you lost me

"I'm going to go to the bathroom." Qin You was blocked from the way, "Handsome guy, step aside, he's blocking the way!"

There was a cool breeze blowing in from the back door, Jiang Juan raised his eyes subconsciously, and was taken aback by Yu Ming who shouldn't be here, but he would not narcissistically think that Yu Ming came to find him specially.

Qin You held his hands holding the painting and was full of praise for his own painting. When he realized it, Jiang Huangzhi had already pulled his hand away and dropped the painting on the ground.

"Yu Ming." Jiang Huangzhi seldom smiled with sincerity, and at this time, because he saw the person he was thinking about, even his tone softened a little.

Qin You was attracted by such a smiling face: "What are you looking at?"

Yu Ming came in through the back door, his high-end leather shoes that were out of place creaked on the aged wooden floor: "Jiang Wangzhi, why are you here?"

The Dean signaled silence through the front door.The sensible children quieted down obediently, not daring to make a sound.

Jiang Huanzhi said honestly: "I am teaching the little ones to draw."

"Are you a friend?" Qin You glanced at Yu Ming, who was about the same height and dressed in suits and leather shoes.

Friends... Jiang Huangzhi never wanted to be Yu Ming's friend, let alone admit the word.

"Not a friend..."

Yu Ming ignored Qin You, looked at Jiang Juzhi and asked, "Are you free?"

His expression was as cold as ever, Jiang Juanzhi was taken aback: "It's... not bad."

"Well, it's fun." Yu Ming turned his head and left surrounded by a group of people.Looking at the familiar back, Jiang Juzhi's smile froze at the corner of his mouth, and he couldn't take it back and turned into a wry smile.

Am I making him mad again?

Jiang Huangzhi's absent-mindedness lasted until he returned home. He didn't even know when there was a third person in the address book, and he stared blankly at a bound book of children's paintings.

Children are the most spiritual, Jiang Juanzhi shook his head to let himself not think too much, and read the art collection to decompress.Cute little animals, green strokes, turning to the last one is a "gluttony" with teeth and claws.

A line of words was written at the bottom of the drawing paper: Handwritten by Qin Youyou, presented to Teacher Jiang.

"The handwriting is beautiful, and the painting is average." Jiang Huangzhi put away the album properly, and the phone was vibrating in his pocket, and now he couldn't answer it, so he called Yu Ming directly.

Sure enough, the caller was Qin You, and Jiang Wangzhi didn't quite remember what Yu Ming said to them after he left, and whether there was anything inappropriate, so he answered the phone and said, "I'm sorry."

Qin You stopped for two seconds: "Ah? I'm sorry, your wallet was dropped on the car, shall I bring it to you?"

Jiang Juzhi glanced out the window, it was already a dark and moonless night, at first he wanted to say that there was no money in it and just throw it away, but then he thought that there was the only photo of him and Yu Ming in the wallet, and said: "Don't bother, wait I'll get it myself in two days."

"Success, you should rest early, thank you so much today!" Qin You didn't forget to add, "I will call you together next time, the children like you very much."

like me?Does anyone else like me?

Jiang Juzhi slowly agreed: "Okay..."

Hanging up the phone, Jiang Juanzhi was lying on the bed, listening to the ticking of the pendulum clock, it was obviously very late, but his thoughts were extremely clear, usually he was forced to fall asleep only when his body was exhausted to the limit.

After tossing and turning, he took out the pajamas that Yu Ming wore a few days ago from the closet. His breath was no longer there, only the nice smell of lavender sachet in the closet.

Jiang Huanzhi hugged his pajamas, feeling a little self-deceitful of peace of mind, just thinking that a person would really think to his bones, thinking of chest tightness and pain.If it's resentful or annoying, it's even better, at least it won't be so uncomfortable.

Every word and deed of Yu Ming affects Jiang Huangzhi.

He has never been angry with Yu Ming. In this situation, Jiang Huangzhi will only reflect on whether he is not good enough?Or is there something wrong?Or... now he is not what he likes.

"I miss you so much." Jiang Juanzhi curled up on the double bed, reminiscing the initial beauty alone like every lonely night.

When he first came to this city, Yu Ming didn't tell him what his job was, but according to Yu Ming's idea of ​​leaving early and returning late, Jiang Luzhi guessed that he was an ordinary office worker.

Jiang Wangzhi refused to accept the bank card given by Yu Ming, and stubbornly searched for a job in a strange city, because what he pursued was equal love.

No matter how late Yu Ming would come back, he would bring him all kinds of sweets, cakes, apple pie, donuts...

In the past, at home, the love of his parents made the carefree Jiang Huangzhi not like sweets. After leaving home, all kinds of pressures from life swarmed him. Even with Yu Ming by his side, he still often felt the pressure .

Jiang Huanzhi likes to nest in Yu Ming's arms, eat cream all over his face, and then rubs on Yu Ming's face, sharing his little happiness.

Jiang Huangzhi always said: "Life is too bitter, I can't have bitterness in my mouth, I want to add sugar."

A word from Yu Ming can be remembered for a lifetime.

"It's not bitter, I'm here."

When you are here, it will still be bitter, and I am only willing to suffer.

In the middle of the night, Jiang Juanzhi forgot to cover the quilt, and couldn't fall asleep after waking up from the cold, so he poured himself a cup of hot water and took out the candy Qin You gave him from his pocket.

