disqualified hero

[It’s not that I like children. If I really want to say it, I even hate children. The reason is very simple. I hate people who cause trouble for others, and children can’t control their emotions. They cry when they want, Smile if you want, and if you have a child next to you while you are reading, he will definitely stare at you curiously and even ask what book you are reading.Just like a curious cat. ]

[From this point of view, rather than humans, young children are closer to sensitive beasts both in behavior and in mind. They rely on their keen intuition to judge people's good intentions and malice, rather than words or hypocritical expressions, or Dancing movements.Be close to those who are close to them, love those who love them, and even enslave those who love them.After all, children are such beasts. ]

——"Human Matters. Hide and Seek"

No matter how dissatisfied she is with Dazai's true face, Nagae Shinano has to admit that Dazai's literary attainments are beyond compare. She was originally a fan of Dazai, even though she knows the other party's bad character, she still maintains her status .

Now, surrounded by girls, she is sewing.

Fabrics from old clothes, ribbons for decoration, purong flowers made of red thread, and various sewing leftovers, etc. Even when they grow up, many women love plush toys very much, let alone little girls. Children, the orphanage will give them pocket money, not a lot, but it is enough to buy dolls after a long time, and then there are princess houses, dressing tools, etc., weave all kinds of exquisite hair accessories for the dolls, wear cute clothes, so that Do it yourself.

Most people's childhood is like this.

"It's done." She lifted up the beautiful little dress, and the girls cheered. Nagae looked into the distance. At the same time, those bold girls and boys also cheered, Li Ri Yucha Zizi used his own personality to make the children fly. Green Valley was surrounded by the rare hero chefs and talked about the information about the heroes. Wang played video games together.

Xiongying's students form different circles, but even the worst Mineta Minoru is surrounded by a group of people, almost all male junior high school students. A certain philosopher once said that the heart of a young man is better than a public toilet on the side of the road Even more filthy, his sexual and emotional reserves are really perfect, and he can easily become the teacher of many people.

After finding the right method, Xiongying's students really got along with the children in the orphanage at a very fast speed.

[In contrast to the High School Affiliated to Dongda University...]

Her head shifted slightly, and then she showed a clear look.

[Ah, sure enough. ]

she said in her heart.

Except for Osamu Dazai, who was surrounded by girls and couldn't see his face, there were only some girls around Akemi Kobayakawa.

[It is a matter of course. ]

Xinye Nagae's expression became a little indifferent. The children in the orphanage were all ingenious and had already learned how to make doll clothes from her hands. They were all busy with needles and thread, and no one paid attention to her expression.

[People's emotions cannot be controlled, just as people fear the enemy and the enemy's heirs, people who have been treated unfairly by society will hate society, those who are feared by the group will also reject the group, and those who are hated by politicians , that is, people who are betrayed by this country will also hate the country. ]

[This is the so-called causal loop. ] She thinks [It is a boring thing to say that you deliberately hate certain people and certain groups, but most people's hearts are not so strong. Emotions need to find an outlet to vent, and hatred must also find the target of hatred In fact, people who are abandoned by society are hostile to society. In the final analysis, it is absolutely impossible to popularize the universal values ​​of justice, freedom and equality. ]

She looked around the scene for a week, looking at children and teenagers who might have become melancholy and radical, or who might still be living in happiness.

The older a person gets, the less happy he becomes, and the more he thinks.

Changzhi thought with some melancholy: [What will these children become in the future, will they become ordinary people who spend their whole lives in obscurity in society, or become enemies?Or is it that new hope is bred in hatred and becomes a hero? ]

[Anyway, I don't want them to be enemies who hate society and heroes. ]

Even she couldn't help but sigh like that.

[Because hatred is a very labor-intensive thing. ]

……

Abandoning a genius like Osamu Dazai, among ordinary people, Akemi Kobayakawa is an excellent student who is quite good at learning.

Not only does she have excellent grades, but she is also good at explaining topics. Not everyone in the orphanage wants to escape from school. Many of them cherish the opportunity to study, and their grades are quite excellent. I told someone a question, and within a few minutes, many students came to ask with their homework books.

The current situation is unexpectedly very different from the scene in memory, and seven years later, the scene when I came to the orphanage for the third time is completely different from the present.

