I wait for you to see through the scenery

Qu Jia lowered his head and quickly flipped through the few messages on the phone.

One number was obviously Zhou Yao's home landline, and Qu Jia remembered that number, even though he never called Zhou Yao's home.Zhou Yao's mother's tone: [Be careful outside, and return the telegram to be safe.I have to go home for dinner tomorrow night, and I have ordered a New Year's Eve dinner with your classmate's house. 】

In the dim light of the corridor, Qu Jia stared at the text message and read it repeatedly.Outsiders who are not familiar with the situation must not understand this article, only his extremely sensitive mind can understand it.

With the status of "classmate", and the two families can have an appointment to have a New Year's Eve dinner together, Ye Xiaobai and his family are the only ones, and there is no one else.

Qu Jia pressed it, and then pressed down to the next two numbers, which are out-of-town numbers, which seem to be the administrative area code of Harbin.

There were several calls: [Happy New Year, long time no see, brother has been missing you a lot lately. 】

【Yaoyao, I have decided to apply for Tsinghua University. I will definitely pass the exam. I will try to get to Beijing before I can see you. 】

【Struggle shoulder to shoulder with you, don't lose face, this time I must be worthy of you! 】

"..."

Qu Jia "popped" and pressed the pager completely to black screen.He kicked the leg of the stool next to him and mouthed mlgb several times.

He wouldn't scold Zhou Yao like this face to face, if he wanted to scold him, he would scold himself for being stupid.He leaned against the corridor wall, suddenly feeling helpless, waiting for the uncomfortable shadow to slowly expand in his heart.

He did something as stupid as it could be.

In any case, you shouldn't peek at Zhou Yao's pager, it's a private matter, a private chat, it's Zhou Yao's own business.He shouldn't have seen it. After watching it, he was sad and heartbroken but had nothing to say.It really deserves it.

Many sporadic and fine snowflakes fell from the sky, as if the sky was full of stars falling from the sky, flying in the cold winter night.

At that time, Qu Jia came out of the bar and stood on the streets of Beijing. Pure white snowflakes, rain and dew, sprinkled evenly on everyone's heads bit by bit.

In the long barbecue stove on the street, the charcoal fire is burning red, and orange sparks are flying, with an irresistible warmth, setting off the snow scene in front of you.Tang Zheng and Ye Xiaobai were standing by the side of the road eating kebabs.

Ye Xiaobai seemed to ask: "Is it clean? Will eating this cause diarrhea?" Tang Zheng laughed, "I definitely won't if I eat it. I've been immune to all poisons for a long time. You might really have diarrhea."

Ye Xiaobai smiled and said, "Then I want to eat it too, it's delicious."

Ye Xiaobai was quite tall among girls, about 1.7 meters with heels; Tang Zheng was taller, and had to bend slightly when speaking, and when he lowered his head, his chin rested right on top of a girl's head.

On the side of the road and under the tree, the two quietly formed a "human" shape and hugged each other quietly.Tang Zheng seemed to still keep his hands in his trouser pockets and didn't take them out to fumble around. Ye Xiaobai was holding up the meat skewers to eat, and picked a piece of meat from the skewer.The mutton skewers are all fat and thin, and the next piece is big fat meat.Tang Zheng signaled with his eyes, brother, I'll eat this fat for you, and he opened his mouth to grab that piece of fat away.

That picture is really harmonious and perfect.

On the street outside the school, no one knows anyone, no one frowns and asks if you two are compatible? !No one would ask the two of them to compare the results of the exam papers, look at the grade rankings, and no one would discuss with them their family background, academic background and political background. How can two students like you make friends? !

And why can't you make friends?

Zhou Yao glanced at Tang Zheng and the others, and came straight to Qu Jia with two lumps of mutton skewers in his hands.

Qu Jia took out a cigarette.

Qu Jia handed over something: "Your phone."

Zhou Yao said: "Oh, I'm out of hands, help me stuff my pants pocket."

"Hey," Zhou Yao signaled again, "Don't smoke, eat mutton skewers while it's hot!"

"Eat it yourself," Qu Jia said.

