wilderness

When he was about to step up to follow, Brother Gao behind him stopped him, "What is Xiao Gu looking at? Don't look directly at the sun for a long time, or your eyes will be damaged."

Gu Beiqiao smiled at Brother Gao, ran into the carriage and dragged his backpack out, "Brother Gao, I found someone."

"Ah?" Gao Yan looked around subconsciously, "Where is it?"

"Over there." Gu Beiqiao pointed in the direction of the setting sun.

"Oh, I said, what are you looking at... I can't see so far away even with my short-sighted eyes, so are you leaving? I didn't expect you to be gone on the first day!" Brother Gao smiled.

Gu Beiqiao lowered his head and took out all his money from his bag, "Thank you for bringing me here."

"Oh, no need! Why are you giving so much?" Brother Gao took some symbolically, "Enough is enough."

"No, I'll give it to you, I don't need it either."

"Although it's true that you don't need much money on the grassland, you can take it and use it when you go back. I have enough for this." Brother Gao stuffed the rest back into his hand, "What are you doing here? Be careful, if you see dogs or cows, don’t approach them, these animals are fierce, remember to wear thicker clothes at night.”

Gu Beiqiao nodded, "Understood, I have to go." He said goodbye, and then walked towards the woman.

He heard Brother Gao yelling behind him: "Get in the car and go! We have to get to the accommodation before dark!"

"Oh? Why did Xiao Gu go there?"

"He, he found someone..."

Those voices gradually faded away, and finally there was a car honking.

Gu Beiqiao turned around and waved at them, shouting loudly, "Goodbye!"

The off-road vehicle finally started and drove the four of them away.

Looking back, Gu Beiqiao stared blankly at the vast wilderness, with endless dry grass under his feet, and the woman in front of him was still some distance away.As he walked, the woman also walked forward vaguely, "Come on, come here." It seemed to be leading the way for him.

The woman began to sing a song he was familiar with, and the soft voice reminded him of those dreams, no, maybe it wasn't a dream.Old sycamore, wild flowers, blue rabbit, little yellow, and her.

He ran to catch up. The woman walked very slowly, but he couldn't keep up. He was still separated by such a distance. He listened to her song and followed the red figure, as if he was fascinated. like.

When I was tired from running, I left, and after walking for a while, I started running again. Before I knew it, it was almost dusk.When the sunset just happened to be at the top of the slope, the woman also walked to the top of the hill. Her hair was plated with a layer of golden red, and her back was gentle and powerful.

He had already thrown away Gu Beiqiao's bag, his hands were empty, but he was still chasing after him with great difficulty. The thin oxygen made his limbs weak and he broke out in a cold sweat.He stood at the foot of the mountain and looked up at the top of the slope. The woman stopped at this moment and looked back at him. Her gaze was determined and firm. The afterglow painted her silhouette. She waved to him again, "Come here, Qiaoqiao." .”

Gu Beiqiao took a deep breath and climbed up the hillside on the soft ground.

Wait for me, don't go!He shouted in his heart.

He can still clearly remember that whenever she called him, she would always say: "Come here, Qiaoqiao! If you don't come here, mother is leaving!" Looking at the smiling face of the woman, he suddenly felt infinitely wronged, and fell while climbing. with tears.

The woman waited for a while, then lowered her head and sighed, "Come here, Qiaoqiao, if you don't come here again, mother is leaving." She turned her head to look at the sunset, and repeated: "Mom is leaving." This time she didn't Then turned around and walked to the other side of the hillside.

Her figure was getting lower and lower, and the hillside soon covered her lower body.

"Mom!" Gu Beiqiao yelled, exhausting all his remaining strength, "Wait for me..." He fell down on the hillside, and his face soon became wet when he pressed against the ground. I don't know if it was tears or Dew on dry grass.

He wiped his face indiscriminately, got up on hands and feet and continued to chase forward, muttering while running: "Don't leave me again!"

The woman walked forward unmoved as if she hadn't heard it. When the top of her head was submerged behind the hillside, the sun withdrew its last ray of light.

When Gu Beiqiao climbed to the top of the slope, there was only the sky and the empty grassland in front of him.

There is no woman, no sycamore, no blue rabbit and little yellow, not even the boy with the wheat-colored skin.

Gu Beiqiao stood at the top of the slope, and suddenly he had a feeling that it was all fake.He thought to himself, the dream is false, the world is false, they are all false, so what about himself?Is it true or not?

At this moment, he seems to be a thin and short tree, standing on this endless grassland, the sky is high and the earth is wide, only he is so small.

The sunset also dissipated little by little, and the dark blue night fell.He let the wind blow, and looked towards the place where the woman disappeared.The thin air on the plateau made him dizzy, and it was difficult to stand still. He knelt on the ground and lay down on his back. At some point, the sky was full of bright stars.

The chill of the night came bit by bit, a single-clothed boy curled up in an open field, the grassland he had longed for at his feet, but it wasn't.

Gu Beiqiao thought of the blue rabbit.On his sixth birthday, he saw a grandma who sold pets on the overpass. She was sitting on a ponytail, with seven or eight cages in front of her, including kittens, puppies, and little white rabbits.

The snow-white rabbit secretly looked at him with a pair of big eyes in the cage.

