Second Piano Concerto

Qin Haiou's performance added a lot of color to the party, and everyone had a great time playing, but Qin Haiou himself was the happiest among them.For the first time, he really felt that he had overcome the nervous feeling really well.Although today's party was still far from a real performance, this performance proved that this problem that has plagued him for a long time can be solved, and he is capable of doing it.

This filled Qin Haiou's heart with joy, and his heart swelled as if it was about to explode, and his once-shaken confidence was restored, even more solid than before.On the way back, he felt as if he was floating lightly in the air, as if he was flying happily, but he felt extremely solid, and every step he took was firmly on the ground.The road that had been blurred and disappeared became clear again, and nothing could stand between him and the stage.He is about to go back, and now he has firmly believed that he can definitely go back!

Holding this full of joy, he only felt that what he saw and what he heard was beautiful, and there were thousands of words in his chest that he was eager to confide.But it was inconvenient to express this feeling in front of others, so he endured it silently until the three of them went back and Zhuzhu returned to the inn, then he came to Tan Shuo full of excitement.

Knowing that Qin Haiou wanted to talk about his performance, Tan Shuo took the remaining half of the watermelon out of the refrigerator and waited for Qin Haiou to speak. As expected, when Qin Haiou came over, he couldn't wait to yell: "Oops, Oops! !"

Tan Shuo was a little surprised at the beginning: "What's wrong?"

"My hands are still shaking!" Qin Haiou said.

Tan Shuo glanced at it: "Knead yourself, let the muscles relax and it won't shake."

"It's trembling with joy!" Qin Haiou said.

Tan Shuo shut his mouth and turned to cut the watermelon.Qin Haiou laughed out loud.

"I did it, I did it! Did you see it? I really did it!" Qin Haiou said as he walked around beside him without stopping for a moment, "This feels great, I'm so happy Already! This is the most memorable day since I performed!"

After Tan Shuo cut the watermelon, he sat down and began to eat.Qin Haiou moved the stool to sit opposite him, and then moved the stool forward, without looking at the watermelon, just talking to him: "At the beginning, I was very nervous, and that feeling was very different from when I was on stage before. Like, my mind is messed up, and the pressure is extremely high! I thought I couldn't do it at the time, and I wanted to give up."

Tan Shuo gnawed on the watermelon and nodded, indicating that he was listening.

Qin Haiou continued: "But I'm not reconciled. I think it's come to this point. Even if I still can't play in the end, I can't do nothing. I forced myself to put my hand on it, but I didn't expect my fingers to start moving by themselves. I have no memory of how the first few notes were pressed."

"And then?" Tan Shuo asked, "You stopped for a while."

"Yes," Qin Haiou said, "It was only then that I realized that I was already playing it, and then I remembered that this was a piece for Miss Liu. Then I remembered that you asked me how to play it. Most suitable, you let me think about it, so I started to think about—"

Qin Haiou paused, stood up suddenly, and walked back and forth excitedly: "I began to think about what I want to express, what kind of music I want, and where the feeling is not enough... I think Focus on this and forget about the rest.”

He stopped suddenly, turned to look at Tan Shuo: "I forgot, I was nervous."

"That's right!" Tan Shuo chuckled, "Why do you think so many useless things?"

Qin Haiou was stunned for a moment, suddenly realized, and said repeatedly: "Yes, yes! In fact, you don't need to think about anything, you don't need to think about anything!" He walked back and sat down again, but he was so excited that he seemed to jump up at any time, "Actually, just think about it." It's enough to listen to the music, it's enough to think about the music!"

Tan Shuo nodded: "This principle is easy to say, but difficult to do. But as long as you do it once, you can do it the second time and the third time."

"Of course I can do it!" Qin Haiou was ecstatic because he had successfully overcome his nervousness before, but now he recalled the whole process and finally realized the cause and effect.He had a personal experience, summed up this method, and organized all his thoughts clearly. What to do next, and how to do it, he was very clear in his heart.

"I want to practice the piano," he said firmly, looking at his hands, "just like today. I need to make this feeling into a habit, and I need to get back into shape—no, better than before, I can definitely do it!"

"Hmm." Tan Shuo threw away the last piece of melon rind, and belched contentedly.He is very satisfied with Qin Haiou's series of reactions after the performance, because it shows that his goals have all been achieved, and Qin Haiou's future recovery will be smooth.