"Is it funny?" Zhou Yao looked at Qu Jia with a smiling face, "I bought 25 skewers, are you going to eat me to death? I eat so much by myself, I'll spit blood from my mouth and nose!"

Zhou Yao just sat in the bar and drank half a glass of foreign wine, and his nose bleeds as if he had opened foreign meat. He felt that Qu Jia was very handsome today.Inside Qu Jia's down jacket is a big milky white knitting sweater. Qu Liandi wove it into men's clothing after the sweaters worn by Suzuki Honami in "East Love", which is no different from the ones sold in shopping malls outside.

"What to eat, I bought it specially for you." Zhou Yao smiled brightly and handsomely.

Qu Jia silently took a large handful of meat skewers and started to masturbate.

Boys eat kebabs by the handful, pick them up and start working from side to side, happy and refreshing.There is no nonsense in eating, absolutely killing 10 skewers in 25 minutes, the fat meat is delicious and not greasy.

Zhou Yao solemnly took out the napkin from his pocket, and happily said to himself, "Give Yaoyao a piece of paper", "Give Jiajia another piece of paper", but he used the same piece of paper to give it to Jiajia again after wiping his mouth. Qu Jia wiped his mouth.

Qu Jia wiped his mouth: "Then what, my mother wants to ask you to come to our house for dinner, during the holidays in her factory during the Chinese New Year."

"Success." Zhou Yao nodded.

"If you're busy and don't have time, forget it, you don't have to eat." Qu Jia said in a muffled voice.

"Your mother invited me, why am I not free?" Zhou Yao asked with a smile.

"Are you free?" Qu Jia raised his eyes, "You are so busy, there are so many meals waiting for you."

"No one's food is as delicious as your mother's fried pork with garlic sprouts, sweet potato and pumpkin cake, and camphor tea duck!" Zhou Yao said.

"No matter how good it is, it can't compare to a high-end restaurant." Qu Jia stared at Zhou Yao, "Didn't you make an appointment to have a New Year's Eve dinner with someone? Ah Jing Cantonese Restaurant, isn't it much better than eating at our house?!"

Qu Jia scolded himself, but he was still not reconciled, so he couldn't hold back his anger.

Confused, Zhou Yao was interrupted by the bi-bi-bi calling thing in his trouser pocket, took it out, and flipped through the calling text messages one by one under the street lamp.

Zhou Yao looked up at Qu Jia's face, then looked down at the pager, and then raised his head: "Damn it."

Zhou Yao murmured, "Did you see my pager?"

Qu Jia bit the corner of his mouth and had nothing to say.

Cough - Zhou Yao's expression is indescribable.

Aggrieved, aggrieved, and wanting to lie, he grabbed his wrist: "What are you doing? You're angry again...it's really nothing."

"No." Qu Jia said quickly.

"You just take my pager and put it with you in the future. You can help me see it." Zhou Yao handed it over.

"No." Qu Jia turned his face away, "I don't want to watch."

"I'm serious. If you don't worry, I won't need a pager in the future, and I don't like to contact random people." Zhou Yao said seriously.

"I'm not worried!" Qu Jia quickly denied, "You can do whatever you like, I never cared about you."

"Some things, I, I didn't tell you, just because I was afraid that you would be unhappy if you found out." Zhou Yao took Qu Jia's wrist, shook it gently, and coaxed this awkward and difficult guy.

Qu Jia lowered his head and took a few puffs of cigarettes.What right does he have to be unhappy?This is like many parents with a strong desire to control, who doubt this and that all day long, and try their best to peek at their children's diaries and eavesdrop on their phone calls.Who made this stinking problem, so owed, doing such boring things?

Has he ever been so bored before, stealing other people's things before?Seeing Zhou Yao really made something wrong...

Zhou Yao turned around and stomped and kicked the wall several times, feeling a little annoyed.

He looked up at the person, his eyes level: "Jiajia, I definitely won't go to Ye Xiaobai's family for a New Year's Eve dinner. Look at Ye Xiaobai now, is he willing to have dinner with me?"

