[European style] The truth

I absolutely hate Lucas Coster and Daniel Letts.If you ask me why, I have to start from the beginning.

I admit that I am a hot-tempered girl, and I don't have the gentle character that many men's wives should have.From the age of 13 to 19, I have had 4 boyfriends one after another, but these short-term relationships almost all broke up because the other party "can't stand my temper".In fact, I have always been very gentle with my cherished friends, such as my best friend Abby, who would have the heart to hurt such a beautiful and kind girl?Although at first I was not at all optimistic about her marriage to John.I say this nonsense to prove that I am not a cranky, difficult person.If I hate a man, he must have done me incalculable harm.

My acting career started at the age of 15, when I was admitted to an art high school and decided to make acting my career.Since I'm from Los Angeles, I have easy access to Hollywood directors and actors.Maybe in your opinion, my career as an actor is smooth and smooth. I don’t deny that it may be easier than some other actors, but in the first few years, I could only play some small roles with no lines.

Until I was 19 years old, I participated in the youth film "Anna's Fantasy" directed by Tracy, which was indeed a turning point in my career.I was nominated for a Golden Globe for Best Actress and met Daniel Letts, forgive me for not wanting to call him by a nickname, even though it was more convenient that way.

Like my previous suitors, he always finds various reasons to send me messages and ask me out.But I must admit he is a humorous and funny guy, so after a month I became his girlfriend.The beginning of love is always sweet. During that time, I compressed the irritable part of my personality to the minimum, and tried my best to make myself look like a gentle and considerate girl.We held hands, hugged, and kissed in various public places, interacted frequently on ins, and dated in all our spare time...During that time, I watched all Marlon Brando's movies just because he liked them; He also accompanied me to watch many fashion shows that he was not interested in.In a sense, he is a pure actor, and he even brings the emotions of the characters in the script to himself, which is one of the reasons why he fell in love with me.Although we have broken off any relationship, I still have a lot of respect for him on this point.

That winter, he told me, he had agreed to be in Larry's new film, Phoenix.At first, I was absolutely in support of the news.Even though it's a gay movie, as an actor, any deal that's good for his future is a good thing, isn't it?The other leading actor in the film is Lucas Coster. I once played an inconspicuous role in the same film with him, but I am not familiar with him in private.

Originally, Jenna, a female character in the film, was reserved for me, but I already had another film contract at that time, and I couldn't divide myself in half, so I had to let it go.For a few months, he and I shot in separate locations—he in California and me in faraway Boston.Usually we can only keep in touch through mobile phones.

He would tell me every day the funny things he saw and heard on the set, for example, he fell down during filming and his pelvis cracked, and he couldn’t shoot scenes that required strenuous exercise for a few days afterwards; Wearing it backwards, but he still looks cool; like the awkwardness of the two of them filming the kiss scene and the passion scene...

Not a day goes by without mentioning Lucas Coster.At that time, I was still a simple girl, and I was not aware of the hidden information in it. Instead, I was sincerely happy that he had made another good friend.After both of our shoots were over, I finally got to meet the man who was alive in his description again.In the few years since I've seen him, he's grown from a little boy who plays a part in the film to a tall, handsome, sexy mature man—much more mature than Daniel Letts, at least.

It's my birthday in a few days.That day I invited the two of them, along with Abby, John, and others, to a gathering at home.Abbie helped me make the pizza and cakes with her own hands, which she has always been good at.It's hard to believe, but we met because of the cooking class we took together in high school.

At dinner, Daniel Letts sat next to me, and Lucas Coster sat diagonally across from me.The atmosphere at the table is joyful and light.John has been telling his old-fashioned, old-generation jokes for decades. I don't know how Abby was attracted to him, but she actually laughed out loud.Daniel Letts had the most outrageous laugh, his mouth would burst—sometimes I couldn't understand him at all.In my opinion, blank expression is the most normal reaction at this time.

"So, do you want to see the real Phoenix? After all, your movie ends up being shot in California." I asked, looking over to Daniel Letts.

"Of course, I have always yearned for a city named after Phoenix." He glanced at me, then looked in the direction where Lucas Coster was sitting, and opened up a new topic by himself, "Listen to me, when I was a child I always thought that there were only three kinds of people in the west: cowboys, speculators and gold diggers. Or, the characters of western people are rough and unrestrained, but I didn’t know there were such quiet artists in the west until I met Luca!”

"You're right, I was educated the same as you," John echoed, but he looked at the frowning of his girlfriend around him, and immediately tried to make amends, "Of course, Abby is also a gentle western girl."

"What about me?" I looked at Daniel Letts expectantly and asked.God be my witness, I was just joking, and I wouldn't be offended if he said a negative answer.