At that time, it was not the same as it is now. The conditions in the orphanage were really bad. Most of the people went to other places to make a living after finishing junior high school. Maybe it was Tokyo, maybe Osaka, maybe Nagoya. In short, some people didn’t even have ID cards Without belts, their purpose is the same, to go to a place where no one knows themselves, no matter what industry they are in, even if they enter the custom industry, they can still start again.

"Even if I become a hostess, it's better than now."

The elementary school girl who was about her age said old-fashioned things that only people in society would say: "I heard from Ji Zijie that the money earned by the escort girl can support herself, and she can even rent a small room of more than ten square meters in Tokyo. , and you can also buy beautiful dresses.” She said, “And that’s a legitimate job. Apart from being an enemy, there’s no illegal job these days. "

Akemi Kobayakawa said, "What about high school? Don't you want to go to high school?"

"Hey, what's that." Ah Zhong grimaced, "Who can go to high school? It's useless at all. Besides, if we can get into a good high school here, Yingzhi is the only one in the end." When talking about Yingzhi , There was no intimacy in her words, "That's a freak, if Ah Shun wasn't here, who would be willing to spend money for him, high school is too stressful, even if it's a part-time job, the money won't be enough. "

"Yan Yi has become a truck driver. Rather than going to high school, it is better to get a driver's license." Ah Zhong said in a yearning tone, "That's great, I also want to date a man like Yan Yi, but She likes sister Ji Zi very much."

[wrong. ]

Everything she heard in the orphanage and what she observed was completely different from the outlook on life that Akemi Kobayakawa had molded in the past ten years, even utterly opposite. Truck driver is better than going to high school.

She couldn't understand it at all.

There was a "creaking" sound at the door, and Ah Zhong showed a disgusted expression and said, "It's disgusting, Yingzhi must be back, and he is the only one who can abuse the iron gate." The next second came an older woman's roar from outside, " Use less strength, Yingzhi, and the door will be broken by you."

The girls in the courtyard who were playing the ball and flipping the flower rope dispersed in a rush, still mocking: "The idiot is here, the idiot is here, everyone, let's go!"

"Oh, what a nuisance, that freak."

"Ah, you see what I said, the freak is back." Ah Chong said in a mature tone, "I don't want to breathe the same air as that freak, and you, Mingmei."

"Ah Shun asked me to wait here for his return."

"Okay then." She shrugged, "Then you can deal with the freak here, if you really can't stand his unrealistic nonsense, you can escape to my place, last night Ah Shun gave us I brought some fairy tale books, although I am past the age of reading fairy tales, but if you want to come to my place to pass the time, it is a very good choice."

Talking that she has passed the age of reading fairy tales, but when she talked about books, there were stars in her eyes. Mingmei thought: Fortunately, there are stars in her eyes. A girl of about the same age, the kind of philistine and tired girl you often see in custom shops, that's about it.

Given her age and family background, she is unlikely to be exposed to custom shops, but don't specific scenes often appear in morning dramas?For example, in the red-light district of Ikebukuro, she pieced together the image of a girl from trivial lines.

Eiji was even more unpopular than bedbugs, and when he entered the house, Minmei was alone in the old hallway.

The corridor is very old, even if the floor is wiped clean, there are still years of stains, and holes can be seen in the corners. At first, someone wiped the floor, but in the end, except Ah Shun, few people did it.

"It's dirty no matter how much you scrub it, it's better to let the children run around in their shoes."

Yingzhi and Mingmei are rare people who change shoes indoors. The former took off his old leather shoes at the door, and the soles were almost worn out, so he re-shoeed himself.While putting away the shoes, he said, "It's really rare, there are people in the corridor, they didn't call me a freak, and told you to stay away from me?" Yingzhi didn't even look at Akemi Kobayakawa, "Or are you also Excluded, miss?"

"I'm not as failed as you are." Akemi Kobayakawa said coldly, "I'm just waiting for Ah Shun."

"Really?" Yingzhi said.

The corridor was very narrow, and the horizontal width could not even accommodate elementary school students and high school students at the same time. When the two passed by, Yingzhi showed a very nasty expression: "Go back to your home, Miss." He said, "Don't Come to my kennel, don’t pester Ah Shun, you are not from the same world.” Then, he threw a bomb the size of a firecracker from his hand, and the bomb stayed in the air and exploded. A little spark.

The edge of Minmei's hair was burnt.

Although she is a primary school student, she has already cultivated a calm personality. Even if she was hit by the opponent's sudden violence, she only sneered a few times. Yingzhi felt that something was wrong, but it was too late Even though he retreated extremely quickly, the corner of his clothes was still burned by the heat.

