bullshit

Speechless for a while.

This question has been held in Gu Chi's mind for more than [-] years. Similarly, it has been hidden in Gu Jianyu's mind for more than [-] years.

It was rare for Zhong Congyu to understand the atmosphere once. He stood up from the pile of books and patted the dust off his body: "I, I'm going downstairs to sneak around Wei Ruhong."

Gu Jianyu: "Huh? Sneak?"

"..." Gu Chi was amused by his forced rhythm, and grabbed his arm and pulled it down, "Okay, now the hat is much sharper than it was back then, let's play it safe." Mess with him, come, come, squat down, squat next to me."

Zhong Congyu squatted down silently, and then really moved towards Gu Chi, insisting on rubbing his arm against the opponent's arm, skin to skin.

After this commotion, the atmosphere became much more relaxed.

In the kitchen, there is a stewing pot that is steaming white mist, and there is a lingering rain outside the window. Wei Ruhong is playing with his hands in the living room. The temperature difference between inside and outside the house was a bit large, and a thin layer of frost formed on the glass.

Everything seems to have returned to the old back alley.

A touch of warmth, a touch of sadness.

Gu Jianyu reached out to pick up the album and flipped to the last page, then took out a palm-sized photo from a large pile of old photos and handed it to Gu Chi and Zhong Congyu - the person in the photo was very young, in the age of 16, At the age of 7 years, there were not many dazzling clothes and accessories in that era, and there was no beauty PS that could be called a change of face and head. A simple white shirt with a black pleated skirt, two big braids hanging down On the side, simple and generous to just right.

This face merged with Gu Chi's appearance in a perfect way.

"Do you feel similar to yourself? You are just like your mother." Gu Jianyu smiled and pointed, "Did you see a squatting kid in the background? The one behind the street lamp, yes, this is it, this person is I."

Nearly half a century has passed since the time in the photo, but every time this matter is brought up, the cautiousness and complacency on Gu Jianyu’s face has hardly diminished in the slightest—he still likes to follow each other sneakily That brat.

Neither the godlike appearance nor the surging blood in his bones gave Gu Chi a particularly strong sense of involvement. It was not until he saw the silly behavior and expression of his stinky father that he suddenly found the charm that could be passed down from generation to generation.

He took a peek at Zhong Congyu's side face, and suddenly realized: "It turns out that affection is also inherited."

And Zhong Congyu also seemed to feel something, and suddenly raised his eyes, the two looked at each other, and at the same time bent their eyebrows and eyes at each other.

Next, Gu Jianyu's eyes darkened at a speed that could be caught by the naked eye. He picked up the water glass on the side and filled most of it, and then spit out all the results in one breath: "She was infected with poison when you were two years old. , more than a year later, died of ... a drug/addiction attack."

Zhong Congyu thought: "Sure enough."

Gu Chi was shocked: "What!?"

"Why are you so surprised?" Gu Jianyu frowned, and reached out to close his son's jaw that almost fell to the ground. "At that time, I didn't expect such a thing to happen, but what can I do? There is no way, I I even thought about helping her or stealing or buying some goods back, but I don’t have the ability or the money.”

Gu Chi paused, then asked hoarsely, "How did you get in touch?"

"The bar." Gu Jianyu shook the water glass in his hand, fixed his eyes on the water surface, and watched the small bubbles that were shaken down one by one rise to the surface one by one. Someone shook that thing in."

Gu Chi: "...well, what are you doing there?"

"We didn't run to play. What's so interesting about a place where money is drunk?" Gu Jianyu said. It is not enough to feed a family and you can eat. The benefits of a decent job are not good. The monthly salary is just enough to pay off relatives and friends, and the rest is not even enough to eat. It is really helpless, we have to Go to do part-time work at night."

"But... it didn't take long before something happened."

At that moment, Gu Jianyu's nerves seemed to be split into two. The first one was screaming at himself back then, "Are you crazy! Why did you agree to go to her place!", and the second one was for him decades ago Annoyed and blamed for the powerlessness and fear from the bottom of my heart.

"If I can do it all over again." Gu Jianyu thought in his heart, "Even if I exhaust myself to death in various positions and cannot sleep a wink 24 hours a day, I will never allow this to happen."