"I'd rather talk about Sacramento than that. There are far fewer people there than New York or Los Angeles, and it's beautiful everywhere. I think if I'm old, I won't be occupied by old men like most people. I'm going to Sacramento for the rest of my life." Daniel Letts beamed as he described his old age, completely forgetting all the circumstances he was in.

"With Luca?"

"Yes, with Luca. We can run the bakery with his mother and sister. You know, Luca's mother makes delicious bread!" At this point, he showed the brunette man A big smile.

"I'm glad you like my mother's food." Lukas Coster said with a smile, "My mother likes you too." It sounded like two young people discussing marriage.

"What about Ashley?" Abby asked with a smile.I knew she was trying to get a topic for me.

"Who knows, maybe at that time she would have married some old wealthy businessman." Daniel Letts smiled and took a sip of orange juice, completely ignoring my thoughts.

As for me, I had already quietly clenched my fists at that time, and the anger rose in my head, and quickly jumped to the height of the Statue of Liberty.I can tolerate ordinary jokes, I can tolerate teasing from friends, but what I can't stand is long-term perfunctory, indifference and disrespect!What's more, the joke he made was full of malice and even violated my reputation.

Maybe because he noticed my change, he continued: "Just kidding."

"It's not funny at all!" I put down the knife and fork heavily, and walked out of the room without looking back.The metal tableware fell heavily on the white porcelain plate, making a loud collision sound, like an order from a conductor, making everyone shut up.There was no sound in the whole room, it was eerily quiet.

From that day on, Daniel Letts and I didn't speak for a week.As a friend, Abbie always reassured me, telling me that Danny was a naive little boy, that his jokes were unintentional, or whatever.She said that John was helping me persuade Danny to come and apologize to me, and maybe everything would be better in a few days.

She was right.I received his apology the next day.I admit that Abby's words played a role in it, so when he asked: "Will you still be my girlfriend?", I replied: "Yes."

After we reconciled, we did everything we did before in public: holding hands, hugging, kissing.In fact, I prefer to call my actions during that time "improvisation" because I knew something important had changed.He no longer looked at me with the focused and affectionate eyes he used to, and no longer listened to me intently. Instead, he often lowered his head and played with his phone impatiently after I said a few words.Our dating is becoming more and more like a secret agent connection, and our relationship is more and more like completing a mission.I figured, the day I win an Oscar for Best Actress or Supporting Actress, I'm going to give him my acceptance speech!

But I am not a cruel girl after all, and I am still reluctant to part with the boy I love in the end.I racked my brains to come up with various methods in an attempt to save our love, but it didn't go well.Daniel Letts would rather spend his spare time chatting with Lucas Coster than say a single word to me. "I'm not as good as one of his friends in his heart!" I complained to Abby many times, but this bitch-like complaint didn't help matters develop.

"Maybe... you can pay more attention to their chat content." Abby suggested.

"what?"

There was a long silence on the phone, and I felt she was visibly stunned.After about a minute, she spoke slowly: "I mean, maybe you can know what he is interested in recently. When two people have a common topic, restoring the relationship will become as easy as drinking a glass of orange juice."

I promise I didn't check Daniel Letts' phone on purpose.We watched TV together one night—of course, he was engrossed in his phone.Suddenly, he dropped his phone and went to the bathroom, but the screen suddenly lit up.I picked it up curiously and took a look, and then I finally knew who the culprit was.

What is displayed on the screen is the chat history between him and Lucas Coster.

"Luca, did your mother and Julie receive the gift I sent them?"

"Got it, they asked me to thank you."

"That's all right. I'm afraid I'll upset them."

"They all like you very much. You are doing well."

"I really hope they can keep it forever." He suddenly said something inexplicable, "I can't guarantee that they will continue to like me in the future..."

"Don't worry, Danny, go to bed early, it's already eleven o'clock. Good night."

"Luka, you are only one year older than me, why do you live like a 70-year-old man?" Daniel Letts said, "I can't bear that alone."

"You don't live with me, so there's nothing to complain about."

"How do you know you won't live together in the future?" Daniel Letts chased after this, "God only knows what will happen in the future! Maybe tomorrow I will break up with Ashley."

"good night."

At this point, I finally realized it.It turned out that Daniel Letts had long since ceased to love me.So I helped him fulfill his wish that day and called Abby right away and yelled at her at the top of my voice, "I'm single! Fuck Daniel Letts!"

After venting all the unhappiness in my heart by yelling, I feel much better.I went to spend the night at Abby's apartment that day, and poor John was forced to sleep in another spare bedroom.

Since that day, I have never spoken to either of them, not once.I hate them and will never forgive.I swear to God.Therefore, when I heard the news of Lucas Coster's suicide, my heart felt extremely happy for a moment-I know it is unfeeling and cold, but it is an undeniable fact.Of course, at this moment he has entered the embrace of God. Out of the compassion of fellow human beings, I still hope that he will find peace in heaven.