Being cannon fodder in dog-blood texts [Crossing Books]

Qiu Siyong has been a rough-headed person since she was a child, and she is famous for having no eyesight or facial expressions.But even for a person like him, at this moment, he could see that the atmosphere was not right after he said this sentence.

"Uh." Qiu Siyong rarely had the emotion of 'extremely embarrassed', and asked anxiously in an inexplicable low pressure: "Did I say something wrong?"

"...It's nothing." Ye Wan took a deep breath, unconsciously pressing the knuckles of the other hand back and forth with one hand.

Ye Wan really didn't think that he was ready to tell Xu Chengxi but never had time to say it, so he was caught off guard by Qiu Siyong.But after a short period of trance, Ye Wan felt a little more relaxed - anyway, sooner or later it was going to be said, so it would be better for others to poke it out.

He subconsciously ignored Xu Chengxi's expression, didn't turn his head the whole time, endured the chaos of his brain and dealt with Qiu Siyong tiredly: "It's probably about this."

"Oh, this is indeed a good opportunity. You are still very good. There are not many places in our school and you still have." Qiu Siyong said with emotion, and then asked: "Then will you go or not?"

"Go." Ye Wan forced a smile, pretending to be calm and said: "Such a good opportunity, how could I not go."

"That's right, maybe I can get a graduate student and a doctorate from an Ivy League school in the future." Qiu Siyong is not without envy, but also has a trace of reluctance, and frankly began to warm up the time to separate in advance: "Woooo Oh, I miss you."

Ye Wan: "..."

"Huh? Doctor Xu, don't you want to eat?" Qiu Siyong caught Xu Chengxi next to him expressionlessly closing the lid of the lunch box and throwing it into the trash can, and couldn't help asking: "But you haven't eaten a few bites yet." Well, aren't you hungry?"

Why, Doctor Xu's expression seemed to have become extremely ugly—could it be that the gold-lettered signboard sister Wang's chicken legs were really ruined today, and after eating one or two of them, her expression was the same as eating shi.

"I'm not too hungry." Xu Chengxi ignored his empty stomach, turned his head to look at Ye Wan, and said to Qiu Siyong: "Student, is it convenient for me and Ye Wan to have a few words alone?"

"...Oh." Qiu Siyong felt a little strange, but subconsciously intimidated by the aura emanating from Xu Chengxi's body, he became obedient involuntarily, and left obediently.

Before going out, Qiu Siyong still felt very strange—how could Xu Chengxi, who is so gentle and gentle like a spring breeze, feel so cold just now, a feeling that makes people 'shudder'.

The classroom door closed with a 'click', and with the sound, the atmosphere in the room seemed to suddenly become tense.Ye Wan's face and lips were extremely pale, and he turned his head to look at Xu Chengxi firmly: "What do you want to say?"

Xu Chengxi pursed his lips, and asked straightforwardly: "Are you really planning to go abroad?"

Ye Wan: "Yes."

Xu Chengxi's hands under the table unconsciously folded into fists, and there was a faint glacier of fire in his always pleasant voice: "When did it happen?"

"About □□days ago." Ye Wan asked what to say, very frankly: "The supervisor told me that there is an exchange student place, from an Ivy League school, frankly speaking, it is a very good opportunity."

His 'upright' attitude suddenly made Xu Chengxi a little discouraged for a moment - it seemed that he had been too confident all this time, and the various methods he thought he had exhausted made him inflate into a big balloon.At this moment, Ye Wan's understated words punctured the balloon all at once, leaving a mess and fragments all over the place.

Some time ago, Ye Wan seemed to have only liked him briefly.

"...It's pretty good." Those words that he wanted to say suddenly couldn't say, Xu Chengxi asked himself that he didn't have any qualifications to stop Ye Wan from pursuing a better future, so he forced a smile: "Probably go to how long?"

"I don't know either." Ye Wan's eyelashes trembled, he kept staring into Xu Chengxi's eyes, and just now clearly saw a sense of broken emotions in them.Ye Wan is indifferent by nature and has always been cruel to others, but now he doesn't want to look Xu Chengxi in the eye.

Ye Wan stared at his desktop, and slowly said: "Maybe he will come back after graduating from a bachelor's degree, or he might be a graduate student there...or something else."

The implication is that, maybe, he himself doesn't know what the future will hold, and there is no way to 'report' to Xu Chengxi.

"You...you are so awesome, you can get a place in the Ivy League school." Except for the slightly empty eyes of Xu Chengxi, he has returned to his usual majestic and calm demeanor, pretending to be joking. Meaning him: "When are you leaving?"

"Maybe just for a while." Ye Wan replied softly, tapping the legs of the table with her slender fingers: "Probably just this month."

