can't stop

Huo Ying originally thought that he was a person who became more and more courageous when frustrated, but Shi Yufeng's words broke him in an instant. He put on his pants, sat slowly on the edge of the bed, and turned his back to Shi Yufeng, "It's me I lied to you." He simply recruited everything, "The last time I left you alone on the island, it wasn't an accident in my family."

"I know." Shi Yu Feng said firmly, "I didn't think about how to ask at first, but later I thought there was no need to ask."

Huo Ying was stunned for a moment, stood up and turned around, looking at Shi Yufeng with red eyes, with a layer of fragile water in his eyes, "I'm going to tell him, I'm quitting."

"Why didn't you do it?" Shi Yu Feng didn't cry anymore, and wiped his tears vigorously with the back of his hand.

"I don't know..." Huo Ying lowered his head like a child in self-criticism, stared blankly, then raised it suddenly, "You're here, I can't do it anymore!"

"Then why did you do it in the first place? Because your older brothers and sisters asked you for money? You know they just want money from you, not to treat your father." Shi Yufeng also looked at him, his voice was layered The thin ice in late winter seems to be broken into pieces with one step on it, and melted by the touch.

Hearing this, Huo Ying seemed to have digested it for a while before he widened his eyes in surprise. He was still standing precariously, not taking a step closer, and not even moving his fingertips, "I..." He opened his mouth without thinking Excuse anyone, "I'll never be able to race in Formula [-] again, but, I miss... even if it's even remotely possible, I'll be able to hold the wheel again, even if it's illegal , Counterfeit, unethical, low-spirited, I will do it too," Huo Ying pursed his lips, as if swallowing a lot of words, just looked at him sadly but resolutely, "I used to think so, I will go Doing this and getting the money I need, yes, immoral money. But after meeting you, I don’t want to do it, but since I have done it, I have no right to regret it now.”

"You said you would never be able to go to the F1 track again."

Huo Ying felt that it was difficult for him to breathe, so he nodded.

"why."

Huo Ying's nails broke the pads of his fingers and slipped, making the touch feel greasy.

"I just can't go. It's been three years." He said softly.

Shi Yufeng rubbed the bridge of his nose irritably, "I've said it many, many times, as long as you want to come back, the old car is also in good condition, and you can get a new one, and all those gossips will disappear if you win a championship again. I can't help you." He got out of bed, barefooted, hugged Huo Ying hastily and persistently, "I never thought you should be a bad technician—brother, no one can compare to you , no one can win the championship, as long as you want to come back!"

At that moment, Huo Ying almost collapsed into Shi Yufeng's arms one by one. With a kind of self-willedness, he thought, should he tell him about my injury, my despair, what I experienced under Mount Fuji? What's the matter?This thought was as sweet as jumping into a flame, but when he got close to the flame, he was blown away by the scalding air wave-of course he couldn't say it, after he said it, there was no turning back, his career was definitely over, at the time The same is true in Yu Feng's eyes, and Shi Yu Feng is the one who will be on the track tomorrow, on the track that ends his career.

"I'm not the champion anymore." When he pushed Yu Feng away, he raised his face and smiled, sober and clean like a brand new glass window, "The current world champion will be you, it must be you."

Shi Yufeng's scalp was numb. Indeed, it can't be wrong. The word world champion is enough to make everyone crazy, and he is no exception. But now this word appears in Huo Ying's mouth. Dao, "Okay, okay, you're always like this!" He grabbed his trousers and shook them, quickly put them on, rushed into the balcony without looking back, and shouted at the night outside, "One thing, tell me 90.00% of me, it’s all true, the remaining [-]% you think it doesn’t exist, let me guess! It would be great if I also felt that it didn’t exist, and it would be fine if I didn’t feel that way at all, but I can’t , but this matter is very important to me, I can only guess vaguely, only guess."

