Rebirth of an old friend into a dream

Since ancient times, most of the literati have been arrogant and arrogant, and it is difficult to convince them only with money and power.As a vulnerable group, they often hide their inner inferiority complex and defensive psychology with aloofness.

Looking back at half his life, Shi Yinian had to admit that his biggest flaw was his arrogance and conceit.He is just like the real Su Shi and Su Dongpo in history, sometimes reckless and impulsive, sometimes arrogant, sometimes afraid of helplessness, and sometimes withdrawn to protect himself.

After working, I met a psychologist. The psychologist told him: "Personality alienation is a concept in social psychology, that is, self-righteousness in English, which can be translated as 'self-righteousness' and 'self-righteousness' in Chinese. The 'self-righteousness' here 'is a sense of self-moral superiority, a belief that one's beliefs, actions, and affiliations are superior to those of the majority of society. People who have this feeling often cannot tolerate other views and behaviors. Symptoms are usually: Disengagement Objective facts, only rely on subjective assumptions as a rule, to think, to say, to do, to deal with ever-changing and complicated social things."

Shi Yinian deeply repented and introspected for a long time, because he found more and more that his self-willedness not only harmed himself, but also hurt others.

For example, Qin Xuan was born in a superior family, and naturally there are rich and powerful children in his circle of friends who act recklessly and unscrupulously. As soon as a rich girl like Yulia jumped out and raised her chin in front of him to demonstrate, he immediately fell in love with her. I was defeated by my own inferiority complex and went back to the bottom of the well.

Shi Yinian thought that he had read sage books since he was a child, and became a top student who was admired and praised by the elders and teachers in every family. His mentality has always been very contradictory.Just like what Su Dongpo said: even high scholars like Boyi and Shuqi would rather starve to death than eat Zhou millet, but they sang praises of Yushun and Xuanyuan, and they did not break away from common affairs. He has been in official career.Since ancient times, the high scholars have not been able to forget the world, let alone Su Dongpo?What's more, when he thinks about it?

Therefore, when Shi Yinian was in front of Qin Xuan in his previous life, he would always have an ambivalence of being arrogant, humble and depressed.In his previous life, Qin Xuan showed his affection to him frequently and devoted himself wholeheartedly to him, but he was hit hard when he found out that Ruan Shaoli was engaged to the professor's daughter, and impulsively proposed to Qin Xuan, willing to associate with Qin Xuan.Before Qin Xuan had time to implement any lover's rights, Shi Yinian unilaterally announced the breakup within a few months.

Although it was only through the "resurrection dream" that Qin Xuan didn't go to see him for several months after Shi Yinian agreed to date Qin Xuan, and the reason why he didn't even answer the video call was that Qin Xuan had been receiving medical treatment in the United States after drowning. For treatment, Qin Xuan couldn't even speak well at that time, and he could only walk with an electric wheelchair.There was no way to see him at all, and I didn't want him to see my weak appearance, and I didn't want him to worry, so I didn't tell him that something happened and I was receiving treatment.

Shi Yinian was extremely insecure because his parents divorced since he was a child, lacking fatherly love.Long-distance love is really a torment for him.He couldn't fill the gap in his heart with the not-so-deep memory of being pursued by Qin Xuan for more than a year in high school.He was always afraid that he would be abandoned, cheated, and end up alone like his mother.

Thinking about it carefully, Qin Xuan did nothing wrong from the beginning to the end.Qin Xuan's fault was all his unilateral imagination.It was his own blunder.

Lao Tzu said: "He who knows others is wise, and he who knows himself is wise." History is not only a mirror, but also a perspective mirror.

Shi Yinian used his previous life to take a look at his face and see through his body, if he found this kind of old residual dust on his face, he had to wipe it off seriously, otherwise it would be too late to heal the carbuncle.

He remembered a TV series adapted from an online game a few years later. In it, there was a couple who fell in love for three lives and three lives. They fell in love with each other and loved each other deeply, but none of their lives had a perfect ending.He hadn't watched this TV series much, but he remembered the episode in this TV series. The song sang their love for three generations and never left them:

"Time travels continuously, flowing in the past, profound changes, not far away.

Another 1 years, affection will not change, love will spread like fire.

Memory is a long line, hovering in the sky.In the ups and downs, I thought that the love is deep and the relationship is shallow. When you appear again, I see the oath.

Looking back, I never went far.

Yiyi's eyes never change in this life.If you are not used to spreading out, it is too difficult to calculate.May this love be passed down from generation to generation. "

At this moment, Shi Yinian was very glad that he didn't drink Mengpo soup when he crossed the Naihe bridge.He was able to live again with the memories of his previous life, and re-encounter the love he owed all his life.

He loved, hated, repented, and died.Now, what else could defeat him?What is more terrible than death?