Time flies, eyebrows become books

【25】

Later, whenever I was free, I would go to his house, chat with my aunt, and do what I could.I didn't mention Lin Sha again because I didn't want to complicate things.After going to work, let me understand a truth, do your best in everything, but don't be too entangled, too much struggle may be self-defeating.Moreover, there are lessons learned from the past, and there is a little more fear.

My aunt goes to the hospital regularly, and besides heart problems, she also has nephritis.It's God's will, Ziqi chose to study medicine mostly for his mother's sake, but the truth didn't get better because of his choice.Ziqi has been very busy, no matter it is subject, experiment, thesis, research and rotation, it has never stopped. I am used to his busyness, so I will not argue because of the lack of meetings, and I am also very busy. When you get to know the door and know the way, the work tasks are naturally becoming more and more onerous.That's good too, it won't be like being stuck in the quagmire of feelings when you have leisure time in college.Perhaps, this is growth, feelings become rougher, and vision becomes wider.

I remember that it was Friday, and I was going to work overtime, but my aunt sent me a message in the afternoon to ask me to go to dinner in the evening, thinking that I didn't go for two consecutive weeks, so I agreed.After get off work, I deliberately went to the supermarket to buy some fruit and then went there. When I entered the door, I saw a pile of supplements neatly arranged on the customer table, as if it was a visitor.

"Xiaoyu, why do you still buy so many things?" Aunt Wang took my things and complained with a smile. She used to say that I was cheating, but in fact I can only earn some performance from these small aspects.

"Are there any guests?"

"It's an acquaintance. Have you met her? Rusha." She gestured to her aunt's bedroom.

"Oh! I'll go in and have a look." I felt a blow to the head, but it was inconvenient to reveal it.

"Sister Chen, Xiao Yu is here." Aunt Wang called into the room, motioning for me to go in.

The aunt leaned on the cushion and sat on the bed. Seeing me go in, she beckoned me to sit down beside her.The first time I saw her, from the outside, she was not comparable to Chengcheng, but she had a good temperament, a medium build, a petite Jiangnan face, clean and elegant.When she saw me coming in, she stood up and smiled and nodded to me, gave me the chair, and sat on the edge of the bed by herself.

"This is Shasha, have you seen it?" My aunt asked me.

"I heard from Ziqi, it's the first time we've met. Didn't go to work today?" I thought Ziqi hadn't come back yet, but she came first.

"He's on duty today. If he doesn't come back, I'll call you two. You haven't been here for a long time. Come and improve the food." The aunt said to me with a smile.

"Thank you, Auntie. I've been too busy recently, so I haven't come to see you."

"It's okay, now is the critical time for you to start, don't come if you are too busy, Shasha will come to chat with me when you have time." Auntie held her hand naturally.

She doesn't talk much, but she always speaks very kindly. It can be seen that her tutor is very good and she is very smart.After dinner, we will go together.

"Aren't you busy? Ziqi has been very busy recently."

"Yeah! Our major is like this. Don't try to be lazy." She spoke in a low voice, but she felt confident and calm.

"Thanks to you helping him last time." I was referring to the time when my aunt had surgery.

"It's nothing, it's the first time I've seen him so flustered." She tilted her head, as if recalling the scene at that time, I regret that I wasn't by his side at that time.

"Auntie's condition is not very good now, is it?"

"Well, first of all, don't be too psychologically stressed, and the rest can only be treated slowly." She didn't explain it in detail, and she probably felt that I might not understand it after explaining it.

We chatted casually for a while, and we parted at the fork in the road. I had a good impression of her, but I couldn't help but feel a little awkward.

In the evening I called Ziqi and told about the dinner. He was a little surprised, he didn't expect his mother to ask us to have dinner together, and he wasn't there yet.

"Your mother is in a hurry to find a daughter-in-law, so I just pulled her over to make up the numbers." I said this deliberately.

"Nonsense, you are her daughter-in-law."

"Come on, who is your wife!"

"OK, OK, you are not, you are my ancestor."

There are secret nicknames between us, but we never call them husband or wife. It seems that we have fixed our subordinate image by calling out, but we don’t have any subordinate image.I admit that I am more sensitive and delicate, but this has something to do with my personality, not my life style, and I am even a little careless.I know a lot of people have a fixed mindset about this group, but I can't generalize.The only people who know about our relationship are Reiko and the big guy.It can be seen from this that we are managing our relationship in a very closed environment.We had a lot of friends, especially him, who was very popular, but we didn't think about coming out to anyone or promoting anything.Apart from paying more attention to not making others uncomfortable, we didn't feel any inconvenience.On this point, we agree that love belongs to two people, and only marriage belongs to two or more people.Maybe we were young at the time and he was still in school, so we always had reasons to avoid it.

When I was most tangled and confused, I used to search the Internet and added Q from strangers. It was an exploration of myself, but I didn’t struggle with this issue for too long. What made me struggle most was Ziqi’s attitude at that time. .When we got together, we briefly talked about this issue, but he told me about this issue from the perspective of medicine and psychology, and I was like a primary school student being taught.Since we were together, he has behaved calmly and calmly, and everything remains the same.Maybe it’s because we’re so familiar that there’s no break-in period, we just take our already close relationship a step further, both mentally and physically.Other than that, I don't know what a lover is supposed to be like.

I have not forgotten Lin Sha, but there is nothing I can do.In a time and place where I didn't exist, she had become more closely integrated into his family.Years ago, my uncle came over early, and I had a meal with them before I left, and Lin Sha was naturally the guest.

"Shasha, this is your favorite food, eat more. Xiaoyu, don't be too polite!" Auntie greeted me while she was busy serving food for Lin Sha.I suddenly had a sore nose, and quickly drank a few mouthfuls of soup, really afraid that I would lose my composure.I lowered my head and found that there was an extra chicken leg in the bowl. Ziqi motioned for me to eat. Do you think I should be happy or sad.It suddenly occurred to me that Lin Xi's words "the rumors of him falling in love with the secret me are passed down by his children and grandchildren".

After the meal, everyone sat and chatted. Lin Sha talked about the school, the hospital, and all kinds of interesting rumors. Uncles and aunts listened with great interest, but I couldn't get in.For the first time, I felt that I was so out of place, like entering the wrong door.Ziqi didn't talk too much, but it was all about his side affairs, so there was no need to talk too much, he was the center of the topic.Seeing that I was bored, he said that he would return the book I borrowed last time, so he dragged me into the house with an excuse.I understand his good intentions and dilemma, but the anger in his chest is already burning.

"I'm sorry, she was so boring, don't mind." He wanted to comfort me.

"Do you think it's just a matter of being sorry? Don't you have any responsibility when things have developed to this point?" Grievance and resentment flooded up.

"Every time my mother invites her to come, my mother is not in good health, what can I say." He slightly opened the door and lowered his voice to please me.

Instead of feeling relieved, I let jealousy and anger get the better of me.I really want to roar, I want to shout at them, I am, I am Ziqi's partner.I pulled him over and kissed angrily on the bed, as if that was the only way to prove my existence.The laughter came from outside, and I bit his lip.He whimpered in pain, trying to get out of my grip, and we almost wrestled.I wanted to kiss him domineeringly, and seeing the fear in his eyes, I felt relieved.

"Are you crazy? They're outside." He threw me off angrily, almost growling at me with red eyes.

"Let's forget it!" Word by word, I heard the sound of tearing.