I wait for you to see through the scenery

Whenever the two of them quarreled, it was like this. They both felt that they were wronged and uncomfortable, and they couldn't get over it without scolding a few words.

Zhou Yao stepped back and stood beside the kitchen table, while Qu Jia leaned against the wardrobe.The coal-burning stove is just in the middle, separating the two so that they won't be pinched together.

Qu Jia took out a cigarette from the cigarette case and put it in his mouth.

"Give me one." Zhou Yao stretched out his hand and asked for a cigarette.

Qu Liandi will definitely scold you when she comes back later, you two children are not in shape, you don't learn well, and you even smoke in the house.

"Jiajia, I just feel that you have been like this for two months. Since I came back, you are different from before." Zhou Yao's throat trembled, and he said with difficulty, "You and others It's all good, you can play with other classmates, and you can talk to girls and give things, so you are very cold to me."

"Who else am I with?" Qu Jia asked with a frown.

"You are very good with everyone, don't you still have an appointment with a group of flowers?" Zhou Yao shouted, "I used to take you to play, and you also trust me. If there is something, we will secretly split it in half." .Now you are good with everyone, you are deliberately trying to find trouble with me!"

"I didn't make trouble with you," Qu Jia categorically denied, "You always stick to me when you post it yourself, so I should let you stick to it?"

"I..." Zhou Yao was so angry that his forehead was smoking, "You fucking, do you think I'm cheap?!"

"After that, don't come here anymore." Qu Jia said.

Zhou Yao's complexion was not right, his eyes turned red quickly, he was at a loss, how could this happen.

At his age, he is less emotionally excited. After all, he is not a child anymore, so he can still cry?He was rarely scolded at home and outside, and others would not despise him like this.When Qu Jia said that, he slapped him in the face.These words are very similar to what Qu Jia said when he was still called Chen Jia, "We have no future".

Zhou Yao asked softly: "If your mother insisted on inviting me to dinner, you would definitely not bring me to your house?"

Qu Jia: "Yes."

Zhou Yao: "Why?"

Qu Jia: "You have to leave anyway, what are you doing here?... What are you going to do, Zhou Yao?"

Zhou Yao stuttered when asked: "I don't, I don't want to do anything."

"You don't want to do anything," Qu Jia interjected, "Are you so idle? I'm so bored that you tease me twice, do you think I'm stupid?"

Zhou Yao had been slapped on one side of his face just now, "slap", it seemed that he had been slapped on the other half of his face.

Qu Jia seemed to have endured it for a long time, and finally spoke out after holding back for two months.Talking is also trembling all over, not knowing what he is talking about.

Qu Jia said: "Zhou Yao, you are back now, when will you leave next time?"

Zhou Yao asked back, "Where am I going?"

"Aren't you going?" Qu Jia stared at him, "Can you stay in such a place, how many days? How many years?... Every time you come to our house, you come to have a meal, Le Yi Le, you have played enough, turned around and left, can you live in this alley area? You will never. What about me?"

Zhou Yao was suddenly choked by the smoke and coughed in embarrassment.

The way Qu Jia stared at him was very fierce and fierce.He has always been afraid of Qu Jia like that, and he immediately softened after glancing at him.In front of others, he was able to speak eloquently, but now he can't say anything.He is afraid that the other party will kill him.

Qu Jia took a step forward and took the cigarette away: "Stop smoking, you can't even smoke."

Zhou Yao explained in a low voice: "Last time I left because I wanted to go back to Harbin to study. I don't have a student status in Beijing, so what do you ask me to do? Am I not going to school?"

"Who won't let you go to school?" Qu Jia turned his face away, his eyes were angry and stubborn, "Aren't you going to come back? You said you came back to see me during the winter and summer vacations, and you forgot after you said that? It's been a few years ,have you been here?!"

Zhou Yao was stunned: "..."

This thing seems to go around and around?

It seemed that he suddenly understood what Qu Jia was struggling with.

Qu Jia's voice trembled when he spoke: "Zhou Yao, to be honest, if, if I had money for travel expenses at that time, I would definitely go to Harbin to find you, and I could still make three long-distance calls to you every morning, noon and night. I am If you don’t have money to buy a train ticket and stay in a hotel, I think, you don’t need money to buy a train ticket, right?”

Zhou Yao: "..."

He hurriedly said: "I was busy with other things during the two years of vacation, and I went to the sports school to play football, but I didn't come back. Are you angry with me because of this?...I'm sorry."

"I know you're busy, who am I?" Qu Jia turned his face away and looked out the window, "You're suddenly back now, you want to get close to me, you come to a new school on a whim, and you start to be idle again ?”

Zhou Yao said, "Qu Jia, are you unreasonable when you talk like that?"

Qu Jia said, "I'm just being unreasonable. When have I ever been reasonable?"

Zhou Yao was completely speechless.After suffering this loss, there will be no third time, and he has never been more fierce than Jiajia in quarrels.

In the final analysis, Zhou Yao, you are the one who has a choice, you always have this choice, whether you step into this wall, or turn your head and run out, run away without looking back, and never come back .

