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Li Xueying suddenly opened her eyes wide, unable to recover for a long time.He probed Xing Mo carefully, as if he wanted to find the slightest flaw in him, to prove a lie, or even a little bit of uncertainty.

But no, Xing Mo looked directly into Li Xueying's eyes without avoiding it from the beginning to the end, and held his hand even harder to prevent him from pulling away.

The face, which was already bloodless, was even paler at this moment, and it was almost doubtful that he would fall down in the next moment.

Li Xueying took a deep breath: "You...you mean my mother..."

"Mrs. Li used to be a daughter of a noble family. Even if she doesn't marry Li Que, she should never have entanglements with people like Feng Qing. But maybe, I'm afraid things may not be what we imagined. If what is said in this document is true, I'm afraid Madam Li was sincere with him back then." Xing Mo took out a file from under the pillow and handed it to Li Xueying.

Of course Li Xueying recognized that portfolio, he had seen it in his father's hands countless times since he was a child, and knew that it was the exclusive portfolio of the Police Department, and it would only be used to store the files of the Police Department's own staff.

He originally thought that Xing Mo just found a portfolio, but the moment he pulled out the paper, Li Xueying froze.

The person in the photo does not have Feng Qing's current demeanor at all. He looks about 20 years old, energetic, young, and even upright, smiling and looking at the camera.And he was wearing a police uniform and a police cap on his head, showing a bit of a young man's uprightness.It's just that appearance, it's really hard to see that he has the slightest understanding with Feng Qing. If there must be some traces and evidence left by the years, it is probably a hint of arrogance in his eyes, which has not diminished from the past.

But Li Xueying knew that Feng Zhiqi many years ago and Feng Qing today may have nothing in common.

"He used to be a member of the Police Department before he entered the Kowloon Walled City. He looked young and did not go to university. He was promoted in high school. When he entered the Kowloon Walled City, he had been in the Police Department for more than three years."

"What do you mean?" Li Xueying's voice changed a little.He continued to look down, and finally his pupils dilated suddenly when he saw his top-secret file.

"He sneaked into the Kowloon Walled City as an undercover agent with the three police officers back then, and became one of the youngest undercover agents. It means that before this, Feng Qing was not as we know, he grew up in Kowloon City since he was a child From the very beginning, he was an informant for the police. He collected information in the Kowloon Walled City, gained trust, searched for money, and stayed there for seven years."

"Seven years, I don't know how many of these stories can be summed up in one stroke, but in the end when your mother chose your father, Feng Qing had completely fallen."

The tea-pink pupils stared at Xing Mo's pitch-black pupils, a little confused and empty.

"Feng Qing, an undercover police gangster who had been in ambush for seven years, was completely thrown into the dark and betrayed when he suffered the abandonment and betrayal of his lover that year."

When Feng Qing was 14 years old, his parents died at the hands of gangsters.Later, he was raised by distant relatives and successfully completed high school.After that, Feng Qing signed up for police training, and successfully entered the British police station a year later, and was sent to work in outlying islands.At that time he was not called Feng Qing, but his real name was Feng Zhiqi.Because of an oolong, Feng Zhiqi met the boss who promoted him back then, and began to climb up step by step, and began to come into contact with the upper echelons of the Police Department.At the right time, he got an opportunity to enter the triad society as an undercover agent, and Feng Zhiqi volunteered.

Regarding the undercover work of the Police Department many years ago, although it was not as systematic as it is now, and the review standards were stricter, it was still a big deal, and not everyone had the ability.In addition to having an upright nature, you also need to have a firm belief that will not waver at any time, as well as an extraordinary ability to face all pressures and emergencies. Judgment.It is not difficult to imagine that at such a young age, Feng Zhiqi is absolutely worthy of being outstanding.

Back then, Feng Qing, that is, Feng Zhiqi himself was under 20 years old. It was difficult to win such a task, but there happened to be a secret task at that time, which was related to Xing Mo's Qiye Xin Baihong, and in the end he didn't give too much time to consider.

In this way, 20-year-old Feng Qing was sent to the den of the tiger and wolf as a cub.

The only thing he cared about was his girlfriend, so when the first year's mission was about to be completed, the two of them privately agreed to end their lives, and promised each other that they would never lose each other.

Xing Mo didn't need to talk about what happened later, Li Xueying stroked her fingers, a little lost in disbelief.

