All men are like my ex

Shi Yinan's lips were pursed white, his Adam's apple moved up and down, the hand hanging by his side trembled slightly, his body seemed to have lost the control of his thoughts and gradually became paralyzed and stiff, but he just looked at Bai Yichen's eyes again. When he turned in his direction, he turned around suddenly, and his speed was outrageous.

He was worried that Bai Yichen would recognize him, but fortunately, although Bai Yichen's gaze stayed on him for a few seconds, he quickly withdrew his gaze, glanced at him a few times, and left the place.

Shi Yinan looked at Bai Yichen's figure reflected on the glass of the office building, and met his eyes.

The glass is gray-blue, and the reflection of people on it is also dark and weird, with an unreal feeling. Shi Yinan couldn't describe his feelings at that moment, he only felt that he was overwhelmed by an indescribable sadness, It was as if he and Bai Yichen were cut and separated by this piece of glass, and they were in two different worlds. Even if they met face to face, what they saw was just an illusory reflection.

Maybe this is retribution, Shi Yinan thought to himself.

It was the retribution he finally got for being a scumbag for so many years.

The words he used to sarcastically curse others just now fell on the person he cherishes the most in a blink of an eye.No, maybe he doesn't even deserve to use the word "cherish". Doesn't he know why Bai Yichen went to the counseling room?

Looking back now, Shi Yinan felt that Ye Wanxiang had finally said one thing correctly after all these years, that is, he was disgusting.

It's really disgusting for him to put on such a lover's face.

Shi Yinan didn't know when he entered Xia Tian's psychological consultation room until the end, his mind was blank, and when he was finally able to think about the problem, it was the nurse at the front desk who asked him: "Sir, are you here to see Dr. Xia?" ?"

Shi Yinan subconsciously let out a "hmm".

The nurse asked him again: "Do you have an appointment?"

"No."

"It's almost twelve o'clock now. Dr. Xia is going to have lunch. If you want to find him, sir, can I register you here?" The nurse said with a smile.

Shi Yinan looked at the registration book and pen she handed over, and after a few seconds of silence, took it and wrote down his name and contact information.

"Okay, but Dr. Xia's patients are already full today, Mr. Shi, you can go back first, and we will contact you in advance for the appointment time."

So Bai Yichen even made an appointment to come here today?

Shi Yinan nodded, and walked out of Xia Tian's psychological counseling room dully.The moment he stepped into the sunlight, he was almost stung by today's bright light, so Shi Yinan felt his eyes were swollen and astringent, tears were boiling in his lacrimal glands, waiting for the moment to flow out.

He blinked to clear his blurry vision, then walked quickly to the car and sat down, escaping from the light.

After a while, he took out his mobile phone and called Bai Yichen.

"Hello, Yi Nan?"

The phone was connected after it rang twice, and Bai Yichen's gentle voice came from the receiver, making Shi Yinan's vision blurry again.

"Yi Nan?"

He didn't make a sound, so Bai Yichen called him again.

"Well, I'm here." Shi Yinan quickly adjusted his mood, and responded to Bai Yichen in a tone as normal as possible, "Are you and Le Dong ready to eat?"

"Yeah, we just came over from the studio, and now we're getting ready for dinner... Oh, I don't want tea, is there any water? The waiter, please bring a pot of water, I can't sleep at night after drinking the tea, thank you." Shi Yinan listened Over there, Bai Yichen was talking to the waiter, and he also heard the little lie he casually told.

He and Bai Yichen have really been separated for too long, so long that the young man who never smoked or drank would prepare an ashtray for himself at home, and so long that the young man who used to tell a little lie would blush and stammer now when he tells a lie Fluid, like breathing, it comes at your fingertips, and the package is watertight.

If he hadn't just seen Bai Yichen leave Xia Tian's counseling room, he would really have believed what Bai Yichen said, believing that he and Le Dong had indeed just left the studio and were about to go to lunch now.

"Your voice is not right, what's wrong?" Bai Yichen asked him with a smile, and quietly lowered his voice, "Is it because you hate me for having dinner with Le Dong, or...do you miss me?"

"Well, I missed you, so I called you." Shi Yinan replied with the corners of his lips curled up, but he had to close his eyes to suppress the heat in his eyes.

"I miss you too, ah, Le Dong is back, I have to hang up, you go to dinner, I will call you later."

"Okay, I... love you, baby. Remember to eat your lunch well." Shi Yinan took a deep breath and clenched his teeth again, in order to say this confession that he usually likes to eat and drink as easily and lightly.

He actually didn't want to say it - he was ashamed to say it, these words made him feel a strong sense of guilt, as if these words of love he said were not from the heart, but just a perfunctory word that he used to blurt out without even passing through his brain Thinking speaks like that.

And now, when he recalled it, it seemed to be almost like this—his perfunctory, Bai Yichen took it as his sincerity, enshrined it on the soft flesh of his heart, and cherished it.

