underground river

Finally, all the dinner was busy, and Sinan made three dishes in total: braised pork, steamed sea bass, and dried shrimp, without half a vegetable leaf.

"do not move!"

The chopsticks that Sinan stretched out stopped in mid-air——

"what happened?"

"Take it back, you are blocking my camera." Chen Sen said while changing positions and taking several photos in succession.

Seeing him fiddling with his phone, Sinan peeled a shrimp for him, intending to put it directly into his bowl, but he stopped halfway through his hand for some unknown reason.

Sinan swears, it's really a hand problem.

Chen Sen raised his eyebrows, lifted his upper body knowingly, and when he opened his mouth, the tip of his tongue accidentally touched Si Nan's hand.

Si Nan resisted the urge to shake his hands, and continued to peel the shrimp without changing his expression.He enjoys peeling the shrimp, and Chen Sen enjoys the leisure time, but it's annoying to have to get up all the time.

Si Nan peeled off another one, and handed it to him.

"Are you still addicted to playing?" Chen Sen laughed, but still ate.

Not half a minute after the phone was put down, it suddenly vibrated violently like an epileptic seizure. Chen Sen raised his index finger and gestured to his mouth, connected the phone, and turned on the speaker by the way——

"Sinan!! Do you fucking have humanity?! I'll ask you, do you still have humanity?!"

"Did that bastard old Chen teach you to do this?! Didn't you?!"

"Just tell me, can this brother still do it?"

"My young heart will never forgive you!!! Never!!!"

Chen Sen cleared his throat——

"Hey, Yanzi, it's me."

"…………"

"Beep beep-"

The phone hangs up.

Si Nan was surprised: "So angry? You can't do that?"

Chen Sen put down his phone with a smile: "Didn't you notice that he's trying to lose weight recently? He wants to chase Lin Shu."

"Oh……"

As soon as the voice fell, the phone vibrated again, Chen Sen swiped open the screen, and Guan Yan sent a text message——

- I'm dying!You guys are still fucking dating? ? ? ? ?

-How about it?Envious?

—I envy you a dick!idiot!

—The idiot texted me back.

Guan Yan died down.

Simon was a little uncertain.

"Do you think Guan Yan noticed it?"

Chen Sen looked up at him, then shook his head: "It should not be there yet."

Thinking of Miao Ran's words, Sinan felt a little heavy in his heart. Many topics that they had avoided talking about suddenly emerged, like a fishbone stuck in their throats that couldn't be ignored.

"Chen Sen, if," Sinan said worriedly, "if you don't want to—"

"No." Chen Sen interrupted him without thinking.

Si Nan swallowed the second half of his sentence.

The atmosphere suddenly became quiet.

Chen Sen buried his head in the rice, and then stopped suddenly. After swallowing the rice, he wiped his mouth, organized his words and said, "You know, Yanzi, it's not a day or two for me to bother him. It’s him who is talking about bullshit over culture. But,” he paused, his voice soothing, “but if he knows that I like men, his first reaction will definitely be to side with me, and of course he will most likely be Beat me up, the kind that doesn't allow me to fight back, after the beating, I guess it's time to consider the issue of devotion to me."

Si Nan knew that Chen Sen was making him laugh and wanted to reassure him, but he couldn't laugh.

He is worried.

For him, the issue of "coming out" itself does not have much burden and pressure. After all, he was abandoned by his mother when he was a child, and was abused by his delirious grandmother all the way up. To bring him back, all the time, the family affection he received was always calculated and malicious, so he didn't feel that he was obliged to listen to the control or reprimand of any "relatives" in terms of feelings, and he didn't care.

And the unfriendly social environment is not something he can change alone, so in the end, what he cares most about is actually Chen Sen's attitude.

Chen Sen is different.

Guan Yan and him grew up with a lifelong friendship, and he also has a mother who is so kind to him, loves him so much and takes care of him. Thinking of Li Nianqin, Sinan always feels flustered, the kind of panic about the future that cannot be controlled .

It is impossible for Chen Sen to hurt her.

For the first time, Sinan realized that he and Chen Sen could sit at the same table to eat, they could hug and kiss, and it was all because they were hiding. Subconsciously avoid some problems.

Could Chen Sen's relaxation be because he was worried that he would show it on purpose?How will he choose the day when he can't hide it?

They are all just students now, without any financial income. Sinan remembered a sentence in a political textbook: The economic base determines the superstructure.The ivory tower of love that he and Chen Sen built is like a bubble, unable to withstand any wind and rain.

He thought back to the days in Lin County, when he faced the hardships and dangers of life, he was exhausted every day.And since he accepted Chang Jian and his current family on his own accord, his life seems to be getting better and better, but in fact, as long as he is abandoned again, he will return to the past again. living conditions are even worse.What qualifications does he have to protect Chen Sen and their relationship?

The more Si Nan thought about it, the more frightened he became. What was he doing for the past half a year?Could it be that like Si Yuangui said, he is also like Si Zhen, deep in his heart thinking that he flies up a branch and turns into a phoenix?