The skin didn't even feel the burning heat, and part of the fabric disappeared.

[How high the temperature must be. ]

For the first time, Yingzhi also trembled, not because of fear, but because of the instinctive reaction of a person in a crisis.

Akemi Kobayakawa showed a very powerful smile, not so much a smile, but a condescending look: "The personality of making bombs?" She almost sneered, "It's no wonder, it's really a personality suitable for being an enemy, no wonder others are afraid of you I hate you, even if you are the heir of the same criminal, you are the most special one." When she wanted to stab others with malicious intent, no one could escape, and Akemi Kobayakawa, she was sure that she almost used The greatest malice in life came to mock Yingzhi.

She hates this guy very, very much for no reason.

"A person like you was born as an enemy." She said, "No matter how hard you struggle, you will become an enemy. After all, you have no elements of justice at all."

Yingzhi's pupils locked tightly for a while, and there was almost an inhuman, beast-like trait on his body. The pupils were erected, very, very scary, as if he would rush up to attack people in the next second.Mingmei didn't speak, but she tensed her body secretly. She mobilized her personality factor, and the scorching temperature and dazzling light were ready to go.

It was Ah Shun's voice that interrupted the two of them so that they did not attack each other like wild beasts.

"I'm back." He yelled happily at the door, the plastic bag in his hand was rumbling and rubbing, bear biscuits and other snack boxes and snack bags piled up on each other's shoulders, clustered in plastic bags, and he hadn't entered the door yet Said, "I'm so lucky today, I got another sponsorship, I bought some snacks, let's eat together."

In the corridor, the tense and tense atmosphere disappeared. Yingzhi went out in three steps at a time, glared at Ah Shun, and helped him get most of the bags: "Why do you buy these boring things, why don't you just buy more rice? and bread."

And Akemi Kobayakawa took the juice from the other party's arms, and he said not to be outdone, "It's not your money, what a shame."

"Ah, you're already familiar with each other." Ah Shun's focus was very strange, but he finally put on an illusory happy smile on his tired face, "It's great, both Minmei and Yingzhi are really good. It's too withdrawn, and I'm worried that you two are lonely and don't have many friends, if you two get acquainted, you can be companions."

He said: "Yingzhi wants to be admitted to a school in Tokyo, right? Mingmei usually lives in Tokyo, so I can use her as a reference. Although she is still a primary school student, she has already planned to go to university."

Akemi:"……"

Yingzhi: "..."

"As for why you buy snacks." He finally remembered to answer Yingzhi's question, "How should I put it, people do rely on carbohydrates, rice, and flour to survive, but they can only help them survive, and snacks and candies In addition to surviving, there is also an element of enjoyment. If a person eats to survive, he is just like a beast. Enjoying under limited conditions is what humans should do.”

Those children who were hiding in the room and in the courtyard ran out one after another when they heard Ah Shun came back, regardless of whether the big devil Yingzhi was here or not. The well-behaved children said "Welcome back", while some rebellious children wanted to He took the snacks directly, but Yingzhi and Mingmei stared back fiercely with their eyes.

Thinking about it carefully, although the Kyushu Orphanage was very poor at that time, everyone was very happy.

Poor but happy, this is their life at that time.

"Miss Mingmei, Miss Mingmei?"

The child's voice pulled Akemi Kobayakawa out of the sea of ​​memory. The textbook was still on the desk in front of her. She shook her head and said, "I'm sorry, I was just thinking about how to solve this problem." Then she took the pencil again Write back and forth on scratch paper.

[Compared to that time, the standard of living in the orphanage is much better now. ]

She couldn't help thinking.

［Everyone wants to go to high school, and they don’t want to go to school because they are bullied, and they can eat snacks whenever they want, even if the variety is not very rich. ]

[I have to admit that Yingzhi did a good job, at least he took good care of the people in the orphanage. With money, he has dreams, and with education, he can gain a foothold in society. Compared with the past, I think Elementary school students who want to be customs girls are much better now. ]

[As he said, I couldn’t do anything, and I didn’t do anything. I just fled to Shizuoka, like a bereaved dog. I dare not even come back to Kyushu. The only thing I can protect is the one I saw in front of me. A little bit of happiness. ]

[It's like caring for the only rose in the glass cover in the wind and rain. ]

She felt very ashamed, because of her powerlessness, but at the same time, the belief of protection was also burning in her heart, at least she had to protect the person she wanted to protect, just like she swore in the past.

