underground river

At one o'clock in the morning at night, Chen Sen wrapped his coat and went to the supermarket opposite the city hospital to buy cigarettes.This is a 24-hour convenience store, and the cashier girl's eyelids are almost glued together, and she gave him a dollar less in change.

In the middle of winter, the old north wind stings people's faces, and their facial features seem to be frozen together.

Chen Sen wrapped his clothes tightly and walked against the wind all the way back to the downstairs of the inpatient department.

The greening of the city hospital is very good, but there are not many big trees that can block the wind.Chen Sen did not light the fire for a long time, the coldness in the winter night also froze the little anger in his heart, he put the lighter in his pocket in frustration, and only put the cigarette in the mouth to dry it. addiction.

He has already written the application for suspension of school, but it is still pressed in the computer and has not been sent.

He was worried and didn't know how to persuade his mother to agree.

Li Ziwen called him at night, but he was talking to the doctor and didn't answer.

Chen Sen replied a text message to him, stomped his feet in the cold wind, and ran all the way back to the ward.

This is a medium ward with three patients in total.One looked old and was about to die, and the other lay on the bed from morning to night. He hadn't even seen the other person's face clearly. He only knew that she was a woman, and she had no family members to visit.

Chen Sen pressed the door open and went in. It was dark in the ward. He set up a camp bed opposite his mother's bed.

"Komori, are you back?"

Chen Sen paused his hands shaking the quilt, turned around and walked to the hospital bed.

"Well, I went out to buy some things. Why aren't you asleep yet?" Chen Sen asked, and wrapped the quilt up for her.

In the darkness, I could only hear Li Nianqin sighing helplessly, touching his bony hand to hold his, it was icy cold without a trace of heat.

"Why are your hands so cold?" Chen Sen covered her hands with both hands, rubbed them, lowered his head and let out a breath of hot air, and rubbed them again.After doing this more than a dozen times, those cold iron-like hands finally warmed up a bit.

"Can't sleep? How about I coax you to sleep?" Chen Sen asked with a smile.

Li Nianqin also laughed: "How old am I? I'm not a little girl, and I still want you to coax me to sleep?" After speaking, I stared blankly at the void, "Except for when you were just born, I I haven't coaxed you to sleep for many years, you have been sensible since you were a child, and you can sleep by yourself at the age of three..."

Li Nianqin was reminiscing about the past, Chen Sen listened intently, without interrupting her.

His mother's voice was soft and gentle, and she couldn't help chuckling when talking about his childhood embarrassment.

Seeing that she was in a good mood, Chen Sen slowly relaxed the nerves that had been strained for many days.

"Did Mom treat you badly?" Li Nianqin suddenly said such a sentence while talking.

Suspecting that he had misheard, Chen Sen froze for a moment.

He looked up at her in surprise. Although it was dark in the ward, there was still moonlight coming in from the window, which was enough for him to see the crying expression on his mother's face.

He suppressed his uneasiness, tightened her hand, and deliberately smiled: "Comrade Li Nianqin, don't think about it, if you treat me badly, who will treat me well? We are revolutionary comrades who depend on each other for life!"

A tear rolled down the edge of the eye socket.

Chen Sen raised his hand to wipe the tears from the corners of her eyes, and his inconspicuous smile faltered: "Is it because the medicine is too bitter, and you feel uncomfortable after taking it?"

Li Nianqin looked at him and didn't say yes or no, but she wiped away more and more tears, as if she couldn't keep it anymore.

"mom……"

"How is Sinan treating you?" Li Nianqin asked suddenly.

Chen Sen's raised right hand instantly froze in mid-air.

Li Nianqin was sensitively aware of the nervous twitch of the hand holding her, and her heart suddenly became empty, without a bottom.

"Son, after all these years, why haven't you brought a daughter-in-law back for Mom to have a look?"

"Is it because you are still thinking about that girl from the Zhou family? Or..." She barely suppressed her crying, her face was extremely ugly. "Or, what you plan to bring back is a man?"

The guillotine hanging above his head finally decided to fall at this time, and with just one blow, he was decapitated, and even his three souls and seven souls were completely beheaded.

Chen Sen withdrew his hand stiffly, stood up with a pale face, hesitated for two seconds, then took a wrong step to the left and knelt down.

"sorry."

Li Nianqin closed his eyes in pain.

To hear "I'm sorry" is worse than cutting her into pieces.

Chen Sen was trembling in his heart.His body was hot and cold, and the angina pectoris accompanied by a kind of panic that penetrated into the bone marrow made him almost unable to lift his head.

"Mom, Simon and I...can we talk about the two of us after you recover from your illness? Now...the doctor says you can't be angry with your illness. If you recover from your illness, I can do whatever you want. Now..." he said If he couldn't go on, the uneasiness in his heart would overwhelm him.

Time always seemed to slow down when it was grinding people's hearts. Chen Sen was suppressed by his mother's silence, and wished he could hit him head-on to death, which was easier than it is now.

"Get up." Li Nianqin pursed her lips tightly after saying this, the pain in her heart gnawed away at her so much that she could hardly breathe.

