Second Piano Concerto

The day before the performance, Qin Haiou and Tan Shuo went to the orchestra's residence for the second rehearsal.When the car drove to the gate of the station, Tan Shuo was surprised to find that there were many music fans waiting outside the gate.They stood on both sides of the gate under the sun, and many of them were holding bouquets of flowers in their hands. When they saw a car driving towards the gate of the station, they all cast their expectant eyes over, trying to tell whether it was Qin Haiou's vehicle.

Tan Shuo was shocked by the huge advertisement at the airport a month ago, and now seeing the situation, he was taken aback again.However, he understood the reason why these music fans squatted here.When he was still in college, if he wanted to go to a certain concert very much, but couldn't get tickets, he would try to go to the rehearsal.Most of the people guarding the door today are loyal music fans who haven’t bought tickets and school students who can’t afford tickets. Since they can’t watch tomorrow’s performance, they have to settle for the next best thing, hoping to be able to go to the rehearsal Listen to Qin Haiou's performance live to make up for regrets.It's a pity that the door of the orchestra is not easy to enter, especially this kind of rehearsal with important musicians, unless you know the performers, or have acquaintances in the orchestra, or have a relationship with the orchestra, or the rehearsal itself sells tickets to the outside world. Ordinary spectators cannot enter the rehearsal hall to watch the rehearsal.

Tan Shuo looked at the eagerly awaiting music fans through the car window, and then at Qin Haiou, who was calmly looking out the window, apparently already used to such scenes.The car quickly drove into the station and stopped directly outside the door of the rehearsal hall.Tan Shuo's attention returned to the rehearsal that was about to start, and while following Qin Haiou inside, he was thinking about a few minor issues that needed to be discussed with the conductor first.Unexpectedly, as soon as he entered the door, he was stunned by the situation in front of him again.The rehearsal hall was noisy, and the auditorium was full of people except for the walls on both sides and the last two rows of seats.When everyone saw Qin Haiou coming, they didn't even bother to talk, they turned their heads to look at him, and the surroundings suddenly became quiet.

After the last rehearsal, the mysterious new works and mysterious composers at Qin Haiou's comeback concert are no longer secrets.These inside information leaked out through the musicians who participated in the rehearsal, and soon became known to more people in the industry and Tan Shuo's alma mater. Those professionals who did not buy concert tickets heard that this new work is a rare masterpiece. I also heard that Qin Haiou's performance was extremely shocking, and I would definitely regret it if I didn't listen to it, so I turned a corner to find a musician through my relationship, hoping to sneak into the rehearsal hall to listen to a rehearsal.As for the musicians, after the last rehearsal, they all realized that the opportunity is rare. During this rehearsal, many of them brought their family members and friends to watch from the auditorium.Therefore, before Qin Haiou's arrival, all the people who entered the rehearsal hall through the orchestra's internal relationship had already sat down in the auditorium, and those fans who could not enter the orchestra's residence could only hold a little luck and sit in the residence hall. Wait outside the gate.

Qin Haiou has been living a quiet life away from the stage for a long time, but seeing so many music fans suddenly today, his heart is actually not as peaceful as it seems on the surface.But at this moment, everyone in the auditorium was watching him and looking forward to him, which made his heart tense for a while, and suddenly he felt a long-lost sense of rejection.

Yu Doudou arrived half an hour earlier than Qin Haiou today. She was not surprised at the situation inside and outside the rehearsal hall, and after the last rehearsal, she was no longer worried about Qin Haiou's mental state.In the past, Qin Haiou was often surrounded by people during rehearsals, but today there are just more people, not to mention that she never expected the orchestra to keep a secret after the first rehearsal—in fact, in the final stage of the concert, it was already There is no longer any need for deliberate secrecy.Therefore, although she has not released more details of the concert to the media, she has invited two senior writers to watch today's rehearsal, in order to let them know about the work in advance, and to draw up plans for the performance respectively. Analysis articles on the premise of success and performance failure, and then cooperate with her different public relations plans based on tomorrow's performance.

Seeing Qin Haiou's arrival, Yu Doudou pulled away and gave him some instructions, and continued to work on her own.Qin Haiou suppressed the strangeness in his heart and came to the front row of the auditorium.This row of seats is reserved for the staff, and there are some sundries such as music scores, handbags, clothes and water glasses on it. Since the rehearsal has not yet started, the conductor Yu Song and his assistant are also sitting here.After Qin Haiou greeted the two of them, Yu Song said, "Haiou, such a lively rehearsal is rare!"

He was sighing casually, but when Qin Haiou heard this sentence, the tension that was ready to come out suddenly opened up in his heart, making his expression and body stiff.Fortunately, Yu Song didn't notice any changes in him, so he turned his head to greet Tan Shuo after speaking, and then the two held up the music score to discuss.Qin Haiou walked aside, found an empty seat and sat down alone, bowed his head and took a deep breath.This feeling was so bad, it was like a blow to the head, which knocked him into a daze.He was obviously fine, why did he relapse? !