But what can be easily said, how can it be love?

But without saying anything, Bai Yichen would notice something strange about him again.

So he had to say, pulling out the words like a sharp knife out of his throat.

"You too, I love you too." Bai Yichen replied with a smile.

The phone was hung up, and a beeping busy tone came from the handset.

Shi Yinan put down the phone in a daze, looked in the rearview mirror, and found a water mark on his right cheek, he blinked blankly, and then there was also a water mark on his left cheek.

He raised his hand to touch the water mark, and felt that the person looking in the mirror was very strange, as strange as the water mark on his face.

Shi Yinan would not shed tears, even if he drained the last drop of blood from his body, he would not shed tears.

This person is not Shi Yinan.

Shi Yinan looked at himself in the mirror, pouted his forehead and laughed.

"Shi Yinan called?" When Le Dong came over with the boiled water that Bai Yichen asked for, he saw the picture of Bai Yichen secretly hiding the phone.

The smile on his face has not disappeared, his eyes are shining, unless Le Dong is stupid, how could he not guess who he just called?So he raised his eyebrows and asked Bai Yichen.

Bai Yichen had no choice but to admit: "Yes, you called to let me have a good lunch."

Le Dong scoffed, rolled his eyes and said, "He's here to 'catch rape', right?"

"It's really not." Bai Yichen laughed, stuffed a mouthful of food, and said, "We agreed last night, he's not jealous."

"Oh? Really? This really doesn't look like him at all." Le Dong also laughed and said this subconsciously, but after he finished speaking, he immediately realized that something was wrong, and hurriedly looked at Bai Yichen's expression.

Fortunately, Bai Yichen didn't seem to be particularly concerned, and agreed with a smile: "It's really not very similar, I guess I'm secretly scolding you in my heart."

Le Dong breathed a sigh of relief and said, "You can just scold me. Anyway, it's not the first time. I'm used to it. I don't think it's strange that he stabbed me in the back."

After finishing speaking, Le Dong paused and continued to ask: "Have you gone to see Dr. Xia in the morning? What did Dr. Xia say?"

"Doctor Xia also thinks that I am doing well recently." Bai Yichen replied, his eyes were bright and hot, and there was hope hidden in his face, "He said that he would gradually reduce the dosage of the medicine for me, and maybe I will be fine soon. gone."

"I also plan to find another job in a few days. It's not enough to stay in the studio and do translation all the time. I can draw several blueprints during the translation work."

"I won't be as decadent as before."

Bai Yichen hadn't seen Le Dong for a long time, and accidentally got a little talkative.

Listening to him, Le Dong really wanted to answer, "Is it because Shi Yinan came back that you are like this", but in the end he just nodded with a smile and said: "It's really good that you can think about it, I don't want to An ambulance took you to the hospital in the middle of the night."

"I owe you a lot..." Bai Yichen sighed with lowered eyes, and smiled wryly.

Le Dong really helped him a lot, without Le Dong, he might have died long ago, but he couldn't give what Le Dong wanted.

But this time, Le Dong said: "It's okay, we are friends."

Bai Yichen raised his head immediately upon hearing this.

Le Dong looked into his eyes and said seriously: "We will be good friends, I... will never like you again."

Bai Yichen didn't answer the call, because he didn't know how to respond for a moment.

Le Dong twitched his lips and shook his head, "Don't think too much, we should be good friends, you have been rejecting me all this time... I know."

"I do like your appearance and talent, but if we are really together, it will be cold in a few days." Le Dong said, "The interests and hobbies are different, and I may not be able to do it for you and my family." People come out, so you see, we are so good at being friends."

Bai Yichen was still silent, he looked up at Le Dong, at his face that was exactly the same as Shi Yinan's, this face he loved so much, but at this moment he didn't want to see it at all, he tried his best to think back to Le Dong's past After a long time, Bai Yichen said: "Yes, we are good friends, I remember... your nose is a bit round, and your chin is also very square."

Le Dong smiled and said, "You remember me."

Bai Yichen stared blankly at Le Dong, looking at the smile on his face, even though every line, every arc on his face outlined Shi Yinan's appearance, he could clearly recognize it ——This person is Le Dong, not Shi Yinan.

Thinking about it now, he and Shi Yinan hadn't seen each other for a long time, but he and Le Dong hadn't seen each other for a long time either.

On the day when he woke up in the hospital, he finally saw the person he loved deeply, but he never saw his good friend again.

Looking at Bai Yichen's dazed look, Le Dong worried that he was thinking too much, so he patted his arm and advised him, "Okay, the person you've been waiting for is back, and you should have a better life in the future."

"You have to live happily, so that I don't waste my concern for you for so many years." Le Dong looked down at the rim of the cup and said with a smile, "Actually, think about it, I don't really desire to be with you so strongly , I just want to see the unscrupulous smile on your face again when we were in college."