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Huo Ying.

Your Huo Ying.

This name was even reluctant to be mentioned by Shi Yu Fengti, he thought he was not qualified for it—after he did such an unthinkable thing, Huo Ying suddenly disappeared, and there has been no news since then, this is what Shi Yufeng buried in his heart. In the end, a rusty iron thorn grew out.

"No." Almost blurted out.

Qiu Shili was startled, and also jumped up, but saw Yu Feng walking towards the window, the tall eucalyptus outside the house was silhouetted in the cold twilight, he leaned on the window sill, and said sullenly: "I have no face to see him. "

"I'm asking if you want to see me."

When Yu Feng turned around, he made a vicious look about to turn his face: "I don't want to!"

"Hey, be honest!"

"In no mood!"

Qiu Shili raised his hand in surrender, and remained silent for a few seconds, with an overly soft smile in Taohua's eyes: "You are really similar to the boss. You are good at setting high standards on yourself in strange ways. Are you so fond of confession?" Walking to the window, there was a distance of two punches away from Shi Yufeng, "Then how do you feel that you have the face to see him?"

Shi Yufeng lowered his head, and carefully placed the pencil on the iron window edge. By adjusting a small contact point, he successfully found the balance, "Wait until I am better than him," he flipped the pen holder, Watch it spin tremblingly, "Wait for me to break the record, wait for my Grand Slam. I'll find him and apologize to him."

"That will happen sooner or later. As long as you don't suddenly want to swallow bullets for fun, or drive your car into a waterfall in the middle of the night," Qiu Shili was confident in him, picked up his suit jacket from the back of the chair, and was about to leave . "Xiaofeng, you are just too stubborn." He sighed again.

Shi Yufeng ignored him, and heard the sound of footsteps approaching the stairs, fearing that it would be too late, he suddenly called out to Qiu Shili: "I messed up again, didn't I?"

Qiu Shili seemed to have stopped, and lazily said, "Yes."

Shi Yufeng turned around and leaned against the upper window edge, staring at the door frame and asked again: "Can you help me see him? How did you find him?"

"Do you want to see me or not?"

"Is he all right?"

"who knows."

Shi Yufeng gritted his teeth. This kind of ambiguity was all too familiar. He knew that he would never get anything out of someone like Qiu Shili who was doing business with a gun on the border between North and South America all day long. He also knew that he shouldn't just because He was so shaken by a single name, but he finally asked, "Is this what Big Brother means?"

He bit his lip after he finished speaking, his teeth had nowhere to rest.The pencil on the window dangles, and eventually falls downstairs, or hangs in a branch of some eucalyptus.Hearing Qiu Shili go downstairs step by step, the heels of his shoes simply hit the wooden floor, he still lazily replied: "Pack up some things you like to play these two days, buy a few more dozens of underwear, brother means that we are going back It’s natural to have a holiday and travel.”

This is quite euphemistic, it is Qiu Shili's usual style of speaking, and it makes people have no desire to ask questions at all.That night, Shi Yufeng was sitting in the middle of the living room, looking at the suitcases he had almost packed, feeling more and more irritable in his heart—it seemed that the offseason was a certainty, and he could already imagine the exaggerated draft in the sports newspaper the next day.It's just that, listening to the tone, what "we are going on vacation and traveling", could it be that the two elderly people also want to be together?

Shi Yufeng has not seen his elder brother Shi Zhanyang for more than half a year, the longer this time, the less he wants to see him, and it just goes on like this.On Christmas, he received an email from Shi Zhanyang, who concluded that they had entered the "age stage where they see through each other and dislike each other". Shi Yufeng didn't reply, but he quite agreed with it in his heart, and called it a generation gap. The kind that is 15 years apart on both sides of the strait.

The big deal is to find a chance to get rid of it, and then come back to settle the score and kill the group of useless wood.Shi Yufeng was thinking incongruously, shaking his head, and casually picked through a few large suitcases.Stacked game discs, comic books, tennis rackets, complete Sudoku, Olympiad exercise books for middle school students... These pastimes that are usually enjoyable, seem annoying at the moment.

