I Treat You as a Brother

What kind of experience is it that someone who has been secretly in love with someone for a long time seems to be interested in him?

Fang Mo lay on the bed, rolling around, unable to sleep at all.

He thought, maybe I was thinking too much.Then I thought, maybe I didn’t overthink it.The two thoughts were mixed together in his mind, going around in circles.He pulled up the quilt to cover his head, then pulled down the quilt to take a deep breath, and then his body continued to turn and turn, turning over endlessly.

All the hints were responded to, and all the feedback was better than expected. Xu Xiran seemed to have different expectations for their relationship.

Xu Xiran seems to like me.

Fang Mo pulled up the quilt again and covered his mouth so that he would not laugh out loud.

Everyone in the dormitory other than him had already fallen asleep, except for his rustling noises, the surroundings were quiet.

He wanted to find someone to talk to, but he didn't have a suitable partner.Zou Shun can't, he's not at school today, he must be with He Chengyi, it's no wonder he's being ignored at this time.

Fang Mo even wanted to get out of bed and drag Liu Xiaochang who was diagonally opposite to him, telling him that I was talking nonsense before and that Xu Xiran and I were not together.But there is a good chance we will be together in the future!

Full of excitement and no one to share, how lonely.

Since he couldn't sleep, Fang Mo simply took out his phone.A certain treasure App shows that he has an unread message.After clicking on it, it was the purchasing agent who consulted a few days ago, telling him that the clothes were bought and he could pay the balance.

Fang Mo was overjoyed.That time when he accidentally tore Xu Xiran's clothes, Fang Mo said that he would buy one to compensate him.Xu Xiran never mentioned it after that, apparently he had forgotten about it.But Fang Mo did not forget.The coat that Xu Xiran brought over later actually looked good on Xu Xiran himself, and the style of this brand unexpectedly suited him.Fang Mo fell in love with their family's new season, and wanted to buy two, give one to Xu Xiran, and wear the rest secretly.

Fearing that Xu Xiran would think it was too expensive and would not accept it, he even thought of an excuse.Just as a birthday present.

It's just that I didn't expect that coat to be so popular and difficult to buy.Originally, Fang Mo was worried that he would miss it due to time constraints, but now he can catch up if he asks the purchasing agent to send an urgent mail alone.

Fang Mo paid the final payment quickly, and then thought happily, when would it be better to ask for an invitation.Xu Xiran's birthday is on Christmas Eve.In recent years, young people have almost turned all similar days into Valentine's Day. If Xu Xiran agrees to spend it with him, it may be a good opportunity to go further.

The illusion is shattered at the speed of light.

"Not that day, my mother said a few days ago that she would come to see me, and I already promised her." Xu Xiran said.

To say not disappointed would be a lie.But Xu Xiran's reason was too righteous and strict, Fang Mo had no choice but to force a smile: "Oh, that's it."

"It's rare for her to come back once, and she made a special trip to celebrate my birthday with me," Xu Xiran added earnestly,

"It's not easy to refuse."

Fang Mo nodded: "I understand!"

After speaking, the two looked at each other with nervous and cramped expressions.

The atmosphere is weird.

"Then...if I go out, who will you spend Christmas Eve with?" Xu Xiran asked again.

Fang Mo pursed his lips and thought for a while: "Let's just pass it up. I still have classes that afternoon, and it's almost the end of the term. I haven't finished my homework yet, so I have to hurry up."

Xu Xiran nodded, but said nothing.

"What time did you go out that day?" Fang Mo asked.

"It's early in the morning," Xu Xiran said, "I need to pick up my mother at the airport first, and accompany her to the hotel to get settled, and then go shopping in the city."

Fang Mo asked again, "What time will you be back?"

"I probably won't come back," Xu Xiran said, "My mother has been here for two days, and I won't come back these two days to accompany her."

"Okay," Fang Mo nodded, "Then come and find me before you go out in the morning, I have something for you."

Xu Xiran raised his eyebrows, as if he wanted to ask, but quickly held back.He nodded and smiled at Fang Mo: "Okay."

His face was full of joy and anticipation from the bottom of his heart.

Fang Mo, who was still somewhat depressed, was immediately infected, and his mood became lighter.

"By the way, what I've always wanted to ask," he said, "are your parents not in China?"

"No, only my mother is abroad. My father is in China, but it's quite far from here." Xu Xiran said.

