catch the dream

It is often said that "human beings are born as human beings, free and equal", but everyone is destined to be unequal from the moment they are born, and it is impossible to be equal.

This kind of inequality is now concentrated in a meeting on "How to deal with Yu Hao's 'taking' other people's things". Attendees include the counselor, the teaching director, and the secretary of the Youth League Committee of the college.

Around this problem, students started a heated discussion with the purpose of returning their innocence and penetrating the truth.

Of course, the parties were not invited to participate in their discussions.

"Everyone is here, so I'll start now. First of all, let me briefly talk about classmate Yu Hao, a boy, a local. When he was five years old, some changes happened in his family. His parents left him and he was raised by his grandmother. I grew up and had no other relatives."

"During the third year of high school, Yu Hao's grandmother was sick in bed, and passed away in the afternoon after his college entrance examination. He sold the house, held a funeral, paid off a few debts, and simply packed up his belongings before coming to school. If you have registered, your results in the college entrance examination are average, otherwise you will not go to our school."

"During the military training, I observed briefly that this child hardly talked to others. After the military training, his life was really difficult. He found the work-study center of the Ministry of Education and Engineering, and got a part-time tutoring opportunity to tutor a child in the sixth grade. English……"

"...The result? After less than two months, the parents came to the college and said that he took away a watch that was left in the study room while the child was not paying attention during tutoring."

While listening to the counselor's introduction, the dean wiped his glasses with a piece of flannelette. Yu Hao's materials were placed in front of him, and he said intently, "I checked his file. This classmate still has a criminal record?"

"Well, he once took a classmate's wallet in junior high school. This was written in the file, but because he was not an adult, it ended up being nothing."

The teaching director put on his reading glasses, picked up the materials, and almost angrily slapped the table to express his dissatisfaction.

"Last Friday, the parents brought the police over to find out about the situation. Hey-yo! My God! The students in the entire department were pointing and pointing. I was at the door at the time, and I couldn't answer a word when I was asked. Can’t come out! A watch worth 6 yuan, [-] yuan! The sentence will be several years! This matter, the dean said, it must be! It must be investigated thoroughly! It must be dealt with seriously! Don’t take chances!”

The counselor let out a "hmm", and had no hope of turning the big thing into a small one, and there was no way to escape the deduction of bonuses.

The secretary of the Youth League Committee was a little girl who was concentrating on sending WeChat. She raised her head and asked the counselor, "How is his campus life? Does he have any friends? Can you get to know him from the side?"

"Yu Hao lives in dormitory 405. There are seven people in the dormitory, three in physical education classes and four in psychological classes. They generally report that Yu Hao has a bit of hatred for the rich. He rarely communicates with them, saying that he is poor. Military training After it was over, there were a few less serious conflicts between the roommates."

"Doesn't roommates like him?"

"Life is difficult, I can't play together, and it's not isolated, so I rarely talk."

At this time, there was a knock on the door, and a boy entered the conference room. He was 1.8 meters tall from the physical education department. He was wearing sportswear. He had just finished training. He had short red hair and was covered in sweat. The Secretary of the Youth League Committee handed him a bottle of water. The boy took it and took a few sips.

The secretary of the Youth League Committee asked: "Didn't you call Xiao Fu? Why are you?"

The leader of a conference room looked at the boy with red hair in distaste.

"Zhou Sheng, your hair is still not cut well." The dean pointed to the red-haired boy named Zhou Sheng and said, "Dye it back for me!"

"It'll be fine if it grows out." Zhou Sheng said impatiently, "Fu Liqun has a game this afternoon, let me attend the meeting for him." As he spoke, he raised his feet and noticed the fierce gaze of the dean, so he had to put it down again. , asked: "What's the matter?"

The secretary of the Youth League Committee said helplessly: "I originally found the basketball captain of our college. He helped the Youth League Committee and the Student Affairs Department to run errands and do some student work. Yu Hao's work-study form was recommended by him...Zhou Sheng, do you know Yu Hao? ? Tell the teachers?"

Zhou Sheng thought for a while, then shook his head.