Unfortunately, "if" is not true.

The dead cannot be brought back to life.

I won't do it again.

He clearly remembered that the first thing she said to herself in bed after taking drugs unintentionally for the first time was: "I feel a little uncomfortable."

At that time, Gu Jianyu was annoyed by the monthly financial constraints. After hearing this sentence, he just replied lightly: "I'm tired, then go to bed early."

She lifted her head and glanced at the accounts, and found out by accident: "It turns out that the main funding of our family comes from chores at night."

Gu Jianyu smiled wryly: "Yeah, I'm so useless, it's too easy to think about starting a family and starting a business."

"It's not that you're useless." She got up and walked to Gu Chi's side to sit down. The two-year-old boy had an indecent sleeping appearance, with big characters spread out and bubbling nose. She pulled the quilt aside and put it on her son's chubby belly. Then he shook his head at Gu Jianyu, "This era is about to change, we are just unlucky, everyone struggles in adversity, it's okay, I will accompany you."

——They have always believed that they can wait until their day.

The original balance structure began to fall apart, and the banners of "freedom", "equality" and "rationality" were slowly raised in the mud flow. In order to save energy and reduce emissions, the society pushed the useful people forward and put the useless people in On the one hand, the elimination system is activated. If you don't think about it and insist on eating and waiting to die, you will die quietly one day.

Everyone is struggling, and everyone wants to get rid of the status quo, but success and fame is something that can't be achieved by hooking your fingers and daydreaming. After years of precipitation, how much ambition has been honed and squandered high spirited?Braving the big waves washing the sand and climbing up, how many people let go of their hands in the middle and choose to continue to rot?

She also knew that the family of three was going uphill at this moment.

She should be living in the window, carefully cared for and carved ornaments, and kept beautiful all her life.

But I really don't understand what is wrong with this exquisite person's head. He jumped off the altar, dived into the abyss, and struggled.

The days still went back and forth, with no improvement and no major waves.

until one day-

The first time Gu Jianyu noticed something was wrong, he also came home from get off work at night.

That day, Gu Chi had a fever, and children were sick again and again, which was very troublesome. They didn't know how to control their emotions like adults. When they felt uncomfortable, they only knew how to cry. They were vividly thinking about people until very late to control their body temperature. Finally, they breathed a sigh of relief. , As a result, at the moment when the keyhole of the door was turned and opened, what he saw approaching was not the usual gentle and considerate wife, but... a demon that could be called a ghost crawled out of hell.

She hugged her head and screamed in vain: "Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah!"

Gu Jianyu rushed over and grabbed her body that was bumping around, and shouted hurriedly: "What's wrong! What's wrong?!"

The woman's tongue seemed to be unable to straighten, and she spat out some words tremblingly: "Give me...I want meat...give it to me, I'm going to die! I'm going to die without me! I'm so sad! I really It’s so uncomfortable!!!”

The sound was loud, irritating the eardrum like a needle prick.

Gu Jianyu also suddenly understood at this moment.

--poison!

Those white killers hidden under the feasting and feasting aimed their blades at this gentle person, and cut them down mercilessly!

But it's too late now.

Gu Chi was woken up, and ran out the door with bare feet "da da da", after seeing this unrecognizable moment, he was really frightened, sat down on the ground in fright, and cried loudly come out.

Shouts, cries, helplessness, struggle, aggrieved, coercion... Gu Jianyu was in a high degree of suppression, his nerves and pupils shrunk to the size of a needle eye, and he surrounded his mad wife with his limbs, and then tightened his arms tightly. inside.

"It's okay, everything will pass, just grit your teeth and persevere, as long as you persevere..."

He used to paralyze himself like this.

It's a pity that the day when paralysis is forever beaten by reality again.

Until the moment when I learned the truth, all my hard work and sweat fell apart.

He no longer dared to think about how he spent that time. His wife was like a bomb, he didn't know when it would explode. He didn't dare to let the neighbors know about it, and he was afraid to face her For drug/addicted patients, little Gu Chi's uncontrollable fear is the catalyst for this feeling, and the knife is aimed at the heart.

What awaited him was not Yang Kang Avenue, but a dark hell and a cold corpse.

