disqualified hero

"Five or six months later." Dazai said, "Around 170 or four days, Mr. Tetsuna returned to the mansion again."

He still wanted to continue talking, but the fat rubber interrupted Dazai, he said, "Please wait a moment." The pair of cute cartoon-like eyes looked down, and his attitude was very different from the beginning. Big twist.Even with Tie Mingqiao's entrustment back then, at the beginning, he really couldn't care about Dazai.

Not to mention that after working with Dazai as a participant, many people will be full of vague fear and fear towards him.

If you want to find a reason, it is that there are too many "inhuman" elements in him.

With insight into the wisdom of the world, deliberate guidance to the enemy, oppressive words, and abnormal actions, Fatty Rubber suddenly thought of the card game played by the young heroes of the office. If Dazai is turned into a card, his attributes will definitely have The elements of chaos and evil are there.

It can't be said that others are evil, but there are absolutely not many bright factors among the ingredients that make up Dazai.

[I seem to understand it]

Chubby Rubber thought.

[Why Shuji became Dazai, why he is what he is now, even if my understanding is only at the most superficial level, I seem to be able to perceive it a little bit. ]

[It must be a very, very lonely but unspeakable soul. ]

"Please wait a moment." He stopped Dazai's words, his expression almost unease, "How was Shuzhi-kun doing during those 170 days?" Opposite the fat rubber, Dazai's eyes widened for a moment, and his subtle The change in expression made Chubby Rubber more certain.

"If you don't mind, I would like to know what happened to Mr. Xiuzhi in half a year." His voice was very low, and his tone was almost pleading, "Please."

Dazai, he was stunned for a moment, and then burst into an astonishing laugh, the laughter was not loud, but it spread to every corner of the cafe, Naoko flashed out from behind Luluo, and shouted angrily: "What are you doing?" , Dazai." He wished he could wave the plate and hit Dazai on the forehead, to see what he was thinking.

"Haha... I'm sorry, Naoko-chan." Laughing, especially laughing, is a waste of energy. Fortunately, he didn't cry. In fact, even those who know Dazai well can hardly imagine, Does he have such a thing as tears?

Human beings should be able to flow normal saline with the right concentration ratio from the eye sockets, but it is too strange to link it with Dazai!

"Okay." Dazai said, "It's not a big deal. If you insist, it's okay to tell you."

Chubby Rubber held his breath, waiting for Dazai to tell, but he heard the boy in front of him change the subject and hit the edge of the ceramic cup with a spoon, jingling, jingling.

"But before I talk, I've finished my iced milk tea." Guanghua circled in the small circles of his pupils.

"Bring me another cup of milk tea, Mr. Chubby Rubber."

……

"Hey?" When Miss Shi reported with shame on her face, Miss Ji had already arrived home.She was sitting in a warm room, the air was filled with the aroma of fruit, "Did you lose it?"

Her posture is demure and elegant, with half of her body sunk in the sofa cushions, her sitting posture is much more relaxed than usual, with an open book on her knees, notes flowing from an old phonograph, Gently soothes the heart.

Elegant and comfortable, in most cases, the space where Ms. Yuji lives will be filled with a pleasant heart-warming feeling like waves.

[Can make anyone like her if she wants to. ]

"Hmm..." Miss Ji temporarily shifted her eyes from the book, and Shi almost knelt beside her, with nothing but shame on her face. The former seemed to wake up, and said, "Don't do this, Shi." She said, "I Know that it's not your problem, just do your best."

[But why? ]

When she was able to decide her own destiny, there were very few unexpected things in her life that exceeded Miss Ji's expectations. Boring is boring, but she is also used to the feeling of being in control of everything.

After all, Miss Ji is the kind of person who prefers to hurt others rather than herself.

"I am back."

Mr. Xiu Zhi's voice came from the corridor, and this voice touched Miss Ji's heartstrings: "Can you come over here, Mr. Xiao?"

The heavy wooden door was pushed open, but there was no rattling sound, and half a face poked out from the gap: "What's wrong, Miss Ji?"

"Huh?" Miss Ji stared at Xiu Zhi for two seconds, "It's nothing." She shook her head and said softly, "I see."

……

"That's, that's it?" Fat Rubber was stunned.