There are also two other big boxes of clothes, sponsored by various brands, and bought blindly by themselves, all of which are lumped together, and many of them still carry the labels of the dry cleaners in the team.Of course, there are only a few pairs of underwear, and Shi Yufeng will never be obedient and buy dozens of them.

He stared at it silently for a while, then quickly closed the lid like a monster, and lay on his back on a row of boxes in a daze.

The goal of out of sight and out of mind is still not achieved.When people are free and the surroundings are too quiet, the word "Huo Ying" floats in my heart, accompanied by the throbbing that permeates the entire adolescence, making people feel confused.

Shi Yufeng kept thinking of that afternoon three years ago.

It is in Monaco.Sunny day, beautiful seaside city, famous Monte Carlo circuit, standard F1 championship, the final qualifying battle before the championship.That day was also the first time that Shi Yufeng was on the scene and saw Huo Ying participate in this kind of competition.

Before, when he entered this business at the age of 13 and started playing karting, although he and Huo Ying belonged to the same club, they were always in different echelons, and even the training grounds were not in the same place. Shi Yufeng could only sneak in at occasional gatherings Glance.

Until that day, he had the illusion of crawling out of the ground.That day was originally a happy day, the club brought several underage seedlings to watch the game, hoping that they would compete in the arena in the future, and Shi Yufeng was one of them.It's just that his performance was unstable, and his ranking was not too high. The boss at the time didn't like him, so he could only count backwards and sit in the back row.

From the very beginning, Shi Yufeng was watching with his neck bent—under the flowing sunlight, Huo Ying's red and white team uniform was the same as his own. Huo Ying and his opponent nodded in greeting. Pole position (Note 1)...

Shi Yufeng was already full of rebellion back then, he was a cool guy who never said more than five words a day, even if someone wished him a happy birthday, he would at most nod in response.But that day, his unfamiliar teammates discussed Huo Ying with him, but he would talk like all ordinary boys, laughing with his partners, wiping his sweat with his gloves, and saying Howard is my idol, saying that I I decided to learn to drive after watching his race, saying that his offensive line is really cool...

Yun Yun.

He still showed a shy expression. He had never dyed his hair at the time, and his hair was crystal clear, fiery red, unpolished, with pointed canine teeth, and his dark green eyes gleamed, as if he was telling a secret, which surprised his teammates as if they had never known him .

But this excitement turned to depression before the end of the game.To be precise, it started when his second brother Shi Yizhou condescended to come to this back seat and whipped him again.

A big family like the Shi family lived abroad to do business as early as the First World War, and it has flourished from generation to generation. Up to now, there are many children of the same generation, and the undercurrent is inevitable.It just so happens that the eldest brother and the second child are all competitive characters who are not willing to suffer at all. Shi Yizhou is keen to invest everywhere. He was the major shareholder of this racing club at the time. It just so happened that he did not get along with his eldest brother, and the whole family knew that Shi Zhanyang He only cares about two people, one is the petite Qiu Shili who can fight, and the other is the younger brother with a mixed face.

Of course, Qiu Shili couldn't meet him, and he wasn't easy to provoke, so, out of some fun, the frustrated second child accepted Shi Zhanyang's request on the surface to let Shi Yufeng train in his team, but in fact, Going to great lengths to find opportunities to be his mean boss.

He took pleasure in laughing at the little brother, he didn't look like a big brother at all, he asked the teens why he couldn't beat those old fritters on the field, asked him if he came here to eat, and asked him to do those mentally retarded Sudoku What's the use, ask him to go back to school, and joke that he looks really like his young model mother who used to shoot pornographic photos in Brazil for a living.

Hearing these words at first, Shi Yufeng often seemed very at a loss. He was silent, standing straight in front of Shi Yizhou, his chest heaved violently, his eyes were wide open, and there were glacier collapses in his pupils.The second brother patted his head and laughed happily.

