All men are like my ex

The nurse's voice is very gentle, it seems that all psychological doctors are like this. They always face the patients with the most gentle side and give them some warmth in their suffering lives.

But Shi Yinan was stunned when he heard what the nurse said, because Bai Yichen just told him that he would stay at home with him tomorrow.

"Mr. Shi?" The nurse didn't hear Shi Yinan's response, thinking he had hung up the phone, and called Shi Yinan a few more times.

"Oh, please tell Mr. Xia..." Shi Yinan paused for a few seconds, "I will definitely go see him tomorrow morning."

"Okay, I will tell Dr. Xia, then I will register you here, goodbye."

"Goodbye."

Shi Yinan slowly put down the phone, not knowing how to explain to Bai Yichen.

"Are you going to see a client tomorrow?" Although Bai Yichen didn't hear who Shi Yinan was on the phone with, he could roughly guess some causes and consequences from Shi Yinan's answer.

"Yes." Shi Yinan gently grabbed Bai Yichen's hand, and let him sit beside him, "I have a very important business tomorrow, I need to go there, sorry, I can't accompany you tomorrow."

"The company's affairs are more important. Besides, I plan to accompany you tomorrow." Bai Yichen said, "But if you want to go out tomorrow, we should go to the hospital to have a look at the injury on your head?"

This time, Shi Yinan did not refuse again, he went to the hospital accompanied by Bai Yichen, the doctor showed him the injury on the back of his head, sewed him a few stitches, and told him that the wound should not touch water for a few days, If you must wash your hair, it is best not to wet the wound.

Shi Yinan was concerned about Xia Tian's psychological counseling room, so he agreed to the doctor absent-mindedly.

The next day, Shi Yinan woke up normally and made breakfast for Bai Yichen. When we parted, Bai Yichen took the initiative to kiss Shi Yinan, and there was a soft touch on his lips. He always kisses Bai Yichen's forehead in the morning.

There seems to be a saying that a kiss on the forehead represents pity and guilt.Shi Yinan felt that there was some basis for this statement, at least with his current state of mind, it was really difficult for him to kiss Bai Yichen as passionately as before.

"I wish you a very smooth day." After Bai Yichen finished kissing, he raised his head and touched Shi Yinan's chin.

Shi Yinan's eyes trembled, he pulled his lips and smiled, and said to Bai Yichen: "Okay, I love you."

"I love you too." Bai Yichen waved him goodbye.

Shi Yinan kept a smile on his face, and the corners of his raised lips were not smoothed until the car was out of Bai Yichen's sight. He had explained the company affairs to Bai Weihuan last night, and he would not go there until the afternoon The company, and now, he is going to the summer counseling room.

Since he had already been here once, Shi Yinan easily found out where Xia Tian's counseling room was. After he checked the information with the nurse, the nurse brought him to the psychologist Xia Qi.

When Shi Yinan entered, Xia Qi was reading a book inside, seeing him coming in, Xia Qi immediately stood up from behind the desk and poured him a cup of hot water: "Good morning, Mr. Shi, have you had breakfast yet? "

"I've eaten." Shi Yinan replied.

The nurse closed the door for the two of them so that they could have a quieter space for communication. Xia Qi pointed to the sofa beside him, indicating that Shi Yinan could sit down here.

"I was shocked when I saw your name on the appointment form, and I asked the nurse to contact you immediately." Xia Qi said, and sat down on the sofa.In fact, when he saw Shi Yinan's name, he wanted to meet Shi Yinan. Worried about delaying Shi Yinan's schedule, he specially set aside a whole day and asked the nurse to contact Shi Yinan in advance .

"You came here today, do you have any troubles lately?" Xia Qi smiled at Shi Yinan, "—or do you want to ask something about Mr. Bai's condition?"

Shi Yinan heard Xia Qi's somewhat familiar tone when talking to him, and asked him: "Did Yichen tell you about me?"

Xia Qi told him: "Yes, he mentioned you every time he came here, since the first time he came here. To be honest, I was a little surprised that you came here. It was Mr. Bai who told you that he was here Am I doing psychotherapy here?"

Shi Yinan was silent for a few seconds, and said, "No, I discovered it by accident."

"No wonder." Xia Qi suddenly understood, "Because I think Mr. Bai probably won't tell you about this."

In fact, it was true, if he hadn't discovered this by accident, Shi Yinan would not have known how long Bai Yichen would have kept it a secret from him.But he didn't understand why this kind of thing couldn't be said, so he couldn't help asking Xia Qi: "Why?"

"Because if he tells you this, it's equivalent to telling you that he is a mentally ill person." Xia Qi's voice was very gentle, but it couldn't make Shi Yinan relax, "and a mentally ill person." It’s not easy to get along with people who are sick.”