"That's it~" Dazai said, "Well, Shuzhi-kun was still a child at that time, even if he had wisdom beyond ordinary people, he would be seen through right away by Miss Shangji." He said something quite terrifying, " However, even if I am now, I guess there is nothing I can do about Miss Ji, right?"

"We have a mutual understanding relationship."

"Did she not pursue it?" Chubby Rubber asked.

"Pursuant?" Dazai shrugged, "Of course not.",

"If you really want to say, she didn't want to kill Mr. Tie Ming so much."

"According to you, doesn't she get pleasure from killing people?"

"No, of course not." He thought for a while, "If I really want to say it, I can only say that between life and death, Miss Ji can truly feel that she is still alive."

"Sorry." Chubby Rubber said, "I don't quite understand."

"Let me find a way to explain it," Dazai said, "Do you know The Sims?"

"No, I don't know."

"It's a game." He said, "Before the game starts, the number of endings in life is already predetermined. When will people grow up, when will they go to elementary school, when will they look for a job, what kind of job they will find, and finally How much property has been accumulated. Players control the characters in the game, live a predetermined life, and experience the joy of growth.”

"But it's impossible in real life. Let alone a year, even the day before, it's impossible for people to know what they're doing the day after." Dazai spoke in a soft tone about the absurd things that are absolutely impossible, "For Ms. Ji, life is like a Sims game. She is a full-level player from the very beginning, and she sees everything through from the very beginning."

He made a final decision: "So for her, there is no difference between life and death, every day of life is similar."

"Is this possible?" Fat Rubber was dubious.

[If someone is like this, then how sad her life should be. ]

"It's possible." Dazai said softly.

A secret voice sounded from the bottom of Chubby Rubber's heart.

He couldn't help but want to ask.

[What about Shuji?Is Xiuzhi-kun's life the same as Miss Ji's life? ]

"To sum up, nothing happened to the Tsushima family half a year ago." Dazai said, "Miss Ji still reads books and attends concerts every day, Miss Shi is a loyal servant, Mr. Tsushima is busy, and Mr. Shuji Finished college courses."

"During the past six months, the case of dismemberment has intensified, and the unknown murderer has almost caused panic in the whole society. If there is any case in the same period that can be compared with the mysterious dismemberment, it is the very famous anti-hero incident." He said. Says, "It happened to be the first year that the anti-hero Achilles was active."

"Wait." Chubby Rubber said, "Achilles, it's not Aqiao."

Not to mention that he overthinks it, anyone who hears the coincidence of time will have the same reverie, not to mention that Achilles' true identity has not been announced until now.

[However, Aqiao's ashes seem to be half a year later...]

"Of course not." Dazai said, "Mr. Tetsuna is not such a determined person. If he had the determination to kill, Miss Ji would not have survived." He said, "After all, Mr. Tetsuna only has one The indecisive hearts of ordinary people."

"but--"

"Even an ordinary person, in a short but long life, there will be a few moments of extraordinary courage." Dazai said, "So half a year later, he appeared in front of Shuzhi-kun again."

……

"I'm sorry, Xiuzhi-kun." Tie Mingqiao was very different from before. He was unshaven, his hair was grown half-length, and his clothes were tattered. He looked like a homeless man who had escaped from other countries.

He hugged Mr. Xiuzhi, and apologized over and over again: "I am a very useless hero, I have no determination, no strength, I can't save everyone, and I can't even listen to you, Mr. Xiuzhi. .”

"Wait." Xiu Zhi couldn't quite understand the current situation, this was the first time for him.

"Wait," he said, "please let me go first."

[Why did Mr. Tie Ming come back? Didn’t he know that he would have to die after he came back? What did he want to do when he came back? Could it be that he had some insights in half a year, why did he hug me, why did he apologize to me? ]

For the first time, he couldn't understand ordinary people who were weak and indecisive.

"Please forgive me, Xiuzhi-kun." He said, "I am a stupid person, I can't find a better solution, you can hate me, you can blame me, no matter how you want to vent your anger on me, on my corpse Can."

"I don't have that kind of emotion." Xiu Zhi said, his eyes were cold, looking at Tie Ming as if he was looking at a dead person, "Besides, I don't know what you want to do, Mr. What do I have to do."

"I think I'm fine."

Tie Mingqiao smiled, very sadly: "Then, let's take it as my own idea." He said, "I'm very sorry, Xiu Zhi."

