can't stop

On the way back, Shi Yufeng clearly felt that Huo Ying was going to stare at him for a while from time to time, tilting his head, hands behind his back, and when he had seen enough, he carried the rose to the front and walked a short distance, He would slow down again, wait for the two to stand side by side, and stare at Shi Yu Feng again for a while.

When Yu Feng was stared at a little hairy, his poor experience did not tell him whether this atmosphere was still suitable for kissing, even though his mind was full of this matter, his teeth were grinding his tongue, he realized with regret , the past two years seem to be getting sharper and sharper.

There is a common misconception that the return route is always shorter than when they came here. The two walked quickly, and when they arrived at the fork of the coastal road and were about to turn into the small town at the foot of the mountain, Shi Yufeng's mobile phone received a message from Qiu Shili inappropriately. :

[Don't go home before twelve o'clock, the eldest brother is working on errands]

A short one, but it made Shi Yufeng immediately vigilant - Shi Zhanyang usually does not do good things when he does things.Shi Yufeng had many personal experiences in his early years. For example, on Children’s Day one year, his elder brother insisted on taking him to Disneyland to play, and specially crossed a hemisphere back to Hong Kong, which he had never been to.He was only about ten years old at the time, but he didn't eat this set. He felt very hot and boring throughout the whole process, but Qiu Shili, who was eighteen or nineteen years old, had a great time playing, especially the jetpack flying machine. After one round, he would have another round.

The two brothers of the Shi family looked at each other silently at the bottom, the younger one was indifferently drinking the orange soda with Winnie the Pooh on the wall, and the older one was holding up the camera, happily screaming at the Mickey Mouse hairpin Qiu Shili video.But at least the scene was very harmonious for a time, they played for two days, went back to the hotel to rest, and planned to visit the ancestor's grave the next day, so they had a good time.

It was that time that Shi Yufeng had a specific and deep impression of his elder brother's "work".After taking a shower, he played blackjack with Qiu Shili. He heard a strange noise from the room next door. Qiu Shili obviously heard it too. He listened silently for a moment, put down his poker cards and said, "I'll go and have a look. Don't come over for half an hour. Brother is on business." .”

After finishing speaking, he stuffed Shi Yufeng with a full Glock 43, pushed the door open and left, with the double-edged dagger that Shi Zhanyang gave him pinned to his waist, and the Mickey Mouse ears on his head were still not taken off.

The pistol is carried at the fingertips, which is lighter than imagined.With a certain intuition, Shi Yufeng was rarely interested in what happened next door.He found that his door was locked, and after half an hour, he went through the window and went to the next door from the balcony.

The lights were dim, there was a big pool of blood on the carpet, and the smell was pungent.Qiu Shili seemed to be busy with something in the bathroom, the movement was broken and rustling, while Shi Zhanyang sat on the bed, seeing that he was not frightened, he smiled loosely, with a helpless expression on his face: "When you go back to your hometown, there are people Chase and kill, what is the second child going to do?"

A clear voice in my heart told Shi Yufeng that someone died, but it wasn't his boastful second brother.From that day on, he also understood what the so-called "doing things" really meant.

But now, Shi Zhanyang is working again, and they are not allowed to go home on this supposedly peaceful island, that is... in Huo Ying's house?

He's just here for a vacation, and he absolutely doesn't want that hut on the high ground to become a business place that Shi Zhanyang can use at will!

Before Shi Yufeng had time to think about it, he received another message:

[Look out for Xiaoying!don’t worry. 】

In an instant, the pores of Shi Yufeng's whole body tensed up.He silently replied "received", and silently thought of the blood that was not surprising.I remembered the cursed eyes of my second brother in the prison.Think of the disaster three years ago.Think of the rows of guns in the shipping container.These sudden flashbacks seemed meaningless, born in the family of an arms dealer, Shi Yufeng should have gotten used to it long ago, but at this moment he shuddered, because at this moment, those shitty things seemed to have something to do with Huo Ying, How is it possible, why, only those are worthy?

—He sometimes hates his intuition.

Huo Ying seemed to see his nervousness, and was also a little concerned that his phone was still ringing at such a late hour, and suddenly broke the silence between the two, "Do you feel a burning sensation in your stomach now?"

When Shi Yufeng came back to his senses, he tried his best to calm down and said, "Fortunately, I often eat Sichuan cuisine, and I have practiced it."