"Yu Hao? We don't know him well in the dormitory, right? Fu Liqun recommended him because he watched him pour water from the tap once at the side of the court. Guess his life is difficult, so let him find a part-time job. Ask him What can he do? He said that after graduating from the college entrance examination, he worked as a tutor for elementary school students. It happened that Fu Liqun was running errands for the Ministry of Education and Engineering. By the way, he got a form for him and asked him to fill it in...Is that so? I heard that of."

Secretary of the Youth League Committee: "He, how do you feel?"

Zhou Sheng sized up the secretary of the Youth League Committee suspiciously, and said casually, "I haven't said anything."

There was silence in the meeting room for a while, Zhou Sheng thought about it, and added: "It seems that he looks good, Fu Liqun said that he is good at English, but has serious shortcomings in science."

The secretary indicated that he could leave, and after Zhou Sheng took the bottle of water and left, the dean asked again: "At that time, was this watch found in his bag?"

Counselor: "It was his roommate who first discovered it. Last Thursday, he saw him playing with his watch in the dormitory."

Dean of teaching: "Is it on your wrist in a grand manner?"

The counselor didn't know, so he could only shake his head.

"Is there monitoring?"

"Mr. Shi's home is not monitored."

"I said, when it was taken out of him."

"There is monitoring, in my office, as soon as I asked him, he took it out to me."

The Secretary of the Youth League Committee nodded and said, "At least there is no denial."

The dean said helplessly: "Can this be denied? How to deny it? Did he admit his mistake?"

The counselor replied regretfully: "I don't admit it. He said that someone framed him. But according to the situation reported by the elementary school students, she saw with her own eyes that Yu Hao turned around from the bookcase where the watch was stored."

Secretary of the Youth League Committee: "Could it be that a child played a prank on him? For example, play a joke on him and put the watch in his bag?"

"I can't rule out this possibility. But Yu Hao...how should I put it? He is also more materialistic. He applied for a poor student subsidy, but he used an Apple mobile phone. The next day, he was outside the back door of the school, recycling gold and mobile phone Asked the local area, asked the stall owner to look at the watch, and wanted to sell the watch, but he didn’t sell it in the end, I don’t know if he has any regrets.”

The secretary of the Youth League Committee stopped talking.

The director of teaching said angrily: "Naughty! You are so stubborn! Is there a record for the act of selling watches? Is there monitoring?"

The counselor said helplessly: "The police made a recording for the owner of the stall and sorted it into the materials."

Dean: "Xiao Xue, let me ask you a question. He is your student. Do you think he has been wronged? Just tell the truth. When we leave this conference room, none of us will speak out."

The counselor thought that I would not take the blame, and said cryptically: "Even if he didn't take it, the behavior of wanting to sell it is a little, um, a little... Teacher Li, what do you think?"

The Secretary of the Youth League Committee said: "Most people find that there are many valuables in their bags, and the first thing they want to do is to return them. This kid... oh..."

The dean suddenly thought of something, became nervous, and asked again: "The parents of the other party didn't find the media, did they? Who owns the content now?"

"That's not true." The counselor immediately clarified, "The testimonies and evidence are all with the police, and everyone doesn't want to make things big, but if the college doesn't give an explanation, it's hard to say."

Dean of teaching: "It must be dealt with as soon as possible, cut the mess quickly, and calm down, otherwise the impact will be too bad."

The Youth League Committee Secretary asked: "Mr. Xue, when the parents came to the door, according to your observation, did Yu Hao feel ashamed?"

The counselor hesitated for a while, wondering whether he should say something or not.

After a while, the counselor said: "His expression is very calm, maybe it's because he hasn't come to a conclusion? I promise him, I will definitely investigate and arrange the students in their dormitory to pay attention to his every move."

The Secretary of the Youth League Committee said "Yes" and said, "After returning to the dormitory, my attitude may be different."

The counselor thought for a long time, and finally said that.

"Since Yu Hao went to be a tutor for the first time, he said in dormitory 405 that this family is very rich. Why is he so poor and some people are so rich? He also suspected that their family had illegal sources of income. Last night, lights out After that, he chatted with his roommate on the upper bunk and complained that they had wronged him and wanted to kill the father and daughter. The roommate took a screenshot and posted it to me, nah."

The counselor turned on the phone and let them watch it. The dean took off his glasses, held the phone in one hand, and sighed a few times with emotion.

