Second Piano Concerto

It has been less than half a month since the last time he formally proposed a commission to Tan Shuo. During this period, Qin Haiou was only thinking about renting a house, and never talked about it with Tan Shuo.Now that there is logistical support and everything is ready, Qin Haiou feels that it is time to have a good talk with Tan Shuo.

So that night, Qin Haiou didn't go out for a run, but waited for the rice noodle shop to close, so he came to the second floor to look for Tan Shuo.As soon as Tan Shuo saw his solemn appearance, he knew that he was going to bring up the commission again, but he had nowhere to hide at this time, so he had to prepare to show his tricks.

Sure enough, Qin Haiou didn't go around with him, and asked straight to the point: "How do you think about the commission?"

Tan Shuo refused more quickly than last time: "I don't agree."

"Why don't you agree?" Qin Haiou asked.

Tan Shuo kept silent.This kind of conversation going on is nothing more than repeating the content of the last conversation, which is meaningless.

Seeing that he didn't answer, Qin Haiou was not in a hurry, sat down on his small wooden stool, thought for a while, and suddenly bowed down and pulled out all the baskets of music scores under the single bed.

Tan Shuo looked at the scores and was wondering what he meant, when Qin Haiou touched the bamboo basket with his foot and asked, "What do you plan to do with these things in the future?"

Tan Shuo was stunned for a moment, then he understood immediately, and calmly replied, "Leave it alone."

Before Qin Haiou started to provoke him, he already knew that the other party wanted to use the aggressive method, and he couldn't help but feel a little emotional. Qin Haiou is really persistent, but unfortunately he is too young due to lack of experience.

Unsurprisingly, Qin Haiou then asked: "Store it? How long are you going to keep it, ten years, 20 years, or just let them rot here? What are you doing in 20 years, opening a rice noodle chain store?"

Tan Shuo smiled: "Don't tell me, I really have this plan."

Qin Haiou frowned slightly: "What about your creation? Tan Shuo, music is for sharing."

"It can also be used for self-entertainment!" Tan Shuo laughed.

Qin Haiou stared at him motionlessly: "Last time I overcame my nervousness by playing your work. If you don't write, I won't come back."

This turning point came a bit suddenly, and it seems that the failure of the aggressive will turn into a threat.Tan Shuo sat down on the swivel chair and raised his legs: "Even if you go to jump the Xiaonan Bridge now, I won't stop you."

"What are you worried about?" It may be because of the failure of the two attempts, Qin Haiou's tone finally has more impatience, "If you are worried about the performance effect, I have already said it last time, I have nothing to lose Yes. I can also assure you that if I screw up, I will be responsible for the consequences, and I will never implicate you; if you screw up, I will continue no matter how bad the work is, and I will not blame you You! If you don't trust me, every word I said just now can be written into the contract!"

Hearing that he was about to finish his sentence, Tan Shuo finally put away his joking expression: "It's not that I don't trust you, you know I don't care about that."

"Then what else do you have to worry about?" Qin Haiou asked.

Tan Shuo sighed: "Even if you don't consider the result, it is very difficult to write a new work, or this large-scale work."

"What difficulties do you have?" Qin Haiou asked.

"I have no inspiration." Tan Shuo said.

"Then look for inspiration," Qin Haiou said, "What information do you need, where do you want to go, tell me, and I will arrange it for you."

"I don't have a creative environment." Tan Shuo said again.

"Isn't it just a rice noodle shop?" Qin Haiou said, "I'll find someone to look after the shop for you, and you don't have to worry about anything in the shop. Do you remember the 'Xiao Pengmen' across from Liu'an? I rented it out. If you think it’s too noisy here, you can move to live there, it’s very quiet over there, you can write there, I promise no one will disturb you.”

Tan Shuo looked at Qin Haiou in astonishment.He knew that Qin Haiou's agent had been staying in Zhuzhu's inn recently, and that Qin Haiou was also very secretive these days and didn't often appear in the rice noodle shop, but he never thought that they were actually busy renting a house.He originally thought that Qin Haiou would leave Longjin Town soon, and he only needed to delay this appointment to let it go, but now it seems that Qin Haiou is not only planning to leave, but planning to stay here for a long time.Is he going to stay here to practice the piano?What the hell is he thinking? !