……

Half a year ago, in the howling rain, he made up his mind.

[A hero is a hero if he cannot protect others.] ]

He thought of the education he received in the hero class, and thought of the reason why he became a hero, not only to be admired by others, but more importantly, his original intention was——

Tie Mingqiao's memory suddenly went back to his childhood, saying that he was not too young, probably in elementary school. Since then, Ah Ji has always been a loner. Male classmates like him, and most of them The female classmates can't have any affection for her.

They loathe her.

This disgust not only stays on Ah Ji, but also extends to the cats and dogs she rescued.

There are several cats in the school, which were picked up by students. Every day, their temporary owners will come to the school with food and water, which is the daily ration of cats and dogs.

Because of night duty and club activities, Tie Mingqiao left school a bit late, and happened to meet that scene.

"It's this one, right?"

"That's right, it's Ji Yang."

"Damn it, she always hides behind Yamashita-kun and those boys, even if she wants to ask her out, she has no chance."

"That's good, kill it, Ji will be very heartbroken."

"Hey, this is not good..."

"Is there any problem? Since you dare to throw a dead mouse into her table belly, aren't cats the same?"

The malice of children is very terrifying.

"Like cockroaches, crickets and mice, are they all animals?"

"That's also true..."

"Hey!" Tie Mingqiao shouted, "What are you doing!"

He completely disregarded that those people were girls, and ran amok in the small circle of girls. He picked up the surrounded cat and held it in his arms: "What do you want to do to it?"

"what are you doing?!"

"Tie Ming is bullying girls!"

"What are you guys doing?" He was furious, not because the girl he liked was rejected by others, but because of the cat.

"As long as I'm here, you will never be allowed to hurt it!" That's what he said.

The next morning, Sabi heard about what Tetsuna had done.

"So that's how it is." She said calmly, "In that case, Tie Mingjun would be his little hero."

"Hey, how could it be? You just chased those girls away. How can you call him a hero." He was very embarrassed.

"No, that's the truth." Ji said, "The words of a hero actually protect the weak, right? No matter how many people's interests your actions have violated, to that weak cat, you It's a hero."

[Yes, is that so? ]

[But at that time, the cat surrounded by all the people was meowing and whining, it was begging me for help!Because I heard the plea for help, I couldn't do nothing. ]

Thinking back to this, Tetsuna pulled up his hood.

[Is Shuzhi-kun aware of it? ]

he thinks.

[Obviously he was smiling all the time, but in the depths of his empty eyes, the child I saw was clearly crying. ]

[It seems inappropriate to say it’s crying, but Xiuzhi-kun doesn’t like to take other people’s lives, doesn’t like Miss Ji’s murder, even, doesn’t like and doesn’t want to walk alone in the silent mansion, maybe this is just my arrogance Think about it, but I know that Mr. Xiuzhi is a good boy, and he is actually unwilling to let anyone lose his life. ]

[He is like an angel, a gentle and good boy. ]

[So, no matter what means I use, I will save Mr. Xiu Zhi, I will bring him out of the decaying mansion, I will keep the established fate away from him, I will make him a truly free man, Miss is a completely different person. ]

[I know it's arrogant, but I'm going to do it. ]

Finally, he said softly: "I want to be, Xiu Zhi's hero."

……

The glass of the church was shattered.

One piece, two pieces, three pieces... those finely broken glass shards that turned into powder were lying on the ground densely.Not far away was the corpse of Shi, with three sharp guns pierced in her chest, her breathing had stopped, her eyes were wide open, and until the last second, she was staring at Miss Ji's direction.

'I want to protect Miss Sabi', her expression says so.

"Whew, wheeze, wheeze." Tie Mingqiao was seriously injured. He was leaning on the wall of the church. There were too many wounds on his back, and even the walls of the church were stained with blood.Miss Ji was facing him from a distance, she was wearing a snow-white dress, like a white flower blooming in the mud.

"Why did you suddenly decide to kill me, Tie Mingjun." She said, "Tie Mingjun is obviously a very indecisive person, even if you can't kill a cat, you have to save it like a hero. Why did you decide to kill me and Shi?" She tilted her head and said, "When did you become such an interesting person, Tie Ming-kun?"