Qin Haiou talked a lot and felt his mouth was dry. When he heard his full belch, he realized that he had eaten up all the watermelon and didn't have a piece left for himself. He was very dissatisfied: "Why did you eat all of it!"

"You don't want to eat." Tan Shuo said confidently.

Qin Haiou didn't talk nonsense with him, and ran downstairs to buy ice water to drink. He felt that the water was not enough, so he bought two more popsicles.He went back to the inn and ate all the popsicles, took a shower, still didn't feel sleepy at all, only felt refreshed and full of energy, so he simply changed into short-sleeved shorts and went for a run.

It was late at this time, most of the streets in the town were deserted, only a few lively places in the central area were still crowded with people.Qin Haiou was in a good mood, he had long forgotten the usual jogging rhythm, he ran and jumped along the way, and ran as fast as he could in places where no one was around.He thought about today's performance while running, and once his thinking became active, many things that were not connected before were naturally spliced ​​together.He remembered that Tan Shuo had already started to discuss music with him very early on. Later, Tan Shuo asked him to practice many pieces that were technically simple but worthy of careful savoring in music. At that time, Tan Shuo was deliberately guiding him.Later, Tan Shuo wrote this ditty for him, making him realize his own shortcomings.Unknowingly, his focus has gradually shifted when practicing the piano, especially when practicing Tan Shuo's piece, he has no distracting thoughts and is completely immersed in it.Looking back now, he was able to complete the performance smoothly today, thanks to the subtle changes that have taken place in him during this period of time.

If there is no such preparation, or if you play another piece of music today, the final result may be different.Tan Shuo guided him through a process of natural transformation, and created a special condition—a piece of music specially composed for this purpose, all in order to ensure that he could experience this transformation for himself.

This truth is indeed very simple. Someone told him repeatedly in the past, don’t think about the audience, forget the pressure, forget the distracting thoughts, forget everything that disturbs you... But even though he knows he should forget, he still doesn’t know how to do it To, and Tan Shuo was the first to help him do it.

Qin Haiou suddenly remembered that Tan Shuo had repeated the phrase "forget your hand" that night after he was drunk. Exhort, and in today's performance, he really experienced that feeling of selflessness.He forgot about his fingers, he forgot about the technique, he just thought about the music, and because of this, his heart was freed from the stress.

As long as you do it once, you can do it the second time, and the third time.But how difficult it is to succeed for the first time.It wasn't until he actually did that that he finally understood what it felt like.

This personal experience is better than countless emotional comfort and theoretical analysis.How lucky he is to have met someone who can really relate to him musically and who can really help him out.Without Tan Shuo, he does not know how much mental torture he would have to go through, and how long it would take him to comprehend what he has comprehended today.If he has not been able to comprehend, will he really give up on this matter, will he keep trying, and then continue to suffer in constant failure?

I'm afraid he will.

In the minutes before the performance started, the struggle and fear in his heart made him understand that this was the only thing he would not give up no matter what. He was afraid of failure, but he was even more afraid that he would stop working hard.

How lucky he was to have such precious help.Now that everything is over, he finally overcomes the obstacles and takes the first step to conquer himself.

His heart was surging, his body was controlled by his will, and he didn't feel tired at all, so he ran up the hillside at the end of the town in one breath.He stood there looking at the night scene of the ancient town, the sky was full of stars, the scene was no different from the past, the difference was that all the negative emotions in his heart had disappeared, leaving only confidence and fighting spirit, and the pair who made him feel extremely happy vision of the future.

He had had enough of looking there, and then ran down the hillside until he reached the river at the east end of the town.The river was flowing slowly, sparkling and shining, and it looked extraordinarily cool in the night.Qin Haiou was sweating profusely from running, kicked off his shoes without thinking, and jumped into the water with a "plop".

A quarter of an hour later, Tan Shuo suddenly received a call from the security patrol team in Guzhen, saying that a man who claimed to be his brother not only violated the regulations by swimming in the river, but also failed to pay the fine. The patrol team told him to bring 200 yuan with him. Lead people in the past.

Tan Shuo was about to say that he didn't have such a brother, did he make a mistake, when he heard someone shouting on the other end of the phone: "Tan Shuo, Tan Shuo, it's me!"

Although the voice was a little low, Tan Shuo could still recognize that it was Qin Haiou's voice.He cursed secretly, had no choice but to recognize the brother first, and after talking kindly to the patrol team, he put down his phone and fumbled in his pocket, found more than 160 yuan, and went to the store downstairs to get 50 yuan. Hastily rushed towards the river.