"Mingmei-chan will definitely become a great adult in the future."

Ah Shun's voice has been lingering in his ears, and when he dreams back at midnight, he can still hear his whispers.

"What is a great adult?" said the little self in memory, "The concept of greatness is too broad and too metaphysical. Let me give you some specific examples. Only with examples can I have a direction to work hard."

"For example." Ah Shun thought hard, "It is to protect the people you want to protect." He said, "Look, didn't Oulumite say that the real hero is to protect the people you want to protect Is that what I think great people are like.” He squatted down and met Mingmei’s eyes, “I have a hero I like very much. He once said in a talk show that the reason why he became a hero is to protect To take good care of his wife and daughter, as well as people like his wife and daughter, he is working hard for this goal."

"Hey, the hero I like." Mingmei said, "So you are a hero chef?" Her face was full of indescribable words.

"No, no, it's just that I was helped by that hero in Tokyo, so I like him more." Ah Shun said, "When I was withdrawing money from the bank before, I happened to encounter a robbery incident. If there is no such hero, Don't talk about money, even if I come back, it's still unknown."

"Don't say such unlucky words!" Mingmei scolded very severely.

"Okay, okay." He said, "I came back and checked, but I didn't expect that the hero is from Kyushu. He is really a very, very good hero, full of the spirit of our Kyushu men." He compared him to a sumo wrestler. Minmei couldn't help showing a very faint smile due to her actions.

"So that hero's name is." She reluctantly said, "I'll go back and look up his information. After all, it's the first hero you worshiped, Ah Shun. It's commemorative."

"Really, Akemi-chan is too thoughtful." He said, "It's an easy-to-remember name. It's called a knight. The usual hero costumes are medieval armor, which is very handsome." He said, "Although you are still in Tokyo He is unknown, but I believe he will become a great hero."

At this time, Yingzhi happened to pass by, and he showed a very indescribable expression and said, "I'm talking about you being saved by a hero again." Apparently, Ah Shun has already publicized it to others countless times.

Ah Shun showed a stubborn and unconvinced expression like a child and said: "Really, I think Mr. Knight will definitely become a very great hero. He is a man from Kyushu."

"Okay, okay." Yingzhi said with a headache, "I know, I know, he will definitely become famous."

……

Hawkes suddenly answered the phone.

It wasn't just him, at the same time his cell phone rang, Aizawa Shouta's cell phone rang too, and the two heroes looked at each other, showing very serious expressions at the same time.

To be able to alarm two heroes at the same time, something very important must have happened.

"Hello, this is Hawks."

"This is the Kyushu Police Station." The person on the other side of the phone said seriously, "Please assist us in handling the case, Mr. Hawks, there is a very serious crisis lurking in the entire Kyushu right now, and we have the authority to call heroes urgently."

"What a crisis."

"The enemy who used the bomb appeared again." The man said, "He sent us a map of Kyushu with great fanfare. Not only Saga, but the entire Kyushu is covered with bombs. According to incomplete statistics, the number of bombs More than 100 bombs, including 30 heavyweight bombs, were distributed in public gathering places such as hospitals, schools, and libraries."

"What?" Hawkes was also stunned.

"If these bombs are allowed to explode, Kyushu will definitely become a hell on earth," he said, "so please help us, Mr. Hawkes, please."

"Wait, I'll be right there."

……

Aizawa Shouta has a little more going on here.

"We don't have enough heroes and police here. I heard that students from the Hero Department of Xiongying High School..."

"No." Aizawa Shouta flatly refused, and the police didn't even have room to maneuver.

"Absolutely not. They are all just students, and they can't even protect themselves. How can they participate in this kind of thing." He said, "Leave the bomb removal to us adults. Adults have the responsibility of adults, and students have the responsibility of students." responsibility."

"But……"

"No but." His voice was still tired, but there was a certain force in his words, which belonged to teachers and professional heroes.

"Students do student things, heroes do heroic things, no matter how critical the situation is, it is the absolute truth."

"Children must not be allowed to take risks," he said.

……

Osamu Dazai got a complete document.

Bo Chejian's personality is very special. He can integrate his consciousness into the huge network and find any information he needs. If he really wants to say, he is like an intelligent AI. With the growth of his ability, he will be able to Command the vast network world like stars.

