when you look at me

After Chen Shuo left, the room became silent.The roommate hadn't come back yet, Yuan Yiping lay motionless on the bed.

He didn't know if Chen Shuo would really go to the hospital for a physical examination, and if he would really throw the report in front of him and say, Yiping, you see that I am not sick.

He actually didn't want to treat Chen Shuo like this, but even less did he want to be treated like this by Chen Shuo.Chen Shuo's frowns and smiles, every breath he took when he got closer, seemed to repeat over and over again: Yuan Yiping, you are nothing.

Yes, I am not a thing, Yuan Yiping thought.I can completely push him away, push him away, am I really afraid that he will tell his mother about him and Yuan Yizhi?no.Yuan Yizhi has passed away for ten years, who would believe him?So what if I believe it?It's a completely pointless thing to do.

It was just using Chen Shuo's excuse to do what he had been asking for for ten years.They are simply gangsters.

In fact, taking a step back, when Chen Shuo said he liked him, wouldn't he believe it at all?Not really.Maybe a few months ago, Chen Shuo was playing tricks on him, but now, Chen Shuo quit his job and the locker was out—if he was playing tricks on him, the price would be too high.Yuan Yiping knew that he just couldn't get over those hurdles, Yuan Yizhi, Yuan Yizhi's departure, Chen Shuo's cruelty, and the sword called death hanging over his head.

If you liked me a long time ago, why are you still with Yuan Yizhi?

If you liked me a long time ago, why did you choose that corrupt and crazy lifestyle after Yuan Yizhi passed away?

Yuan Yiping couldn't figure it out.

He fell asleep in a daze, and when he woke up, his roommate had returned and was sitting in the living room watching TV.

"Are you awake?" The roommate said with a smile, "You are really good. When I came back, I thought no one was there, and the lights were not turned on. I looked inside, and it turned out that you were there."

Yuan Yiping rubbed his eyes: "I'm sleepy, just lie down for a while."

It was almost ten o'clock.

Yuan Yiping was a little hungry. He picked up his phone and was about to order a takeaway when he suddenly saw a WeChat message from Liang Yuyi:

It was Ma Chen's wife who did it. Just now Ma Chen said that his wife would sue us two for bigamy.

At eleven o'clock in the middle of the night, Yuan Yiping rushed to Liang Yuyi's best friend's house.Liang Yuyi's eyes were red, staring at the water glass on the table in a daze.

"Go to a lawyer tomorrow," Yuan Yiping comforted her: "Don't worry too much, I just checked briefly on the road, you and Ma Chen are not considered a de facto marriage at all, that woman scares you."

"But she said..." Liang Yuyi raised her face, her lips trembling slightly: "She has evidence of our marriage."

Yuan Yiping was puzzled: "You and Ma Chen are not married at all, what proof does she have?"

Liang Yuyi's best friend said softly: "I don't know how that woman got it, the wedding photos taken by Yuyi and Ma Chen."

Yuan Yiping was stunned: "When was this filmed?"

"It was just a few days ago...the day before you returned to Gancheng," Liang Yuyi said, "I didn't come to work that day, and I wanted to call you to let you know, but you were on the phone all the time and didn't answer."

Yuan Yiping's brain seemed to have been electrified, and he grabbed Liang Yuyi's shoulders: "Did you go to take wedding photos that day? You——have you broken up with Zhang Yuzhe?!"

Liang Yuyi shook her head in a daze.

"Fuck." Yuan Yiping punched the table.

"As soon as I went to the office that morning, Duan Hang told me, you tell me what he told me, that Zhang Yuzhe was going to leave the job, let me settle my salary, and then arrange for someone to take the class for Zhang Yuzhe." Yuan Yiping was shocked and angry, and his heart Such as drumming.

"How is it possible?" Liang Yuyi exclaimed, "How could I ask Duan Hang to tell you about this kind of thing?"

"I didn't think so much at the time," Yuan Yiping frowned angrily: "I... that day, I was on the phone all morning, looking for someone to take Zhang Yuzhe's class, so I didn't receive your call, but I saw it later, I thought you had nothing urgent, so I didn’t reply. Also, I was thinking about Duan Hang, and it was not convenient to call you about Zhang Yuzhe.” In fact, Yuan Yiping felt a little strange at that time, Zhang Yuzhe was about to resign, Didn't even tell the students he brought in advance?

"Damn it," Liang Yuyi scolded, "Duan Hang asked me where I was going to take pictures when he was picking out the wedding dress with me. He said he would write it down and refer to it when taking wedding pictures in the future. I didn't think much about it at the time, so I told him I mentioned a..."

"The photo of your wedding was taken by Duan Hang," and everything finally came together: "That day he suddenly said that he would go out to buy a new mouse, and he had been there for a long time... Today I went back to the office and what he said was a broken old mouse Take it out and try it, the old mouse is not broken at all. During the time he went out, he should have secretly photographed your wedding photos."

"It's over," Liang Yuyi murmured after a while, "Am I going to jail?"

"Why prison?" My best friend was more calm: "What can a wedding photo prove? That woman is probably scaring you and wants to get more money from Ma Chen. Don't worry."

"And," Yuan Yiping added: "Duan Hang's behavior is illegal, we can also sue him. You call Ma Chen now and ask him to tell his wife directly that we have evidence that Duan Hang broke the law."

