when you look at me

Extra Story: This Winter

Chen Shuo likes summer.

In summer, the days become very long.In the midsummer of Gancheng, until after eight o'clock in the evening, the light purple and orange sunset glow gradually faded away, revealing the slightly red night sky.Xia Tian always gave him an illusion that time was slowing down. After get off work, he had a leisurely meal and the sky was still bright.

In summer, people's energy will be more vigorous, and the steaming summer night makes people have no desire to sleep, even if they press the road, it is very interesting.

In the summer ten years ago, he and Yuan Yizhi liked to have a full meal at a smoky barbecue stand, and then walked slowly to the billiard hall to play billiards, or they didn't do anything, just walked on the street Walk slowly.At that time, they were all young and thought that they would stay in Gancheng for the rest of their lives.There is nothing to do after work, and the two of them chatted in a mess, and never felt bored.

At that time, Chen Shuo also often felt sorry for Yuan Yizhi. When he was with Yuan Yizhi, he often thought of Yuan Yiping, that high school student who always had an expressionless face.He couldn't help but think, isn't it fun for you to play basketball on the basketball court yourself? How come you are so virtuous when you see me?Children are so interesting.

Later he found out, no, do I like Yuan Yiping a little bit?

But that's Yuan Yizhi's younger brother.

Chen Shuo was sure that he loved Yuan Yizhi——Yuan Yizhi was a lovely boy, cheerful and gentle, even when they had their first room together, he obediently lay on the bed and whispered, "Come on, Chen Shuo. " Later, when Chen Shuo asked him "does it hurt?" he always smiled, showing half of his canine teeth, and said, "It's okay."

Chen Shuo asked himself, how can one person like two people at the same time?Or is it that I don't like Yuan Yiping but...just what?

I don't know what.

Because of this incident, until ten years after Yuan Yizhi's death, Chen Shuo still felt guilty towards him.He had been unfaithful to him, though only in spirit, and unfaithfulness was unfaithfulness.Yuan Yiping hated him for ten years, and he admitted it.

He had seriously thought countless times that it was impossible for him to be equal with Yuan Yi in this life.But when Yuan Yiping wanted to break up with him in [-], he still felt really desperate.At that moment, he felt that the sharp sword hanging over his head had finally come down, yes, he was going to lose Yuan Yiping completely.

For several years after that, he never saw Yuan Yiping again. He only knew that Yuan Yiping stayed in Shenzhen after graduation.Sometimes he can't help but imagine, what does Yuan Yiping look like now?After graduation, you will become more mature, right?I wonder if he has grown taller since he went to college?

I also think, is Yuan Yiping in love?It should be, who doesn't like handsome and decent boys.He can even imagine that picture, a girl with long hair in a shawl or ponytail, wearing a simple white T-shirt, a high-waisted denim skirt, and fingertips painted with ruby ​​red, shining nails, she is holding Yuan Yiping's hand. arm.

In this self-punishing imagination, he spent many years in a daze.

Until I saw Yuan Yiping in Changsha, in that dimly lit bar, Yuan Yiping's "Chen Shuo" with a perfect voice was like a thunderbolt splitting his life in half, half of which was watching Yuan Yiping freeze The present moment of the past is half the other days that pass by like water.

When he followed Yuan Yiping out of the bar, he became stiff, and walked all the way to the edge of the Xiangjiang River with his legs crossed.Fortunately, it was night, Yuan Yiping didn't notice it.Yuan Yiping said a lot of words to humiliate him, but he responded calmly, but what he thought in his heart was, I love him so much.After five years, Chen Shuo found that he loved this person more than he imagined.

Since that night, his life has changed again.

Chen Shuo likes summer, but now, he gradually feels that winter is better.

He plans to look for a job in Shenzhen after the Chinese New Year. He stayed at home every day during the year before.There is no heating in Shenzhen, and it is humid and cold, so we can only turn on the air conditioner every day.However, air-conditioning is ultimately inferior to heating. The heat from air-conditioning always floats on the skin and cannot penetrate into the body.There was no other way, Chen Shuo had no choice but to make some warm food to eat.

The most common dish is hot pot, which is simple and convenient. Chen Shuo bought Chengdu hot pot bottoms of various flavors. When he was too lazy to cook, he went to the supermarket downstairs to buy some vegetables and meat to cook hot pot.The hot pot boiled, bubbling with red and spicy bubbles, first beef and mutton, then hairy belly and yellow throat, took a rest and started cooking vegetables, potato oil, wheat kelp and lettuce.Chen Shuo shabu-shabu sesame sauce dish, Yuan Yiping shabu-shabu sesame oil dish.

Or, make soup to drink.Chen Shuo learned several kinds of soup from food bloggers, and the most common one is stewed pork ribs with yam, which Yuan Yiping likes the most.Or sour radish and old duck soup, he lazily bought the sour radish soup base, then bought a few duck legs, sliced ​​them, and pretended to be the old duck.Fortunately, Yuan Yiping is a fool, he can only say "delicious".

The following is also good, go to the nearby vegetable market to buy hand-pulled noodles, and messy ingredients-it depends on the mood.Rice cakes, fish balls, mushrooms, beef, these are just the basics.Chen Shuo also paired day lily and fried chicken in ramen.

In short, it should be steaming hot, there should be hot soup, two people have a big meal, it is so warm that even the pores are steaming.

Eat and drink enough, lean on the lazy sofa and watch a movie, or turn on the electric blanket, and get under the covers early to play games.Really fed up, he went downstairs to take a walk to digest food, but Chen Shuo found that they couldn't help but continue to eat and drink after the walk, double skin milk, roasted sweet potatoes, or two cups a little bit.

Sleeping at night, two people shoulder to shoulder, in a quiet room, listening to each other's breathing.

It's so comfortable in winter.