Huo Ying was out of breath, as if his heart and lungs were going to explode. He ran towards him quickly, but stopped at the balcony door. In the summer night, when the evening wind was blowing like warm water, Yu Feng was covered by the light in the room. A faint, soft shadow, but Huo Ying couldn't move.He didn't dare to hug, didn't even dare to pat those shoulders, shake those hands, he could only nail there, looking at him speechlessly.

Shi Yufeng still didn't look back, and continued to look at the dark and dense crown of the tree. It was Rowan, which was in flowering season, and the flowers were pure white. Even in the night, they were as thick as snow, and the verdant fragrance extended to the height of the second floor. In front of his eyes, "Brother Ying, you never seem to want to hurt anyone or cause trouble to anyone. You have done your job impeccably, and you have always been like this," he said again, with sobs uncontrollably, and the after-choke Annoyed, "I also want to be like you, don't hurt others, I learn not to put pressure on people, and trust others. I was the first to believe in you, but now I find that you don't trust me, you don't trust anyone, you It's very tiring and I'm sad."

"No," Huo Ying said loudly, grabbing the door frame, "it's not like that, I believe you, I don't believe you!"

"Really?" Shi Yufeng turned his head abruptly, his wet eyes were extremely bright, and the catalpa tree behind him gushed another gust of sea-flavored breeze, "So back to the original question, why did you hide it from me? I heard that incident from someone else, and he told me with a smile, as if he was slapping me again and again."

"Are you afraid that I know that you are also a person who can violate the rules of the game for a certain purpose, and that I will think that your dignity will be lost, and you will fall from the altar with me from now on?" Seeing that Huo Ying was silent, Shi Yufeng said again, briefly He smiled softly, "Am I so perfectionistic in your eyes, or do you just like being a perfect god so much that I exalt you? Brother Ying, answer me."

He is like this, exactly as he said, his 19 years of life have always been like this, persistent and confused, naive and cruel.

And Huo Ying seemed to be unable to hear what he was saying, and there was no excuse. He trampled on himself, and he did what he despised the most. It hurt so much that he just wanted to hide himself, bury himself in the ground, and no one could see it. I didn’t see him. At that time, he had burnt cigarettes, empty bottles of wine, and a lot of resentment and resentment. He had every reason to sink deeper, but then Yu Feng appeared and pulled him out by the roots, but after so many things But now, Shi Yufeng hurts more than him.

Tears fell down, his tears were cheap and could not be hung on his lips, he wiped them away, and said suddenly, "Did you write that oath?"

Shi Yufeng frowned, with surprise in his eyes, "I wrote it."

"Can you give it to me, now." Huo Ying raised his eyes, and at that moment he was out of shape.

Shi Yufeng didn't say a word, walked into the room silently, passed by for a while, and then came back again.That piece of paper was originally sandwiched in "Sudoku Encyclopedia", and it was wrapped flatly in an envelope. The envelope was still pink, fresh and tender, like a crappy gift that a little boy picked up in a stationery store after school. The black pen wrote "Shi Yufeng gave Huo Ying", which is the result of his previous handwriting practice.

He put it into Huo Ying's hand in silence.

Huo Ying squeezed the corner of the envelope tightly, then rummaged through his backpack on the table, and took out an envelope, white, with the names of two people written on it, in beautiful script, "My, Do you want more?" He asked again, desperately.

"Give it to me." Shi Yufeng said hoarsely.

Huo Ying lowered his head and handed the envelope to him. Shi Yufeng could only see his chest rising and falling, but couldn't see his face. He didn't know whether he was going to read it out or destroy it when he was exchanging this.Hearing that Huo Ying was actually apologizing, his voice was trembling, "I'm sorry, maybe you like that Huo Ying, maybe I'm not that Huo Ying. I'm sorry."

