trick you

The day before she left with Ren Xun ahead of schedule, Jiang Jiyi called after she got home, saying that she had something to say, see you tomorrow, when Ren Er agreed, he nagged him a few words to tell him not to drive.

When she got up in the morning, Ren Xun was already standing in the kitchen steaming buns.When I saw her, I went to the refrigerator to get a few more and put them in the pot.

"Have you booked your ticket?"

"Ah."

"Let me keep an eye on it, you go fix things."

"Oh."

After lunch, Feng's father said that he would take Ren Xun to the station, and Feng Ren'er said that he was going out, so he just picked him up on the way.

Ren Xun carried the suitcase and followed Feng Rener downstairs. Just as he was thinking why she didn't call for a car, he saw the car he was riding in yesterday parked downstairs.

Gee.

Ren Xun secretly sighed, called Jiang Ge and put the luggage in the open trunk.

The car stopped in front of the station, and Feng Rener said, "I won't accompany you in. I can't lose it."

"I can't lose it."

"Hmm..." Feng Ren Er hesitated, "Ren Xun, it's fine, don't worry."

"Well, I know." Ren Xun nodded, "I'm leaving. Brother Jiang, thank you."

"Bon voyage." Jiang Jiyi tapped his fingers on the steering wheel.

Ren Xun received another call from his father in the car.

"Well, it's time to get in the car...It's about three o'clock...Okay."

Ren Xun looked at the pitifully short call record displayed, rubbed his earlobe and sighed.

The disinfectant in the hospital smelled very strong, so Ren Xun dragged his luggage to the elevator and found the room.

"mom."

"Xun Xun, you're here."

Mother Ren leaned on the bed, her face was a little pale, but it was okay.Although Ren's mother looks a little haggard in the video, she can't say anything reluctantly, but she still doesn't feel at ease when she meets a real person.

"Are you hungry? Would you like something to eat?"

"I'm not hungry. It hasn't been long since I ate. Where's my dad?"

"I went to the doctor. I should be back soon." Ren's mother patted the edge of the bed to signal Ren Xun to sit down, "Xun Xun, you should go home first and put your luggage there."

"No hurry, I will accompany you."

Mother Ren smiled: "Okay."

Grown-up boys are always not clingy, and Ren Xun is not a talkative person. When Ren's mother asks, Ren Xun answers.The two haven't met for half a month, but Ren Xun feels that this time has passed very long.When sitting on the bus, Ren Xun felt quite nervous, but after seeing Ren's mother, the tension subsided a little, and what he was thinking about saying in the car seemed to disappear.

Ren Xun's face looked a little fierce when he was expressionless, but now he was sitting on the edge of the bed, pursing his lips lightly, looking cute.

Ren's mother was seriously ill, and she was a little tired after talking for a while, so she asked Ren Xun to shake the bed down.

When Father Ren came in, he saw his son bent over, supporting the end of the bed with one hand, and shaking the handle with the other.Seeing him come in, Ren Xun called out to Dad.

"Here we come. Just go to the cafeteria for a meal."

The food in the hospital cafeteria obviously didn't taste much better, but Mother Ren seemed to be enjoying herself.

After eating, Ren Xun took the lunch box to wash, and when he came back, he saw Father Ren's expression through the glass.

Ren Xun followed his grandmother when he was a child, halfway through elementary school, and his mother came back, but for him, father is a word that he can only feel when he lives in the provincial capital every year during the holidays.

Ren's father has a machismo that is rare among southerners, and Ren Xun doesn't like it very much.Ren Xun didn't quite understand that a typical southern woman like Ren's mother would actually like this type.

It is difficult for Ren Xun to feel the relationship between his parents because of the lack of gatherings and separation of family members, but the interaction between the two at this moment makes Ren Xun feel that his parents are in love for the first time.There is no special movement, but the expressions of the two are gentle, the eyes are gentle, everything is very gentle.Ren Xun didn't know whether it was accurate to use the word love, but he had felt this feeling in his aunt and uncle.

Seeing Ren Xun coming in, Ren's father took out a bunch of keys from his pocket, removed one of them and handed it to Ren Xun, who told him to go back early to rest.

"Today I will watch the night."

"You go back today and tidy up your room. The bed is not made in time. You can get things from the cabinet yourself. Just come over tomorrow."

"……Oh."

Ren Xun lay on the bed, thinking of the scene when Ren's mother had just checked out.

Obviously it was just a stomachache, and I thought it would be fine to hang the bottle for a few days, so why did it suddenly turn into cancer?

Sitting in the doctor's office, he watched the mouth of the person in front of him open and close. After hearing the word "rectal cancer", he felt his ears buzzing.

The doctor also seemed to see the young man's carelessness, so he paused and asked him to call home again.

It seems that the situation is not particularly bad, it seems that it is in the early part of the middle term, it seems that there should be no problem after surgery... Ren Xun was very confused at that time, it was the end of the term, and the class teacher probably knew about the situation, so he called him to talk.He couldn't remember what the teacher said, what the final exam was, and why this semester ended...

Ren's mother went to the provincial capital for surgery, and he moved to his uncle's house.

