you lost me

24 hours a day, again and again.

Jiang Huanzhi quickly fell asleep that night, and had a dream that he had never had before.In the afternoon six years ago, in an elegant coffee shop, there were two young men in their prime, one focused on painting, the other focused on watching, and neither of them disturbed the other.

Opening his eyes, the storm outside the window has calmed down, and the sunlight is struggling to squeeze out a little gap from the thick clouds, shining on the dark ground.

Jiang Huangzhi took out the vegetables in the refrigerator and warmed them up, and stuffed them into his stomach in two mouthfuls. His stomach was a little too heavy, and he was extremely uncomfortable. He sat on the sofa in a daze for a while, and then remembered to do what he should do every day thing.

Clean up, wash, dress, eat, draw, feed the chickens.

My brain may not be very bright, and I didn't finish it in order, but I did it all over again.

It was an ordinary day for Jiang Huangzhi. He finished his work in a very free manner, and even felt good. He finished the part of the little white rabbit and wolf in the evening, and was going to call Qin You to ask the rest Content, saw a strange text message just sent.

【I'll be waiting for you in the carousel shed downstairs at your house】

Who will it be?Jiang Huangzhi went downstairs without thinking, and when he came to the appointed place, he saw Ruan Wei who was unexpected, which was nothing new.

Ruan Wei, who had just finished the engagement ceremony, came here in casual clothes, and didn't even have time to unload the certificate.

"Jiang Wangzhi, shouldn't you say something to me?"

"Happy engagement." These four words were all Jiang Wangzhi could think of.

"No." Ruan Wei took out a red notebook from her bag, "You should wish me a happy wedding."

The golden font engraved on the little red book: marriage certificate.

Jiang Huangzhi happened to be wearing glasses, so he couldn't see clearly.Things that have already been known to come, are just right in front of them.Completely stopped Jiang Huangzhi's pursuit in six years...

Under Ruan Wei's gaze, Jiang Fangzhi hesitated to speak, and could only say: "Newly married...happy."

"By the way, there is one more thing I want to share with you about my joy with Ming." Ruan Wei took out a piece of paper from her bag, "Look at it."

After hesitating with the paper, Jiang Wangzhi unfolded it. It was a B-ultrasound picture. It was the time when he met her in the hospital that day. Jiang Wangzhi couldn't understand it and asked, "What is this?"

Ruan Wei pointed to the black and white picture in the middle, and said with a smile: "This is a child, I'm pregnant, and Ming is going to be a father."

Feng blew just in time, and as soon as Jiang Huan let go of his hand, the thin paper slipped out of his hand, and he ran in the opposite direction as if fleeing.

"Will you bless us? There will be no future, Jiang Huangzhi."

Ruan Wei's voice came from behind like a ghost, Jiang Huanzhi felt a splitting headache and covered his ears not wanting to hear any sound.

It turned out that he was deceiving himself that he would no longer feel uncomfortable these days, the shattered hopes spread all over his body, which made him feel uncomfortable several times, and he went crazy... Jiang Huangzhi would rather be crazy, at least he didn't have to let his own reason exist, and he didn't have to take into account other people's feelings .

In the end, he stumbled back home, picked up the phone tremblingly, and dialed the home number he knew so well. The voice waiting for the answer reassured him.

"Hello? That one?"

After years of baptism, my father's voice became old.

"Hello..." Facing his long-lost family, Jiang Huangzhi choked up and said, "Father."

The person on the other end of the phone fell silent.

"I miss you and mom so much, can I..." Go home.

"You still have the nerve to mention your mother? She is dead, and you are angry to death, Nizi, what I regret the most is raising a son like you. I don't need your greetings. I just need you and me to stay away from each other forever." !"

The phone was hung up, and Jiang Huanzhi said in a low voice, "May I go home..."

sorry Sorry sorry.it's all my fault!

Jiang Huanzhi regretted it, these six years seemed to have exhausted his entire life, the sins he owed to himself and his parents, how can he pay for it?

Scratching and beating his head repeatedly, Jiang Huangzhi poured all the remaining medicine into his mouth and chewed for a long time before swallowing it completely.

Yu Ming was busy with some urgent matters, and received a text message from Ruan Wei on the way here.

[Ming, Jiang Huanzhi came to me and said he wished us happiness.He told you not to look for him anymore, where are you now?I just finished the engagement ceremony, you should be by my side~]

I don't believe that Jiang Huangzhi can go to Ruan Wei to talk about such things, but Yu Ming still wants to see him.

But seeing Jiang Huanzhi calmly feeding the chicken.Yu Ming's attitude as if nothing happened made Yu Ming furious.

"You don't care that I'm going to get married, and what are you doing with Ruan Wei?" Yu Ming squeezed his wrist, forcing him to turn around and face him.

In order to cover up his swollen eyes from crying, Jiang Huangzhi kept his glasses off, and said with a light smile, "Is there any difference between I care and I don't care?"

Yu Ming really wanted that he could convey his bad emotions to him through beating and scolding like other people, instead of acting like this had nothing to do with him, which made him feel uneasy.

"There is a difference." Yu Ming let go of his pinched wrist.

"Then I don't care." Jiang Huangzhi lied to Yu Ming for the first time, it turned out to be so simple...

"I don't love you anymore, I don't care."

A crisp sound, "snap", echoed in the living room.

When Jiang Wangzhi looked away, his cheeks were already red and swollen.Feeling the glasses slipping from the bridge of the nose, being slapped to the ground, bouncing and falling in vain, and finally breaking into two pieces.