"Besides, Tang Zheng doesn't allow me to have dinner with Ye Xiaobai, I can't beat him, I'm afraid he will kill me!" Zhou Yao pointed his eyes to the distance, "Brother Zheng is too charming, I can't compare, Ye Xiaobai Now that you don’t even look at me when you see me, don’t you know me?”

Qu Jia was almost dislocated by Zhou Yao's constant shaking of his wrist, and said with a sneer, "Go, go, chase after him quickly, how can your conditions be worse than Tang Zheng's?"

"How can I have any conditions?" Zhou Yao hummed, "I just don't want it... I don't want it... What should I do... What should I do..."

Shaking, the eyeballs of both of them popped up, and the mood was like a mess.

This matter is indeed a small misunderstanding, and Zhou Yao's mother didn't insist on asking anyone out, it was purely because his grandparents went to the south in winter to enjoy the warmth and fresh air, and the number of people in the family decreased. I started to like to order New Year's Eve dinner from outside, who would be so tired to cook a big table by myself?So, Zhou Yao's mother booked a private room in Ah Jing.

Unexpectedly, her colleague, Ye Xiaobai's mother, is also good at business but not good at housework and cooking, so they all went to the restaurant to order food, and said that they would eat together at the same table, so there were so many people.

"Zhou Yao, I'm fine, you don't need to explain." Qu Jia grabbed Zhou Yao's hand and squeezed it.

No need to explain.In fact, he has never questioned Zhou Yao's sincere "goodness" to him, and never questioned the attachment of the two people who met when they were young. What really exists is their friendship.However, I also understand the real insurmountable gap between the two and the inescapable reality.Zhou Yao still had to leave sooner or later, so it was impossible for him to stay in this dilapidated ditch all the time, and not stay stranded in this shoal forever.No matter where Zhou Yao goes, he always goes up, to high places, because Zhou Yao is so outstanding.

And he himself will always be a stagnant pool of water in the ditch.Stay here forever, waiting for the other party to run aground, or to fly away next time.

People grow up slowly and their brains mature, but they are still precocious due to life difficulties, thinking too much and thinking wildly.He could accompany Zhou Yao only for these three years, and it was very clear from the beginning.

"There's another one, heck, actually it was before, when I was studying in Harbin, I didn't tell you, just because I was afraid that you would be uncomfortable..." Zhou Yao could only turn back the page with a shy face, I tremblingly said, "The boy who called me is from the high school department of our school. He is two years older than us. He is going to take the college entrance examination this year and he is so old! So old!... I didn't intend to like him or What's the matter, he just has the cheek to insist on that, is he 'chasing' me."

Zhou Yao, who is so sophisticated and able to hide things, will not admit that some of his consciousness and emotional "enlightenment" came from that senior boy.That kid could even be said to have prompted Zhou Yao to focus on transferring schools and hurry back to Beijing, a reason he didn't dare to tell his parents.

In short, Zhou Yao, who was very active and excellent on campus, was pursued by many people when he was studying in the High School Attached to Harbin Normal University. Most of them were girls, but there were also men.

The senior brother just fell in love with him. Zhou Yao refused to say what happened, so no one knew about it. It was nothing more than blocking him in the men's toilet or in a corner of the campus... Anyway, Zhou Yao was very surprised at the time , shocked, he refused and kicked the opponent and then ran away in fright.

After thinking about it after being frightened, it turns out that boys can also like boys.

There are boys who expressed their affection for him in private, saying that he is handsome, that he likes him, and wants to "talk about friends" with him, "that kind of friend".

It turns out that he himself is not the only psychopath in the world who has wild thoughts...he is not the only one who likes boys silently and fearfully.

Then, he insisted with his parents to transfer back to Beijing and reunite with his family, and he didn't want to stay in the original school for a day.The people he wants to come back to "reunite" are not just his parents.

This was the real reason why he transferred back to Beijing, and it was the reason why he tried everything possible to find Qu Jia to reminisce about the old days.He wanted to tell Qu Jia the unspeakable thoughts of his youth: I seem to have always liked boys all these years, and I have hidden a boy who I secretly like in my heart.

Jiajia, can I tell you who that boy is?I really, really like him.

