Can't look back

Hua Gangsheng drank all the beer at home, and he was especially dissatisfied. He walked out of the house, passed the bridge, passed the park, and passed the crowds of people coming and going. The surrounding was very lively, but he felt very cold, as if he was in the severe cold, but he was looking for something. To a touch of warmth.

Various scenarios were intertwined in his mind, and Hua Gangsheng restrained himself from thinking about it, but the more restrained he was, the clearer the scene would be.

He almost insulted his own mother, and he was given by his own brother...and twice...the second time...he consciously and acquiesced.

Maybe it was all kinds of things that came one after another, and he didn't want to think so much, maybe it was Li sir's comfort and the senior inspector's temptation to support him to go on, maybe it was the man's gentle hands massaging his temples...

The boss, senior inspector, undercover agent, Xia Qing, father, elder brother, and even the bucket of marbles when he was a child, Hua Gangsheng thinks of many people, and he also restrains himself from thinking about that person, his good and bad in the past, the good and bad in his heart Evil, the beliefs he insisted on, and the belief in catching the wicked were all crushed by the fact that he was his close relative. The balance of justice and evil was swinging in his heart, and the face of the dead dangled before his eyes, bloody and bloody. He was still there, but he couldn't make up his mind to make the decision he thought was correct in the past.

How funny, Hua Gangsheng has mixed feelings in his heart. He became an undercover agent in order to get promoted. His girlfriend died, and he was also... He thought that he was undercover. Mother, lost father, had a younger brother.

They are relatives, Hua Gangsheng smiled bitterly, they are his relatives, blood relatives... He is not a saint, and he also knows that Julian is a bad person, this is beyond doubt and cannot be changed.

But he is not a born bad person, he will also be distressed and resentful, and he will ask his mother what he is like when he is drunk, and he will show such a confused look, which makes people feel soft, and even that moment can make people feel weak. Ignore what he did.

Hua Gangsheng stroked his hair back exhaustedly and weakly. He didn't know what to do, and he avoided it instinctively. He didn't want to think about a solution. He just wanted to get drunk and sleep, as if nothing existed. The next day When he woke up, everyone he missed was there, as if death had never happened.

The afterglow of the sunset is slowly fading, the sky is slowly gloomy, and night is coming.Hua Gangsheng stumbled as he walked. He didn't know how much he drank and how many people kicked him out of the house. He had to wander around from house to house, drinking a glass of wine. He thought he would pass out drunk by the side of the road. Unfortunately, he The more you drink, the clearer your mind becomes.

At this moment, an old man was coming towards him, and Hua Gangsheng accidentally knocked him to the ground. He was in a daze, and slowly squatted down to help him, but the old man waved his hand away and got up from the ground. He fixed his eyes on Hua Gangsheng, carefully scrutinizing his face.

Hua Gangsheng was stunned by his explicit gaze, and his chaotic brain became clearer. He tried to stand upright, met the old man's scrutinizing gaze, and asked, "What's the matter?"

The old man suddenly stretched out his hand and patted him on the shoulder heavily. Hua Gangsheng felt his whole body stiffen, as if he had been frozen, and only heard the old man whisper: "Think about everything, there is no unparalleled road, young man, don't worry about it." Hurry, everything will pass, don't worry."

Hua Gangsheng's eyes went dark, and he sat weakly on the side of the road, covering his head for a long time before recovering.The old man has long disappeared, the sky has become as dark as ink, the lights are on, and it is another night of bright lights and shadows.

Hua Gangsheng stood on the street, trying to recall, why did it get dark so quickly?Another day passed like this.

But he seems to have forgotten something, what is it?

Stumbling into the bar, he was staggered by the person walking opposite. Hua Gangsheng managed to stand still when he heard soft accusations coming towards him. He wanted to apologize, but saw the person looking at him with displeasure , His eyes were full of contempt and disdain, he put away his thoughts of apologizing, he could only frowned and pressed his eyes, then brushed up the broken hair hanging in front of his eyes, thinking, I am afraid that he is really drunk, otherwise why would he be so drunk? When he entered here, he felt a voice calling him.

The steps of the bar are downwards. After walking a few steps, Hua Gangsheng’s legs suddenly became weak, and he staggered and almost fell down the steps. He hurriedly supported the wall, stood still in front of the glass window, and took a few breaths. feel at a loss.

Hua Gangsheng thought to himself, what am I doing?What are you still thinking about?Why is the world so unfair to me?God, God can't see my hard work, can't see my longing, he takes away my beloved one by one, but still throws me into this world to endure the wind and rain, I can rely on , Gone, what could support me, was also lost due to a combination of circumstances.

It turned out that in the vast world, the vast world, and thousands of families, I was the only one.

They all left me...

Supporting his body that suddenly lost strength, Hua Gangsheng reluctantly walked to the chair closest to him, pulled it away and wanted to sit down and rest. At this moment, he ignored the other people sitting around him, and only called the waiter in a hoarse voice: " beer!"

Since no one cares about it, it's better to enjoy it wantonly and dream about it, so you don't have to think about the future, you don't have to suffer so much...

It won't be so painful when I'm drunk...

Several people sitting at the same table frowned when they saw Hua Gangsheng's drunken appearance, and one of them approached him softly and said, "This seat is not yours."

At this moment, Hua Gangsheng hates being touched by others, especially men.

He shook off the man's hand holding his arm, and said viciously, "What are you doing?! Go away!! Do you want to fight?"

The person at the same table stood up, Hua Gangsheng didn't care, he just avoided the person pulling his hands, and after a few times, he heard what they said clearly.

"Go away, drunkard."

Hua Gangsheng yelled after avoiding the man's hand: "If you don't sit, you don't sit, what kind of wildness are you doing?!"

He looked at that person like an enemy, and that person was taken aback by him, and he muttered: "What are you doing?" The person next to him held him and shook his head, motioning him not to say any more.

After such a fuss, miraculously regained some strength, Hua Gangsheng stroked his hair, turning a blind eye to the gazes from everyone in the bar, turned around and walked to another table closest to him, when he heard someone comforting him behind him. The man: "It's okay, let's ignore him and continue drinking."

Hua Gangsheng thought to himself, it's nice to have someone to accompany him.

Angrily, he opened his chair and sat down, and called to the service desk, "Beer."

At this time, a person sitting in front of the service desk turned his head, and thin smoke came out of his mouth, and a trace of it dissipated into the air, blurring his handsome face. He saw Mr. Hua Gang pick up a glass of wine on the table and pour During the entrance, I couldn't help but tilt my head, as if I couldn't believe it, but also as if I had expected it long ago.The light shone from behind him, making his gold-rimmed glasses sparkle.

The man thought, look, God is on my side.

It was Julian.

The author has something to say: Hong Kong-born baby: At this moment, no other man can touch me except my brother!