When Yu Ming withdrew his hand, he regretted it, he really hit Jiang Huangzhi...

Jiang Juzhi silently picked up the remains of the glasses and threw them into the trash can.

A swollen face and glasses are definitely not good-looking. He didn't have the heart to think about such things: "Yu Ming, do you have anything else to do? Or another slap?"

"You!" Yu Ming raised his broad palm in a gesture, and Jiang Juzhi's expressionless face was like a thorn, which made him unable to move his hand.

Jiang Huangzhi brought his hand to his face, and stroked it like a lover: "I don't hurt, I'm leaving, don't come to me."

Yu Ming calmed down: "Where are you going?"

"Going home is the small city we met six years ago, isn't it beautiful?" Jiang Huangzhi said.

Yu Ming put down his hands: "I'll just pretend you're going to relax, and I'll pick you up after I've been busy for a while."

"it is good."

Jiang Juzhi's eyes brightened: "There is only one week left, and we will be seven years old."

"Well. I'll go back first."

Jiang Huangzhi looked at his back, the same as before, he didn't have the courage to call out to him before, but now he is not afraid of his boredom, and calls out to him: "Yu Ming!"

"Huh? What's the matter?" Yu Ming walked to the entrance and looked at him standing by the window.

"You are about to become a father too, can you take into account the feelings of the little guys in the orphanage." Jiang Huangzhi walked over and straightened his bow tie.

It turned out to be such an insignificant matter, Yu Ming kissed him on the mouth: "Okay, I won't touch the orphanage."

"Yeah." Jiang Juanzhi waved goodbye, "Goodbye."

"Hold one, maybe we won't see each other for a while." Yu Ming opened his hands.

Without even thinking about it, Jiang Huangzhi rushed forward and hugged him.Yu Ming buried his head in the hollow of his shoulder: "Goodbye, wait for me."

goodbye……

Jiang Huangzhi called Qin You.

"What's behind that story?"

Qin You is still busy with work: "I'll call you back later."

"Send text messages, call, I may not be able to answer."

"to make."

There were only three phone numbers in the phone book. Jiang Huangzhi deleted Yu Ming's number and called Qin You.

"Hello? What's the matter? I'm on the night shift? Do you want to visit me in the hospital?" Qin Youbai sat in the studio bored.

"No, I want to ask you something." Jiang Huangzhi said. "I sorted out my painting tools and put them in my house. I left the keys at the doorman. Can you take them some time and send them to the orphanage?"

Jiang Wangzhi said such a long series of words at once, which caught her off guard, so she agreed, "Okay, okay."

"I hang up first."

"Hey, let's talk for a while." Qin You took a notebook and wrote down what he said, "I decided to resign at the end of the year and go to teach in an orphanage!"

"pretty good."

"Want to be together?"

Jiang Juanzhi held the phone for a long time: "I'll hang up first, goodbye."

"Okay~ I'm free to chat."

Jiang Huangzhi finished all the phone calls, as if he had been relieved of heavy shackles.After opening the lock of the birdcage, the chick seemed to be asleep, instead of chirping as usual.

"When Xiaoyou comes to get things, he should be able to take you away by the way."

Jiang Huangzhi stroked its tiny head.I left the house where I lived for six years without taking anything.

Wine-red sunset, brilliant afterglow.Jiang Huanzhi squinted his eyes due to the cold wind and wanted to look at this beautiful scenery.I never knew that the highest point of the place where I lived was so vast.

Jiang Huanzhi took the last bit of afterglow into his eyes, turned his gaze away, and focused on his feet, without feeling dizzy.

It only takes one step to take him away, find his mother, and make atonement.

Regret... no use.I can't catch up, I'm too tired.19 carefree years plus six years of hard work, 25 years is enough.

No one was sorry for him, Yu Ming just did what he had to do.Something any man should do.

If it is really possible to do it all over again, I must obey my parents' wishes, marry a wife and have children, and live a peaceful and ordinary life.

"Goodbye, Mr. Yu."

Jiang Huanzhi took heavy steps with relief.

……

Yu Ming was driving the car, flustered for no reason, forcing him to turn back and look for Jiang Huangzhi who could make him feel at ease.

In the bedroom, in the living room, in the kitchen.There are no familiar figures.

"Are you leaving? So fast?" Yu Ming sat on the sofa, his eyes could just see the blue pajamas in the trash can, and the decoration on his chest was torn to pieces.There are also a few pieces of broken gold-rimmed glasses.

Pick up the glasses from the trash can and put them on the table for splicing.No matter how perfect the glasses are, the shatters will stay forever and ever.

I vaguely remembered that this was five years ago today, the birthday present he gave to Jiang Huangzhi.

"My ginger painter looks great with this."

Yu Ming smiled lowly, and decided to buy another pair for Jiang Huanzhi.

When you pick up your pajamas, fold them and hold them in your hand.

"Yu Ming! I love you!"

"Yu Ming! I love you!"

The chick flapped its wings, opened its mouth and made a sharp sound, pronouncing every word accurately.It can be seen how hard the master professor is.

Yu Ming approached the window, imitating Jiang Juzhi to tease the chicken.He took out his mobile phone and called Jiang Huangzhi, wanting to tell him.

I miss you.

The sound of "beep, beep" on the phone, the continuous noisy crowd downstairs, and the sound of police sirens from far and near were mixed together.

so harsh...

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The author has something to say: Please comment and collect after reading!Bookmarked over a hundred yards!There is no outline for this goofy article, and I have finished writing it!It's probably such a story, love can't get it, and there is nothing left in the end.