Tan Shuo stood up abruptly, unable to restrain his anxiety.Not long ago, he clearly took the initiative and blocked Qin Haiou's attempts again and again, but in a blink of an eye, the situation was reversed, and his excuses were blocked one by one by Qin Haiou!

"Do you think this thing can be written if you just write it?" He said angrily, "Maybe it will take three to five years, ten or eight years, can you afford to wait?"

Qin Haiou also stood up, and said without hesitation: "As long as you write, I can wait, anyway, I have plenty of time!"

"You're crazy!" Tan Shuo couldn't bear it anymore, "Do you know what you're talking about!"

"I know what I'm talking about," Qin Haiou said, "but you don't know what you're talking about! I can help you eliminate every difficulty you mentioned, and I also said that I don't care about the final result. But even so You still refuse to agree, why on earth do you refuse to agree!"

Tan Shuo stared at him, and all his rationality was consumed by anger for a moment.Every word Qin Haiou said hit his heart mercilessly, forcing him to retreat—why didn't he agree?Why? !He stepped forward and grabbed Qin Haiou's collar: "No reason! I just don't want to write!"

After he finished speaking, he pushed Qin Haiou away abruptly, and turned to get his cigarette case.He knew he was out of control, but he couldn't control it.Manic rage and a deep sense of powerlessness tore at him, he urgently needed to do something to divert his attention, otherwise he didn't know what he would do in the next second.

He had put his cigarette case on the table earlier, and as soon as he stretched out his hand, Qin Haiou was faster than him, rushed over, grabbed the cigarette case and threw it into the corner with his backhand: "That's right, you just don't want to write! What you just said Those are all excuses, you finally admit it!"

Qin Haiou managed to force Tan Shuo to tell the truth, feeling both excited and sad.He came here from the very beginning with this sentence in mind. Opportunities are precious and fleeting. Tan Shuo instinctively retreated even when he was extremely restless. Now Qin Haiou finally dug out his innermost thoughts, why? Might make him shrink back again.

"I know you feel uncomfortable." Qin Haiou said.

This sentence hit Tan Shuo hard, and he looked at Qin Haiou angrily: "You know? You know? You know and let me write it?! Do you know what I will face if I agree? I will think of "Xinghai", every time I write a note, I will think of "Xinghai"! I endured it for ten years, not to turn it out and stab it up! Do you know what it feels like?! Can you let me go? Can you fucking let me go!"

He couldn't care about anything else, he just vented his anger to Qin Haiou, yelling until his throat became hoarse and his eyes turned red.Qin Haiou listened quietly to his roar.This is exactly what he wanted, and he hoped that Tan Shuo could let go of all his scruples and vent his emotions completely.

Tan Shuo has suppressed it for too long. He has never had a chance to confide in the anger, depression and grievance buried deep in his heart.He endured until it became a habit.If he wants to leave this closed world, he has to go out with the knife of the past, but the pain is great, and he is alone and helpless, so he would rather stay in place.

This situation has been going on for many years, and it seems that it will continue, but now, Qin Haiou finally sees a glimmer of hope.Although the process was very difficult, he finally let Tan Shuo open his heart.Last time, he didn't know the inside story, was unprepared, and missed an opportunity by mistake.This opportunity was won by himself, and he could not miss it no matter what.

Tan Shuo made no sound after venting, and sat on the ground leaning on the bookcase with his head bowed.Qin Haiou looked down at him, feeling very uncomfortable.When Tan Shuo lost control of his emotions last time, he was able to tidy up everything quickly by himself, and in turn calmly analyzed the pros and cons for Qin Haiou, but this time he had no energy left to do so, and he didn't even try to hide it. When he was empty, he usually shrank in the corner of the cabinet, staring at the ground dejectedly.

Qin Haiou knew that this was Tan Shuo when he faced setbacks alone.Looking at Tan Shuo in front of him, he seemed to see Tan Shuo ten years ago—Tan Shuo when he found out that his works had been taken away, Tan Shuo when he realized that he was betrayed by his friends, Tan Shuo when he decided to leave, and Tan Shuo when he found out that his work had been taken away. In the past ten years, Tan Shuo was repeatedly tortured by this past.At that time, no one helped him, and he couldn't see a way out, so he forced himself to bury this fragile self, and tried to forget the scars of the past.