In just a few minutes, Sinan's psychology underwent an earth-shaking change, but he couldn't show anything.

The young boy who still had childishness seemed to be suddenly pulled into a not-so-qualified adult. He was panicked and worried, but he could only suppress his fluctuating mind and try to sort out some thoughts.

Don't panic, don't be afraid, it's not too late to start preparing——

"Why are you in a daze?"

"Ah?" Sinan raised his head in panic, and unconsciously lowered his gaze under Chen Sen's scrutinizing gaze, "No, I just lost my mind."

The eyes of the two people who had eaten this meal were all stared. On the sofa, Chen Sen put his right leg on Si Nan's left leg and moved: "Go."

"I cooked the rice."

"I still eat the rice!" After subconsciously saying this, Chen Sen felt that he couldn't take it any longer. He touched Sinan's thighs, got up and cleared the dining table to wash the dishes.

Sinan rubbed his phone for a while, then sent a text message to Ding Hao——

- Well?

Ding Hao did not reply to the news for a long time.

Si Nan was about to call him when Ding Hao called him first.

"Brother Nan?"

Ding Hao's voice was surprisingly high, and he gasped twice after shouting.

"Are you running?" Si Nan smiled.

"Hey, I just finished unloading a truckload of goods, and it's so heavy that I'm going to die."

Ding Hao seemed to have changed places, and the noise on the phone was a little quieter.

"You're not in Lin County anymore?"

"Come out early!" Ding Hao bit his cigarette, and his voice was hesitant, "I went out as soon as the new year is over, and now I'm shopping for people here in Haicheng."

Ding Hao seemed to know what else he wanted to ask, so he explained everything in one breath.

"The two scourges of our family finally got divorced years ago. Of course, my dad basically got rid of his skin. It's not for other reasons. The third son he raised was pregnant. It was found out that it was a son. My dad He knew that he would not be able to rely on me in the future, so he desperately wanted to divorce my mother. My mother also knew that this family would not be able to survive, so she was not polite. Forget it, I was afraid that I would fight over the family property with me in the future, so I fought for it in advance." Ding Hao laughed loudly, "In the battle with our old lady, who ever said anything about her? The judges in the court were baffled by her yelling. , anyway, I am completely convinced."

Sinan also saw Ding Hao's mother Ding's heroic appearance during the Great War of the Century, so he pursed his lips in empathy.

"Then why did you go to Haicheng to work?"

Speaking of this, Ding Hao suddenly fell silent. After a while, he rubbed his teeth and said, "Do you still remember the girlfriend I talked about before? Shanshan, I really like her and want to marry her, but Their family looked down on me and thought I was uneducated, Shanshan is a junior college student, and I only have a junior high school diploma, in the eyes of my future mother-in-law, it’s not until ten o’clock until nine o’clock six, almost something (four)!”

Ding Hao sighed again immediately: "The mother-in-law's natal house has not yet finished the quarrel, and my mother's side is on fire again. I feel that Shanshan is older than me, and I am at a disadvantage. The two families are fanning the wind around our ears all day long. Light up the will-o'-the-wisps, and I won't lie to you, we almost broke up during Chinese New Year."

"Then now..."

"Hey, isn't Shanshan studying in college here in Haicheng? I thought about going with her and forgetting about it. I'll work hard to get some grades first. This culture can't catch up even if you beat the horse's ass to pieces. It can only be a whole body." The smell of copper has gone back to propose marriage."

Ding Hao held back his voice and said viciously: "I'll smash them to death with money!"

For a moment, Sinan held the phone and didn't know what he was doing?

Ding Hao seemed to stand on two different paths with him suddenly. He could understand all the things he said, but felt that there was no sense of reality.

At the same age, he is still studying as a student, but the other party has already started saving money for his wife?

This sudden feeling of loss that was different from others was like a sledgehammer hitting him on the head, and the emotions that had been suppressed before surged up again.The predicament that Ding Hao is facing, he will face one day, and it will only be more difficult.

What can he do?

"Brother Nan?"

Si Nan came back to his senses: "Huh?"

Ding Hao smiled: "I have said so much about me, how about you? How is your reading?"

Sinan began to feel that it was a complete mistake for him to make this phone call today. It seemed that there was an unknown fire burning in his heart, making him irritable and angry for no reason.

That's right, if I can't enter the society early and work hard like Ding Hao, then at least I have to be a qualified and decent student, right?Si Nan recalled the results of his latest monthly exam, and his grade rank was close to [-]...

"that's it."

Si Nan briefly mentioned it, and suddenly wanted to smoke.

Ding Hao asked again: "How are the girls in key high schools? Are they upright?" His tone was full of teasing.

Si Nan was silent for a few seconds, then suddenly puffed out his chest——

"Haozi, I have a date."

Almost at the same time, Chen Sen finally cleaned up the kitchen, and just as he walked out, he heard Sinan's declaration of coming out——

"It's a man."