Tan Shuo was talking to Yu Song not far away, and happened to be facing Qin Haiou's direction. When he mentioned a detail related to the piano, he subconsciously raised his eyes and looked at Qin Haiou.This glance was just a glance, but it immediately made Tan Shuo feel very wrong.Qin Haiou, in a normal state, even if he didn't talk or laugh, but just stayed quietly, gave people a very warm feeling.But Qin Haiou at this moment is obviously not like this. His expression reminds Tan Shuo of the day before Liu Yang's birthday last year, when he was sitting on the stairs of the rice noodle shop depressed and anxious.Tan Shuo looked at it calmly, hesitating what to do, when Qin Haiou suddenly got up and walked out.

Tan Shuo's gaze followed Qin Haiou's back, his heart sank, and he couldn't sit still any longer. He hurriedly ended his conversation with Yu Song and went to find someone outside the rehearsal hall.Over the past year, Qin Haiou's mental state has indeed continued to improve and stabilized, and his technical state has surpassed before. The last rehearsal also went very smoothly.Tan Shuo never expected that at this juncture, just the day before the performance, Qin Haiou's state would appear again and again.His mood became heavy, and his pace unconsciously slowed down, trying to come up with a countermeasure in the short time before he found Qin Haiou.But now, he doesn't know any other way to calm Qin Haiou's nervousness immediately.After seeing Qin Haiou, what should he say, he thought frantically, but couldn't find the answer.

Qin Haiou walked out of the small door on one side of the stage, and found an empty corner outside to stop.He was in a state of confusion and didn't know what to do. While he was panicked, he also felt a great sense of anxiety.This time he was not only anxious about his own psychological problems, but also anxious about the serious consequences that might be caused.The comeback concert is tomorrow, even if today's rehearsal is canceled, what about tomorrow? What about tomorrow?How should he face tomorrow's audience, as well as his family, teachers, team, everyone... most importantly, how should he face Tan Shuo?He used to promise Tan Shuo so swearingly that Tan Shuo believed him, accepted his commission, and came here with him, but now he let such a thing happen again! ...are they really going to stop here?Is he really going to break his promise to Tan Shuo?

The great anxiety was followed by disappointment with himself. Qin Haiou leaned against the wall and stared at the ground, swallowed by an irrepressible sense of guilt.He knew that if he hesitated at this time, Tan Shuo would never blame him.If tomorrow's performance can't be carried out, Tan Shuo will only comfort him in turn, and then return to the rice noodle shop again, returning to his previous life track.But just because he knew that he would be like this, Qin Haiou hated himself for his disappointing state.Let Tan Shuo continue to create in obscurity and forbearance. Just thinking about this possibility makes Qin Haiou feel unbearable.

Tan Shuo went outside and looked around, and soon found Qin Haiou who was hiding in the corner.The moment he saw the other party, he suddenly had an idea.But this is not the result of rational thinking, but based on his understanding and trust in Qin Haiou, as well as his intuition and sense of urgency at this moment, he came up with a solution in a hurry.Seeing Qin Haiou turn his face, he looked gloomy, and before he could speak, he asked, "Why did you come here? While I have time, I have to tell you about a few places in the Huacai section. I always feel that The previous handling was a bit less interesting!"

The anxiety and worry in his heart were real, so his tone was naturally a little eager, and it really sounded like he wanted to explain a few words to Qin Haiou before the rehearsal started.Seeing him coming, Qin Haiou thought he saw his nervousness and was at a loss for what to do, so he was stunned when he heard something irrelevant: "Where is it?"

Tan Shuo had calmed down a lot at this time, and purposely babbled the question around.Qin Haiou thought for a while, but still didn't understand what he was referring to, so the two went back to the rehearsal hall to look for the score.The two of them left the rehearsal hall very briefly, so the people in the rehearsal hall didn't notice anything unusual.After returning to his seat, Tan Shuo first held the score and explained it carefully. After Qin Haiou listened carefully, he also expressed his opinion. Before the two had a good discussion, they heard the staff of the orchestra calling everyone back to their seats, and the rehearsal was about to begin up.

"Let's do this for the time being! Pay attention to the places you mentioned just now when you play." Tan Shuo urged, as if he still hadn't finished.

Qin Haiou nodded, turned around and walked up the stage.It wasn't until he sat down in front of the piano that he suddenly realized that the strong sense of tension just now had disappeared unconsciously, like a gust of wind blowing, coming fast and fierce, but walking faster and more simply.He was taken aback secretly, but after thinking about it, he realized that he only blamed himself for being too restless.