He opened the folder with the excitement of reading an unknown story, but after reading ten lines at a glance, he thought about it without interest.

[The trio, what a clichéd plot. ]

The plot of the story continues from the above, Ah Shun rescued the lonely eldest lady and the enemy reserve, Ying Zhi obviously has a very bad personality, but he did not become an enemy.

but--

Among them, he discovered a very subtle point, that is, Ya Yingzhi's current personality display is "no personality", just like Ah Shun's personality report back then.And if you go further in the past, you will find that before high school, his personality report showed that he was a "bomb" and was labeled as "extremely dangerous".

[So that's what it is. ] Another piece of information is interspersed in it, [Ah Shun's father is a senior official of the Personality Supervision Bureau, I am afraid that Ah Shun used his father's name to modify Ya Yingzhi's personality. From then on, Yingzhi will no longer have a dangerous personality The enemy reserve, but the most ordinary male high school students.Well, from a certain point of view, it is true that there is nothing wrong with giving that child a bright future, but it is not fair to others, because it is true that Mei Yingzhi revealed the danger of the enemy very early. idiosyncratic. ]

[At the end of the day, no matter how perfect Ah Shun is in their hearts like an angel, for the silent majority, he is actually a person who puts others into crisis for his own benefit and for himself. .If one day, Ya Yingzhi loses control, the situation will be very, very dangerous. ]

[Ah Shun is just a gentle and ordinary person, nothing more. ]

"Dazai-kun?"

Nagae Shino pushed the door open and came in. She occasionally thought of visiting Dazai. About 5 minutes ago, that man escaped from her sight like a black cat with agility. Nagae Konoe always felt a little panicked. , searched around, and finally found him in the corner of the courtyard.

"Changzhijiang." He waved his phone and said, "Let's watch it together." There was a smile in his eyes, and his pupils were like an overflowing black sea, sparkling with waves.

"I saw a corny but interesting story."

[On July 7 of that year, Ah Shun died unexpectedly. ]

It was this line of bright red characters that caught Xinye Changzhi's eyes for the first time.

In fact, it is not a big reason, nor is it so sad, but Ah Shun lost contact with his family after joining the orphanage. There is no room for personality, not to mention his disgraceful running of the most dilapidated orphanage in Kyushu.

In the beginning, he took the time difference to get the resources obtained by the orphanage without telling his father. After it was published in the newspaper, those government officials felt that they had been deceived, and the funding chain suddenly broke.

He worked hard every day, every family came to bow to ask for donations, and sold his personal belongings... Except for the time when he was a teacher in the orphanage, these jobs filled all his remaining time.

Overtired, in a trance, and physically overdrawn, one day, when Ah Shun sold his last real estate and returned to the orphanage with the money, he broke into a crosswalk in a trance and died on the spot.

Even because he was the one who violated the rules, he couldn't even get the minimum compensation. This is such a sad but plain story.

"Then the cute girl fled Kyushu, the irascible young man was admitted to a university, and donated to the orphanage day after day to improve the lives of other orphans, and the hero worshiped by the teacher became a well-known local figure." Dazai smiled. Say, "Isn't it an inspirational and heartwarming story?"

Nagae fell silent.

She keenly found the blind spot: "The question is, how did he get the money." She said, "It is never easy to make money. He is obviously a student, how did he raise funds in a short period of time? Even if it is Donated by heroes, also..."

[What a coincidence. ]

[The coincidence is like the "too coincidental" that Dazai-kun said to me when he entered the door. ]

"Well..." Dazai hadn't finished speaking when the phones of the two vibrated, they swiped out the phone, and turned off the screen. It was issued by the police uniformly, a major crisis warning to the citizens of Kyushu.

He clicked the screen off again, and Dazai's unpredictable smiling face was reflected on the black translucent screen.

Shinano Nagae had an epiphany.

[Wait, this story is probably about Minmei-chan. ]

Certain details corresponded to the characters in her mind. At such a critical juncture, Nagae's mind suddenly turned to a very strange angle.

[No personality, no personality, no personality, Dazai-kun should also have no personality to the outside world, right, plus Minmei-chan's very abnormal desire to protect. ]

[What is the reason why she fell in love with Dazai-kun? ]

The last sentence was hidden deep in her heart.

[If it is empathy, it would be too sad, Dazai-kun. ]

[Body: Osamu Dazai]

[Synchronization rate: 87%]