……

After hearing the previous situation, Qu Jia cursed, fuck him.

He didn't understand it before, but just tasted it, and this uncomfortable feeling is called "jealousy".The mutton kebabs can't be tasted, and the vinegar is heartburning.

Zhou Yao had a flattering face: "Are you still angry?...I have told the truth, can you forgive me?"

"Forgive you." Qu Jia said, "What's that man's name? Let him come to Beijing if he has the guts to tell him that I really want to kill him."

Both of them couldn't laugh anymore.

Staring at each other, the sour and mixed taste filled their chests, and they took a breath.

Zhou Yao immediately entered the room and borrowed a phone from the bar counter.In front of Qu Jia, he called that senior brother.In the middle of the night, if the elder brother in Harbin received a message, he probably would not have a good time this year, so Zhou Yao said: "Hall that so-and-so, I just want to tell you, don't call me any more Don't call me, I already have a partner! If you really accidentally get admitted to Tsinghua University, then I, I will definitely not go to that school, I would rather go to Beijing University of Technology!"

Qu Jia glared at him at the time: "Are you short-hearted? You can still go to Peking University if you don't go to Tsinghua University."

Oh yes.

At that time, Beijing Institute of Technology was dedicated to recruiting candidates from Beijing who failed to pass Tsinghua University's admission line. It was equivalent to a school where "Tsinghua University failed students" gathered together. Why would you go to that kind of place?Zhou Yao wiped his face, he was so confused by the splint on both sides, it annoyed me to death.

"Is this done?" Zhou Yao looked at the person.

Qu Jia turned his face to look out the window, feeling uncomfortable and had nothing to say.

Yaoyao is such a kind and caring person.

"I'm not angry anymore. I don't care about your business. You can hang out with whoever you like when you go out." Qu Jia's eyes suddenly turned red at that time, and he stood with a cigarette under the porch of the bar, sporadic The snowflakes came in, and the crystal fragments fell on the hair and in front of the eyebrows, "Don't let me see it, don't let me know it. I feel very uncomfortable when I see it. Put your pager away, and don't let me see it in the future." .”

Zhou Yao: "..."

Qu Jia's eyes are slender and cool when he squints, his eye circles gradually turn red, and two red spots appear under his eyelids.

Zhou Yao's eyes were also red, and he didn't know how to express and comfort the other party's mood.

Qu Jia like that is very distressing, but it is also difficult for Zhou Yao to experience such a situation and state personally. If so, how heartbroken it is.Because the two of them may never be able to have a New Year's Eve dinner in an equal and intimate way, and the two of them will never be able to fight side by side at Tsinghua University.

Even if Qu Jia knelt on the textbook and crushed him to death, it would be impossible. Let’s dream.

I tried my best to follow in your footsteps, I tried my best, but some things were beyond my ability, and I really couldn't do anything.

What are you complaining about?Complaining that Yaoyao, who I like, is so good, many people like you, and many people love you.So I want to see you too, always have.

That night, the two of them stayed up all night with the other couple in a very loyal manner, and did not leave early.

Both were depressed afterward and remained mostly silent, saying little.

Even Ye Xiaobai noticed it, and asked Tang Zheng quietly: "What's wrong with them, it seems they had a fight?... The first half of the night they played cards well, but the second half of the night suddenly became awkward."

Tang Zheng said: "The two of them have been arguing and fighting all day long, really, it's so awkward, it's annoying."

Ye Xiaobai said, "Boys, what is there to quarrel with?"

Tang Zheng snorted: "The two of them are more troublesome than girls."

The next day was New Year's Eve, everyone went back to their respective homes, each looking for their respective mothers.

Zhou Yao came home quietly in the early hours of the morning, took the key to open the door, and then rolled into the room without taking off his clothes, and covered himself with a big quilt to catch up on sleep.

His mother still heard his movement, opened the door and took a look, heh, cough——

His mother helped him take off the sweater and trousers. Zhou Yao snorted while wearing long johns. He was in a bad mood and didn't want to talk. He pouted his buttocks and rolled himself into the bed again.His mother said to him: "That's a shame."