Shi Yufeng just watched him sit back on the edge of the bed dejectedly, his face was buried deeper, the feeling of suffocation suddenly felt like someone had slashed his temple severely.Without denying it, Shi Yufeng silently turned off the lights and closed the door, ready to sleep on the sofa.Barefoot, almost silent, but very clear, lonely and boundless.When we got to the first floor, all the lights were dark, the moonlight was very bright, and there was silver in front of the floor-to-ceiling windows. Shi Zhanyang was watching the dark garden drinking hot milk in front of the window. When he saw him coming, he didn't say anything.

Shi Yufeng lay sideways on the sofa, with his hands hanging outside the sofa, still pinching the envelope in a daze.

After about a few minutes, Shi Yufeng didn't have any idea now, only Shi Zhanyang suddenly said, "ナナ went to talk to him."

"When?"

"When you come out."

"He won't open the door. I heard him lock it."

"Nana can open the window."

"...So you want to talk to me?"

"will not."

After all, Shi Zhanyang drank all the milk and left in the wheelchair.When Yu Feng was separated by a corridor, he heard him put the empty glass on the kitchen table, the marble and glass collided together, and then heard him say from a distance, "It seems that it didn't work?"

There was a sudden sound at the window, Qiu Shili opened a French window and came in, with the buttons of his suit unbuttoned, dusty, "Well, let him stay by himself for the night," he probably answered Shi Zhanyang, then glared at Shi Yufeng, "I've never seen Xiaoying like this. He was cut off by his parents in college, scolded at school, and then injured-he was never like this at the Mount Fuji track. He couldn't cry or speak. !"

Shi Yufeng's heart suddenly emptied, some kind of tormenting him, bewitching his intuition, flaunting in front of his eyes at this moment, he clenched his fists so hard that he crumpled the envelope, "What Mount Fuji? What injury?"

Qiu Shili had already reached the entrance of the corridor, and looked at the back of his sofa with some surprise, "Sorry."

"Sorry?" Shi Yu Feng jumped up and turned to him, "What the hell, what did you say?"

"...The triangular bone of the left hand and the Achilles tendon on the right were injured permanently in Elijah's car accident. The doctor didn't even let him run fast, and he couldn't do heavy work," Qiu Shili said softly. Qing, "After a year of recuperation, I took him to the Mt. Fuji track for a test. He didn't know about your car. After that, Xiaoying lived on the island with peace of mind—no, it should be said that all thoughts were lost. If he To drive Formula One again...that kind of intensity is to kill yourself."

"He was still helping me test the car half a month ago."

"Then do you know how much he hurts?" Qiu Shili said slowly, pacifying each word, "Do you really think that he wants to be a perfect god in your eyes?"

Shi Yufeng couldn't find the definition of himself at this moment, he got the momentary killing intent, the long-lasting remorse, rolling to the sky, but he lost his soul, this is a diabolical exchange.Realizing that the envelope was about to be squeezed into a ball, he knelt down almost in fear, and flattened it on the coffee table, "Think about it carefully." He heard Qiu Shili say this, and then there was only dead silence around.There were water drops on the names of the two, which soaked the ink, and the moonlight was not bright enough. Shi Yufeng couldn't tell whether it was sweat or tears. He couldn't go upstairs to face Huo Ying, couldn't sleep, and couldn't cry loudly. I can only wait for the time to pass and the sun to rise.

The next day was a bit too normal. The race started at [-]:[-] in the morning. When Yu Feng was sitting in the racing car, he was sprayed with cooling spray, and then the hood and helmet separated him from the world. Huo Ying was also busy in the pits , preparing all kinds of replacement tires, the technician uniform is still white, everything is still the same, well organized and step by step.

That race was also very stable, at least logically speaking, it should be stable - Shi Yufeng only needs to hold on to his pole position advantage, and that is 100% victory.But Shi Yufeng refused, he had to speed up. On this track with no space to display, he drove at an unreasonable speed in the city track. Under the scorching sun and the Mediterranean wind, the adrenaline soared, and his breath and mind were hot. Shi Yufeng almost wanted to laugh wildly, he had a sense of illusion, maybe it was the original happiness that was higher than all stimulation, even higher than orgasm, neither strange nor familiar.In short, when your speed exceeds 380 kilometers per hour, you seem to be flying, and everything in this world seems to have nothing to do with you.

