All men are like my ex

Maybe it was because he got cold while building a canopy for those roses during the day, and Bai Yichen dreamed again at night.

On the night of Valentine's Day, he didn't dream that he and Shi Yinan were entangled with each other and kissed passionately, and had crazy sex on the bed. Instead, he dreamed that Shi Yinan broke up with him.

That day was not Valentine's Day, nor was it any holiday, but Bai Yichen couldn't help mourning that day as his memorial day, because the despair and gloom of that day were like sharp knives, covering the sky and covering the sky. came, pierced his heart fiercely, and pushed him into a bottomless abyss.

From then on, loneliness, pain and despair began to replace Shi Yinan and his company day and night, like shadow and shadow.

He woke up very early that day. When he woke up, Shi Yinan was standing by the window against the light, wearing a tie. The light that morning was so strong that he couldn't see the expression on Shi Yinan's face clearly, so he got up, sleepy Sleepy Eye and Shi Yi Nan exchanged an extremely lingering kiss.

Shi Yinan sucked his lips and tongue viciously, kissing him as viciously as if he was going to tear him apart and eat him completely, he struggled to pant and try to respond to him, almost shot him off, but when Shi Yinan Yi Nan quickly stopped, hugged his waist for a while, and left without saying a word.

Normally, Bai Yichen would probably find some clues, but maybe the kiss that day was so passionate that he thought that Shi Yinan loved him as much as he loved him—inseparable, inseparable, constantly pulling, Others would not be able to bear the fight even if they were lightly touched, and they would not let go even if they were covered in wounds.

But from beginning to end, he was the only one who refused to let go.

Shi Yinan has always been unrestrained, like an unexpected spring breeze, slowly entering his heart, and then leaving quietly, at ease without nostalgia, only he can't let go of this wind, trying to catch it in vain Something that can't be touched at all.

Except for the necessary documents, Shi Yinan's clothes, tie, leather shoes, the razor on the washstand, and even the charger in front of the bedside table, he didn't take any of them away, and gave Bai Yichen that he would come back illusion.

But he never came back, and took all the colors in Bai Yichen's world with him.

【let's break up. 】

Shi Yinan sent him such a text message, and then disappeared into the vast sea of ​​people, leaving him wandering around in that somewhat small but very cozy rental house, guarding his six children including the period. The character waited for three years, waiting for the medal of honor named after love on his left wrist.

He still hasn't come back.

And this year is the fourth year since he left.

When Bai Yichen opened his eyes, the first thing he touched was the drenched pillow cover, which was cold against his face, reminding him that he was still alive.He went to the bathroom and was not surprised to see his red and swollen eyes in front of the mirror-this weekend was not going well at all.

He sighed softly, squeezed a wet towel and put it on his eyes, hoping to reduce the redness and swelling.

"Good morning, Yi Nan." Bai Yichen returned to the bedroom, and spoke to the other side of the double bed, "I have nothing to do today, can I draw a picture for you later?"

The only response to Bai Yichen was still depressing silence.

But Bai Yichen didn't care, lowered his eyelashes, and said in a sweet voice, "If you don't say anything, I'll take it as your consent."

After breakfast, he will go to the studio to draw a picture for Shi Yinan, take a nap at noon, read magazines after waking up in the afternoon, finish the translation list he received last week in the evening, and then he can go to sleep again .

What a great weekend just for the two of them.

Bai Yichen originally planned this weekend like this.

However, the plan never changed as fast as he had finished. Le Dong called him when he was halfway through the painting.

"Le Dong, what's the matter?" Bai Yichen's voice was a little lazy, but also full of gentleness. The magnetic voice passed through the electromagnetic signal to the ear of another person, calling Le Dong on the other side slightly. I froze for a moment.

But right after, Le Dong laughed again, deliberately lowering his voice: "Baby, do you miss me?"

Bai Yichen took another paintbrush, dipped some paint on Shi Yinan's clothes on the canvas, and said softly, "Stop making trouble, your voice doesn't sound like him at all."

"Tsk, okay, okay." Le Dong on the other end of the phone sighed twice, "Yichen, are you really not coming to the class reunion tonight?"

Hearing this, Bai Yichen stopped writing. He thought for a while, and continued to draw while chatting with Le Dong in an extremely gentle voice: "What? Do you miss me?"

Le Dong laughed to himself now: "Oh great painter, don't use your voice to seduce me, let's talk about business, this time the classmates came together, and everyone hasn't seen you for almost five years, anyway Shi Yinan won't come either, you...would you like to come? Just treat it as being with me, okay?"

Bai Yichen was silent and did not speak.

Le Dong on the other end also clenched his phone, and finally heard Bai Yichen's words like a gift after a long while: "Okay, then I'll go with you."

Le Dong breathed a sigh of relief without any trace, and said to Bai Yichen in a relaxed tone: "That's great, I will pick you up in a car later, you should clean up as soon as possible."

"Yes." Bai Yichen replied, and put down the paintbrush in his hand.

"Baby, I love you to death."

When Bai Yichen heard Le Dong's familiar words, he smiled lightly and said, "Yeah."

"Okay, see you later."

"see you later."

Bai Yichen hung up the phone, stretched out his finger and traced the outline of the person on the canvas, then tilted his head and said, "Baby, I love you so much."

In the painting, Shi Yinan pursed his lips tightly and said nothing, as if Bai Yichen's love words were just a trivial greeting to him, he could keep silent, forget about it, and pretend he didn't hear it , fell on deaf ears.