And Qu Jia is always behind that wall, waiting for Zhou Yao to come in or go out.The sense of powerlessness and the frustration of waiting are very tormenting and heartbreaking.People who have many choices about how to advance and retreat in life have a hard time understanding the kind of psychological trauma caused by life difficulties and emotional poverty.

Both of them had flaming eye sockets and twitching veins on their foreheads.

Qu Jia finished smoking a cigarette and threw the cigarette butt into the stove: "My mother is coming back soon, you should leave quickly. I don't want to quarrel with you in front of my mother. I said she is just being self-indulgent."

With a sullen face, Zhou Yao quickly put on his shirt without saying a word, took his bag and things, and was kicked out, why don't you hurry up?

He rolled to the door, then turned back and took the CD player and earphones from the bedside.

Feeling extremely uncomfortable, he ran away without looking back...

When Zhou Yao left that day, he felt devastated.He sat in the subway and passed the station directly.

He didn't get out of the car, he didn't want to go home, he didn't want to see anyone, he was afraid of being questioned by his parents.He just sat down along the subway circle line, wasting time, and went home after a long circle...

That feeling was like falling out of love suddenly, although he didn't know clearly at that time, what was he in love with, who was he in love with?

He has a strong feeling about "like" in his heart, and about the unforgettable memories of his teenage years, which are far beyond the occasional flirting, teasing, or holding hands between boys and girls on campus, and making an appointment for a meal.

Those "likes" may last for two days or two months, and then pass like a gust of wind, forget, or change the target.

In the face of Qu Jia, this feeling has been lingering for many years, and it has become stronger with age, and I am nostalgic and tempted all the time.So, he plunged into it with enthusiasm, thinking that he would get a warm response, thinking that the two of them could at least quietly discuss those secret emotions that they dare not reveal to others, what is it about a boy liking another boy... the result was also A bucket of cold water was poured on the head.

It didn't wake him up, it just knocked him out.

When Qu Liandi came back from grocery shopping that night, she carried a freshly slaughtered black-bone chicken in her left hand and a fresh fish that had just been dissected and cleaned in her right hand, and then she was furious when she saw how deserted the house was.

Where's the big baby Yaoyao?

away?

There was a choking smell of smoke in the room, and Qu Jia lowered his eyes and said to his mother: "Zhou Yao has gone back. I had a few words with him, and I don't want to keep him for dinner."

Qu Liandi couldn't stand her son's occasional twitching, and when his temper came up, it was the virtue of not eating oil and salt, soft and hard.

What kind of tempered person?How old are you, who is willing to talk to you, and who will be willing to associate with you in the future?

Qu Liandi came closer to look at Qu Jia, and was so angry that she really didn't know whether she should fan her son with a fan, so as to keep his mind clear and cool, or directly use an iron hook, and have a crackling, cracking, cracking, cracking, cracking, cracking, cracking, cracking, cracking, cracking, cracking, cracking, cracking, cracking, cracking, cracking, cracking, cracking, cracking, cracking, cracking, cracking, cracking, cracking, cracking, cracking, cracking. How about being smart, cute and understanding of humanity?

Her son's mind seemed to be blocked by something, and he couldn't get it out.

There is a door in my heart that is closed and cannot be opened.

Perhaps this is also a symptom of emotional deprivation accumulated in adolescence, and the sick person is also suffering.I don't know who can change Qu Jia, make Qu Jia soften, and act like a normal, lively and lovely boy.

……

During the next week at school, neither Zhou Yao nor Qu Jia wanted to talk to each other.

If the boys are at odds, and they can't pull each other's hair or scratch their faces with their nails like two little wild cats, then they can only stop talking to each other and sulk each other.

But still in the same class, the seats are next to each other, you can't see them when you look up, it's so annoying...

At noon, Zhou Yao took his swimming trunks, goggles and small bag to practice swimming by himself.

He walked past Qu Jia's desk, glanced silently, and said nothing.

Qu Jia didn't say anything.

In the grades, there were already rumors about the scandal between Class [-] Hua Xia Lan and the cool brother Qu Jia in Class [-], and it was due to the duet at the Mid-Autumn Festival Gala.Do you gossip in private? It’s pretty obvious that Qu Jia is so handsome and has a tough temper. Someone really dares to chew on him, and he’s not afraid of getting his teeth broken. It’s because the "Three Flowers" in our grade are so good that even those who take the initiative to be courteous can’t look down on them. In fact, I really like that kind of special guy.

Zhou Yao felt uncomfortable hearing these words.Shouldn't Jiajia be the closest person to him?How many years ago he gnawed his mouth, and his teeth were chewed to pieces...

Then there was a physical education class.Now in the physical education class of their grade, all the students are directly divided into two groups, those who can swim and those who cannot.

Those who can swim will gather in the big playground, and they can freely choose basketball lessons, football lessons, and volleyball lessons. The whole grades are mixed and lively.Those who can't swim, such as Zhou Yao, are deprived of the right to choose, so just practice swimming honestly.