The counselor replayed the surveillance video downloaded to the mobile phone.The monitoring screen in the office was very blurry, the person concerned didn't come, Yu Hao just stood and listened quietly with his back to the camera, without any aggressive behavior.

The dean suddenly became excited and said, "This is antisocial personality disorder! Look, look? Especially when you hand over your watch, that attitude! It's obvious that a dead pig is not afraid of boiling water, and it doesn't matter!"

Secretary of the Youth League Committee: "If you were wronged, you can talk about it in anger, but it's actually okay..."

The dean interrupted: "It was recorded in the file before that I stole from a classmate, which is a recidivism. Depending on the actual situation, if it doesn't work, just persuade him to quit. After persuading him to quit, hand it over to the police station. Don't irritate him."

The counselor felt that it seemed a bit too simple and rude to deal with it like this, but he was also relieved. In fact, what he always wanted was the director's words.

The school can't teach it, let the society teach it. After entering the society, you will know how tolerant the school is.Otherwise, if another Ma Jiajue appears, trouble will arise.

The counselor also said: "The police will come again tomorrow. I will first write a declaration based on the investigation results of the other party. Try to be as detailed as possible, and attach the transcript from the police station. Let him confirm it before signing."

Originally, the conversation had come to an end, but the secretary of the Youth League Committee couldn't help but ask one last question.

"Why doesn't roommate like him? Really just because he's difficult?"

The counselor thought for a long time and finally said.

"They said that Yu Hao is gay."

The secretary of the Youth League Committee wanted to ask "How did they know?", but in the end she didn't ask.

"The times are different." The dean said, "This kind of exclusion still exists. Boys have their own rules. We can't ask everyone to look at this in good faith. But in this matter, homosexuals and heterosexuals also have Well, any love is fine, I don’t think it matters.”

The counselor hurriedly answered yes, so the three of them broke up the meeting.

The spring and autumn seasons of Ying City have been selected as one of the top ten beauties in Central China, and even appeared on the cover of "National Geographic".Huazhong Institute of Science and Technology Education is located in the north of the city. It has been nearly 20 years since the establishment of this triple-education college.

The stadium and the back mountain are separated by a wall, and the teachers' family members bring their children to fly kites on the stadium.In the autumn afternoon, once the sky is clear and the sun is shining, after waking up from a nap, with the sound of children chasing and fighting in the background, it is really a big killer that makes people forget the time.

With a bulging backpack on his back and a jacket with his hands in his pockets, Yu Hao left the dormitory and walked straight across the playground.

His face was pale, and his lips lacked color from a long-term vegetarian diet.My hair is messy, too long to cut.The wind blows over, revealing his gloomy side face, his eyebrows are like two willow leaves in the wind, drying the thin figure under the jacket, shivering a little in the autumn wind.

Recently, he often had a strange dream. He dreamed that he was standing on a high wall of the Great Wall, looking down, there was boundless darkness under his feet, and someone was pushing him behind.

He passed the back campus along a straight road, which divided the back campus into two, with six basketball courts on the left and football fields on the right.Some time ago, every time after school, he would go to the side of the football field to recite vocabulary and watch a group of big boys train.

A boy who often practices triathlons here is very eye-catching. His red hair is full of arrogant vitality in the bleak winter. Apart from triathlons, he is also the forward of the academy team.But Yu Hao didn't see him today.

After a brief stay, he left the track and field, faced the campus wall, stood for a while, then walked along the wall and walked all the way to the fence leading to the back mountain. After turning around the equipment room, a voice stopped him.

"Hey, is there a fire? Borrow a fire."

When Ming Lang's male voice sounded, Yu Hao couldn't help but shudder.

It was the red-haired boy who Yu Hao saw often, who practiced triathlons!

At this time, he was hiding behind the equipment room, tossing a lighter over and over again. He had short, red-dyed hair, and was wearing a dirty blue tracksuit with trousers rolled up to his knees. It was obvious that he had just finished training.

Talking face to face for the first time, Yu Hao suddenly realized that this guy looked a bit like a gangster at close range.

There are a lot of gangsters in the three colleges. In the college of science and education, most of them don't care about studying.Yu Hao handed him the windproof lighter in his pocket, the red hair was lit, and the back of the equipment room was filled with the smell of low-quality smoke.