There are less than thirteen days left before the end of this month.Xu Chengxi's eyes sank, he pursed his lips and said nothing.

In 5 minutes, let him clearly understand what is called a mirror, a mirage.Good times are often short and false.It's just that he felt that his current mood was as if he was in a half-long vacation, and finally finished all the homework left by the teacher day and night, and when he finally saw a glimmer of light... ...the teacher left more homework.

Disappointed, Xu Chengxi laughed at himself, and finally began to accept the fact that the 'teacher' might not like him at all.In fact, Ye Wan did not hide it all the time, and obviously hated him.It's just that occasionally his white ears are slightly red, and the different emotions when he treats himself always make people feel affectionate.

Is there anything more embarrassing in this world than self-love?Xu Chengxi doesn't know, he only knows that he is still unrealistic and always thinks that he can finish this homework, and he wants to try.

So Xu Chengxi was silent for a while, looked at Ye Wan's calm side face and asked decisively: "Before you leave, do you want to have a relationship?"

The pen in Ye Wan's hand fell to the ground with a 'snap' after Xu Chengxi's words.

"You..." Ye Wan didn't know how many times he had this 'unbelievable' emotion towards Xu Chengxi, but this time it was the strongest: "What did you say?"

"I said, do you want to try to fall in love before you leave?" Xu Chengxi smiled, concealed the trace of fatigue in his eyes, and looked at him quietly: "Follow me."

"Are you crazy?" Ye Wan heard clearly this time, and understood what he meant, he couldn't help but frowned: "What exactly do you mean?"

"Does it mean that every word I say, you think there is another purpose." Xu Chengxi smiled bitterly: "I don't mean anything, I just want to fall in love with you."

Unlike the nurturing that was full of lies before, and the coy and ambiguous one now, he just wants to have a serious relationship with him.The kind with no distractions, even if he knows that Ye Wan will leave in ten days or so.Maybe go to the United States, Britain and Canada, but not here, S City.

"...Don't talk nonsense." Ye Wan clearly felt that Xu Chengxi's proposal was riddled with loopholes, but it was always difficult to refuse, so he said after a long while: "I'm not interested in staying overnight, Or a week in a relationship."

"Who said it's been a night or a week?" Xu Chengxi raised his eyebrows, and said in a calm tone, "When you leave, we will have a long-distance relationship."

Ye Wan: "..."

"No matter how many years, you will return to China sooner or later, unless you don't plan to return to China..." Xu Chengxi paused: "Then we will talk about it at that time."

In fact, what he was most afraid of was that Ye Wan would never come back. The city of S is so big, it is not easy for them to encounter it, there are many roads, and one turn may miss it, not to mention the vast world.

"Sorry, I can't." In the suffocating atmosphere, it took a long time for Ye Wan to speak, he let out a heavy breath, his voice was filled with a trace of cold and chaotic.He looked very tired, but he was also very determined: "I don't like this feeling of disconnection."

He doesn't like this kind of so-called 'love' like walking on the edge of a cliff trembling and uneasy, and to be honest, he doesn't like this timing either, everything makes Ye Wan feel wrong.It's as if Xu Chengxi mentioned it casually when he was interested.Even if he... likes Xu Chengxi a little bit, but with an imperfect relationship, he would rather have an OCD attack.

"Really?" Xu Chengxi muttered to himself, quite disappointed.

In fact, Ye Wan's refusal was expected - he is a calm and rational person, how could he accept such a crazy suggestion.Just now, he was just trying to make a final fight with the feeling of dying, whether Ye Wan really liked him or not.

Sure enough, he dropped the proposal.

Xu Chengxi took a deep breath, and his voice was a little imperceptible: "When will you go, when the time comes... I will see you off."

In fact, he still has something to say——

How do you live abroad, the food there is so unpalatable, and you are picky eaters.I don't know how to cook yet, and my cooking skills are so poor that I can peel an apple into a skull.

and also......

[How many years have you been?For many years. 】

When you come back, I'll be a little older again.

In fact, it's not that he doesn't mind his age, but Xu Chengxi is often more confident in other aspects of himself.And now he is finally convinced that no matter what he looks like, he won't be able to impress Ye Wan anymore.

When leaving school, Xu Chengxi made a phone call——

"Just agree when he told you that the lawsuit will not be fought, and withdraw the lawsuit... There is no need to pester you for any reason."

My stomach hurts when I haven't eaten, and my phone is crackling with endless news every day.In the past, he would glance through to see if there was a message from Ye Wan, but after today, this habit is no longer necessary.

......

Ye Wan's minor illness, which was just a cold, didn't know if it was because of early autumn, but it gradually became lingering. The runny nose, sneezing and coughing trilogy, a never-ending good life, tormented him for a while, until the end of the month when he was about to leave. It's time to turn around.