Qu Jia was the one on the playground, and he took football classes.

I don't know what I think in my heart, it's just so contradictory.If Zhou Yao didn't have to learn that unlucky swimming, he should have been invited by the physical education teacher to be a guest football coach.

Their guest coach in this class is Pan Fei from the class next door.This kid is twitchy, his board is shiny, his jersey and socks are handsome, and he is in a good mood just by looking at him.

Can it be bad?During Guoan's TV broadcast to Hongyuan last weekend, the camera really caught Pan Fei and Huang Xiaoxiao!

Pan Fei is indeed a die-hard fan of the Guoan team and a member of the fans association.He had already bought a package ticket for the whole season, but this time he took the girls with him, and he naturally sat in the stands belonging to the Guoan Fan Association. He is a VIP.The two of them were right in the middle of the stands, a fucking conspicuous VIP position!

Many people watched the live broadcast of A on weekends, and then went back to school on Monday, and this big gossip exploded in the school.

"We all saw it, just you two sneaking around, wearing green football jerseys, Feifei, you still have a red headband on your forehead!"

"Nonsense," Pan Fei said, "If I don't wear a red hoop, should I wear a green hoop?"

"The camera kept showing you, and you both played the trumpet wildly. You played the trumpet for 90 minutes. Your lung capacity is very good, you, Feifei?" Ren Qiong laughed.

"Our Feifei not only has a good lung capacity, but also has the physical strength to run several marathons." Zhou Yao said.

"Don't tell me! I'm breaking up with you!" Pan Fei blushed and kicked them.

"Break off friendship with them, not with me." Zhou Yao laughed badly, "Xiaoxiao is my best buddy, and I have a strong relationship with me, so don't offend me easily in the future."

Zhou Yao is always happy in front of his classmates, smiling at life.

He can only feel depressed and lonely in his own heart. Others are in pairs, and he seems to be broken in love.

……

For the whole football class, I watched Pan Fei spitting and flying, tirelessly demonstrating various dribbling and shooting moves, his face was full of radiance, and the moisture of first love was revealed from every pore.

The little slut who is famous and has an owner is dedicated to provoking a group of single dogs.

Finally, when get out of class, Qu Jia slipped away a few minutes early, and on the way back to the teaching building, carrying his pair of sneakers, all he could think about was, how is the guy in the swimming pool practicing?How could he care about football lessons?

He went straight to the swimming pool, entered the door, took out his student ID card and waved it to the administrator, went upstairs, and looked into the swimming pool.

After a quick glance, he found that Zhou Yao was not in the pool, and Sao Lan's swimming trunks were not there.Qu Jia turned a corner and went into the locker room by accident.

Originally, this was subconscious, men's locker room.

Qu Jia entered the door and looked to the right to see the dressing room. A group of acquaintances and unfamiliar classmates were shaking their heads, and they were all getting dressed.No.

Qu Jia looked to the left with an indifferent expression, and Zhou Yao came out of the small passage from the shower room to the dressing room with a "wow", pulling on the plastic slippers, also with an indifferent expression, his eyes were straight.He was so short-sighted that he couldn't see clearly, so he strode over without hesitation, and his gaze crossed Qu Jia's face.

Qu Jia: "..."

Zhou Yao: "???"

shit.

Zhou Yao hummed in a low voice, his face flushed red, he covered himself with a towel in his hand, and without saying a word, he lowered his head and rushed to the dressing room.

Qu Jia turned his head quickly, turned around and left, as if he had witnessed a very dazzling scene that made his heart jump, his face flushed, he ran downstairs, and ran all the way out...

Zhou Yao rushed into the dressing room, lost one of his slippers, quickly took out clothes from the cabinet door, and put on his clothes.

Their physical education teacher was actually right next to him by the small cabinet door, touching his shoulders, and saw him as soon as he looked up.

"What's the matter?" The physical education teacher also covered her face, "A girl came in?"

"Ah, no... there are no girls." The students next to him looked around.

The physical education teacher glanced at Zhou Yao, startled, what are you talking about?

Zhou Yao bowed his head and said nothing, put on his underwear and almost lost his footing and slipped a big somersault under the eyes of the physical education teacher. The more anxious he was, the more he couldn't put it on.

He scolded a hundred times in his heart: Qu Jia, you bastard, bully, you are playing a liu to me!

In fact, what, a locker room is full of men.

People who go to school and live in the north are used to a group of guinea pigs bathing in public bathhouses since they were young.The two of them often went to the big bathhouse in the factory together when they were young, and both young and old were open-minded.

However, some things seem to be really different.What has become different is not only the parts of the body, as mentioned in the physical hygiene textbook back then, it has grown and grown stronger.What changes is people's heart, emotion, and full attention.

Zhou Yao was shown a frontal close-up, without missing anything.

He tensed all of a sudden, and every strand of his hair was uncomfortable.He was "watched", that bastard Qu Jia was fully armed and dressed in front of him, this kind of experience was so wronged, he almost made a big embarrassment in front of the whole room...