and finally said it calmly. She came out to the bamboo horse she had known for more than ten years, but it was not because of confession.There was trust and apprehension in it, but Ren Xuan still raised his head firmly and met his doubtful eyes.

Chen Sui grinned, full of bohemian taste, even though drunk and confused, he still looked like the handsome boy Ren Xuan had been infatuated with. "Xuan'er, don't be fooled by me. Aren't you homosexuals very casual? Isn't this just a matter of your own will?"

Ren Xuan suddenly felt that Chen Sui's voice was very ear-piercing, like the sharp sound of countless fingernails scraping tore apart the blurred filter of his appearance, and the greed and disdain poured out, clamoring and mocking him for turning a blind eye for many years.

"At least I'm not casual. It doesn't matter to me what other people do." Ren Xuan pushed Chen Sui away and stood one step away from the sofa. He pointed to the door of the small bedroom: "Go back to sleep now, and I'll just treat you like you tonight." Drank too much."

Chen Sui finally stopped entanglement, got up wobbly, and walked slowly back to the bedroom, without even giving Ren Xuan an apology or a look, he slammed the door behind him gently.

Although neither of them mentioned what happened that night again, the inadvertent eye contact still aroused a bit of embarrassment. The [-]th long holiday has just begun, and they still have at least five more days to face each other day and night.

Ren Xuan handed Chen Sui a spare key, and lied that he would spend the rest of the vacation with his parents.Chen Sui was not particularly surprised, he took the key and put it away smoothly.Ren Xuan told him to pay attention to the gas, water and electricity, close the windows and lock the door, and went out with the luggage bag.

He stayed at his parents' house for one night, and couldn't resist going to "Xiaowenyi" the next afternoon.Cheng Yunfeng's restaurant was full of food, and Ren Xuan didn't want to go there empty-handed.He stopped and stopped all the way, and went in to take a look at the shops that sold things when he passed by. He actually wanted to send bouquets, but he felt that it was too ostentatious to carry them to the shop.In the end, Ren Xuan stopped at the door of a flower shop, and stopped for a long time before calling a car to go to the hot pot restaurant.

It was the tea break time in the afternoon, and the business of "Little Literature and Art" was not busy. Just as the waiter brought Ren Xuan to the table to order, Cheng Yunfeng walked into the lobby from the back kitchen.

In the empty business area, there was only one customer, Ren Xuan, holding a bag in his left hand and a small white flower pot in his right hand.As soon as Cheng Yunfeng showed his head, the eyes of the two met. Ren Xuan waved the flowerpot at him as if he was rescued, and greeted him with dancing mint leaves.

Cheng Yunfeng put Ren Xuan's luggage away, and the two of them sat on the small table for two by the window, with a pot of mint between them and smirked.

"I just wanted to buy flowers for you. I went to the flower shop and thought it's not strange to hold this." Ren Xuan blushed slightly, probably thinking that the gift was not decent, "I will buy you roses when it is convenient .”

"I like this." Cheng Yunfeng poked a mint leaf, and a fresh fragrance wafted out, "I like everything you gave me."

The two of them nestled in the corner shyly and politely, like a couple in high school. They obviously didn't touch each other, but the sticky atmosphere made others feel embarrassed to take a second look, as if they could break anything by just looking at it. , separating the two spaces for nothing.

"I'll go to your place and stay until I go to work." Ren Xuan lowered his head and took a sip of the barley tea that he covered his hands with. Cheng Yunfeng asked the waiter to brew a pot for him now. "If I have nothing to do during the day, I will accompany you to look at the store, and at night... go home and sleep at night."

"Sleep?" Cheng Yunfeng had long forgotten about that, but He Renxuan reminded him every now and then, so he couldn't help but hook him with the toe of his shoe under the table.

Ren Xuan kicked back forcefully: "Don't just think about that all day long."

"Which one am I thinking about? I'm still thinking about it!" Cheng Yunfeng explained a few words to the foreman, then stuffed Ren Xuan into the back seat, and dragged him home with his luggage.

Cheng Yunfeng's house is a newly built apartment building with four elevators and more than ten households on the first floor.

Ren Xuan spent the whole afternoon arranging luggage and helping Cheng Yunfeng tidy up his wardrobe for changing seasons, but he didn't follow Cheng Yunfeng's wish and behaved indiscriminately.After taking a shower at night, the two of them just wanted to nestle in bed, lie comfortably, and talk about unnutritious homework.

Every time he lay down with Ren Xuan, Cheng Yunfeng was particularly prone to sleepiness. He blamed it on the sequelae of listening to too much ASMR, and his eyelids became heavier and heavier while talking.

Ren Xuan turned off all the lights, leaving only a reading lamp by the bedside, and Cheng Yunfeng's random selection of poems on his phone.He obediently lay on the pillow with his eyes closed, his ears slightly propped up, not letting go of every syllable Ren Xuan uttered.

Just as I was reading the end of the third chapter, Ren Xuan's cell phone rang untimely, covering the pages of the poetry anthology, and frowning the sleeping person.

"Who is looking for you so late?" Cheng Yunfeng stood up and looked at his mobile phone screen.

Ren Xuan turned his body slightly and pulled the phone away for a useless distance. Because of Cheng Yunfeng's expression, he hesitated and didn't answer it. "It's Chen Sui, something may be wrong."