"A Sichuan restaurant in Melbourne?" Huo Ying smiled, and stared at him again as before, tilting his head, holding the yellow rose with his hands behind his back.He has eyes as bright as a pair of foxes, but under the moonlight, he is like a lamb, a little moist and curious. Shi Yufeng is a budding young tree in the pasture, he must remember the branches direction, the color of young leaves.

He asked again: "I heard from Qiu Shili that you live in Australia, why don't you go to the Italian headquarters? You stay there all the time, and you become marginalized without knowing it."

The tense feeling in Shi Yufeng's heart was relieved a little, probably because Huo Ying was chatting with him in such a relaxed manner, telling him that now is no different from usual.

"The track over there is difficult and relatively remote, so you don't have to have dinner with sponsors." Shi Yufeng took a few deep breaths of the sea breeze and smiled, "It's very free."

Huo Ying paused when he heard the words, "I thought about freedom every day." He walked towards the street of the town, "Sponsors are really annoying! The logos on the racing suits are either cigarettes, lubricating oil, or condoms. , doesn't it make me look vulgar?"

vulgar?With Shi Yufeng here, how could he have anything to do with this word.But now Yu Feng was so focused on not letting him go back home, he chased after him and shouted, "Brother Ying!"

Huo Ying's wrist was suddenly grabbed by him, and he turned around stiffly: "What are you doing?"

Shi Yufeng dragged him back to the road, "I want to go to the beach... By the way, to see the moon, the bright moon is born on the sea!"

He started reciting poems in a foolish way. The reason for this is really not clever. Isn't it clearer to stand on the road and look at the sea?But Shi Yufeng has a deeper plan - it is safer on the beach, with a wide field of vision, and can see clearly in all directions. Even if someone stops on the road, they can't walk too fast on the soft sand. Then Shi Yufeng would have time to react.

Huo Ying didn't know about this, but was amused by him, and followed him obediently, "It's good to be young."

"You're not old either," Shi Yu Feng stubbornly insisted on dragging him to the shore, walking deeper, approaching the rising tide, "you're not bad either."

"I'm still quite vulgar. I earn advertising fees, but I still look down on others. I want to be free all day long. As a result, after each season is over, I immediately prepare to play the next one, fearing that one day I will lose my core."

He said this very lightly, very lightly, not even comparable to the lapping of the tide on the reef.Shi Yufeng listened to every word.After listening to it, he also said word by word: "This is not vulgar. If you want to maintain a car and a team, you must make money. This is just a contradiction." He looked sideways at Huo Ying, "Everyone will face contradictions. Make yourself miserable. I have it too, and it's severe, so I'm kicked out to reflect."

Huo Ying was startled.Just a contradiction?For a long time, he won a lot of awards, but fell into self-doubt.Huo Ying would occasionally ask himself suddenly when he saw the side stories about himself in the newspapers, and fought openly and secretly with his opponents in the motorcade, is this me?Ask again, are you pretending to be too noble?

Another example is that every time after a game, he would socialize with sponsors, he would not recognize them, and the manager had to remind him who was the host and guest, and he needed to drink a few more drinks. He just felt dizzy.Another example is a venue to accept media interviews, tricky questions that have nothing to do with racing, and some people even tease him whether he will consider becoming an actor or a model in the future. It's like standing on a tightrope.

At that time, he felt that he might be a little socially afraid.The moment of risking death on the track is more enjoyable because there is no need to meet people.Anyway, it's probably your own problem.

But now, when he was still trying to forget all that but failed repeatedly, there was a time when Yu Feng appeared, and he told him with words and actions that it was just a kind of contradiction, a kind of pain, I have it too, I have it I understand, I understand, it's not you who I said wrong.

Huo Ying withdrew his mind, something was much lighter, he raised his eyes and smiled, "Drive you away to reflect? Your sister-in-law said this is a vacation."

Shi Yufeng shook his head shyly, "It's exile."

Huo Ying laughed again, "Then when are you going to fight back?"

Shi Yufeng still shook his head, "Let's talk about it, it's boring."

"You can't stay here forever."

"At least three years, right?" Shi Yu Feng squatted down and fiddled with some volcanic rocks piled up in the puddle.How much of a joke there was in this remark, he couldn't tell himself.