"You know, from the moment Shi died, you are no longer a hero, but an enemy?"

He took several breaths and spit out the blood clogged in his throat: "Yes." He said, "It's true that I am the enemy."

Miss Ji's eyes widened.

"But someone told me that a so-called hero is someone who can protect others." The head of the sharp gun supported his body, and he stood up bit by bit, "In order to carry out my ideas, to protect those who want to The person who protects, in order to protect his future, it doesn't matter what he does."

"I think that's fallacy." He approached Miss Ji little by little, "A real hero should be someone who can protect others, someone with noble morals, and someone who can arrest the enemy."

"I'm not much of a hero," he said, the gun in his hand falling from above and raised high. "But, I want to set that kid free."

"This is the only thing that I will do even if I become an enemy."

He roared and said, "Because Xiuzhi is a kind, gentle boy!"

"Bang bang bang," the bullets rushed out of the hand, gun, and mouth, "bang bang bang bang."

"Ah, is it?" Miss Ji no longer smiled, she had no expression, like a serious painting, "Then farewell, Tie Mingjun."

Blood sprayed out in mid-air.

[Next, I'll leave it to you, Hong Yi. ]

……

"If a person is born like a full-level Sims player, how will he spend his life?"

"What do you mean?" Hongyi lay on his back on the grass.

"That is to say, from birth, he knows everything, knows how to study, knows how to behave, and can guess the answer from the moment he gets the test paper." Tie Mingqiao said, "It's the so-called script read people."

"If there is such a person, it would be terrible." Hongyi said, "If it were me, assuming that I am such a person, I would commit crimes for fun."

"Hey?"

"Think about it." He turned over, "For him, the difficulty of this world is level 0. Wouldn't the joy of living be deprived from birth? No matter what you do, you can't get happiness. I can’t even feel successful, that’s the kind of person I’m talking about. According to human nature, he should have fun with his life at this time. As far as human genetic code is concerned, the fun is nothing more than that, killing, bleeding , and sex."

"...Do you think such a person will save others in a difficult situation?"

"Ha, what are you kidding?" Hongyi said, "How can a person who can't even understand other people's suffering develop empathy and a desire to save others?" He said, "If for a person, If it doesn't matter whether he becomes a good person or a wicked person, he will become a wicked person even more, after all, 'people are inherently evil', look at children." He said old-fashionedly, "They don't just trouble others, but Are you happy?"

Whether it's screaming or crying, there are only a few ways for children to express their emotions and make others serve them.

Tie Mingqiao stopped talking.

After a while, he said, "Do me a favor, Mr. Hongyi."

"Help me save someone."

"Hey?" Hong Yi said, "Are you sure? I only save people by killing the wicked."

"I'm sure." Tie Mingqiao said.

"There is a person, even if I become a murderous enemy, I will save him."

……

"The story is basically over here." Dazai said, "Mr. Tetsuna was shot six times and was killed on the spot. Ms. Ji was killed by the follow-up Achilles. Prime Minister Tsushima, perhaps because he lost A wife whom I loved dearly, whom I loved even when she did evil, died by suicide."

"This farce has ended in the most ridiculous form."

He said: "Even Mr. Xiuzhi never thought that the turning point in his life would happen like this."

Fatty Rubber fell silent. He had been silent for a long time, and he couldn't say a word.

"I'm leaving." Dazai stood up, looking at the setting sun, "Really, it's been a long time before I know it, I drank too much drinks just now, I guess I can't even eat, obviously Changzhi Jiang should have prepared a lot of delicious food, the Rococo tasted very good two days ago, I really hope there will be Rococo on the dinner table."

"I want to ask a question—" Dazai had already turned around, the fat rubber was behind him, and his expression could not be seen at all, but his voice, it was definitely not an ordinary voice, it was hoarse and full of grief.

"Xiuzhi, did that child feel that he was saved for even a moment?"

Dazai was also silent.

"Yes." Finally, he said lightly, "When he heard that Miss Ji was dead, for a certain moment, he did have some kind of doubt, 'So I'm really asking for help?' It turns out that someone can see through it. Is this?" "So there are really people who would give their lives for someone like me?"

At that time, he was also holding a gun in his hand, which had not been enlarged in size. The muzzle of the gun was emitting fireworks. Tsushima Haraemon was lying on the ground with a hole in his forehead, and the blood was blah blah blah. flow outward.

