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"Don't go." Xun Musheng's left hand holding the spoon trembled visibly, and the soup dripped down on the tea table in the living room of the villa, while his right hand was still in plaster and fixed rigidly on his chest.

The mobile phone with the hands-free on was placed beside the dinner plate, and the soup next to the word "Ye Fenglin" was also splashed.

"You don't need to call me for this kind of gathering. I won't go." Xun Musheng threw the spoon into the porcelain bowl irritably, the steaming pigeon soup was splashed everywhere, and the other light medicinal foods on the coffee table also suffered. .

Ye Fenglin heard loud noises, and his voice was a little tense, "What are you doing? Kicking the table and throwing bowls? The injury hasn't healed yet, why are you messing around?"

"It didn't fall." Xun Musheng took out a few pieces of paper to wipe his hands, his right hand couldn't move, and his left hand didn't work hard. The more he rubbed, the more impatient he became, so he simply threw the paper away and leaned back on the sofa, "I'm serious, don't do it when you get together in the future. Call me. The doctor forbids me to drink alcohol, and I can’t touch a lot of food, and I hate that kind of occasion, which makes people unclean.”

"I didn't let you come to drink." Ye Fenglin said: "We are all brothers, I know you are in a bad mood these days, and I want to accompany you to relax. Come out, Mu Sheng, how long have you been bored at home after you are discharged from the hospital!"

"Forget it, I accept it with good intentions." Xun Musheng pressed his temple with one hand, "I really don't want to go, and it will ruin your happiness if I go."

"What are you talking about?"

"I've been paralyzed at home recently and didn't go to the company." Xun Musheng said: "If you and Brother Qiao are willing to play cards with me, you are welcome at any time. The party is fine, I am too lazy to go out to socialize, and I am not in the mood."

Ye Fenglin seemed to want to say something more, but he paused for a long time at the beginning of the word "you", and finally sighed, "That's fine, I'll come and see you in two days."

"Okay." Xun Musheng smiled and said suddenly before hanging up, "By the way, you didn't tell anyone about this, did you?"

"Don't worry." Ye Fenglin said, "No one told him."

Xun Musheng let out a breath, his voice was indescribably tired, "That's good."

After hanging up the phone, he leaned on the cushion and stared at the opposite TV wall in a daze.The TV was not turned on, and the mirror-black screen reflected his appearance at this time—short home clothes, a cast in one hand, short hair, a much thinner face, and sharper facial features.

For a moment, he closed his eyes, as if he didn't want to see himself like this.

"Mr. Xun, the dishes are getting cold." The butler walked over at some point, wiped off the soup splashed on the table, and touched the porcelain bowl of pigeon soup with his fingers, "I'll go and heat it up."

Xun Musheng opened his eyes, waved his left hand feebly, and picked up the spoon, "Don't bother, it's not winter."

After speaking, he picked up a spoonful of soup, but because he was not used to using his left hand and his left hand was injured, the soup kept spilling down.

The butler looked heartbroken and wanted to help, but Xun Musheng gave him a wry smile, "I can do it, I'm such a grown man, I can't just let you feed me like I was a child."

The butler shook his head and walked away helplessly.

Xun Musheng and the table of nourishing but meager food tortured each other for half an hour, and finally he was almost done eating. He got up and went to the bathroom to rinse his mouth. It took only one minute to squeeze the toothpaste.

He can only use one hand. The toothbrush rests on the mouthwash cup, and he squeezes the toothpaste onto it tremblingly with his left hand. If he is not careful, the toothbrush will fall upside down.

I'm almost used to it now, and it still takes 1 minute to squeeze in. It didn't work out in 5 or 10 minutes before.

He was troubled by people around him, and he refused to let anyone help him. He wandered around the house like a cripple every day, no matter what he did, it would take double the time.

Ye Fenglin came to see him once, saw him washing his face with a shaking hand, frowned and said: "Why are you bothering? Can't you afford someone? I'll invite you!"

With water on his face, he pulled out an extremely ugly smile, "What do you know, I call it experience life."

"You experience a shitty life!" Ye Fenglin strode forward and raised his hands, but he was still thinking about his injury, so he didn't dare to grab his collar, so he had to compromise, "You torment yourself like this Is this interesting?"

"It's not a question of whether it's interesting or not." Xun Musheng cast a sideways glance, "I should."

"you!"

"Chi Yu's two arms were also broken." Xun Musheng looked down at the scar on his left hand, "I'm much better than him, at least my thoracic spine is not injured."