Fang Mo asked tentatively, "Is it because of work?"

"Did I not mention it to you?" Xu Xiran's expression became a little embarrassed, "They are not together anymore."

"...Ah, I'm sorry." Fang Mo was taken aback for a moment, and quickly apologized.

"It's okay, it's been many years, and they're all good now, and they have a good relationship with me," Xu Xiran smiled at him again, "But since they all have new families, there are not many opportunities to be together."

No wonder he also lives in school during holidays.Both parents have formed a new family. Even if they still have a deep relationship, they may feel uncomfortable when getting along.

Fang Mo thought about it, and felt distressed.

"By the way, I also have a younger brother and a younger sister, both of whom are in elementary school. They are so cute." Xu Xiran looked very happy, "I'll show you the photos next time."

This age difference is undoubtedly the child of his parents after they rebuilt their families.Xu Xiran himself seemed to accept this well, but Fang Mo couldn't bear it when he heard it.

It is impossible for Xu Xiran not to feel wronged in the slightest.Thinking about it, I feel so pitiful, Fang Mo wished he could hug Xu Xiran right now and tell him that it's okay, you and me, you are my unique baby in this world.

Xu Xiran, who was looking at him, quickly showed surprise on his face: "You...what's the matter with you?"

Fang Mo pursed his lips, shook his head, and did not speak.His heart was overflowing with maternal love, so he dared not say it.

"I haven't been abused," Xu Xiran raised his hands dumbfounded, "Why are you crying? My parents are very good to me, really."

His thumb gently wiped the tear mole at the corner of Fang Mo's eye, and wiped away a small tear that was stored in Fang Mo's eye socket.

Then, for some reason, he retracted his hand as quickly as if he had been scalded, and turned his head, with an unnatural color on his cheek.

"...you are too sentimental," he said softly, "I said you must love to cry, but you still didn't admit it."

Fang Mo shook his head and wiped his face with his sleeve: "I don't like to cry, this is different."

"You must have made up your mind," Xu Xiran said, "I have never been wronged."

"...Oh." Fang Mo sniffed.

But what he thought in his heart was, but I felt wronged.

Xu Xiran didn't have a complete family that only belonged to him, didn't have a unique love, and didn't have a real home to go back to during the holidays, Fang Mo felt aggrieved.

"Okay, okay, okay," Xu Xiran smiled helplessly, "It's almost done. If you cry again, I really feel sorry for Bala. Look, my mother flew all the way back to celebrate my birthday with me." right?"

Having said that, Fang Mo didn't feel particularly regretful that Xu Xiran couldn't be with him that day.Xu Xiran is still deeply loved by his mother, which is very important.

He nodded seriously: "Yeah."

"Fang Mo." Xu Xiran suddenly called his name.

"how?"

Although the tears had stopped, his voice was still a little nasal.

"...it's okay," Xu Xiran shook his head again, "it's nothing."

Fang Mo immediately stretched out his hand to tug at him: "Tell me!"

Xu Xiran laughed and sighed again: "This is the first time I see someone cry because of this."

"what?"

"When everyone hears about it, they usually just express regret or comfort and enlighten me..." Xu Xiran said, "Why are you crying?"

Fang Mo blushed: "I don't know."

Xu Xiran asked again: "Why are you crying?"

"...I got sand in my eyes."

This is obviously nonsense, and even the person who said it feels false.But Xu Xiran didn't raise any objection.He nodded and moved slightly closer.

"Then let me blow it up for you?" He asked.

Fang Mo panicked, and immediately turned his head: "It's gone."

Only half a second later, he overturned the preface.

"There seems to be a little more." He lowered his eyes and whispered.

Xu Xiran nodded, raised his hand solemnly, carefully supported Fang Mo's cheek, leaned his head up, and carefully blew into his eyes.

That movement was completely wrong, the sand in the eyes could not be blown away, it only made Fang Mo subconsciously want to close his eyes.

When he really closed his eyelids because of this, a strange warm touch suddenly came from the corner of his eyes.

Fleeting.

He hurriedly opened his eyes, and Xu Xiran's cheeks were flushed in front of him.

"I forgot to ask, which eye is it?" he said.

Fang Mo shook his head blankly.He thought, did this person kiss him just now?

Xu Xiran let go of his hand, lowered his head and touched his nose as a cover-up: "It seems like it's not used anymore, right?"

Fang Mo was still wondering if Xu Xiran kissed him just now.