At the same time, the attitude of the boss will also affect the attitude of other people. For quite a long time, Shi Yufeng seemed to be a real idler in the discussion. Whatever grades he got, he would be said to rely on his family connections to get ahead.

Shi Yufeng still feels ashamed until now, but he must admit that he was so overwhelmed that he hid in the basement and cried loudly.

But later on, he seemed to have calmed down. Facing the malicious words, he just frowned in annoyance and didn't even want to look at the other party.Shi Yizhou felt more and more bored. He liked seeing his younger brother in pain, as if he could see another painful face from it. He hoped that one day Shi Yufeng couldn't stand it anymore and ran to Shi Zhanyang to act like a baby and vomit his bitterness. Zhan Yang brought the adopted servant to look for him, with a fierce look on his face, and he was out of breath.

But none of this happened.Shi Yufeng remained silent, showing contempt on his face, walking alone.

So his second brother made it even more exaggerated.Whenever he comes to the club, whenever he sees Shi Yufeng, he must embarrass him in front of everyone.

For example, when talking about the match in Monaco, when Yu Feng followed Huo Ying, his sight was suddenly blocked, and he sat stiffly in the shadow of his second brother. Everyone in the nearby seats heard the boss's dissatisfaction with him again. .

Afterwards, looking at the back of the second brother who had vented and walked away, Shi Yu Feng didn't feel anything. He knew that this person was no match for the elder brother, and he was just trying to vent his anger on himself.

After that, seeing Huo Ying's fiery red racing car taking the lead and crossing the finish line, and the seats around him were already empty, and no one was willing to discuss with him anymore, Shi Yu Feng still didn't feel anything, just applauded silently.Amidst the din, it was as dim as a fallen leaf.

However, when the music played and the Chinese national anthem belonging to Huo Ying and the Australian national anthem belonging to the motorcade stopped, Shi Yufeng inexplicably shed a lot of tears, mixed with sweat, and stung his eyes sorely.

It's like a weak examinee who hid in the toilet crying while clutching the bottom test paper, and fled in despair.The little animal smelled like it. Without thinking too much, he rushed down the field, ran to the place where Huo Ying was surrounded by the media in his impression, and found a shady corner to hide.There was the sound of champagne being opened, the team was celebrating with guests, people were cheering, Shi Yizhou was laughing, Shi Yufeng buried his face in his knees, stared at the ground from the gap between his legs, and gritted his teeth.

It sounds like ants eating tender grass.

He hasn't learned to use his fists to vent his anger, he just simply started to hate, or this hatred has always been there.He hated Shi Yizhou, hated teammates who looked at him differently, hated the beautiful mother who betrayed his father and abandoned him, hated the winding track, hated the sun.After hating everything, he began to hate his mediocre self.

I don't know how long it has passed, it seems that someone came over on the lawn, Shi Yu Feng didn't look up, he was thinking carefully, does he hate Huo Ying?That radiant Huo Ying who made himself have the illusion that "racing can make shit life better"?

I didn't want to understand, but was patted on the shoulder, "Sorry, I didn't know you were here," English, unfamiliar voice and accent, "Are you okay?" The man asked again.

Shi Yufeng wiped away tears on his pants, and finally turned to look at the man.He was sitting beside him, leisurely leaning against the iron base of the referee's table.The same hiding in this corner, the same team uniform, the flaming helmet.

"We should be colleagues." The man pointed to the team logo on his body, and his tone was polite and kind. He handed over the bottle in his hand, and the orange juice was still cold. "Drink this."

When Shi Yufeng took the orange juice, he was a little suspicious, looked at his helmet for a while.

"I haven't opened it," the colleague explained, sitting closer to him, "I haven't met before, are you still young?"

"Sixteen, I can only drive a go-kart," Shi Yufeng sniffed, unscrewed the lid and drank unceremoniously, but still ignored his answer, and quickly said his name in Chinese: "Shi Yufeng. "

"Huh?" The man seemed a little off-line.

"... When it's time, the rich Yu, the maple of the maple leaf," Shi Yufeng said helplessly, "My name."