When Ren's mother's operation was over, Ren Xun had already started making up classes during the winter vacation. When he received a call from Ren's father, he finally recovered.

This time, Ren's mother's illness seemed to make Ren Xun feel a little bit about his feelings for his mother. He would be considerate and worried, but there was something missing, which may be the most important thing for the relationship between mother and child.Ren Xun couldn't think of it, but he felt that after such a thing, the son should not sit on the bed and be speechless.

The more Ren Xun thought about it, the more he became sober, he tossed and turned on the bed, and finally made up his mind.

He turned on the desk lamp and spread out the book, sat at the desk and began to calculate the math problem.

When Jiang Jiyi came to pick up Feng Ren, he hadn't eaten yet, so Feng Ren accompanied him to have another meal.

"What do you want to eat?"

"I've eaten. You can eat whatever you want."

"Damn it."

"Oh……"

Feng Rener watched Jiang Jiyi put the sashimi into his mouth one by one, silently biting the straw.

"Really? Your eyes are straight."

"No." Feng Ren Er shook his head, "What's so delicious about sashimi? I really don't understand."

"Not eating seafood is really a big loss in life."

"I just don't eat the raw ones, I still like the cooked ones."

Jiang Jiyi didn't want to continue on this issue. The two of them had quarreled over this issue several times, but they couldn't come to a conclusion anyway.

Feng Rener watched Jiang Jiyi chewing slowly: "Why are you looking for me today?"

"Is it okay to find you?"

"It's okay, what are you doing in advance?"

"Let's talk about it later, you go to the bank with me to exchange money first."

The dark green leaves are rolled in the tea.

Feng Rener watched Jiang Jiyi move slowly.

Feng Rener doesn't like drinking tea very much, so when Jiang Jiyi parked the car in front of the teahouse, she actually refused. She turned her head and was about to speak when she saw Jiang Jiyi's expressionless face with a gloomy look between her brows. The words choked in his throat.

Jiang Jiyi seldom shows his face to Feng Ren Er, Feng Ren Er quickly turns his mind, recalling whether he has provoked him recently.

Now, she is still thinking along this line of thought.Jiang Jiyi pushed the cup over and said, "Have you always disliked Tang Mingjian?"

Feng Ren Er was stunned for a moment, subconsciously trying to argue: "No, I'm not familiar with him."

Jiang Jiyi glanced at Feng Ren Er, and tried his best to speak concisely: "I met him in a bar a few days ago, and I heard him say that homosexuality is disgusting. He stays with me because he sees me as a rich idiot."

Feng Ren Er didn't react for a while, and was stunned.

"I rely on?"

"Girls be civilized."

"Are you still in the mood to joke now?" Feng Ren'er raised his eyebrows together, "Beat him!...Did you beat him?"

"...No. I was in a daze at the time, so I just left."

"Then he knows you heard it?"

"Should know."

"That……"

"I drove away that day, and he kept calling me and I didn't answer. He has to go back to his hometown every year, and he can only come out after the first month of the year, so he never came to see me." Jiang Jiyi directly thought of Feng Rener. All questions were answered.

"Then what are you thinking now?"

Feng Ren Er was careful when he asked this sentence.For so many years, she was like an audience, witnessing Jiang Jiyi's feelings for him.In fact, she has expressed more than once that she is worthless for Jiang Jiyi, even though she sensibly told herself that such thoughts are based on Jiang Jiyi's unilateral narrative and her emotional tendency as Jiang Jiyi's friend, but this does not hinder her in the slightest to that People don't like it.

"do not know."

"do not know?"

"I really don't know." Jiang Jiyi seemed to be relieved, and his whole body drooped down, like a shadow puppet with a bamboo stick removed, "I feel like an idiot, but I can't help wondering if I didn't hear You are out of your mind, you may have misunderstood him."

Jiang Jiyi looked dejected, propped his forehead with his right hand, and gently slid his thumb along his eyebrows.

"Did I tell you that I think you are not good?"

"Said."

"How many years have you guys known each other? If he is not a fool, he must know. Even if there is no such thing, he will hang on to you all the time, but you will not be able to pull back even nine cows." Forward."

"Qianer..." Jiang Jiyi yelled, then stared at the teacup in front of him and fell silent. After coming over for a long time, he lowered his head and said, "I've been thinking about it these days, why did I insist on him for so long? People with perseverance. Let’s say he is good-looking. In fact, he should not be as good-looking as me. Let’s say he is inner beautiful. His grades are good, but there are not all people around me who are better than him. I think and think, and I am not sure Do I like him? I think I am just not reconciled, just like a child going all out to buy the toy that caught your eye at first sight... But, I think it is different, he Before I said those words, I just wanted to fall in love with him. I have seen him make girlfriends one by one. Even if he really has a boyfriend, he is still a double. Find a woman to live a normal life. But I really want to be with him, even if there is no ending, I still want to be with him... It turns out that I think I am quite great. To love him is to hope that he will be happy. Niu. But now I think, how could this happen, don’t you just want to be tired of being with him because you love him, and want to be with him all the time? "

Jiang Jiyi's voice became weaker and weaker, and at the end, he sighed softly: "Am I so stupid, I think... I have loved him for so many years, but I still don't know if I love him."