However, Bai Yichen had long been used to his silence. He sat in front of the painting, quietly looking at the people in the painting, until the paint was completely dry, then picked up the white cloth put aside and covered the easel.

Before the white cloth completely covered the face of the person in the painting, Bai Yichen said softly again: "See you later, baby."

When Bai Yichen got into the car, Le Dong stared into his eyes for a long time, and finally frowned before starting the car and asked, "Have you ever cried?"

"No." Bai Yichen looked up quickly after fastening his seat belt, his eyes filled with astonishment, "It's just that I didn't sleep well last night. Why, are my dark circles obvious?"

"It's fine if you don't have one, have you suffered from insomnia recently?" Le Dong heaved a sigh of relief, started the car and avoided Bai Yichen's gaze.

He didn't like the way Bai Yichen looked at him, it was too affectionate.The strong love inside was almost overflowing, sticking to his breath like sticky honey—but he didn't love him at all, Bai Yichen loved only Shi Yinan forever.

"No, I just didn't sleep well and kept dreaming. Doctor Xia prescribed some medicine for me yesterday. I'll take it first." Bai Yichen stretched out his fingers to press his eyeballs, and said casually.

When the car turned a corner, Le Dong said, "Take less medicine if you can. Those medicines are not very good for your kidneys and liver."

Bai Yichen looked at the scenery passing by outside the window with a smile and perfunctory: "I know."

Hearing his nonchalant tone, Le Dong was a little angry, but quickly held back.

While Bai Yichen looked at Le Dong's side face reflected on the car window, the smile on his lips deepened, and he traced that person's face inch by inch with his eyes almost obsessively, as if he wanted to touch his heart. It is as solemn as carving out a tattoo of him.

"Shi Yinan..." Bai Yichen squirmed his pale lips and called out a silent name.

Le Dong thought that Bai Yichen was looking at the scenery outside the window, but he didn't know that Bai Yichen was looking at him, to be precise, it was him with Shi Yinan's face.

At the class reunion, Bai Yichen heard the voices of many acquaintances, but he couldn't pronounce the names of those people one by one. The women were okay, he could still recognize them clearly, but he could only use affectionate and gentle words from the male classmates. Guang looked back at them - after all, they all had Shi Yinan's deep and handsome face.

Bai Yichen didn't want to come to the class reunion because of this reason. For the first two years, he had been indulging in the pain of Shi Yinan leaving him, completely isolating himself from the outside world. In the last two years, he couldn't recognize anyone.

He was thinking about Shi Yinan so much that he was going crazy, in his dreams and out of his dreams, when he was awake and when he was drunk, his mind was full of him.

He draws crazily, draws Shi Yinan's face, takes out the albums of the two of them together and looks at them repeatedly, fearing that he will forget this face, the person he loves so deeply.

Others say that he is the darling of God, with an extremely delicate, handsome face like a god in an oil painting, a voice that makes people intoxicated and unwilling to wake up, a very high talent for painting, and the ability to learn languages .

Bai Yichen felt the same way.

Everything is fine except for his emotional distress.God seemed to love him so much that he didn't even let him die after committing suicide, and even after his third suicide attempt, he still allowed him to see the person he wanted to see the most.

In the hospital, in the studio, in the supermarket, and on the street, he can see Shi Yinan everywhere.

He no longer needs to remember this person he loves deeply through drawing or taking photos, he can see the vivid, expressive ones, and Shi Yinan who will smile at him.

Le Dong has been standing by Bai Yichen's side all the time. Whenever other people greet Bai Yichen, Le Dong will quickly call out that person's name, saying that he has not seen him for a long time and shake hands with that person, so that it is convenient for Bai Yichen to say hello to Bai Yichen. Communicate with that person without barriers.

However, when an extremely tall man walked in front of Bai Yichen, Le Dong suddenly seemed to have lost all the ability to speak, and stood silently by the side without speaking.

Although Bai Yichen was a little strange, the man in front of him kept silent, and he couldn't recognize who he was.He could only raise his head, eyes full of affection, greedily looking at this man whose height was almost the same as Shi Yinan, stretched out his right hand and said softly "Long time no see", then silently guessed who he was in the bottom of his heart.

Bai Yichen was 1.8 meters tall, but Shi Yinan was taller than him, so tall that he could easily hold him in his arms, and fucked him on the bed until he couldn't straighten up.

Who is this man?Bai Yichen was a little distressed, it seemed that apart from Shi Yinan among his classmates, there was no one with such a tall height.

But he can't be Shi Yinan.

However, the man quickly said, "Yichen, long time no see."

Bai Yichen's outstretched hand trembled almost invisibly, and he suddenly wanted to rush forward, hug the person in front of him fiercely, and sniff his breath greedily - because this person's voice is so similar to he.

Unfortunately it wasn't him.

Shi Yinan left, he won't come back, he doesn't want him anymore.He didn't even want him, so how could he come back?

He is not Shi Yinan.

It would be great if he was Shi Yinan.

The man stretched out his hand, and held Bai Yichen's with a generous and warm hand, which immediately warmed his somewhat cold fingers.Bai Yichen lowered his head and looked at the hands that were clasped by the two, feeling the warmth of the palms, and was slightly lost in thought. The next moment, he heard Le Dong's trembling voice:

"Shi Yinan, long time no see..."