Qin Haiou squatted down beside the bookcase and began to speak in a calm tone.

"When I found out that something was wrong with me, I refused to believe it at first. When the problem became so serious that I couldn't ignore it, it was no longer something I could face and solve alone."

While talking, he paid attention to Tan Shuo's expression, but the latter didn't respond, so he continued talking.

"Although I fled to this ancient town, I actually didn't know where I was going to go, nor when I was going to go, until you showed me hope.

"I know that when you were persuading me, you didn't say a lot of things, it was to avoid making me feel too much pressure. But that day, after I finally got over the tension, I understood how you lead me step by step. I got out of trouble.

"You have seen my problems so thoroughly, why are you always timid when facing your own problems? In fact, you are very clear about your own problems, but you just don't want to touch them. The reason for this is that you I get it. That's because there's nothing harder to do than beat yourself."

Having said that, he paused, letting the tranquility be a gentle buffer.Although Tan Shuo's expression did not change significantly, Qin Haiou could feel that the irritable lingering anger and decadent daze that had enveloped him just now were slowly fading away.

Tan Shuo is gradually regaining his composure.This is a good beginning.Qin Haiou calmly organized his thoughts.In the past, when he was emotionally turbulent, Tan Shuo was always the one who kept calm. Even if they had a dispute, it was Tan Shuo who bowed to him first.At least one of them must remain calm for communication to continue.But this time, it was up to him to do it.

"I commissioned you to write this work to make you face yourself. You don't want to do it because thinking about the past will make you painful. But if you think about it carefully, if you don't do it, don't you? Is it painful? Even if you throw away the sheet music, can you really forget it? This thing is like a thorn, it hurts to lick it, but if you don't lick it, it will It's always stuck in your heart, making you uncomfortable for a lifetime, making you never get real peace, and never writing the music you want to write."

Tan Shuo's brows twitched, and finally a pained look appeared on his face, and he turned his head to the side, showing some resistance.Qin Haiou didn't lose his patience. Tan Shuo's reaction showed that he had started thinking again.

"I have my problems and you have yours. Even though I'm starting to recover now and want to really get back on stage, I still have a ways to go. I know your path is better than mine. It's much harder, but don't forget, I'll help you this time! I didn't have the qualifications before, because I was a deserter like you, but now I have, because I have done what you haven't done yet Tan Shuo, you gave me this qualification, and it is because of your help that I have come to this day. I will prove to you that what you can do for me, I can do for you too!"

The more Qin Haiou spoke, the more excited he became. He didn't know if he could really convince Tan Shuo. He only knew that these words were not only for Tan Shuo, but also for himself from his heart.

""Star Sea" is over!" He stood up abruptly, his tone unprecedentedly firm, "Since you can't get it back, let's put it down completely! They did steal your work, but so what? They can't take away your talent! You wrote "Xinghai" ten years ago, ten years later, you can still write better works than "Xinghai". I believe you can do it, and you know you can If you did it, why don't you do it!"

"We create a work together, it allows me to overcome myself, and it also allows you to let go of the past. We walk this road together. This concert is of extraordinary significance to you and me! I believe you will not Let me down, you have to believe, I will never let you down!

"Your dream ten years ago, today, still has a chance to come true. This opportunity is in front of you now. Isn't it worth giving it a go? I hope you will go back with me, because that stage is not only for you Mine belongs to you too, I hope you can enjoy the joy of music with me and enjoy the applause of success! Tan Shuo——

"Don't you want to start over and devote yourself to creation? Don't you want to go beyond "Xinghai" and yourself ten years ago? In this life, even this time, don't you want to hear your own works with your own ears? The sound made on the stage!"

The room was instantly silent, but Qin Haiou's heart was still pounding violently against his chest, unable to calm himself down.Tan Shuo sat on the spot like a statue, and there was no wave in his expression.He seems to be in another world, falling into deep thoughts alone, and does not allow outsiders to disturb him.

Qin Haiou didn't say any more.He picked up the cigarette case he had thrown away earlier from the corner, put it gently on the table, glanced at Tan Shuo again, turned and left the room.