Huo Ying immediately became anxious, he stepped on the stone to prevent Shi Yufeng from playing, "What shit for three years, you are different from me!"

Shi Yufeng stopped what he was doing, and put his fingertips on his boots, "What's the difference?"

Huo Ying was aggressive: "You have to go back and drive!"

Shi Yufeng's eyes were burning: "Then you go back too."

Huo Ying's voice lowered: "No need, I can't do it anymore."

"No," Shi Yufeng said anxiously, "Now there is no bully like Elijah in the team, even if there is one, it's me—" Realizing that he said something stupid again, he added, "In short, there will be no one who doesn't Treat you fairly."

"That's not the problem."

"Your car is also there, it has been maintained, brother, it has been waiting for you."

Huo Ying fell silent all of a sudden, he was so quiet that Shi Yufeng flustered.He stopped stepping on the stone with resentment, and squatted down while supporting his knees, watching Shi Yu Feng quietly, very gentle and restrained, just like three years ago when he seriously comforted him who was crying violently.This made Shi Yufeng feel that he was sad.

Shi Yufeng started to be confused again, it was already past 11:30, his elder brother who didn't know what he was doing at home made him irritated, Qiu Shili, who was like a nanny, made him irritated, and there was another track on another continent, where dust was waiting for him The F1, it bothers him, that stuff feels like a failure.But only Huo Ying in front of him made him at a loss.Shi Yufeng even had a few moments of hostility towards Lang Sheng: He is so quiet, why are you arguing?

However, the two of them couldn't stare at each other calmly for a long time, a shadow flashed from the cracks in the stone, and then Shi Yufeng felt a stabbing pain on the back of his hand. He realized it was a snake, but Huo Yufeng wanted to catch it Ying snatched it first—the man yelled, and Rose didn't even bother to take it anymore. She quickly grabbed the thing's head and jumped up.

"..." Huo Ying just pinched the snake's head like that, panting, lowered his head to look at Shi Yu Feng, the moonlight was very bright, Shi Yu Feng noticed that his eyes seemed to have changed color with anxiety.

In contrast, Shi Yufeng was very calm, he squatted still firmly, nodded to Huo Ying, indicating his survival, "It's okay."

Huo Ying seemed to be agitated by his words, and the four characters "It's okay ass" were written all over his body.The two-finger-thick snake was grasped seven inches by him, and he didn't dare to move. Shi Yu Feng seemed to hear a slight snapping sound, and looking at the little snake, it had become limp, thrown by Huo Ying like a waste pipe. on the beach.

He was so straightforward and fast, Shi Yu Feng was a little stunned, and saw him squatting down pretending to be calm, but his voice was shaking, "Don't be afraid! I'll suck it out for you."

The wound was on the back of the right hand. There were two small horizontal cuts that were not too big and not too deep. A little thin blood was drawn out, which could even be considered dry.Huo Ying held that hand in front of his face, and sucked it without hesitation. He remembered that he had to spit it out, but he didn't seem to be able to suck anything out except the smell of blood, and it was a little salty. Is it sweat?

Now Huo Ying was even more uncertain, but the hospital on this island must have closed at the moment, and now it would take at least 10 minutes to rush home, let Shi Yufeng go by himself, the blood circulation will speed up, for sure No, then go back and get the wound medicine and run back?Too slow, and what medicine can cure snake venom?Or carry him back by yourself?

Shi Yufeng was also very nervous, not because of the snake bite, he participated in the boy scout camp in the dense forest of Australia when he was a child, and his ability to survive in the wild is good. He knows that the snake is not poisonous at all, it is a common species in the Pacific Ocean The beach creature should have been frightened by the sudden attack just now.

And he was sweating nervously because Huo Ying held him too carefully, his lips were too soft, his mouth was so wet and hot, he was still sucking hard, occasionally touching his tongue, and exhaling the hot air again, Shiyu Feng felt that the blood all over his body was flowing to his hands.

Huo Ying seemed to be a little weak in his legs, so he just knelt down, holding that arm with both hands, sucking the non-existent snake venom, his big eyes were full of anxiety and confusion, when he saw Yu Feng tightly pursed his lips, When the light from the lighthouse came on, his whole face was completely red, presumably the toxicity had already begun to attack, and he became more and more anxious. He was about to take off his shirt and ligate his arm, but when Yu Feng clicked heavily, "That kind of The snake is not poisonous!"

