leave you

Gu Zhilin frowned, but still acquiesced.

Xue Jin rolled his eyes, thinking that his brain might be sick, otherwise how could he have such a deep filter in the past, thinking that Gu Zhilin is a mature, stable, reliable and reliable dating partner?

"If it were my mother, I would probably break my leg first." He said angrily, "There is no object and there is no reason. After being photographed in the same frame with Miss Qianjin, you suddenly came out of the closet. You are a high school student. live?"

"She doesn't care about this." Gu Zhilin said, "Your reaction is bigger than her."

Xue Jin's expression froze, and then he frowned uncomfortably, pretending that he hadn't said anything just now.

Seeing his embarrassment, Gu Zhilin smiled, and pushed the fruit plate in front of him: "Eat some fruit first to cushion your stomach, so as not to hurt your stomach for a while."

He picked and picked the half-eaten food just now, Gu Zhilin saw everything, even if there were other arrangements in the future, he was not prepared to make him so hungry.

Xue Jin ate the fruit plate in silence, and swallowed the words again.

In fact, Gu Zhilin was right, if he made a request for dating after they had sex for the first time, Xue Jin would definitely not agree.But as for when Gu Zhilin fell in love with him, Xue Jin really had no idea at all—before the relationship ended, he even felt that Gu Zhilin, like him, regarded the relationship as pure mutual help.

He didn't realize that Gu Zhilin liked him at all, but if he was aware of it a little bit, they would not have come to this point.Now that the window paper was pierced by himself, Xue Jin realized belatedly that Gu Zhilin was suddenly on the side of reason, and he seemed to say that nothing was right.

"Honestly, I don't know how I feel about you." He poked an orange in the fruit plate, then stuffed it into his mouth and chewed slowly, "I was hot-headed and impulsive Li Yuanyuan that time, but at that time I It really annoys you, I think it's boring that you are going to hang yourself on the Senke tree."

Gu Zhilin didn't say anything, just sat quietly opposite him and listened.

Xue Jin ate the last two petals of the orange, and felt that other fruits were tasteless, so he dropped the fork in a lack of interest, and looked up at Gu Zhilin: "It's nothing else, it's just that I can't talk well. I just got up... I still don't understand what you are thinking, Gu Zhilin, I hate this kind of deadlock where I can't communicate, that's why I told you to end it at that time."

Thank goodness he finally said it after so long.

Xue Jin actually didn't care much about what Gu Zhilin was thinking, even if he knew it would be meaningless, he couldn't force him to change the other person's thinking if he didn't want to, what made him feel agitated was actually Gu Zhilin's attitude of avoiding talking And the aggrieved feeling of not being able to speak properly.

He didn't like the feeling of his fist hitting the cotton, it was uncomfortable.

Gu Zhilin kept looking at him until Xue Jin finished speaking, then whispered: "...Sorry, I didn't expect you to think so."

"What do you think I think?" Xue Jin asked back, "If you really got out of bed and had no communication, it's all right. If you don't want me to be nosy, you should explain it from the beginning, and I won't care about Sen When will Ke fail, do you have a future - this has nothing to do with me, I only want to be friends with you when I am blind."

It's "friends", not "friends with benefits", he said it very clearly, and he didn't mean to confuse it, Gu Zhilin heard it, and his heart moved.

"Xue Jin, I don't want to be friends with you." He said.

The person sitting across from him was startled, then frowned, as if to be angry.Gu Zhilin looked at him unhurriedly, and did not speak fast, and said clearly: "I have sex with you and help you, I do it all with a purpose, you don't need to like me , but I never intended to be friends with you. You may be serious with friends with benefits, but you will not cross the line with friends again, will you?"

Xue Jin has almost never seen Gu Zhilin speak like this. In his impression, Gu Zhilin is seldom angry, and most of the time he keeps a straight face, as if he doesn't care about anything, and only shows a little emotion on the bed.

And this man is sitting across from him now, saying bluntly: "I'm not satisfied with this."

He also couldn't tell what he felt, it was probably more confusion than surprise.

"Why?" He asked Gu Zhilin, "I don't think I'm that good."

And to be honest, he and Gu Zhilin didn't have many opportunities to exchange feelings. They would roll off to bed after meeting and talking a few words. The long talk ended in discord.Judging from their way of getting along over the past year, he doesn't understand why Gu Zhilin likes him.

Gu Zhilin didn't take it seriously: "What do you think is wrong with you?"

"I have a lot of problems, you should ask the other way around." Xue Jin tapped the rim of his glass with the fork on the side of the fruit plate, "It's you, the way we get along, how much do you like it?" Me, I think you're a little blind instead."

Unless this liking only refers to the physical level—in that case, they are still in love with each other—in his opinion, the only conclusion is that Gu Zhilin is lying.

He raised his eyes to look at Gu Zhilin, who was also looking at him, the moment their eyes collided, Xue Jin caught a trace of panic that was seen through in the other's eyes.

That emotion disappeared quickly, and in the next second, Gu Zhilin's eyes were filled with the usual calmness. Xue Jin looked at him inquiringly for a while, and suddenly laughed.

He tapped the rim of Gu Zhilin's cup with the fork again, making a crisp "ding", like some kind of answering machine, or a reminder bell with special sound effects.

He remembered some things from the past, and suddenly felt enlightened.

"Tell the truth, Lawyer Gu." Xue Jin looked at him, consciously grasped the key information, and said slowly, "When did you start liking me?"

