tired bird home

The sky gradually dimmed.

Yan Gui rubbed his forehead with his hands, lying on the bed with half-open eyes, quietly lost in thought.

In N city in mid-August, the high temperature seems to melt everything, but at this moment in the stuffy and dark bedroom, Yan Gui didn't seem to notice it.All the roommates in the same bed went home or traveled during the long summer vacation, and in the end he was the only one left here, alone and homeless.

Yan Gui has tried for a summer vacation, but he is not even willing to ask him for the simplest job of serving tea and water in a restaurant. Seeing that the number in the bank card is getting smaller and smaller, Yan Gui fell into deep confusion and helplessness .

There are still more than ten days before the new school year will start again, which means new fees. Yan Gui doesn't know how long he can support. He sighs, wondering if there is any need to continue studying in this university.

Slowly, the dormitory was almost completely dark, but the street lamp outside the window unexpectedly did not turn on.

Yan Gui got up suspiciously, opened the window and looked out, the scorching air filled the small room with noisy cicadas, but Yan Gui's world was still silent.Beads of sweat on his forehead swayed and fell into Zhang Wang's eyes as his movements changed, a little stinging, and physiological tears came out of his eyes.

Yan Gui raised his hand and pressed it, as if weeping silently.

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Yan Gui has a profound hearing impairment, but it was not born with it.

He was a perfectly normal kid until he was 10 years old.When he was in elementary school, Yan Gui was very ill once, and the repeated high fever caused many complications. The doctor at that time gave him "special medicine".

Fortunately, the "specific medicine" did work, and soon after, Yan Gui recovered and was discharged from the hospital; unfortunately, from that day on, Yan Gui gradually lost his hearing.

However, what is even more unfortunate is that for a child who is used to silence, this is not an easy thing to discover and express.

Because Yan Gui's hearing is gradually weakening, everyone didn't notice his changes at first. Even Yan Gui himself just felt that the teacher's voice was getting weaker and weaker, and the students always listened to him when he was talking. With a strange expression, Yan Gui didn't know that at that time, in fact, because of his hearing loss, he could no longer control the volume and tone of his speech very well.

Until one day, Yan Gui, who was getting more and more unable to understand the teacher's lecture, returned home with the finally failed test paper, and then he found strangely that the mouth on his mother's resentful face was opening and closing, and the utterance was indeed as thin as a mosquito. The scolding of flies.

Yangui's reaction that day finally angered his mother completely, and he slapped his ear heavily with a whistling, burning pain.

Yan Gui's world has finally been completely quiet since then.

However, this incident was like a spark that ignited the fuse, causing Yangui's life to undergo earth-shaking changes after a huge explosion.

The seemingly incompatible parents finally divorced because of this, and the mother quickly remarried and left her hometown, leaving her father who seemed to have aged overnight and Yan Gui who finally realized her change, living in silence.

In fact, the union between Yan Gui's father and mother when they were young was considered a rare free love in their time.It sounds beautiful, but the young couple who fell in love for the first time did not reach a happy ending together.

Lovers who don't know much about the world have exhausted all their friendship in the taint of tea, rice, oil and salt day after day. A bowl or a needle can become the cause of their quarrel.From the beginning of simply being louder than anyone else to greeting each other's eighteen generations of ancestors, and then they began to clamor for divorce, and finally ended because neither of them wanted Yan Gui's custody.

At first, the young Yan Gui would cry when his parents quarreled, but later he learned to quietly reduce his sense of existence. In those smoky days, silence was his best protective color.

It wasn't until Yangui became deaf that his mother finally had a reason to get rid of them. The ten-year-long mutual torture finally came to an end.

However, after the divorce, the father who was forced to accept the custody of Yan Gui seemed to have lost all motivation in life.A teenager who nobody cared about was sent to an ordinary middle school in order to complete compulsory education. At this time, Yan Gui, who was completely deaf, became more sensitive due to the arrival of puberty. Reduce your sense of existence again as much as possible.

From then on, Yan Gui became more silent.

In those unknown days, the young Yan Gui thought about life and death countless times, and sometimes dreamed back at midnight, and even wondered whether the clever and laughing Yan Gui that others said really existed.

Is it true that I was accompanied by my parents, enjoying a cream cake full of fruits, blowing out colorful candles in one breath, and childishly but proudly saying that I want to be a scientist when I grow up?

Finally, 13-year-old Yan Gui quietly made a wish in the middle of the night of his birthday when no one cares about him, let go of the confusion of death, and took the first step of change with the longing for life.

He began to study lip language silently and taught himself homework.No one knows what Yan Gui paid for getting the admission letter from the Physics Department of N University, but when he finally saw the long-lost smile on his father's face, he felt that everything was worth it.

However, life showed its cruelest side in front of this young man. Just when Yan Gui felt that everything would gradually get better, his father died unexpectedly during the summer vacation after the college entrance examination.

Only Yan Gui, who is still underage, is left, hesitant and helpless, not knowing where to go.

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The street lamp outside the window finally flickered on, and the sudden twilight startled Yan Gui, who was immersed in memories, he groped and got up slowly and turned on a desk lamp beside the bed.

It was dusk outside, and it was almost dark.

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At the end of August, N City ushered in the hottest few days today.