But the voice still sounded hoarse and nasal.He had already sent Song Yangshu a backup key at home to help him take care of it. The day he left was an early flight.Ye Wan originally planned to carry the suitcase to the airport alone, but did not inform any of her classmates or friends... except Xu Chengxi.

After all, it was agreed that day that he would deliver it.

Although they haven't met or contacted since that classroom.It's just that Xu Chengxi kept the promise very much, when Ye Wan went downstairs with the suitcase, he found that Xu Chengxi had already started the car and drove downstairs.

It was just dawn at six o'clock in the morning, and there was still a hint of dew in the morning. He leaned on the car door to smoke, and the fire flickered on and off.I haven't seen him for half a month. I don't know if it's an illusion—he thinks Xu Chengxi has lost some weight.

Ye Wan stood on the spot and blinked his eyes, then saw Xu Chengxi looking over here, stubbed out the cigarette butt, went forward and picked up his suitcase and put it in the trunk: "Which airport."

"It's from South Station."

"Be careful when you are alone abroad." On the way, Xu Chengxi couldn't help telling him while driving: "It's chaotic outside."

His tone was a bit like telling a child who left home, Ye Wan couldn't help but smiled, and answered briefly: "Yes."

"You have a bad temper, don't do it lightly when you are abroad." Xu Chengxi turned his head and glanced at him, not sure if he was complaining, but his expression was serious anyway: "Especially in the United States, it is legal for crazy people to own guns, and shootings happen every year." a lot of."

"...Are you trying to scare me on purpose?"

"No, just worry." Xu Chengxi said, opened the small hidden compartment in the car, took out something and threw it to Ye Wan, and quickly said: "Put it on your body, maybe it will ward off evil spirits."

Ye Wan took it and saw it was a small and delicate Christmas festival. He moved his head slightly and couldn't help asking: "You went to ask for it?"

"Yes." Xu Chengxi smiled, and said in a lazy voice, "I knelt in front of the temple for three days and three nights, and donated a few piles of money."

Ye Wan: "...Really or not."

In fact, this kind of talk sounds like a lie, but Ye Wan now knows that Xu Chengxi is a person who can do anything, so he couldn't help asking one more question after hearing it.

As a result, Xu Chengxi glanced at him sideways, with a more inexplicable expression on his face: "Of course it's fake."

Xu Chengxi: "I did it to ease the atmosphere."

Ye Wan said decisively: "You better shut up."

After he finished speaking, he closed his eyes and sank into the soft seat, as if to catch up on sleep.Xu Chengxi took the opportunity to take a deep look at him, did not speak, and concentrated on driving.It's just that no matter how far the road to the airport is, it will arrive sooner or later.

After getting off the car, Xu Chengxi insisted on helping Ye Wan carry the luggage, but got stuck at the security checkpoint—the staff wouldn't let idlers wait in, and it was useless to show a handsome face.

"Okay." Ye Wan snatched the suitcase from Xu Chengxi's hand, lowered his head and stared at his toes: "You go."

Xu Chengxi took one last look at Ye Wan's exquisite white half face under the well-behaved black hair, and nodded: "Okay."

Then he turned and left, without any regrets.

He must be out of breath, Ye Wan thought silently.Before going through the security check, he couldn't help but look back - fortunately, there were few people at the airport in the early morning and there was no queue.He could see Xu Chengxi's thin and slender back without hindrance, his steps were steady, and he didn't look back.

Ye Wan's fingers holding the handle of the suitcase curled up unconsciously, turned around and walked in vigorously.

......

In fact, last night, Xu Chengxi, who seldom went back to Xu's house, took the initiative to go back for an overnight stay, and asked Lian Yunxi a question——

"Mom, let me ask you a question related to education. If the teacher leaves a lot of homework and needs someone else to light a lamp to boil oil to finish it, will you let the child insist on doing it?"

"...Since it's homework, you have to do it." Lian Yunxi didn't understand this inexplicable question at all, but she answered in accordance with her heart: "It's nothing more than getting more tired and playing less. I have to do my homework."

"Why do you ask such an inexplicable question?"

After listening to Lian Yunxi's words, Xu Chengxi pondered quietly for a while, and suddenly felt that it was very reasonable—what he wanted, he had to suffer and suffer a little bit to get it. What are you afraid of, even if Ye Wan is very likely? It is a homework that he can never finish writing in his life.

Xu Chengxi suddenly felt that the stagnation lingering in his heart these days gradually dissipated, and he suddenly became enlightened.

When he walked out of the airport after sending Ye Wan off, he looked up at the sky.

The author has something to say: What is going on with this film that is about to end... It’s really not that fast, cough cough

I was just short-lived, abused a bit

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