The cooperation in college actually had a following story.After they won the award, they held a small celebration banquet. They had dinner in the first half and sang in the second half. The instructor who came to support them left after dinner, and the rest of them went to KTV.Since Gu Zhilin joined the group, he has been very out of place, but after getting along for a few months, he still has some affection, and he is about to disband. When the boys see him, he is still aloof and looks like "it's none of my business". Coax him up and start pouring him wine.

Xue Jin was watching the fun from the sidelines at the time, and didn't stop him, because he also wanted to see what Gu Zhilin looked like when he was drunk.As a result, things got out of hand later, and he was the only male creature left who was not drunk in the whole box. Gu Zhilin used one against three, and drank all the boys who were drinking him, and he was also very drunk.

It is impossible to let the female classmates handle this kind of mess. In the end, Xue Jin paid a tip and asked the waiter to help him to the taxi, and he went to great lengths to get Gu Zhilin up and walk at the end, and got into bed with the two girls. In the same car, the master followed the one with three drunks in front, and went back to school with difficulty.

In fact, he can't remember the specific process, but just now he suddenly remembered that when he was sitting in the car and calling other boys' roommates, he had to take care of Gu Zhilin's situation, only to find that Gu Zhilin was quiet when he was drunk. Very, except for the obvious smell of alcohol on his body, it is basically not obvious that he is a drunk.

Xue Jin stared at Gu Zhilin with interest for a while, and saw that he was quite obedient when he was drunk, so he was relieved, and after returning to school, he waited for the others to be picked up one by one, and then supported Gu Zhilin by himself Back to the dormitory.

Although they are in different classes, their dormitory is on the same floor. Gu Zhilin is taller and stronger than him. It is actually a bit difficult for Xue Jin to carry him around.Fortunately, he was not particularly drunk, and he was able to walk in step with Xue Jin's pace. After dawdling for half an hour, he finally walked from the south gate of the school to the downstairs of the dormitory.

"Wake up." He patted Gu Zhilin's face and asked, "Is there anyone in your dormitory? You won't drown yourself in the toilet when you go back, right?"

Gu Zhilin was woken up by his patting, but he was so drunk that he took out the keys from his trouser pocket and fell asleep again.Xue Jin kindly sent Buddha west with his house key, but couldn't tell which bed belonged to him, so he casually threw him on the cleanest lower bunk by the window, and then put the key on the table , turned around and left.

At that time, he had actually moved out of the dormitory to prepare for studying abroad. He didn't want to go back to school to live at first, but after making such a move, he was too lazy to run, so he slept in the dormitory for a night.There was only a mat and a pillow left on the almost evacuated bed, Xue Jin was so sleepy that his back ached, and when he woke up the next morning, he almost thought he had a stiff neck.

He got up to pack his things and went home. Before leaving, he stopped at the door of Gu Zhilin's dormitory for two seconds. He heard voices inside, so he felt relieved and dragged his suitcase to press the elevator.

But before the elevator came up, the door of Gu Zhilin's dormitory opened, and the warrior who drank three by himself last night poked his head out and thanked him: "You were the one who sent me back last night, thank you."

"It's okay." Xue Jin smiled, "Woke up so early? I thought you were quite drunk."

"It's okay." The other party's eyes fell on the suitcase he was pulling, "Going to move?"

"I moved a long time ago. There are some problems left over from history. Now that I am back, I will deal with them by the way."

Gu Zhilin nodded, stopped talking, but still stood by the door and looked at him.Xue Jin didn't care. He lowered his head and turned on his phone to read the news. It happened that the elevator had arrived, so he waved to him, pulled the suitcase and entered the door: "Let's go, goodbye."

That was the last time they met during their college days. Not long after that, Xue Jin packed up his things and went abroad. He left Gu Zhilin behind for two or three years, and treated him like a classmate with excellent professional ability but not easy to get along with.Thinking about it now, Xue Jin couldn't help asking: "Actually, did you have something you wanted to tell me at that time?"

Gu Zhilin thought for a while and said, "It's sort of."

Xue Jin originally wanted to ask him what he wanted to say, but after seeing his expression, he felt that it might be better not to ask.

Gu Zhilin didn't let him go: "Aren't you going to keep asking?"

"Do you like to talk or not." Xue Jin looked away from the window, and changed the subject, "You haven't answered the question just now, why should I ask a new one?"

"I wanted to be friends with you at that time," Gu Zhilin didn't show any secrets, not only took the initiative to say it clearly, but also answered another question in a disguised form, "Fortunately, you left without saying it, otherwise it might be a bit difficult later. "

"..."

Seeing that he was silent, Gu Zhilin smiled: "You really don't want to ask anymore?"

He probably didn't listen to the truth after asking, Xue Jin rolled his eyes in his heart, and said kindly: "Then tell me, I'll listen."

Even he himself didn't realize that his emotions had unknowingly relaxed, and he was no longer so nervous.

Gu Zhilin had a panoramic view of the change in his expression, smiled again, and said, "That's right, I lied to you."

Xue Jin looked up at him.

"Actually, I wasn't drunk that night. I was just dizzy and wanted to take a rest. I didn't expect you to send me back to school." He confessed under Xue Jin's increasingly surprised gaze, "At first I thought it was fun, but then I got off the hook. I don't have the nerve to say it."

"..."

It's too late for you to confess, you might as well not say it.

Xue Jin didn't pay much attention to pretending to be drunk, at most it was a harmless joke, but Gu Zhilin said that he was not drunk, this problem was much bigger than pretending to be drunk.

"You don't get drunk after drinking so much, that time at the reception..."

"I did it on purpose." Gu Zhilin said frankly.