Time flies, eyebrows become books

【38】

After all, we have known each other for too long, and there are too many things accumulated in our relationship. Beauty and decay exist at the same time. It is difficult for us to really let go, but it is still difficult.

I miss you—that's something I never said.

There is no clear language expression when we are separated or together, it is a tacit understanding, but because of this, it is more like a loose relationship with each other.

Ziqi is about to graduate. When we are not together, he is still growing excellently. He is faced with the choice of going abroad for a postdoctorate or working. I don’t know much about the market in this industry, so I don’t express my opinion.I feel that my mentality has changed, and I am no longer eager to keep him, and I am no longer nervous.Maybe what I want to keep is the most beautiful appearance of love, not the somewhat yellowed appearance after being involved in life.

The relationship between me and Wen Hao is more than friendship, but not enough lovers. He is really an ideal partner. He has a good personality and can always be taken good care of when we are with him. Moreover, he has parents who are very accepting, harmonious. family atmosphere.

I didn't deliberately hide the existence of each other. When Wen Hao called, I would still answer, and sometimes we would chat for a long time.Once he asked me out for dinner, and I even asked Ziqi if he wanted to come together, but unfortunately he asked out an old classmate, so he gave up.Wen Hao also knew that my boyfriend was back. He was a little emotional, but he didn't attack.I am not holy at all, and I no longer set up a memorial archway for feelings. My emotional nerves have grown octopus. The only thing I can insist on is not to have relationships in unspecified relationships.This is probably related to my mental cleanliness. In this regard, Ziqi also has it.Sometimes, even worse than me.

He stayed with me for more than ten days, during which I took annual leave, and we traveled to Yunnan together.It was a wonderful journey, whether it was the scenery along the way or the feelings between each other, it was wonderful.We are traveling independently, so we are not in a hurry, we can lazily lean in the hotel, look at the scenery outside the window, watch the changing sunlight, and feel the passing of time.We were silent, just hugging.Imagine the busy people outside, and we—the two of us curled up quietly in a small space without being disturbed.It's like going back to the student days, when our feelings were pure, and our love and jealousy were terribly real.Later, the relationship grows cocoons and becomes more and more hard, and the real thoughts are no longer expressed in words. We feel powerless, but we still support and move forward.Later, we learned to be lazy, and avoiding or escaping became a habit. There were more and more forks in the road, and we lost our way and could not find a meeting point.

Ziqi, have you, like me, seriously recalled where we got lost?