"What's the matter!" Ye Fenglin yelled, "Mu Sheng, why don't you do this? Back then you found a nurse for him, why do you have to torture yourself now?"

"What kind of torture is this? The incident has already happened and I was injured. I just want to take this opportunity to feel the inconvenience he suffered at that time." Xun Musheng said softly, "It's really not torture. He didn't rely on everything at that time. The nurse insisted on eating with a spoon when he could move one hand. By the way, he also wrote me a letter with a pen in his hand, asking me to throw away all his things. That word, tsk, is worse than what I wrote when I was in elementary school Ugly."

"Then you can't either..."

"I'm not more expensive than him, there's nothing I can't do."

After a long time, Ye Fenglin sighed, "I'm really fucking convinced by you!"

After rinsing his mouth and washing his face, Xun Musheng called Wang Ke and asked him to pick him up in a car.

Wang Ke said: "Are you going to Shengxi again?"

"Yeah." He responded briefly, "Go and have a look and come back."

Half an hour later, the car drove out of the villa and headed towards Shengxi Square.

Xun Musheng leaned on the back seat, staring at the fleeting scenery outside the window.

After the car accident, he never drove again, and never let Chi Yu see him again.

Chi Yu didn't even know he was hurt—

That day outside the bookstore, he watched Chi Yu leave quickly, and his heart suddenly became empty.Chi Yu didn't look back, and walked cleanly, just like when he left the tea room that day.

He froze in place, wanted to chase, but couldn't take a step, only followed with his eyes, but was bent at the corner.

He didn't know where Chi Yu and Ke Jin had gone, and when he came back to his senses, he walked around Sheng Xi in a daze, trying to find Chi Yu's figure.

However, when Chi Yu came into his sight again, he was holding a bouquet of bright red roses in his hands.

There was a buzzing in his head, his throat felt painful and tight, and the chill ran backwards through his limbs, causing his vision to twist.

But Chi Yu's expression was clear and vivid.

Chi Yu was laughing.

Smile at Ke Jin.

He called out "Chi Yu" in a low voice, but Chi Yu didn't hear him, and his footsteps didn't stop, and he walked away with Ke Jin.

He had a car accident that night—sitting in the driver's seat, but he didn't have his consciousness on him at all. Because he didn't react in time at the fork, he collided with a minivan, his arm was broken, and his head also suffered from concussion symptoms. Multiple scratches all over his body.Fortunately, the performance of the car was excellent, and the speed was not fast at the time. The most important thing was that it was only a minivan, so my life was saved.

Chi Yu didn't know all this.

Because he didn't want Chi Yu to see his crippled and decadent appearance.

As soon as he woke up, the first thing he said to Ye Fenglin was - arrange it for me, don't let Chi Yu know about it.

The days of receiving treatment in the hospital were the most difficult, followed by physical pain and sighs from relatives, and the most unbearable thing was the longing and unwillingness in my heart.In the same day, Chi Yu showed him two backs, one was to leave resolutely, but to leave with Ke Jin holding flowers.He often dreamed of that scene, in which the rose became a sea of ​​blood, and the waves hit him head-on, dragging him into the vortex.

He woke up with a feeling of suffocation. Before dawn, the hospital gown was soaked in cold sweat.

His musculoskeletal injury healed slowly, and he was discharged from the hospital after no need for an infusion. He handed over the company's affairs to his subordinates, and moved to the villa where Chi Yu was imprisoned for three days to recuperate.

Wang Ke is often called as a driver to drive him to see Chi Yu in Shengxi Square.

It's still the same place as the dessert shop, but seeing Chi Yu busy in the bookstore is not quite the same as before.

Ke Jin still comes here often, and spends a long time in the drink consumption area whenever he comes.He watched upstairs, feeling like he was sitting on pins and needles.Chi Yu treated Ke Jin well, with a smile on his lips.He remembered that last year was also the end of summer, and he thought Chi Yu was Wen Yun, and chased after him desperately. At that time, Chi Yu hardly smiled, and even if he did, he smiled very reluctantly.He spent a lot of effort and finally made Chi Yu happy, but after a year, that gentle and tolerant smile no longer belonged to him.

The car stopped at the traffic light, Wang Ke said: "Mr. Xun, we are almost here."

Xun Musheng nodded, "Well, stop at the old position."

Ke Jin's studio occupies the best floor and location in the office building. The terrace has a wide view, and it is particularly charming to watch the sunset when the sun blows.

