All men are like my ex

Shi Yinan knows a lot of people with the surname Cui, and there are two people who work in his company alone. Of course, after he came to Nancheng, the company's nemesis is also named Cui, but Shi Yinan feels that the world will never be so small Bar?

"Then he—" Shi Yinan thought for a while, and asked Bai Yichen, "Yichen, do you know what his full name is?"

"He should have told me, right? Or not? But I think the biggest possibility is that I forgot..." However, Shi Yinan asked Bai Yichen this question, who made Cui Shangzhi the same as other passers-by, except for the top In Bai Yichen's eyes, Zhang had exactly the same face as Shi Yinan, but he really couldn't find a single bit of resemblance to Shi Yinan.

He is neither as deep and seductive as Song Yuheng, nor as youthful and youthful as Shi Yiming. In fact, the only people Bai Yichen remembers because of his similarity to Shi Yinan are Song Yuheng and Shi Yiming, so Bai Yichen really didn't remember who Cui Shangzhi was.

However, Bai Yichen's words obviously pleased Shi Yinan, and allowed him to relax a little from his unclear and heavy mood today, giving him a little room to breathe.

Shi Yinan watched Bai Yichen put the bouquet of roses away, then walked up to him and said softly, "If you forget it, forget it, he is not important. Let's go home?"

"Okay." Bai Yichen touches the rose petals and branches that are still stained with dew, thinking that when he comes to the studio tomorrow morning, he must trim them and find a beautiful vase for them. You can paint an oil painting named "Rose from Lover".

After they returned home, Bai Yichen thought that Shi Yinan had an injury on his head and that the fingers he had cut a few days ago were not healed, so he didn't want him to cook, so he rolled up his sleeves and started firing.

Shi Yinan looked at Bai Yichen's busy back in the kitchen, but what echoed in his mind was Xia Qi's question to him in the morning - does he really love Bai Yichen?Did his feelings for Bai Yichen come from love, or did he feel guilty when he found out that Bai Yichen had committed suicide for him?Is it a kind of psychology that just wants to make up for him and atone for his sin?

"It's time to eat." Bai Yichen smiled at Shi Yinan, and put the cooked food on the table, which interrupted Shi Yinan's thoughts, "I made stewed pumpkin today, you seem to like it very much." Eat this."

"Yeah..." Shi Yinan looked at the orange stewed pumpkin on the table and licked his lips, "But I love to eat all the dishes you cook."

Bai Yichen was filled with sweet words, and he was in a good mood. He told Shi Yinan, "After a while, I might go out and look for a job."

"Looking for a job?" Shi Yinan was startled when he heard the words, "Why do you suddenly want to find a job? Is it because you don't have enough money?"

"Of course not." Bai Yichen said, "The money in the card you gave me is more than all my income in the past few years. I just don't want to hang around at home or the studio all the time, and I want to find something to do."

Shi Yinan asked him: "Is that so, do you want to work in my company?"

"I don't want to." Bai Yichen refused bluntly, "In this case, wouldn't we become an office romance? The impact is so bad. I may continue to work in Yu's, after I help Ah Pei finish the art test training .”

"Well, that's pretty good." Shi Yinan investigated Bai Yichen, of course he knew that he used to work in Yu's, and also knew that Yu Pei was his favorite student.If Bai Yichen felt that work would make him happy, he would not object, but told Bai Yichen: "Just don't tire yourself out."

At ten o'clock at night, Shi Yinan had already taken a shower, he was lying on the bed reading documents, waiting for Bai Yichen to come out of the bathroom.

"Do you have a lot of things to do in the company? It's so late and you're still reading documents." After getting under the covers, Bai Yichen squeezed into Shi Yinan's arms, raised his head and kissed him on the chin.

Because he had just taken a shower, Bai Yichen still had the fragrance of shower gel and moist water vapor on his body. When he kissed him, the fragrance made him feel faint. Shi Yinan hugged his waist subconsciously, and bowed his head towards Bai Yichen. Chen kissed her lips.He bit the young man's lips lightly, and rubbed them repeatedly with his own lips, the breath gradually heated up between them, but when Bai Yichen opened his lips to cooperate with him more deeply, Shi Yinan suddenly woke up .

He let go of Bai Yichen, raised his head and stared blankly at the young man, and Bai Yichen looked back at him, then tilted his head slightly after a few seconds, as if asking him why he stopped.

Shi Yinan couldn't explain his behavior, but he couldn't go any further.

"Is the head still hurting?" Bai Yichen reached out and touched his temples, with a hint of worry in his eyes.

This question relieved the embarrassing atmosphere between them very well, Shi Yinan gave a random "hmm", hugged Bai Yichen back into the quilt, tucked the corner of the quilt for him and said: "It's late, go to sleep. It's cold at night, so cover yourself with a quilt."