"Ah?" Huo Ying raised his head abruptly, and when his lips left the skin, he let out a loud wet suck, and then sat down on the sand.

Shi Yufeng stood up neatly, and stretched out a hand towards Huo Ying, "...it's a small-headed snake from Taiwan. It will haunt the seaside during the spawning period. It won't grow up, and it will only eat eggs."

Huo Ying's mind was a little numb. When he looked at Yu Feng's outstretched hand, it was the one he sucked just now, and he touched his lips again. There was a strong smell of blood on the tip of his tongue... He really became a vampire!Thinking that the back of that hand was covered with his own saliva, Huo Ying was ashamed and speechless, but also mixed with a little pure happiness, no matter what, this kid is fine.

He picked up the rose and took it away, stood up while supporting Yu Feng's arm, covered his face and said, "I'm sorry just now."

Shi Yufeng smiled like a sunny boy, "It's actually very comfortable."

Huo Ying looked at the sea stiffly.He felt his face was hot again, even hotter than before, all because of this guy who said he was comfortable!He seemed to be unable to bear it anymore, some things seemed to be fleeting after tonight.What is telling the truth after drinking, what is Fatty Guo who is in the way, what is the little snake who died in Huangquan, and what are the white short sleeves and yellow roses... These are just waves floating on the water, he bears it!

So, what's under the sea?What is pushing the waves?Huo Ying couldn't believe it, but he knew it well.At this moment, when that thing pushed him closer, Yu Feng, this was suicide!But the worries and restraints are gone, his mind is getting more and more swollen, and he only wants to hold on to those shoulders. Under Shi Yufeng's stunned eyes, he didn't close his eyes this time, and saw clearly the two quietly exhaling. A piece of lip, gently touched it with his own lips.

After being endured for two seconds, he didn't even dare to dawdle, let alone open his mouth, but Shi Yu Feng froze and didn't respond.

"I have a strong smell of blood in my mouth." Huo Ying lowered his head, leaned his forehead softly on Shi Yufeng's chin, and said these words without beginning or end.Do you try it?Of course he didn't dare to say that.

Shi Yufeng still didn't say a word, but his breathing was much heavier, blowing on top of Huo Ying's head.He seemed to be stiffer.

"Are you afraid that I will take it seriously?" Huo Ying also froze, letting go of his shoulders and stepping back, lowering his eyelashes deeply, clenched the rose stem so that his fingers were pricked.He was the one who said "If you dare to kiss me again, I'll take it seriously", now he is the one who is bold and lost because of this, just as bright as the moon tonight, and the sea is still deep, what is his result, the moon and the sea level are different will change.But he still felt very wronged, and he couldn't even care about the embarrassment. He couldn't help but say, "I still want you to like it...I still want you to take it seriously."

Shi Yufeng was like a taut string from the beginning to the end. He suddenly clicked his tongue again and again, and the string broke. He pulled Huo Ying into his arms, hugged his hands from the elbows, and quickly Sliding over his arms, shoulders, and neck, he finally held Huo Ying's panicked face, "Really! Why is it wrong, I take it seriously!" He suppressed the fire, kissed as gently as possible from the bridge of the nose, and endured it when he kissed someone. He couldn't help it, when he kissed his lips, he couldn't tell whether it was gnawing or biting, sucking or licking, he only tasted the bitter and salty taste, it was Huo Ying who cried, shed so many tears in such a short few seconds , but still put his arms on his shoulders and hugged him tightly.

Rose petals rose and fell with his breath, rubbing against the back of his neck.

It turned out that this is the taste of tears.Salty, bitter, and thin, this taste is Shi Yufeng's growth in these years, it is regret, his confusion, his hatred, and even more his love, his dream, and his innocence, which flashed in his mind. The huge golden Buddha I saw when my family went to Thailand to buy incense for my elder brother who was unconscious.

He made an extra, selfish wish then, and now he is holding the weeping Bodhisattva in his arms, and he should lift up his rosette, and not let the Bodhisattva fall into the dust.But now Yu Feng doesn't want to do anything, but he just wants to eat Huo Ying, and he wants to lie down on the spot and die on Huo Ying's body, "I love you, Brother Ying, I will take it seriously and love you forever!"