Chi Yu was not in the mood to appreciate the scenery, the golden red light on the horizon outlined his silhouette, his eyebrows were against the light, appearing extremely deep.

But the eyes are quiet and restrained.

"I'm sorry." He looked at Ke Jin seriously, but he didn't accept the exquisite little kit handed over by the other party. His voice was not loud, but his words were firm, "I can't promise you."

"Why!" Ke Jin's eyes widened, the confession was rejected on the spot, and the young master who had never experienced failure was bloody, "Brother, why can't you be with me?"

Chi Yu pursed her lips and frowned slightly.

He is really not good at dealing with this kind of scene, the only luck is that KIME mentioned it when he was drunk. Although he didn't want to believe it, he was mentally prepared.

Ke Jin's expression gradually turned cold, "Is it because of Xun Musheng?"

Chi Yu's pupils tightened, and she subconsciously wanted to deny it.

"Last time when I asked you what happened between you, you said you just knew each other." Ke Jin said, "Brother, you lied to me, right?"

Chi Yu shook his head, his heart skipped a beat, and all kinds of emotions were clogged in his chest.

"But that's in the past, isn't it? Last time you were injured and hospitalized, did he come to see you? No! You left Zhongcan Media and looked for a job again. Has he appeared? Has he helped you?" Ke The more Jin talked, the more excited he became, "He didn't! Even if you had anything before, it's over!"

Chi Yu didn't expect Ke Jin to suddenly mention Xun Musheng.This name is like a violent storm, once it hits, his heart will never be calm again.

"Enough." He whispered, "Don't mention him."

"Why didn't you mention it?" Ke Jin said, "Brother, you didn't let me mention him because you still have him in your heart?"

Chi Yu lowered her eyes and muttered to herself: "Really don't talk about it."

"Isn't it good to start a new life?" Ke Jin suddenly grabbed his shoulders and shook him vigorously, "Brother, look at me, I like you, can't you be with me? You have separated, don't you Can't let him go all the time?"

After a while, Chi Yu raised his head, his eyes suddenly became fierce, he pulled Ke Jin's hand away, and took a step back, with a coldness that Ke Jin had never seen in his eyes—a coldness that belonged to a sniper.

"I can't promise you that I won't be with you. It has nothing to do with whether I still have Xun Musheng in my heart." He said loudly.

Ke Jin was intimidated by his aura, and stared at him blankly: "What does that have to do with it!"

"It has something to do with 'whether I have you in my heart'." Chi Yu sighed softly, "Sorry, I don't have you in my heart."

Ke Jin was speechless.

"Someone taught me one thing - when there is no one in my heart, I can't procrastinate and let the other person down." Chi Yu's tone softened a little, "Ke Jin, I'm sorry, I can't be with you."

Pushing open the door of the studio, Chi Yu walked towards the elevator, walking faster and faster, the coldness in his eyes gradually disappeared.

Hurting a person who treats oneself sincerely is ultimately reluctant.

He tightened his fingers, feeling filled with emotion.

When he was about to reach the elevator, there was a sudden sound of footsteps behind him, and a strange voice shouted: "The gentleman in front, the gentleman in front, wait for me!"

Chi Yu turned her head and was stunned on the spot.

Ran Su ran up to him, took a breath, pointed at himself and said, "Yeah, do you remember me? I'm that, uh, Mr. Xun's friend."

Of course I remember, Chi Yuxin was on guard and didn't know why the other party called him.

"I work here, here, the company at the end on the left." Ran Su pointed and said with a smile, "I've just joined the job, and I'm still a newcomer."

Chi Yu nodded politely.

"I saw you a while ago, but you didn't see me." Ran Su said again: "Great, I saw you again today."

Chi Yu didn't understand what this "too good" was.

Ran Su blinked and asked tentatively, "Do you know that Mr. Xun is hospitalized?"

Chi Yu's eyes changed, "What?"

"You really don't know." Ran Su then said: "He was injured, a car accident, I don't know if he is better now."

Chi Yu's heartbeat suddenly accelerated, "How do you know?"

"Don't get me wrong, I haven't been in touch with him for a long time. I have a job and a lover now. I saw this on his assistant's Weibo." Ran Su explained: "His assistant is very nice, just I like to make complaints behind my back. I used to do it because of... hey, I won’t mention it. Anyway, I secretly followed the small Weibo used by his assistant to make complaints. .But it shouldn’t be too serious, otherwise his assistant wouldn’t be complaining on Weibo.”

Chi Yu opened his mouth dumbly, and said after a long time: "Thank you for telling me."