Cheng Yunfeng was angry. On the one hand, he had just been woken up, and on the other hand, he was targeting Chen Sui. He snatched the phone and didn't hang it up. He just buckled it and pressed it on the bed. "Don't answer, if you can't get through, you will hang up."

"Maybe it's urgent," Ren Xuan tried to get the phone back, but Cheng Yunfeng blocked it with an arm, "Maybe I forgot the key, and I can't go home."

"He didn't get the key so late, you go to give it to him? He saved a few months' rent, and he can't afford the 200 hotel bill for a night." Cheng Yunfeng pressed the phone firmly, refusing to back down.

"Xiaofeng..." Ren Xuan's ending sound was drawn out, like complaining, or being coquettish.But Chen Sui couldn't wait for Cheng Yunfeng to soften his heart, he didn't answer the call for a long time, so he hung up automatically.

Soon the bell rang again without hesitation. Ren Xuan was worried about missing the call, so he deliberately chose a sharp reminder tone, which made him especially anxious in the atmosphere of confrontation late at night.

"Xiaofeng, give me the phone quickly." The tone changed from being coquettish to commanding, which made Cheng Yunfeng even more unhappy.

Cheng Yunfeng was still occupying the phone, so Ren Xuan reached into the gap between his palms and pulled the phone out little by little.Cheng Yunfeng probably realized that this kind of contention was too naive, when Ren Xuan hurriedly picked up the phone, he didn't want to snatch it back.

"Hello, Ren Xuan? I'm Chen Sui's friend." An unfamiliar male voice and noisy background sound came from the receiver. He tried to recognize the environment and responded nervously.

"Chen Sui drank too much. He said he is living with you now. Come and pick him up. The address will be sent to you later."

The phone was hung up quickly, and Cheng Yunfeng could hear it clearly as he sat beside him. "Don't go, let his friend solve it by himself."

"He asked me to explain that he couldn't solve it by himself, and it's dangerous for him to be drunk alone." Ren Xuan's words meant begging for help, but the stubbornness in his eyes couldn't deceive anyone.

Cheng Yunfeng couldn't see his stubbornness, and for the sake of a heartless man, he was determined to fight with himself. "A friend who can rest assured that he is drunk can leave him alone? Ren Xuan, you are worrying too much."

The phone beeped twice, it was the address from the text message, as if urging this dispute to be resolved quickly.

Ren Xuan gave up on persuasion, twisted his waist and put his feet on the ground. He was going to cross Cheng Yunfeng and get Chen Sui home first.

"Ren Xuan, you're against me!" Cheng Yunfeng's eyes turned red with anger, and he pulled Ren Xuan down on the bed with unprecedented strength. "I feel sorry for you when you are tired and don't want to torment you. Now, why don't you go out and let others torment you? Chen Sui is fucking worthy!"

Ren Xuan's forearm was painfully pulled, and the circles of his eyes were dyed a physiological pink.Cheng Yunfeng yelled at him uncontrollably as if he couldn't see it: "If you are too busy to fall asleep, just take off your pants, and I can do it now so that you can't get out of bed tomorrow. Or just turn off the phone and go to sleep, anyway, I won't sleep tonight." Get you out of this door."

"What if I have to go?" Ren Xuan's tone was calm, seemingly determined, "Do you want to do it?"

"Don't force me to be serious with you!" Cheng Yunfeng restrained the desire to pinch Ren Xuan under his body, his joints creaked.

Ren Xuan broke off the fingers on his forearm one by one, and sat up on the bed in embarrassment: "Cheng Yunfeng, don't do things that both of you will regret."

Yes, sorry.He could keep Ren Xuan by his side, but he couldn't stop Ren Xuan from regretting letting go of the fetters and being with him.Frustration hit his head and face, and the aura of being a single man just now was wiped out in an instant. Cheng Yunfeng's chest did not stand up like a fighting cock, and the light in his eyes was also dimmed: "Do I have to go? I have to go even if I am angry? "

"Xiaofeng, if your friend needs you, I will help you and I will not stop you." Ren Xuan got out of bed and got dressed quickly. He tried to turn around to comfort him, but Cheng Yunfeng still seemed unwilling to compromise.

He picked up his mobile phone and walked to the entrance, which was very close to the bedroom in a straight line, but the sight of the two was blocked by the furniture.Cheng Yunfeng's voice came solitary, very calm, without any extreme emotion: "Ren Xuan, I'm angry."

What should be faced will come sooner or later, and avoidance will only weaken the firm mind.Maybe when it came time to make a choice, he was still Chen Sui, and Ren Xuan couldn't have both.

At this moment Cheng Yunfeng made up his mind, if Ren Xuan still walked out of that door, no matter coercion or violence, he would completely drive Chen Sui out of Ren Xuan's life.

"Xiaofeng, go to bed early." Ren Xuan said lightly, followed by the sound of the door being opened and then locked again.

The author has something to say:

Persistence and stubbornness are part of Ren Xuan, Chen Sui is habit, and Cheng Yunfeng is love.Just like us who are facing love for the first time, when we are in love, we will have a small temper that we can't help and hurt words that we know are wrong when we are angry.

But we are all growing up slowly, becoming gentle and considerate, and slowly learning to tolerate and retreat in loving and being loved. Behind that is strength and tenacity that make us grow and become better people.

I also hope that no matter whether you have gained hurt or nourishment in your relationship, you will be able to transform into a better version of yourself when you come out...