The gangster handed him one, Yu Hao waved his hand, indicating not to smoke, and just took the lighter.He looked at this man, he was handsome and handsome, not fair, but his skin was good, he was half a head taller than Yu Hao, but his figure was not tall and straight, he had a sloppy sense of society, and his browbones were marked Faint scars, but it doesn't look very clean, the smell of sweat is very strong, and the clothes haven't been washed for a few days.

He had heard his name before, Zhou Sheng from the Department of Physical Education next door, his gentle name and clear and clear voice, paired with this appearance, always felt very contrasting.Last week, when Yu Hao went to the college to hand in the application form for impoverished students, this guy was in the corridor, being educated by the Secretary of the Communist Youth League so earnestly, telling him to dye his hair back, or to shave it short, so he shaved his head.

"It smells like hot pot." Zhou Sheng sniffled and said, "Have you eaten hot pot?"

Yu Hao ignored him, took the lighter, still kept it in his pocket, walked around the equipment room and left, Zhou Shengyuan took a look, and arrived at the sidelines, smoking a cigarette, rolled his trousers up to his knees, and sat watching them play basketball.

Not long after Yu Hao left, the basketball captain came, waved at Zhou Sheng, and shouted, "Red hair!"

Zhou Sheng pressed the cigarette in the trash can, took off his sports clothes, and showed his muscular and naked half body, and stepped forward to join them.

Yu Hao walked for about 10 minutes, came to the back of the physical education department teaching building and between the wall, found the hole leading to the back mountain, threw his backpack over the wall, and climbed over.I went back along the wall and arrived at the hill directly opposite the stadium. There was an abandoned concrete house there, and there was a fence for cleaning fallen leaves at the door.

He pushed open the iron door, and there were several wooden boxes piled up in the room, an iron bucket for burning garbage was placed in the middle, and a worn-out mattress was spread on the floor.

There are two windows in the room, which are dusty and dusty, and the sun shines through the dusty glass windows into the cement room.

Yu Hao lit a stove in the room.

The flame jumped from the furnace, and he sat aside, watching it for a while.If there is any regret in my short life, it is that I have never been in a relationship—even if it is only a few days.

Never, and in my own state, I no longer expect to have one.

If you don’t get it when you are young, in a few years, if you live on your last breath, you won’t have it when you are old.

He put on the earphones, played Li Ronghao's "Walking and Singing" on his mobile phone, took out the medicine bottle, took a few Valium tablets, drank half a bottle of water, lay down on the mattress, and closed his eyes.

Outside the concrete room, cheers from the basketball court can be heard from far away. I don’t know who made a three-pointer, grabbed a rebound, or dunked handsomely... The voice of a child laughs wildly, and in a gust of wind, the ground is full of ginkgo trees. The leaves were rolled up and flew around.

In the face of death, everything is equal at last. You cannot choose when you are born, but at least you can decide whether to leave this world.

Yu Hao thought to himself, this is also one of the manifestations of freedom and equality.

In the darkness, his consciousness gradually moved away from his body, the music faded, and his surroundings suddenly became clear. A huge city wall winds endlessly, leading to the sky, towering mountains, and the world is pitch black.

Before this day, he had imagined the world after death countless times. Since his grandma passed away, he had searched for many death legends.He does not believe in ghosts, nor does he believe in the so-called heaven and hell.There was a pseudo-scientific explanation of the soul: the human soul exists in a high-dimensional space, and the body is destroyed after death, but the mind still exists.

He reluctantly accepted this explanation. Anyway, there is no hope in life, and it is not unacceptable to have something after death, or nothing.But he never expected that his consciousness was still clear at this moment, and the surrounding environment seemed so real.

The Great Wall stands majestically, and beyond the wall is a dark abyss, in which there are low-pitched roars, as if a monster is roaring.The world is vast and the mountains are undulating. Standing on the top of the 30-meter-high city wall, he has become a small black spot between the sky and the earth.

Yu Hao was at a loss for a moment, he looked down, and saw that there seemed to be some monster climbing up the city wall.

The darkness made him dizzy for a while, and he almost fell into the darkness.

"What's wrong with being alive, why would you seek death?"

Suddenly, a cold metal hand grabbed him from behind, Yu Hao shouted in horror, turned his head, subconsciously stepped back, and a man in full iron armor appeared in front of him.