At a quarter past twelve, in the long and narrow office of the Student Affairs Office of N Dali College, Ke Ke, who had just returned from lunch, was blowing fiercely at the only air-conditioning outlet.

Due to the holidays of the students, most of the cafeterias in the school were closed, and the only remaining staff canteen was far away from the office and unpalatable. For those who have been working in the school all the time, the nearby takeaway is as unattractive as the dishes in the school cafeteria, but it is very pleasant not to have to go out in such a hot day.

Because the school will officially start in less than a week, the student affairs office is also busy accordingly.The few days before and after the start of school every year are almost the busiest times for Ke Ke, just like now, although there is still more than half an hour before work time, but people have already come to the door.

Regardless of the lingering enthusiasm on his face, Ke Ke greeted people to sit down and walked back to the back of the desk.

It was a fair and thin boy. I said it was a boy because the person who came here really looked too young. He should be a freshman who just came to report.

"Is there anything I can do for you?" Ke Ke asked while thinking.

The boy looked at him intently for a while, then took out a notebook and pen from the schoolbag beside him, and started writing quickly.

'I want to consult...'

Ke Ke stretched out his head to take a look, the first few words made him stunned for a moment, can't speak?

Feeling the probing eyes fall on him, Yan Gui's writing hands could not stop shaking. It has been a long time since he was watched at such a close distance. God knows how much courage it took him to make up his mind to leave. enter here.

As if sensing Yan Gui's nervousness, Ke Ke turned his gaze back to the notebook in front of him.

'I would like to inquire about the suspension of school. '

The unexpected text made Ke Ke stunned again, why did he suspend school when he first came?Or is this person not a freshman?

Although the doubts in his heart were about to come out of his mouth, Ke Ke still dutifully slowed down and asked:

"What's your name? Which major? What grade are you in? Why did you suspend school? Can you tell me the reason?" After thinking about it, he added thoughtfully, "Don't worry, write slowly."

However, the boy in front of him just showed him his student card, and then wrote in his notebook: 'Personal reasons. '

Ke Ke stared speechlessly at the small card in front of him, which showed everything in detail: Yan Gui, Department of Physics, College of Science, Class of 2015.

"Personal reasons? Physical reasons or financial reasons?"

Seeing the question from the person opposite him, Yan Gui blushed, his lips trembled subconsciously, and then nodded imperceptibly.

Ke Ke sighed annoyedly. Generally, the two main reasons for people who come to suspend school are these two reasons. He has formed a mind-set, and the words "physical reasons" blurted out at once, and then he realized it later. It seems that he is not very friendly to the children in front of him.

"It's like this. If it's because of your health, you need to issue a relevant certificate from the hospital, but if it's because you can't speak, I don't think it will have a big impact on your studies. I can also help you and your teacher if you have problems with your studies. communicate."

Ke Ke observed the reaction of the teenager opposite, and then said: "If it is economic reasons, you can consider student loans, and if your grades allow, you can also apply for scholarships. My suggestion is to try not to interrupt your studies. After all, you are only in your third year at the beginning of school, more than half of your college life has passed, and now you are on a leave of absence, and you don't know if you can continue to complete your studies, so your previous efforts are all in vain?"

Although Ke Ke tried to explain slowly, Yan Gui was still nervous and didn't fully understand what he said, but he understood the general meaning: it was to persuade him not to suspend his studies.

In fact, Yan Gui himself is also very entangled. On the one hand, he feels that studying is useless to him, but on the other hand, he stubbornly wants to realize the ridiculous wish of childhood.

Ke Ke looked at the confused young man in front of him, and an inexplicable emotion rose in his heart. He took out his mobile phone, opened WeChat, and said to Yan Gui:

"Well, when I was in school, I also studied in the physics department of this school. Now that I am staying in school, I can be considered your senior. Take out your mobile phone, and I will leave you a contact information. You go back and think about it. If you have anything to do, contact me in time. "

And the sluggish Yan Gui finally used up the social skills he had accumulated for a few days, and added WeChat friends with Ke Ke in a daze, thinking about what to do next, while slowly walking out. Office of the Student Affairs Office.

Ke Ke watched Yan Gui walk away silently with his head bowed, and wrote down the words: 2015, Department of Physics, Yan Gui, etc. on the sticky note at hand.

Afterwards, more students came in one after another. It was not until it was almost dinner time that Ke Ke, who was thirsty, had the opportunity to leave his seat to pour a glass of water.

After he stood up, he realized that the student named Yan Gui forgot to take away the notebook and pen used to write. It should have been put in the corner of the table by the students who consulted later, so he never found out.

Ke Ke put down the water glass in his hand, picked up the log-colored soft leather notebook, hesitated for a moment, and turned a few pages.

It was a book with obvious signs of use at first glance. The corners of the cover may have been rolled up due to long-term storage in the schoolbag, but the contents inside were unexpectedly thin—except for the title page of "Swallow Return", today The two lines written by the boy in the afternoon turned out to be the only dialogue.

Ke Ke fell silent, flipped the paper with his fingers subconsciously, and finally found something new on the last page of the book:

The wind blows from east to west,

blown from north to south,

Ignoring night and dawn,

What exactly do you mean by dawn.

The accompanying picture is a lonely swallow with jet-black tail feathers, like a pair of sharp scissors.

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PS, special setting, all dialogues in text form in the text are in single quotation marks, and dialogues in voice form are in double quotation marks.