The man was stunned again, and he laughed when he heard the voice: "You really can speak Chinese? I said it looks like a mixed race!" As soon as he talked about his mother tongue, he stretched out his hand and said, "I'm 24, Huo Ying, Huo Yuanjia's Huo, Ying of a great hero."

Shi Yufeng was dumbfounded all of a sudden.

Seeing that he was silent, Huo Ying suddenly realized that he took off his helmet and straightened his hair, "They insisted that I drink through the helmet, and I'm not a monkey... What the hell is there to celebrate?" It's time to be rude in front of minors, he smiled embarrassedly, turned his face to look at Shi Yufeng upright, and extended his hand to invite again, "I didn't expect to meet children while hiding here, let's get to know each other?"

Shi Yufeng was very stiff, he ordered himself to say something, but failed for a while, he just held the one that opened towards him with his sweaty hands, like holding an olive, those hands were also sweaty, straight and powerful.

"Aren't you going back to drink?" Shi Yufeng finally squeezed out a sentence.

"It's still more comfortable here," Huo Ying glanced back, and said mysteriously, "Don't you think the boss is an idiot? The one who feels very good about himself, I don't want to drink with him."

"I agree." Shi Yufeng smiled, and finally stopped stuttering.It seems that Huo Ying doesn't know that he is Shi Yizhou's younger brother?Whatever it is, it's better.He also leaned over and looked in that direction, the champagne party was still going on, the sweet wine was pouring on the tires of the racing car, the sun was setting, and the sky was winding with warm rays of light.And Huo Ying, the Huo Ying whom he was seriously thinking about whether to hate just now, was smiling at him vigorously with his back to those bright colors.

It was the same as in the photo, and it was the same as the one seen from a distance, narrow chin, fox eyes, black hair, sharp outline, and two thin lips that were red as if they were about to bleed.

Only then did Shi Yufeng realize that they were a little peeled.

When the wind blew, it was a turbulent sea breeze, and Huo Yingmei was so beautiful, he overlapped with something floating, and every stroke of the knife pierced into Shi Yufeng's eyes.

"Hey, that's right," when Yu Feng was stunned, when he heard Huo Ying speak, he suddenly felt that the man's face was a little red, and he was taken aback, only to realize that he was still holding his hand, so he quickly let go, I'm sorry I haven't After saying that, Huo Ying said again: "I remember watching your game broadcast at the end of last year. At that time, I was still wondering what the name 'Feng' was, or what the surname was Feng." He smiled heartily, "Stop early, The tactics of entering the corner early and exiting the corner early are all thought of by myself?"

"...You can see it."

"I played like this when I was driving a kart," Huo Ying flicked the helmet strap, "This method also works in the F1 field. You are very good at flicking people."

Shi Yufeng sat upright, and said: "Senior, I'm overwhelmed."

This was probably the first time he spoke so politely, and it was also the first time he called someone "senior".

"I'm serious!" Huo Ying was in high spirits, looking up at the thin pink and purple sky, "When I was 16 years old, I was still fooling around in my hometown. I didn't have a driver's license just to play cool. I drove my dad's car out. I was terrified to walk a slightly narrower path."

Shi Yu Feng also imitated him to look at the sky, and said: "You are very powerful now." After saying that, he closed his mouth, with a certain kind of caution and shyness, as if a person would not be able to express too many wishes in front of a Bodhisattva.

"Haha, I should be humble." Huo Ying was very happy to be praised, and suddenly fell on the grass, looking at Shi Yufeng half-side and half-up. Looking at it this way, his face was actually not good, as if he was very tired, bangs They were all sweaty, and they haven't dried yet, "Actually, I almost died just now."

Shi Yufeng almost spit out the orange juice from his mouth, "What?"

Huo Ying looked very calm, and just said: "There is a problem with the brake pads, they have been moved." He raised his eyelids, and looked at Shi Yufeng brightly, with a relaxed and trusting expression on his face, "Really, just now I'm Speeding up and crying, I kept thinking who was going to harm me or my own bad luck, and then I would die if I wanted to, it doesn’t matter, I can turn into a ghost and take revenge on the person who harmed me.”