Xu Xiran's life is indeed not bad, even compared to ordinary peers, it is quite moist.

He told Fang Mo many things after that.

His parents separated when he was in elementary school, and he has been living with his father since then.A few years later his father remarried to a very gentle woman who was very kind to him and always courteous.Even after adding a younger sister to him, she didn't treat one more favorably than another, on the contrary, she would deliberately favor him more.When he was in high school, he began to live on campus, and when he came home on weekends, the table was always full of his favorite dishes.

Nothing bad.But looking at the happy and harmonious appearance of their family of three, he didn't know why he didn't like to go back anymore.If you think about it carefully, it may be that something called a sense of belonging is missing.

His stepmother was afraid that he had a grudge, so she discussed with his father to buy him a house, and his name was the only one on the birth certificate.

Xu Xiran thought it was unnecessary at first, but later thought it was quite good.He doesn't want to live, but he can finally buy things recklessly without worrying about having no place to pile them up.

His mother went abroad after breaking up with his father, and soon had a new family of her own.But she has never lessened her concern for him over the years, asking about his health, sending gifts from time to time, coming back to see him every year, and giving him a lot of pocket money.

Can't find fault with all of them.

All relatives say that although his parents are divorced, he is still very happy.Friends around him since he was a child have always envied him for being able to get two allowances.If you really ask him to talk about his dissatisfaction, he can't say it.They are all very good, even his two half-blood siblings like him very much.

There shouldn't be anything to be sad about.

But there happened to be a little fool who burst into tears after listening to it halfway.

Xu Xiran couldn't help but wonder if this little fool also secretly liked him.

In the following week, Xu Xiran's class got a lot of luck, and they got a bye and were promoted directly.But for Fang Mo, this is really not good news.This meant that he could no longer find an excuse to mess with Xu Xiran.

The lack of opportunities for intimacy does not prevent them from sticking together every day like conjoined twins.Occasionally, Fang Mo felt that, except for the absence of the expected physical contact, the two of them seemed to be no different from a real couple.

As Christmas Eve approached, Fang Mo's originally good mood gradually became restless.

There was something wrong with his package and it got stuck in customs for an unusually long time.By the time I finally got out of the customs and set foot on the journey again, it was too late.

On the night of the 23rd, the official website showed that the package had arrived in this city, and he received news from Xu Xiran who was obviously excited.

"Is it too early for me to come to you at seven?"

At this time, even if the package is delivered tomorrow, it will definitely not be able to catch up.Fang Mo grimaced and typed a reply sadly.

"No, don't come here, there's nothing for you."

Xu Xiran quickly answered him with a question mark.

Fang Mo sighed.

"The things haven't arrived yet, let's wait until you go back to school."

It took Xu Xiran a while to reply.

"Then will you be awake at seven o'clock?"

This question sounds weird.Fang Mo has no class tomorrow morning, if it wasn't for Xu Xiran, he would naturally want to sleep in.

"what's wrong?"

he asks.

"If you're awake, then I'll come again."

Xu Xiran said.

Fang Mo got up early in the morning.Xu Xiran showed up before seven o'clock and knocked on the door, waking up everyone in the dormitory except Fang Mo.

There was a lot of complaints in the dormitory, Fang Mo hurried out, and then closed the door carefully.

They were standing in the hallway.Fang Mo was still sleepy, while Xu Xiran was already dressed neatly and looked energetic.

"Hurry up, I'm in a hurry." He looked at Fang Mo with a smile on his face, his eyes were bright, "I came here specially to hear you say something to me."

Fang Mo looked at him dumbfounded: "Happy birthday."

Xu Xiran smiled even more, and nodded: "Then I'm leaving!"

After he finished speaking, he waved at Fang Mo and ran towards the corridor.When he reached the entrance of the corridor, he turned around and looked over from a distance. Fang Mo was still standing at the door.

He waved at Fang Mo, and Fang Mo waved at him.

After his figure completely disappeared, Fang Mo returned to the dormitory and got into bed again to catch up on sleep.

"What are you doing so early in the morning?" one of his roommates complained wearily.

"Oh," the other sighed, "It's like this when you're in love, and you'll die if you don't see each other for half a day."

Fang Mo apologized to them, and then found that he couldn't sleep anymore.

As soon as he closed his eyes, his mind was full of Xu Xiran smiling at him with his eyes narrowed just now.