"Which bottle of medicine?" Jiang Juanzhi worried about the bottles and cans in the medicine box, regretting tearing off the labels, and when he couldn't find them, he simply poured out two pills from each box.

Anyway, you can eat it if you can't die.

Frowning, he drank the whole glass of water before swallowing the medicine. Jiang Huanzhi couldn't resist the bitter taste of the good medicine even if he took apart the sugar and put it in his mouth.

"My head is a little dizzy." Jiang Juanzhi leaned on the sofa, his eyelids were heavy, and he only remembered before he fell asleep that there was a bottle of sleeping pills, and he could only take one tablet.

How long do the two have to sleep?No matter, just sleep until you wake up naturally...

The assistant originally wanted to deliver the travel ticket to Jiang Huangzhi for Yu Ming, but for some reason, Yu Ming kept thinking about Jiang Huazhi's laughter that he hadn't seen for a long time.Even if it wasn't out of deep love, he didn't want to see Jiang Huanzhi laughing at others defenselessly.

After finishing his work, Yu Ming took the time to make a phone call to Jiang Huangzhi, listening to the call changed from the waiting music to a busy signal, this was the first time Jiang Wangzhi didn't answer his call.

Without a second call, Yu Ming accidentally turned off his date with Ruan Wei, and drove to the apartment where he didn't want to set foot too much.

The door was ajar, and Yu Ming pushed it open displeased: "The door is not closed, aren't you afraid of being stolen?"

The light in the living room was turned on to the brightest, there were sugar wrappers and overnight boiled water on the table, and the whole table was filled with bottles and jars, and the smell of medicine was pungent.

Jiang Huanzhi, who was wearing thin clothes, was sleeping on the sofa, curled up in a ball, with his head buried in his knees.

"Jiang Huangzhi." Yu Ming walked over and pushed, "Wake up."

The people on the sofa didn't move, Yu Ming followed closely.She hugged his shoulders and squeezed Jiang Huanzhi's face: "What's wrong with you?"

The ups and downs of his chest reassured him a lot. Jiang Huanzhi slowly opened his eyes, and met Yu Ming's anxious expression before he could retract it: "Good morning, Yu Ming."

"Why are you taking so much medicine?" Yu Ming let go of him and sat on the empty seat next to him.

Jiang Luzhi hadn't woken up yet, and he was resting his hands on his forehead with a splitting headache. The side effects of sleeping pills were worse than the hangover: "I had a cold, so I took some medicine."

"Cold again, have you eaten yet?" Seeing his dry lips, broken eyes and listless eyes, Yu Ming felt disgusted from the bottom of his heart.

Jiang Huangzhi tidied up his messy clothes a little uneasily, for fear of reading dissatisfaction from his expression: "No, how about you?"

"I've eaten it, you can eat some yourself later." Too lazy to explain, Yu Ming was used to lying to Jiang Huangzhi.

Jiang Juzhi smiled: "Okay, do you want to do it?"

Yu Ming's coming here for the past two years is nothing more than venting his body's needs and enjoying Jiang Huanzhi's obedience, nothing else.

"No." Yu Ming gave him the plane ticket, "You can go next week. One month."

Jiang Huangzhi was still laughing, but when he heard him say no, he felt a lot more relaxed: "Okay."

Yu Ming got up and was about to leave. Maybe it was because he woke up from a beautiful dream. Jiang Huangzhi held his hand unwillingly: "Yu Ming, are you driving me away?"

Yu Ming turned around and pulled his hand away: "Jiang Wangzhi, what I admire most about you is that you don't get entangled like other people, do you understand? That's why I'm still willing to treat you well."

Tangled?No, I want to get entangled with you, but I dare not...

nice to me?Why can't I feel it?

Jiang Ruanzhi looked like a collapsed balloon, and lowered his hand: "You were not like this before."

"What do you want from me? If two men are together, can I spend my whole life with you?" Yu Ming sat down again.

"Six years ago, I was young, and you were even younger and more energetic."

With trembling hands, Jiang Huanzhi picked up the cold water on the table, and the pain in his heart eased after drinking it.

"I admit that I like you, but it's not enough to affect my life. So, don't expect too much from me."

After Yu Ming finished speaking, he kissed his moist lips heavily.

Yu Ming's feelings for Jiang Huanzhi are illusory and existent, and he can let go of them, but he is reluctant to let them go. When they are buried in his body, the irreplaceable warmth of others is like a poppy stirring his whole body.

Jiang Huanzhi understood the truth, but he still bit the back of his hand and cried silently, enduring the loveless intercourse, and felt nothing but pain.

What else can I do?A path chosen by oneself, even if the person who accompanied him parted ways with him, he still had to pursue it. Is this his devotion or baseness...

Cry quietly, after crying, love him again...

"Yu Ming."

When Jiang Huangzhi woke up again, the plane tickets and checks were piled up next to his pillow, the temperature on his body had cooled down, and there were only dense marks that could not be removed for a while.

"If you get married, I'll leave, stay away from your life, and never bother you again." Jiang Huazhi's whisper echoed in the empty room.

Always give yourself an idea, obsession is Jiang Huangzhi's only hope now.Yu Ming never knew how important he was to him.

No matter how much medicine you take, it can't compare to Yu Ming's "I love you" that can make him recover.