"Yichen... did he suffer from depression?" Shi Yinan asked in a daze, because Bai Yichen had committed suicide before, and most of those who committed suicide suffered from depression.

"Not all, because of the professional ethics of a psychiatrist, if Mr. Bai is unwilling to tell you about his condition, I can't disclose the patient's condition."

"What do you mean not all?" Shi Yinan looked dazed, and asked in disbelief, "Does Yichen suffer from other diseases?"

Xia Qi was silent for a while, did not answer Shi Yinan's question, but said to him: "You should have discovered by now... that Mr. Bai tried to commit suicide, right?"

"Yes." Shi Yinan lowered his eyes, looked at the hot, foggy transparent water glass on the table and said, "I only found out when I saw the scar on his wrist, and he has kept this matter from me...Of course this It's all because I didn't care enough about him, so I didn't find out. And...he didn't tell me, three times."

After finishing speaking, Shi Yinan raised the corners of his lips and laughed at himself: "Three times, how could he do it?"

Xia Qi asked him again: "Then how do you feel after learning about this? Mr. Shi. Shocked? Frightened? At a loss? Self-blame, or do you feel scared?"

Shi Yinan frowned slightly: "The previous few have been there, but I'm afraid, how could I be afraid?"

"Most people are afraid." Xia Qi shook his head, "Think about it, if you have a lover, every time you break up, he will threaten to commit suicide. If you don't love him anymore, don't care if he commits suicide Dead or not, it will become a lingering shadow in your life. The dead is the biggest, if he is dead, people will lean towards him, thinking that you did something wrong; if he is not dead, then you will be punished for the rest of your life Isn't it terrible that he continues to pester him?"

What Xia Qi said is right. In reality, it is not romantic at all to have a lover who is willing to commit suicide for you. It means that there is a patient with an extremely unstable mental state beside you. He may not only hurt himself, but also With you, your relatives and friends, he may always want to drag you into hell together.

"But it was indeed me who did the wrong thing, and he didn't threaten me with suicide, he even wanted to keep it from me." Shi Yinan said, "I was the one who was sorry for him, and I didn't love him. He, I still love him."

"But what you did wrong is not unforgivable. I have met many patients. They told me that the pain came from various sources. Other things, but Mr. Bai didn't tell me about these things, he just kept repeatedly emphasizing that you left and don't want him anymore." Xia Qi smiled faintly, but his smile had a professional indifference, just It seems that the arc of his lips is fixed, "So do you really love him? Or, can you continue to love him? After knowing that he is a depressed patient with an unstable mental state, knowing that he has been affected by Stimulation may make you unable to control yourself, after hurting you or committing suicide, can you continue to love him?"

Shi Yinan raised his head, met Shang Xia Qi's eyes, parted his lips but did not make a sound.

Xia Qi's words hit the nail on the head, every word made it difficult for him to answer.He couldn't help asking himself in his heart: Does he really love Bai Yichen?

After he learned that Bai Yichen committed suicide because of himself, he once fell into a state of guilt and panic. He dared not face Bai Yichen, and blamed himself in his heart every day, thinking that he had done something wrong Because of his departure, Bai Yichen was cornered.

All this showed that he should love Bai Yichen, because of love, he blamed himself like this.

That's why he wasn't afraid, but when he first came back to Nancheng, he didn't seem to love Bai Yichen that much, all these changes were too sudden.

Seeing his long silence, Xia Qi raised his lips and smiled again, lowered his eyes and took a sip of water and said, "Did you know? All psychiatrists will advise patients with depression to go out to relax and make more friends according to their condition. , but no doctor dares to directly advise patients to try to fall in love, to love someone deeply. Because the emotional world of patients is too fragile to withstand a little twists and turns, and others may cry when they fail in love. Love, but let alone love for depression patients, they may even lose the ability to feel loved."

"A rich family, a life without pressure, and a nearly perfect life, there will still be people who commit suicide because they can't feel love." Xia Qi said slowly, "On such a day, just thinking about it makes people despair." .”

"I love him." Shi Yinan interrupted Xia Qi's words.

Xia Qi raised his eyes to look at him upon hearing this.

Shi Yinan's Adam's apple rolled up and down, his voice was calm and powerful, and his tone was firm: "I love him, I love him now, and I will continue to love him in the future."

Xia Qi stared into Shi Yinan's eyes for a while, confirmed that he really thought so when he said this, and then smiled lightly——Shi Yinan didn't mention the past, which means that he might not love Bai Yi in the past Dust, or, it may not be so loving.

Maybe he really fell in love with Bai Yichen during the days when he came back and reunited with Bai Yichen this time—only after Bai Yichen became ill like that, he fell in love with him.