After more than a year, he has indeed recovered, as evidenced by his rapid recovery just now, but because of this, he ignored the possibility of relapse and was not mentally prepared for it.The sudden emergence of music fans and audiences today, as well as the imminent performance time, made him forget that he was not unable to control his mental state at the moment when he fell into a nervous mood.Tan Shuo may have made a mistake just now, turning his focus from out-of-control emotions back to the music, so the tension disappeared, but in the past year or so, this method has actually been changed by Tan Shuo He has already understood the reason for using it on him.If he had calmed down just now, or waited a little longer, after the initial panic had passed, he could have adjusted himself in this way. There was absolutely no need for him to panic or even doubt himself when the nervousness recurred.

After all, he was the one who frightened himself this time, and he was terribly frightened.But at this moment, he finally realized that this was actually just a false alarm. If this happened again in the future, he would definitely be able to handle it better than today.

Qin Haiou calmed down, quickly adjusted his state, and devoted himself to the current rehearsal.Tan Shuo secretly heaved a sigh of relief seeing that he was performing normally and was not affected by the twists and turns just now.

Since most of the problems in the performance had been resolved in the last rehearsal, this rehearsal went on more smoothly and the rehearsal time was greatly shortened.After the rehearsal, the audience stood up and applauded, not only for the wonderful music they just heard, but also for the success of tomorrow's performance.Naturally, the musicians on the stage also wanted to express themselves. Some put down their instruments and applauded, and those who were inconvenient to applaud used their bows to strike the music stand instead of applause. smile.Qin Haiou got up and bowed to the audience, his eyes swept across the front row of the auditorium, and fell on Tan Shuo. He saw that Tan Shuo was applauding him like other audience members.Now they are only one step away from their final goal. The stage walk tomorrow afternoon will be the last rehearsal before the performance. After that, this long-awaited concert will officially kick off.

That night, Qin Haiou fell asleep early.Tan Shuo stayed alone in the study until very late, and after going back to his room to lie down, he still couldn't fall asleep.He thought of some things in the past, his student days, the days of wandering around, the life in Longjin Town, countless old fragments of the past are like sand and dust sinking at the bottom of the lake, stirred by some thoughts, they come up one after another , incomplete and disorderly, making his mind muddy.He didn't have time to distinguish the emotions one by one, and he didn't try to do so. He just let those silent pictures be shown mechanically in his mind. The tiredness of his body couldn't stop the excitement of his mind, and he couldn't stop to rest.

He was in a daze with his eyes open, when a message came in on his phone, he picked it up and saw that it was Liu Yang who was inquiring about the rehearsal situation again.After they left Longjin, Liu Yang was always concerned about Qin Haiou's condition, but she didn't want to disturb him, so she only asked Tan Shuo about this and that.Tan Shuo didn't want to trouble her, so he omitted the situation before today's rehearsal, and only said that everything went well, Qin Haiou was in good condition, and attracted many fans to watch.Unexpectedly, Liu Yang replied several times in a row. On the one hand, he was full of emotions, but on the other hand he couldn't believe it was true. In the end, he said that he was already very nervous, and he was destined to lose sleep tonight. It can be seen that she still has a lot to say explain.Tan Shuo teased her as usual, but she was not the only one who couldn't sleep at the moment.Thinking of this, Tan Shuo's mood became more complicated, but he and Liu Yang's feelings were different after all, what was in his heart now, even he himself couldn't tell.

The two chatted back and forth for a while, and finally turned off their phones and went to sleep.It took Tan Shuo a long time to fall asleep in a daze. Since he did not sleep deeply, he gradually began to dream.He dreamed that he locked himself in the small upstairs of the rice noodle shop to create "Return". The room was extremely hot and stuffy, and he was extremely anxious. In his college piano room, the score he wrote became "Xinghai". He worked day and night without eating or drinking, and finally finished all the works, but he was horrified to find that what he wrote was not "Xinghai" but "Long Night". "Song of the Stars", all traces of "Xinghai" disappeared, he frantically searched around, in the piano room, in the dormitory, but he couldn't find it in all corners of the school; finally he came to a music hall full of audience. In the hall, he saw Xiao Cong playing "Song of the Long Night" on the stage. He yelled at the people on the stage, but no one noticed him, and no one heard him, but suddenly the person on the stage became Qin Haiou. The song turned into "Return". Qin Haiou became nervous and made a mistake while playing. The more mistakes he made, the more nervous he became, until the music stopped abruptly. Qin Haiou stood up pale, turned and walked down without saying a word. There was an uproar on the stage; then, Tan Shuo saw that everyone in the audience turned their heads and stared at him. Among them were some familiar faces——Yu Doudou, Qin Haiya, and even Wang Yifu. They glared at him. , Countless angry voices echoed in his ears: "You killed the seagull! You killed him—"

Tan Shuo shuddered, woke up from the dream, and found that he was covered in sweat and his heart was beating wildly.He regained his composure, and saw the clock on the bedside through the dim light, it was nearly five o'clock in the morning.

It will be daylight soon.