Zhou Yao didn't even bother to wash his right hand, so he kissed the place where Qu Jia had kissed the fingers of his right hand again under the quilt.

After getting up again, I ate snacks and fruits directly, and planned to go to a restaurant for New Year's Eve dinner at night.During the Chinese New Year, the house is chaotic and busy, and the TV "Wow, wow, wow" is on.His father and mother kept answering and making phone calls, greeting relatives, friends, and colleagues in the work unit...

Zhou Yao also made phone calls and chatted with his good buddies.

He called Pan Fei's phone: [Brother Fei, Happy New Year, send my greetings to Xiaoxiao, I don't bother to call her. 】

Those who have money and goods in the class or who are busy with business outside the school are equipped with pagers. Most parents will not buy Motorolas for their children, and only use home phones to communicate with each other.He also called Liu Chunyu: "Dachun, I miss you during the Chinese New Year, let's make persistent efforts next season! Don't eat too much, don't eat too much!"

Then call classmate Xiao Jiang: "Xiao Jiangzi, next semester, I will be with the sports committee, and you will be the main player of our class football team!"

Xiao Jiang talked a lot of nonsense and was so happy that he pestered him for almost half an hour to chat: "Ah, you've decided on me? I'm so happy, so which position should I play? Am I the main player? Who else is in the main lineup of our class?" ah?"

Zhou Yao said: "Let Huanhuan keep the goal! Let you play striker with Master Jia, that's the deal!"

On the grounds that "we will start watching the Spring Festival Gala at 07:30", he played tricks with his mother for half an hour, convincing his mother not to eat at the restaurant tonight, and asked the restaurant waiter to bring the food home. How warm it is at home.

Five minutes after he got his mother settled, his phone rang, and it was Ye Xiaobai who called him.

Ye Xiaobai whispered to him: [My house won't be going to Ah Jing for dinner tonight, so go to yours.Happy Chinese New Year, don't be unhappy anymore. 】

He and Ye Xiaobai have frequently "secretly communicated with each other" since then, for their respective goals and emotional destinations.It's just that this kind of darkness is really different from the expectations of the parents...

Comrade Da Zhou asked his son to go downstairs to the supermarket to bring up a bottle of good wine and buy some of his favorite drinks.

Zhou Yao put on his down jacket, stood in the living room, walked back and forth several times, feeling empty in his heart.He hasn't paid New Year greetings to Qu Jia today.

He really felt that with his relationship with Qu Jia, Chinese New Year was not just a matter of calling and saying "Happy Chinese New Year".Ordinary classmates or relatives who have not been in touch with each other for 800 years, just ask "Happy Chinese New Year" in a nonchalant way, is he like Qu Jia?

Why did it become like that last night? Well, it's awkward.

Miss Jiajia.

He picked up the handset of his home phone, and the pager rang suddenly, making his waist feel hot.

Qu Jia called him: [Can you come out at night? 10 minutes waiting for your call back, number xxxx. 】

what.

Holding the receiver in his hand, Zhou Yao suffered from nearsightedness and his eyes were blurred. He pressed the number for the third time before he got the number of the public phone booth.

It was Qu Jia's voice: "Hello."

Zhou Yao hurriedly asked, "Where are you?"

"The canteen at Hutongkou." Qu Jia's voice was clearly looking forward to it, "Can you come out at night?"

Zhou Yao couldn't help grinning his lips upwards, smiling all over his face where the other party couldn't see, and said two words: "Yes! Where?"

Qu Jia also seemed relieved: "Anywhere will do."

The two made an appointment to meet, but they missed each other, and they also regretted the awkward quarrel last night. They just wanted to meet, why couldn't they meet?Qu Jia said: "There will be fireworks near ***, but it's too close. Let's go to Dongdan to watch the fireworks display. See you at the subway station?... Well, let's go out at 08:30 after dinner. Don't come out for too long at night. Still have to go home."

That's right, it was New Year's Eve, and the two of them were looking for an excuse to sneak out. They were supposed to be squatting at home, and the whole family would sit around and watch the new year.

Zhou Yao agreed very happily: "Success! See you at Dongdan Subway Station at 08:30."

……