"I'm not dead yet, you knelt too early!"

In one sentence, he crucified his whole body to the ground.

If it was said that Chen Sen was caught off guard by being forced to come out of the closet suddenly, and it was terrible, then his mother's attitude made him feel that he was almost unable to go on.

After that night, Li Nianqin began to refuse to talk to him, and the follow-up treatment was far less effective than the previous treatment.For this reason, the doctor warned him several times that under the current situation, it would be better not to cure the disease.

He also tried to communicate with his mother, but in the eyes of his mother, she thought he was sick, because she was determined not to admit that her son was abnormal, he was crazy, and he was gay.

Chen Sen had no choice but to find an excuse to keep Sinan from coming to the hospital temporarily.He was very firm in his heart, they were all right in this matter, and no one needed to admit their mistakes, but the current situation was so difficult that he had to make some concessions.

Chen Sen tried desperately to come up with a way to get the best of both worlds, and ulcers grew in his mouth in a hurry, and it hurt even to drink water.In the end, a little girl at the nurse's station couldn't stand it anymore and gave him some medicine.

The start of school is imminent, Chen Sen called the hospital to ask for leave, but he has not decided whether to suspend school or take his mother north for medical treatment.

Just at this moment, another thing happened.

The Chinese love to say that bad things always follow.

And the Western world also has Murphy's law, if you worry about something happening, then it is more likely to happen.

It happened when he most hoped that nothing would happen again, and something happened.

Chen Sen was very surprised when he received a call from Si Nan's mother, but he seemed to be mentally prepared for it.

The two made an appointment to meet at a cafe near the hospital.

Chen Sen had met Si Nan's mother.

It was a very beautiful woman with exceptionally elegant manners.

Now sitting face to face, this feeling is even stronger.

Chen Sen thought about it for a long time, but he didn't think of an opening statement.

It was Si Zhen who spoke first and asked, "How is your mother?"

Chen Sendao: "I'm still undergoing follow-up treatment, and my condition has been coming and going, but fortunately, the cancer cells have no signs of metastasis for the time being."

During the conversation between the two, Si Zhen seemed to be subconsciously stroking the Caulis vine bracelet on his right wrist.

Chen Sen also noticed it, and felt that the existence of this wooden bracelet was very abrupt.After all, compared to what women are wearing today, it really looks a bit too cheap.

Si Zhen seems to be hesitating, which is rare for her.

Normally, once she made up her mind, she would never waver again, but for some reason, when she looked at the handsome young man in front of her, she felt a little unbearable.

But that feeling quickly dissipated.

Si Zhen said, "I came to you today because of your relationship with Si Nan." After a pause, "To be precise, it's about your relationship."

Chen Sen seemed to be prepared for her directness. After a brief shock in his heart, he calmed down and apologized to the woman: "I'm sorry."

Si Zhen shook her head: "No, you don't need to apologize to me, and neither does Sinan. I haven't taken care of him much, so naturally I'm not qualified to bear your apology."

Although Chen Sen had heard a little about Si Nan's family affairs, he was still taken aback by her bland answer, and was a little uncertain of her purpose for coming today.

Si Zhen said again: "Do you think your relationship is serious? Can the two of you live a good life?"

Chen Sen's heart was beating fast, and some unrealistic expectations were burning in his heart.

He said calmly: "We are serious, very serious. If there is no accident, we will naturally live a good life."

What else could this "accident" mean?

Si Zhen looked at him with a faint smile on the corner of his mouth.

This young man was very smart, begging her for forgiveness inside and outside the words, but also showing that he was neither humble nor overbearing.

Si Zhen took a sip of black coffee, the tip of her tongue was numb from the bitter taste, she said, "Do you know Si Nan?"

Chen Sen didn't know why she suddenly changed the topic here, and after thinking about it, he said, "The understanding you mean..."

"Of course it's his past, his growth experience, and his psychology."

Si Zhen didn't seem to be expecting his answer, so she only paused for a moment and then said to herself: "Although I am not a qualified mother to Si Nan, I think I should know him quite well."

"Understanding him, what do you think in your heart? What do you care about?"

The more Chen Sen listened, the more confused he became.

Si Zhen stopped making detours and said directly, "I'm sorry, I'm afraid I've taken the 'accident' you mentioned earlier."

Chen Sen was taken aback.

Si Zhen said: "I think, given the degree of intimacy between you two, Si Nan should have mentioned to you that he was brought back by me suddenly, right?"

Chen Sen's complexion was uncertain.

Sinan did tell him about this matter, but he didn't go into details. He could tell that Sinan was very sensitive and conflicted about this matter.

Si Zhen said: "There is no other reason, but because my wife Chang Jian wanted a child very much, but he was not fertile, so I took him back. Oh, just like the reason why Si Nan's uncle It is also for this reason that he has been taken in for so many years."

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The author has something to say: Hmm...a strong ending smell...

Don't worry, it's not be.Although I really want to write a be, but I am afraid that you will hit me...