No contact, so what is he thinking?He doesn't need to think about how to overtake, he doesn't need to guess whether he is a champion, he doesn't even need to think about life and death, as if those are too dirty things.He only thought about his young lover—even though his lover didn't think he was young, the look he had when he listened to his words last night was like being executed by Ling Chi, starting from the apex of his heart, like an exhausted martyr, His eyes were struggling to be bright, and the eyes were as ignorant as caused by drugs.

He was ignorant because he was torn apart, using words, from the mouth of his real young lover. Shi Yufeng was ignorant because, after he saw himself tearing him up with words, he heard with his own ears that he had How to experience pain.

And at the source of all this pain—on this glamorous and luxurious track—Shi Yufeng sank into the weightlessness and distortion brought about by the extreme speed, and he saw God again.It was something terribly cruel and real, but also terribly beautiful, like a fallen, rotten, burning phoenix branch.

After 78 laps, Shi Yufeng stopped in the maintenance lane. Someone rushed up to take off his helmet and talked to him. It wasn’t Huo Ying. Although Huo Ying was still preparing to replace the tire before the race, he didn’t speak, but he saw it all. .

Shi Yufeng felt very bad in his heart, and he couldn't explain clearly. He was still in a daze, and he got out of the car stiffly. It took a long time to recover the ability to understand other people's speech. That person turned out to be responsible for his health work all the time. The officer grabbed his arms and said, "Feng, you are the champion, you are now the world champion!"

Buzzing, and some people rejoiced, "You broke the record, Howard kept the record for three years! The record still belongs to our Ferrari!"

This name stabbed him, Shi Yufeng should have smiled, that kind of winner's smile, but he was like a walking dead, surrounded by reporters, the famous title of "19-year-old genius champion" had already been called out, and some colleagues came up Congratulations, including Samuel, asked him angrily if he didn't want to kill other people on the track just now, and even the staff came up and hugged him with tears in their eyes.But until he grasped the celebratory champagne, he could not respond to these enthusiasms.

The champagne in his hand gushed out, Shi Yufeng was expressionless, looking at the cheering crowd in panic, he was looking for Huo Ying's shadow.

No.

"Howard! Brother, Brother Ying! Huo Ying!" He let go, and in the uproar he dropped the champagne bottle. His national flag, the Italian flag to which Ferrari belongs, hadn't had time to hoist, but Shi Yufeng didn't care about it at all, yesterday Ignored all kinds of things, he called him by any name he could think of, anxiously waiting for an answer, he was only ready to come up with an apology.

No.

"Manager Qiu! Qiu!" He pushed aside the crowd again, sweating profusely, and went to the rest shed to find someone, "Sister-in-law!" he called again.

Qiu Shili appeared, disheveled and menacing, even holding a MK23 in his hand, his saber and face were bleeding, Tom Ford's suit was also torn, and there should have been a fight just now.When he ran into him head-on, Yu Feng ignored him, quickly climbed up the guardrail, straddled the top and stared fiercely at the soulless boy below, and snarled in a rare way, "Fuck, let them run away, you Tell me, do you want to chase after me or not!"

From the looks of it, Qiu Shili came back to look for him.The bad feeling that had been lingering just now became stronger and heavier, and hit Shi Yufeng's face. He didn't dare to delay for a moment, didn't dare to think too much, so he jumped up on the guardrail and turned outwards, and a car stopped below. Land Rover Range Rover should be waiting for them.Shi Yufeng jumped off first, opened the driver's door, sat on it, started the engine immediately, the fuel tank was full, and the back seat was full of black weapons, Qiu Shili's roar followed his body as he fell down and drilled into it again. Jin Jin, the co-pilot, "Those bastards, dare to catch Xiaoying in the arena... That group of shit, garbage, bastards!"