Bai Yichen lay down obediently, his dark black hair scattered on the beige soft pillow, the warm bedside light fell on his eyebrows and eyes, illuminating those slender eyelashes with a sense of transparency, as if there were light flakes Jumping on it, occasionally falling accidentally, falling into the deep eyes of the young man.

Shi Yinan stared blankly, but the eyelashes covered with light flakes suddenly drooped, slightly covering the master's eyes, and the quiet atmosphere in the room was suddenly broken by Bai Yichen's words——

"sorry."

These three words lightly brushed Bai Yichen's lips, as light as a feather when he uttered them, but were caught by Shi Yinan.

He didn't regain his senses at first, but when Bai Yichen gently turned his back to him, Shi Yinan's pupils shrank suddenly, and he anxiously pulled Bai Yichen's body back, although the movement was quick, but with The strength was light and light, and even the words of the inquiry were cautiously coaxing: "Yichen, what's the matter? Why are you suddenly apologizing to me?"

Bai Yichen still lowered his eyes, didn't look at him, but said, "It must be very tiring to be with someone like me, right?"

"How could it be?" Shi Yinan was stunned, and then replied, "No, how could you be tired? I love you very much, don't think too much about it."

"I know, you love me, I know." Bai Yichen said, suddenly got up and lifted the quilt, took off his nightgown, and exposed the scar on his wrist to Shi Yinan, "But Shi Yinan, You look at me."

"You don't feel tired because you love me, or you still love me now, so you will feel guilty. But if one day you don't love me, I will definitely make you feel annoyed by doing this, I It will become your burden, and this burden may not end until the day I die, or the day you die..."

After speaking, he was a little choked up, and Bai Yichen was also stunned when he heard his voice, as if he didn't know when he also shed tears.

Shi Yinan stared blankly at Bai Yichen crying in front of him, the tears falling from his chin were like a red-hot iron, falling on the soft flesh at the tip of his heart with a "sizzling", scalding his heart My lungs hurt.

But it shouldn't be like this.

He and Bai Yichen had loved each other so passionately and passionately, at that time Bai Yichen would also laugh, he laughed so happily, because he thought that he was the one who saved him from the darkness, but he was not.

In Bai Yichen's already barren, desolate and sad life, he sprinkled densely packed blades heavily, cutting him bloody, causing him to bleed dry in loneliness, pain and despair, and die coldly all over his body.

Shi Yinan hugged Bai Yichen, hugged him tightly, kissed the top of Bai Yichen's hair, and said hoarsely: "It's not like this...we won't be like this, I love you, I know you're just Sick. You are sick, so your actions are out of control, not what you really want to do..."

"You know... I'm sick?" Bai Yichen murmured in a low voice.

"Yes, I saw you went to see a psychiatrist... so you are just sick, you will be fine, we will all be fine..." Shi Yinan replied, he hugged Bai Yichen, finger pierced Rubbing gently through his hair.

Bai Yichen clutched Shi Yinan's lapel, his eyes were a little empty, and he said in a shy voice, "...Can I still be alright?"

In fact, what Bai Yichen said just now, he has held back in his heart for a long time. From the day Shi Yinan discovered the scar on his wrist, his whole state was very wrong. Shi Yinan, knowing him so well, why can't he find out?

This is also the reason why he hid everything about himself from the beginning, not wanting Shi Yinan to find out that he was "abnormal".

Shi Yinan only knew that it was okay for him to commit suicide, but what would happen if he knew that he was face blind?Will you be more guilty, and then love him more?Or one day in the future, he finally couldn't stand his lover's "abnormality" and chose to leave him again.

Bai Yichen didn't dare to gamble.

He apologized to Shi Yinan: "Yi Nan, I'm sorry... I don't really want to die... Really, it's just that I was in so much pain during that time, I thought that if there was anything more painful, I would It won't hurt so much..."

"I'm really... trying really hard to be normal..."

"I will heal well...I won't hurt you again...please...please don't leave me..."

"Yichen... Yichen, it's my fault, don't be sad. I will never leave you, never again, we will always be together. Didn't you say that you don't want to hear my apology? Stop apologizing, okay? I love you...I really love you, and I will always be with you." Shi Yinan's eyes were also red, and when he blinked lightly, tears fell on Bai Yichen In his hair, his Adam's apple was moving, and his voice was dry and hoarse, as if holding a handful of gravel, and every word he uttered would be ground to blood by the coarse sand and gravel.

He could only hear Bai Yichen's every plea, and didn't notice Bai Yichen's words at all. How could he care about this little detail?

Bai Yichen's low sobs almost clenched his whole heart into a ball, and he thought: How could he not love Bai Yichen?Since he was a child, what he was looking for after leaving that cold Shi family was not a sincere and sincere love?He got it a long time ago, is there anyone in this world who loves him more than Bai Yichen?No more, no one will love him more than Bai Yichen.

He's got what he's been looking for, and he should have wanted nothing more in his life.