Gu Jianyu felt that the air seemed to be mixed with chili water, every time he took a breath, he could choke his heart and lungs, raging in his body, his hands and feet began to convulse uncontrollably, reality forcibly reassembled and whipped him from the consciousness he was trying to scatter, and then pushed him to question.

"What should I do?" He ran his hands through his hair, "What should I do?"

Gu Chi is still so young, I'm still so powerless, the whole family has just started, and they agreed to go upstream together, why did you abandon us halfway?

Her crazy face overlapped with her usual gentle smile.

The words that the woman once said came to my ears.

"Modern people are divided into three types. Those who are useful are moving forward, those who are useless are abandoned, and the rest are scapegoats who die on this road."

"I hope that I can help you, add fuel to the flames for you, and clear all obstacles for you."

"It's not your fault that the fortune is wrong. We were just born in this age of nonsense."

"You can definitely break free!"

Memories spewed upwards, a few words were connected in series, what was once said under the eaves of the old alley was re-discovered, a small dim yellow lamp was lit in the boundless darkness, the halo was dyed, the child's ignorance, the man The exhaustion of meng lang, as well as the passion and boundless expectations of women.

We have known each other since we were young. For countless days and nights in the past, when we opened the door, we could see the little girl in the neighbor’s house. The other party had a full view of my mischievousness and youthful ambition. These times could not withstand the torture of wind and frost. Doomed to shatter.

The woman couldn't survive the demon and died on a midsummer night.

"Sorry……"

"I can't accompany you until the end..."

The hard work of two generations has finally come to an end today, and all the struggle and suffering have finally come to a sloppy result.

Although the dream came true, it was too late.

More than 20 years have passed.

Gu Jianyu really couldn't control it, he packed up the old books scattered on the floor, put the two surprised photos into his arms, and left like a child who was robbed of candy.

It was during lunch that Gu Jianyu said: "I can no longer find such a person who wholeheartedly escorts me."

In fact, Gu Chi also vaguely remembered some of the later things.

My mother's haggard face and uncontrollable emotions, she was still smiling one second, and screamed in the next second, she looked like a mummy whose soul had been sucked dry, but her eyes were always bright , when looking at himself, there is always gentle warm water inside.

Those hands always touched the top of his head gently.

It turned out that they had been afraid of themselves.

More than 20 years later, the land of the old alley has long been requisitioned by the government for development, and now it has a new look, and she finally broke the dull image that remained in Gu Chi's heart.

By the way, there is also the matter of Gu Jianyu's imprisonment.

He said while eating, "The usury at that time was just a gimmick. Since your mother died, this matter has become a lump in my heart. I can't let it go. Whenever I have an opportunity, I will go to it." To find out, in order to have a certain relationship with them, even if I was taken advantage of, I tried my best to jump into the fire pit. I wanted to know who harmed her. IQ, not only put myself in as a scapegoat, but also implicated you, my son."

——It turned out to be like this.

Gu Chi paused with his hand holding the chopsticks, and glanced at Zhong Congyu's side with some guilt, and finally buried his head in the rice, with the food wrapped in his mouth, he said sullenly, "It's okay, Dad, it's all over."

If it wasn't for this, he and Zhong Congyu would have stopped abruptly at the very beginning.

So, everything is preordained.

While washing the dishes, Zhong received a text message from Yu's mobile phone saying that the weather had turned fine and the plane took off at 03:30 in the afternoon.

Xiao Yu'er made a face like a pumpkin again.

Gu Chi said "Yo", took the rag to wipe off the water droplets on his hands, and said with a smile, "Let's go, fate is hard to break, baby, go and pack your things, I'll see you off, twist Little Red Riding Hood together, after you go back Let him go to school and go to class."

Zhong Congyu observed for a while, no one was around, he leaned over and bit Gu Chi's earlobe lightly, and said in a low voice, "I'll wait for you."

Gu Chi was quick-witted, and covered his face with the handkerchief on his hand.

Gu Chi: "Okay, okay, okay, I just let you wait for me."

Wei Ruhong suddenly popped up a head behind him, and wrote a look of contempt on top of his head: "What! I just heard that you asked me to go back to class! Can you not go!?"

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