'If it wasn't for you, Miss Ji wouldn't have died. '

'Farewell, Shuji. '

……

In a person's life, there will always be a chance to be saved by someone.

Some people will be saved countless times, and some people will only be saved once.

Stein is sitting in a narrow rental house, looking at the computer in front of him. Behind him is a small bookcase, which contains countless books he loves, including philosophical and literary ones.

The video of the autograph sale was playing on the computer, Mr. Dazai uttered words criticizing the society in his youthful voice, the first night he opened the book, he stroked Osamu Dazai's signature for a long time.

……

In the tavern, Shikuraki scratched his scalp violently, and Heiwu was wiping his wine glass while listening to the news broadcast: "Actually, it is not the loose examination system that allows heroes to grow darkly, but the people."

"Shut it off!" he yelled petulantly.

[When, when, did someone say something similar? ]

[Tsk, boring. ]

……

Dazai walked home, humming a song while walking, "buzz buzz" "buzz buzz", the phone in his pocket buzzed, he took it out and saw it was a text message from Shota Aizawa.

／A ticket for the Hero Sports Festival, do you want it? /

He happily typed a word.

/want! /

#Event: I want to be your hero, end#

[Body: Osamu Dazai]

[Synchronization rate: 85%]

The author has something to say: Alright, alright, the memories about Tie Mingqiao are over, and the main character of the little hero is about to appear!

ps: In fact, I think my main line is quite clear, which is the story of Dazai becoming a hero as a villain (covering his face). According to my understanding, every event that has occurred so far can be connected in series. These stories make Dazai the current Dazai.

But indeed, there are a lot of my original characters, and the pace of storytelling is very slow. If you don’t like this way, there is nothing you can do. There are quite a lot of excellent little hero articles on jj, and there are many with Dazai as the protagonist. You can find them here. I like to watch it!

My writing style is like this, and I guess there is no way to change it (cover my face)

pps: For me, this article is actually probably the lowest-paying article in the recent long story (cover my face), don’t laugh, compared to the trendy theme of Datang’s First Chef, the income of fan animation is very high Less, but how should I put it, I have found the joy of writing that I haven’t seen for a long time. I just like this kind of literary and artistic style, and the protagonist is a snake-sick style!Even if it is for my own fast fall, I will finish writing slowly according to this rhythm.

ppps: The memory chapter is over for now, I want to comment!I would love to comment so much!Reader comments are my source of joy!

Finally, thank you to every reader here~

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Regarding the sorting out of this story, I will publish an official version, and I welcome other little angels to sort it out.

First of all, Ms. Ji committed the dismemberment case, and Ms. Shi helped her clean up the traces. Prime Minister Tsushima knew about this and has been conniving.

Inviting Tie Mingqiao was actually out of Ms. Ji's interest, and I didn't go into details in the article, but she subconsciously wanted to draw Tie Mingqiao into the whirlpool and see what he did.

Then Tie Ming thought that Miss Shi was responsible for the murder case, and Shuji was Dazai, so he gave him some hints, some of which were true hints, and some suggested that Miss Shi was the criminal, because he was also a spectator.

But in the end, before Tie Ming was killed, Xiu Zhi didn't choose to let him die like that. At that time, he didn't even sort out his mood, so it could be regarded as a whim so he wanted to save him.

Then when Tie Mingqiao was crying, it was Achilles passing by. In the next six months, he got acquainted with Achilles and knew what he had done

In the end, Tie Mingqiao made up his mind to save Dazai even if he killed Shi Yuji, because he felt that the young Dazai was begging for help. And because he knows everything, it's all the more sad

Tie Mingqiao felt that he had no better way than killing Miss Ji, so he chose the most extreme way. Of course, he thought that he could not succeed by relying on his own strength, so he pulled Achilles, that is, Hong Righteousness to help.

It happened that Achilles was an anti-hero. He also didn't like Miss Ji's behavior of inciting people to commit crimes and killing those prisoners, so he agreed to help, and Miss Ji died.

Tsushima Haraemon was killed by Dazai, because at a certain moment, he wanted to kill Dazai.

(That's it. In fact, there is a lot of blank space. I think you can write a long comment or something. In this short story, the psychology of the characters can be speculated.)

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