Grandma pointed to the rabbit and said, "Look at how similar you are, you are both obedient. Buy it, and it will stay with you."

He looked at the cage enviously, and then asked Gu Tianze with his eyes.

Mom said: "What a cute rabbit, buy one for Qiaoqiao!"

Dad winked at Mom, and then picked him up, "Qiaoqiao, the white one is too ordinary. Later, Dad will buy you a blue rabbit! Its front teeth are long and big!" Then they left In the small shop at the corner of the street, Gu Tianze pointed to the blue rabbit doll and said to him: "It is not an ordinary doll. If you listen quietly in the dead of night, you can hear it." Talking!"

Gu Beiqiao firmly believed in this, and when he went to elementary school, he couldn't follow Gu Tianze to work on the construction site.He came back from school early, and usually finished his homework for the day under the old sycamore tree downstairs. At this time, Gu Tianze almost returned to the community.The father and son went upstairs together, Gu Tianze went to cook and put the hot food on the table, and the two of them stared at the clock on the wall together.

"Three two one, seven forty!" Gu Beiqiao cheered and ran to open the door. When the door opened with a 'squeak', Huang Min also appeared at the door.

"I'm back! I'm exhausted!" Mom threw down her purse, washed her hands and sat down at the dining table. The family of three began to eat dinner.

There is also the small wilderness behind the construction site when I was a child.The two railway tracks pass through the grassland composed of dogtail grass and Gesang flowers, extending from east to west.Sometimes when a gust of wind blows, he stands among the weeds and looks at the end of the railroad track, hoping that a train will roar past, and some strangers will get off the train and wave to him.

If someone really greeted him, then he would definitely tell him his secret.

When the time comes, his mother will pick him up.Then came a voice: "Qiaoqiao come here quickly! Eat popsicles!"

Mom bought some popsicles from Xinrong Building Materials, "Go, give this to Dad."

Gu Beiqiao licked the one in his hand, and ran inside to deliver popsicles to Gu Tianze.When I came back, my own was almost finished.

"How soon will Dad be home?" Mom waited at the door.

Gu Beiqiao squeezed the wooden stick in his hand, and replied: "Father said he will come out soon, and told us to wait for him!"

Huang Min pursed his lips and smiled, beckoning him to go, "Qiaoqiao, let's hide first, pretend not to wait for Dad, let Dad worry, okay?"

Gu Beiqiao nodded happily because of this prank, and sat in Xinrong Building Materials with his mother, waiting for Gu Tianze to come out.

The boss of Xinrong Building Materials is a fat man. In summer, he often wears shirtless to reveal his belly fat. He looks at his mother very strangely. Gu Beiqiao doesn't like him very much.

"Sister Huang is here, what's the matter? Are you done with the popsicles? Do you want more?" The fat boss graciously opened the freezer to get the popsicles.

Huang Min said lightly: "No need, I'll sit here and wait for my husband for a while, so I won't delay your business, right?"

The fat boss hurriedly waved his hands, "How could it be? Sister Huang, you are so radiant when you sit next to me! Is Lao Gu not off work yet? How is it? Is the salary okay? My second uncle from my hometown works on the construction site There are two houses..."

Huang Min's complexion got worse and worse, and finally he pulled Gu Beiqiao away with a cold face.

"Mom, aren't we waiting for Dad?" Gu Beiqiao staggered when she pulled her over.

"Why are you waiting for him?"

That night, Huang Min and Gu Tianze had a quarrel, and Gu Beiqiao hid in the room and shivered. He grabbed the blue rabbit by the ears and comforted it: "Don't be afraid, don't be afraid..."

……

It would be nice if you were always a child, don't grow up, don't lose.

He opened his eyes and looked at the pure Milky Way. What is there that lasts forever like the sky and never disappears like the stars?People will change, scenery will also change, flesh and blood loess, vicissitudes of life, nothing is eternal.

The cold dew wetted his thin clothes, the chill from the ground chilled his body, his teeth began to chatter, and his heart felt empty, cooling down little by little.

It's cold, if only there was a fire, as it says in the magazine: Burn it all down.

A dark cloud rolled over, and snow began to fall on the grassland, which was a harbinger of winter.

Herdsmen drove their yaks and horses down the mountain one after another, and also started their annual migration.Tibetan mastiffs follow left and right, running on the grassland.The snow on the peak of the snow mountain in the distance reflects a holy white light at night, and the herdsman sitting on horseback puts his hands together and shouts from a distance: "Tashi Dele!"

The author has something to say:

Growing up is a loss. Everything that Gu Beiqiao once owned has left him. The wilderness in his heart is not just a grassland full of flowers, but it carries everything he has lost. This kind of wilderness , that made him think about it.However, when the author uses this name, it means that he will not get the desired result.The wilderness, the open field, there was nothing there, and he was doomed to be disappointed.But after disappointment, there will be hope, and only starting a new life will make him forget the past.It is impossible for people to live only in yesterday, and the future life may not be as happy as before. This is what the author of Nostalgia has always wanted to tell himself.

alright!There is another important thing to talk about so much, that is: I am on the third watch today! ! !It is a small compensation for the past few days. . .Continue tomorrow!