"Go." Xing Mo finally started to let go of his hand, and pointed to the purse in the cabinet with his eyes, "Bring the things, go."

From his insignificant sigh, Li Xueying seemed to hear more meaning.He sat on the chair for a while, and finally took the bag to him with his own hands.

Xing Mo took out the document that Luo Xiu had given him from the bag, held it in his hand, and handed it out with some hesitation, but he didn't let go when Li Xueying held it.

The dark pupils met his pink eyes, and said seriously: "I have also verified this one, but I haven't confirmed it with my dad yet."

Li Xueying pulled the document over and opened the paper bag tremblingly.

This time, what was pulled out from the file bag was his father... Li Que's information.

Li Que in the photo looks much younger than the "father" their siblings recognize. If you look closely, there is an unruly and unrestrained smile in your smile, which makes people feel inexplicable. Li Xueying My heart trembled.

Looking down, he read the brief description of this file at a glance, and his hands trembled violently.

A hand stretched out across the air, and pressed on the back of his hand again, soothing the chill that was creeping up his spine.

Li Xueying raised her eyes and looked at Xing Mo without blinking, hoping to read an answer from his dark eyes.

It's a pity that Xing Mo couldn't give him this answer. Many stories had been written down more than 20 years ago.

"Have you met your mother?"

Li Xueying shook her head, her teeth were chattering, and she felt cold all over her body.

"But my sister has seen it."

"I'll accompany you if you want to ask for proof." Xing Mo said again.

"No... I can't believe it. This is too ridiculous." Li Xueying closed her eyes and smiled bitterly.

When he opened his eyes again, he was much calmer, and carefully read all the information on this document again.Afterwards, he kept calm and asked Xing Mo many details, such as where and when he obtained this information, how he later verified it, and if he wanted to seek help from a higher-level police department in the future, what would he do? If there is no way, what kind of way do we need to go through?

He asked about every detail, and finally his body went limp, and he missed Xing Mo.Xing Mo hurriedly reached out to pick it up, but Li Xueying avoided his hand and just buried her head on the soft quilt beside his bed.He covered his face, it was difficult to see his emotions, only his slightly rapid breathing showed that his heart was not peaceful.

Li Xueying quickly lost all of this in her mind.

20 years ago... many details of Li Que are vivid in my mind, those memories are sealed and almost impossible to recall.Li Xueying remembers that when she was young, she would sometimes ask Li Que, why on earth did other children have grandmothers, but he didn't?In the end, in the memory, Li Que, who was always silent, and his sister who kept coaxing him.When I think about it later when I grow up, there is indeed something wrong with Li Que, a man with two sons, busy with work, but no idea of ​​starting a family anymore.If Li Que remarried at that time, in fact, Li Li and Li Xueying might not be unacceptable.But Li Que didn't do that, even if it was such a thought, the siblings never felt it too much.

Several times Li Xueying saw Li Que sitting on the bedside holding a photo of his mother, smoking a cigarette slowly, the sunset fell on his cuff, making him look very lonely.

At that time, he didn't understand why his father was lonely, he just thought it was because he missed grandma too much.

Thinking back now, in those thoughts of memories, in the strong yearning, perhaps there is also a sense of... guilt that can never be uttered.

Twenty years ago, Feng Qing, who left the Police Department, said goodbye to his girlfriend and came to Kowloon Walled City with a difficult task alone.

He may have passed by Li Que, because not long after, Li Que was admitted to the Police Department with a special status arranged by Xin Baihong, and became the first informant left by Hongmen in the Police Department.

Then, Feng Qing's lost fiancée appeared by Li Que's side only one year after breaking up with him and became his first wife.

The arrangement of fate is so ridiculous that black becomes white and white becomes black.Just like the identities of Feng Qing and Li Que, who would have thought that Li Que was the child who grew up in the Kowloon Walled City more than 20 years ago, and Feng Qing once fought with the police and strangled the Triad.

"I want to tell you this matter later. I have injuries on my body. No matter what temporary and impulsive decision you make, I am destined to be unable to stop it with all my strength. But I have thought about it a lot, and I feel that this is your life. It's about your dad's secret, no matter how selfish I have reasons, I shouldn't stop you." Xing Mo revealed two secrets at the same time tonight, and he was still carrying a wound that almost killed him. Sitting on the side of the bed as if relieved, she looked even paler than Li Xueying, "Aying, what are your plans?"