When Yu Feng heard it, he was stunned for a while, and a strange feeling came up. Maybe it was the killing intent. He threw the bottle and knelt on the ground, with his arms on Huo Ying's side, leaning over and looking at him recklessly, "So who is it?"

Huo Ying laughed again, and pushed his shoulder: "Why, I'm not dead, I can only say that my skills are too good," he raised his hand, and gently rubbed the messy hair on Yu Feng's forehead , "This color is easy to remember."

"...my mother has this hair color. Strange, isn't it?"

"It's okay, my mother is even more strange," Huo Ying put her hands down and put her head behind her head, "She is a racing driver. I thought of her every day when I was adolescence, so I came to this job. Even if a son inherits his mother's career, the method of death is the same."

"You want to die?"

Huo Ying raised his face, and said quietly: "Sometimes I think about it."

Seeing Shi Yu Feng's anxious face, he smiled again, as if he understood everything, just like he didn't mention why you were crying just now, but everything he did was concerned about Shi Yu Feng's tears.He said solemnly: "But it's worth not dying just now, otherwise I won't be able to touch you, little guy."

This appearance, and the sound of "little guy", made Shi Yufeng feel complicated, unhappy, and a little excited. He even wanted to hold Huo Ying down and not let him go. As for what to ask, he didn't think clearly.

Just being with his idol like this is enough to make him do some weird things.

Huo Ying also seemed to feel that the words just now were a bit weird, so he covered his eyes, pushed away Yu Feng's hand from his side, and sat up straight to explain: "It's just...meet an old friend in a foreign land, that's what it means."

"A foreign land." When Huo Ying heard it, Yu Feng repeated blankly, and in the next second, he was pressed against the iron sheet behind him, "What's the matter?" The boy he just met didn't answer, with a youthful and childish expression on his face , pressed him hard, and in the next second, he was imprinted with a kiss.

It's not so much a kiss as a biting, the fangs feel so real, Huo Ying's mind is blaring, all kinds of mess pass through, and his lips tingle.What is the situation, why, what to do, what is it?Pushing it away with all his strength, when he glanced at it, the moist red corners of Yu Feng's mouth were much brighter than that red hair.

Shi Yufeng was still dumbfounded, and there was even doubt in his eyes: "... I know you when I meet you."

Huo Ying was so angry that he covered his mouth and jumped up, his face was swollen with hot blood, and he shouted: "Fuck!"

With this scolding, Shi Yu Feng also immediately came back to his senses, looked at Huo Ying up and down in a panic, and ran away. After catching up, that kid is young, really big-hearted, and thick-skinned enough, he disappeared in a short while.

So Huo Ying had no choice but to walk back in despair, thinking about his life along the way, he felt ashamed, but what happened to his heart, it was throbbing so painfully.The rhythm has been completely disrupted, including the uneasiness and anger of being calculated by people today, including the annoying and dangerous boss, including the confused faces, the loneliness that repeats every day, and what kind of bullshit advertisements, sponsorships, championships... ... His current mind can only hold that kiss!

How lonely is he who hasn't met someone who can chat in his native language for a long time?How did you talk to that kid so much!

Huo Ying was distraught, seeing his colleague approaching, expressing concern for his mouth.He wiped it with the back of his hand, only to find that his lower lip was bubbling blood, "Fuck!" He couldn't hold back the curse, anyway, there was no one around who could understand Chinese, "Are you a dog with the surname Shi! Don't let me remember you..."

The sea breeze was still very comfortable, and the sunset was still beautiful. Huo Ying, who was in a period of confusion in his life, just lost his first kiss. He squatted down and desperately recalled the face that deserved a beating, but his mind was blank, only his face was so hot that it was about to explode.

Note 1: Pole position means that before the Formula car race, the person with the best qualifying performance (the fastest lap) gets the top position among all the cars, that is, the first place.The person who starts from the first place on the grid is called pole position. If there are other penalties and starts backward, the second place will be promoted to pole position.