Liang Yuyi: "...What if Duan Hang is just hired by his wife?"

"Impossible," Yuan Yiping patted Liang Yuyi on the shoulder: "He is a graduate student of South China University of Technology, and he took such a big risk to do illegal things for a little money? Besides, didn't you say that Ma Chen's wife doesn't work? Then how much money can she have?"

"That's right," my girlfriend nodded, poured two glasses of water and handed them to Yuan Yiping and Liang Yuyi: "I feel that this matter is actually aimed at Ma Chen, that woman is going to punish Ma Chen, Ma Chen's company is not Is there going to be a new term? As soon as this happens, Ma Chen must be in the cold. Don't be afraid, I have a classmate whose husband is a lawyer in this area, I will contact you tomorrow."

Liang Yuyi nodded wearily.

At one o'clock in the morning, the best friend went to bed, Liang Yuyi and Yuan Yiping sat in the living room, facing each other silently.After a while, Liang Yuyi said, "Go downstairs and sit down?"

"Ah."

The two went downstairs lightly and sat on a bench in the community.There are no stars at night in Shenzhen, and the night sky is a dull wine red color reflected by the prosperous lights.Yuan Yiping took out a cigarette, and just about to light it, Liang Yuyi said, "Give me one too."

Yuan Yiping looked at her and handed her the cigarette case.

Even though Liang Yuyi is so haggard, she still looks good.A cigarette was held between her slender fingers, and the nails shone with gray-blue light.Her long hair hung down the side of her face, and her half-covered face was slumped and fierce.

"Do you think," Liang Yuyi said, "I did it on my own."

Yuan Yiping didn't answer directly, but said: "Now let's think about how to solve this matter."

"Yes, Ma Chen and I are together to make him rich," Liang Yuyi continued to himself: "Yuan Yiping, you told me before that your family's conditions are not good, but you grew up in the city Yes. Do you know how poor the countryside is? It's really... poor, it's too hard."

Yuan Yiping said in a low voice: "But you have come out, haven't you? You can make money on your own. You are neither stupid nor stupid, and you are hardworking. How can you not make money?"

"Make money?" Liang Yuyi sighed lightly: "It's okay to be like me now, I can carry a brand-name bag, I can buy clothes worth thousands of dollars a piece, and I can order the takeaway I want-is that enough? ?”

"It's not okay, Yuan Yiping, you're not in my position...you know, I know what I'm doing, what I'm doing wrong, what I'm doing immoral, I know all of that. But I can't help it, I do these things just to let myself live with dignity. In the process, I can accept some price."

"You want dignity," Yuan Yiping was a little confused: "But aren't you just..."

"Wang Yuan finally did it for me about Zhang Yuzhe's cheating," Liang Yuyi said suddenly, "Do you know what I did for him to do it for me?"

"……what?"

"I knelt in front of his father's memorial tablet for most of the night," Liang Yuyi said slowly, "When I was with Wang Yuan, he won a first-class scholarship, a lot of money—at least for the people at that time. It’s a lot of money for us. I haven’t traveled since I was a child, so I begged him to take me on a trip, so we went to Xiamen, played for seven days, and spent more than half of his scholarship.”

"On the seventh day, before the train arrived in Shenzhen, his mother called him and said that his father had been sent to the hospital for emergency treatment. Didn't his father have cerebral palsy? It was raining and he was electrocuted."

"His family did not have much money for him to go to school, and his scholarship...was almost spent. The next day he was still on his way to the train station, and his father was gone. At that time, his family was so poor that they couldn't even afford the cremation fee." I'm sorry." Liang Yuyi said this, paused, and suddenly smiled: "But even if he is rich, his father can't save him, the electricity is too serious, there is nothing he can do. But he keeps blaming me, blaming me for pestering him out Tourism, spent that money."

Yuan Yiping stared at Liang Yuyi dumbfounded.

"So he asked me to go to his father's memorial tablet to repent, and asked me to kowtow and kneel to his father-it's so fucking funny, he couldn't save his father by himself, so he put the blame on me."

"But I can't help it. If he doesn't help, Zhang Yuzhe can't do that. Zhang Yuzhe is a good boy. I'm so much older than him. I should help him, right? To be honest, I saw his father's plaque at Wang Yuan's house At that time, I really wanted to kill Wang Yuan."

Yuan Yiping thought of Wang Yuan's indifferent face, and wished to punch him.

Liang Yuyi leaned on the back of the chair and closed her eyes: "So, I'm at this level now, and I look pretty good? Not bad! So what if I carry tens of thousands of bags and wear tens of thousands of bracelets So what, when it really comes to this kind of time, you don’t have to do what others tell you to do. Is this called dignity?”

"Oh," Liang Yuyi suddenly tilted her body, leaning her head on Yuan Yiping's shoulder: "Yuan Yiping, you are the best person I met in Shenzhen, you... are very kind. I know many people look down on me, maybe You also look down on me, but I just feel uncomfortable, I want to tell you, some things, I know it is wrong, but I still do it, I also admit that I am wrong, I do not beg for forgiveness, but I ...requires some understanding."

Yuan Yiping suddenly thought of Chen Shuo.

Did he also think he was doing something wrong when he tangled wildly with those strangers?Did he also admit that he was wrong?

So... does he need to understand too?