"I don't know." The paper in Li Xueying's palm gradually became wrinkled with the strength of his grasping, and he repeated it blankly, "I don't know..."

There was a moment of silence between the two, and it was as if Li Xueying's soul had been taken out, leaving only an empty shell.The unbelievable news that suddenly swept through his mind slightly awakened the shadow of his mother in the depths of his mind.In fact, all the impressions are just the faint smile of the woman in the photo.He never really fell into her arms even once.

"Find your sister first, okay?" Xing Mo asked.

"Okay." Li Xueying nodded in despair.

Xing Mo grabbed his hand, warming his cold fingers and feeling a bit of clarity.

Xing Mo leaned over to embrace his shoulders, and then asked Li Xueying to take off his shoes and socks, but he listened obediently, obediently obeyed Xing Mo's pressure on him, kicked off his shoes, took off his coat, and lay down on the corner of his hospital bed, In Xing Mo's embrace, he fell asleep as if in a coma for an instant.

Li Li stood alone in front of Li Que's grave, her long skirt fluttering, she stood for a long time.

It was dark, and she parked the car at the door of the familiar shop on the way back, and went to buy two cans of honey as usual.The difference is that in the past she was surrounded by people from Feng Qing, but now she is surrounded by people from Ji Yao.Li Li was suddenly in a trance.Perhaps it was because of her pregnancy that she missed the warmth and care of Feng Qing in her memory, and when she realized it later, she suddenly realized.

It turned out that she had regarded Feng Qing as her husband unknowingly since when.

Just like last night, she herself was going to the hospital to abort the fetus in her womb.At the last moment, she was the one who left the hospital as if fleeing from a scourge.

Subconsciously, Li Li was unwilling to kill this child.She knew that this was not only the natural maternal love in human nature, but also because of the reason she had never been willing to face directly - she had fallen in love with Feng Qing.

unknowingly.That love mixed with blood, mixed with tears, separated by insurmountable hatred and pain, mixed into an unexplainable swamp, like yellow lotus with honey.And she chose to keep this child, no matter what the future path is, Li Li also wants to keep him.If adults can't stay, it's good to keep a child.Maybe in the infinitely long days to come, Xu Neng could be her only sustenance.

After shopping, she turned around and found that she was more feminine than before.She is not pregnant yet, and she still attracts a lot of flirtatious glances as she walks by on the road, or there are many attractive men who stop by her.

However, after turning around, Li Li's gaze was fixed on the opposite side. Where her car was parked, her younger brother was leaning on the front of the car, smoking a cigarette with his head bowed.

Li Li rarely sees Li Xueying smoking because Li Xueying can hide.In front of his sister, he always maintains his innocence, as if in this way he can conceal his heavy identity outside, or clarify his own necessity.He never dared to face it directly. In fact, they have changed over the years.This change is not necessarily a bad thing.

But at this moment, Li Xueying seemed to be extremely tired, and that kind of exhaustion spread from the depths of her body.This made him no longer interested in hiding any of his emotions. He smoked and lit cigarettes skillfully, his brows and eyes were light and tired, and his hair was fixed back, revealing a smooth forehead and the contours of cheeks polished by the years.Li Li looked across the road, and once again lamented that Li Xueying already had the elegance and stability of a mature man, instead of just the youthful beauty of a young man.

Until now, she thought that the younger brother was making trouble because of yesterday's abortion.Li Li couldn't figure out what the younger brother's heart was, but she had already made a decision in her heart. If Li Xueying wanted her to abort the unborn baby, she also had her way.

The woman stepped forward with graceful steps, and walked towards the car with the can of honey in her arms.

In the distance, the light illuminated Li Xueying's face, and also illuminated the complicated and obscure look he had when he looked at her.

When the woman walked in front of her younger brother, she saw this handsome man smoking a cigarette, approaching her for a while, and talking to her calmly.He seemed to have said a lot, his pretty lips opened and closed, and he could not be interrupted for a long time.

When he finished speaking, the honey jar she just bought in the woman's hand also fell from her arms and shattered at her feet.Sticky, sweet flavor spreads.

"My sister..."

"I see." It took Li Li a long time to recover her voice, "I've been prepared for a long time. Do what you should do, brother."