the truth is true

"Sinan, I'll wait for you at the old place."

Gu Sinan looked at the text messages on his phone, and for a moment, he felt that nothing had happened, as if they were still living together.Before, he told Qin Fangfang not to look for him again, but after seeing the text message, he hesitated for a while, and he still went to the appointment without hesitation.

The old place mentioned in Qin Fangfang's text message refers to the orphanage where the three of them grew up together.

The orphanage is now closed, the yard is overgrown with weeds, and the slides are also mottled. The children at the time have grown up, and no one has come back, and no one wants to come back.

The iron gate of the garden was originally locked, but the lock was rotten due to wind, sun and rain. Qin Fangfang pushed the door open with a little force.

Gu Sinan hadn't arrived yet, she was walking aimlessly, the things in the garden were unfamiliar yet familiar, under the banyan tree, two boys caught cicadas and frightened her, on the playground, they threw sandbags...Qin Fangfang suddenly felt very tired, It doesn't matter whether the clothes will be dirty or not, and they sit on the steps where they often play together.

At that time, they often played a game of "going fast", that is, rock-paper-scissors. The winner could take one step, and they had to try to take as many steps as possible to finish the walk first.At that time, Lin Ya always won. Although his steps were not as fast as Gu Sinan's, he was lucky and always won in boxing games...

"What do you want to say about me?"

Gu Sinan was standing behind her, Qin Fangfang had lost a lot of weight, it was obvious that she was not doing well now, Gu Sinan thought of meeting Yan Tingyun at the exhibition, that bastard!

"Sinan." Qin Fangfang said without looking back, "I divorced Yan Yun."

Gu Sinan didn't show much surprise, he took a few steps forward and sat down beside her.

"You should have divorced him a long time ago." At this moment, he didn't know what the complicated emotions in his heart were. Sometimes, he even thought selfishly, if Qin Fangfang let go earlier, Lin Ya wouldn't have died .

"Sinan, back then, I liked you."

Gu Sinan looked at Qin Fangfang suddenly, as if a hand grabbed his heart, making him breathless.He looked at her in disbelief, but the other party was immersed in his own memories and didn't notice his shock.

"I liked you back then, but you liked him."

Qin Fangfang twitched her lips as if mocking herself, "I thought the relationship between the three of us was nothing more than a multiple-choice question, whether it was me or Lin Ya, but later, I realized that my thinking was too simple, whether it was the three of us or later The four people in this question don't include me at all."

"You all like him, why? Simon, why do you all like him?"

She suddenly became emotional, turned her head and stared at Gu Sinan desperately, her hand grabbed Gu Sinan's sleeve, and held it firmly in her hand, "What's so good about him?"

Gu Sinan looked at Qin Fangfang, he felt sorry for her, but there was nothing he could do.He pushed Qin Fangfang's hand away, feeling helpless and heartbroken.

"When you like someone, you don't care whether he is good or not."

"He has a petty temper, a cowardly personality, and is very lazy... But, he is the most authentic among us."

Gu Sinan did not deny that Qin Fangfang said that he liked Lin Ya.Gu Sinan's belated awareness of feelings made him realize that his feelings for Lin Ya were not brotherly, but Lin Ya had already found someone he liked.

Qin Fangfang looked at Gu Sinan in a daze, her eyes were red, and she finally shed tears.

"How did the three of us become like this?" It seemed to be asking Simon Gu, but also asking himself.

"But he is dead now, I can't ask for it, and you can't ask for it, haha, we are all the same, we are all poor people."

She smiled and muttered to herself, "I hate him, I hate him for robbing me even though he knew he was the one I like. Now, neither of us can get..."

"Fangfang, Sinan and I are going to distribute leaflets, do you want to go together?"

Lin Ya was sweating profusely from running, her face was red, and she was holding a large stack of leaflets in her hand.

Qin Fangfang was doing her homework, she looked at the vicious sun outside, she was a little hesitant, but when she thought that Gu Sinan was going too, she agreed.

The three of them are all part-time students, and doing odd jobs on weekends has become a part of their lives, but Qin Fangfang has not been with them for a while because she is preparing for an exam recently.

The three of them were distributing leaflets in the commercial square without any cover at all. Qin Fangfang felt that her skin was a little sore from the sun. She sprayed sunscreen before going out, but it didn't seem to help.

"Drink some water, you can go to the door over there to block the sun."

Gu Sinan handed her a bottle of water, his eyes were full of concern.Qin Fangfang's heart was warmed by such eyes, softened into a puddle of mud, she didn't even care about sunbathing, she just wanted to get closer to him.

"It's okay, I'll be with you."

After puberty, Qin Fangfang's feelings for Gu Sinan became different. Although she was older, when facing Gu Sinan, she would feel blushing and her heart beat more often, and only then would she show the attitude of a little girl.

She began to pay attention to her image, and some feelings began to change.

"It's okay, there are a lot of people here, we can go back earlier as soon as we finish posting."

"Ah."

"Sinan, I'm so tired..." Lin Ya walked over slowly, pouted with an unhappy expression.

"Look, I still have so much I can't go out." He spread his hands, and the list in his hand was more than Gu Sinan and Qin Fangfang combined.

Before Qin Fangfang could say anything, Gu Sinan reached out and took half of the leaflets.

"Give me some, you slob."

"Hey, Simon is the best."

Qin Fangfang smiled and watched the two talking, but her intuition made her pay special attention to the way Gu Sinan looked at Lin Ya. It was definitely not the way he looked at a friend, but the way he looked at her with doting, pity, and love.Maybe, Gu Sinan didn't notice it herself, but as a bystander, she could see it clearly.

It was also from that time that she became unwilling to have too much contact with Lin Ya. She hated him, hated him always acting like a baby to Gu Sinan, occupying Gu Sinan's time, they were inseparable...

Later, Gu Sinan entered the entertainment industry, and Lin Ya started to write full-time. After graduating from university, she joined a company with promising prospects, and met Yan Yun...

However, things seemed to be destined, when she decided to give up Gu Sinan and choose Yan Yun, Yan Yun's attention was attracted by Lin Ya again.

……

"Fangfang." After Gu Sinan got together with Xu Wei, his heart softened a lot, "Aren't you willing to let yourself go?"

Qin Fangfang covered her face, let out a breath, and asked Gu Sinan mockingly: "Sinan, have you let yourself go?"

There was thunder on the ground, even Gu Sinan couldn't help but change his face.He thought that no one else would know about those dark and obscure thoughts.

"Are you looking for someone to follow me?" Frowning.

Qin Fangfang let go of her hand and turned to talk to Gu Sinan, "Are you scared?"

"I'm not afraid." Gu Sinan got up and stretched his long legs, "I know what I'm doing."

"Hahaha, that's really the funniest thing I've ever heard."

Qin Fangfang also stood up, and when she was talking to Gu Sinan, she always had to look up, just like her feelings, and she would always play the role of a looker.

"Xu Wei, right." Qin Fangfang brushed her long hair back and returned to that elegant look, "There is a shadow of Lin Ya on him."

She didn't use interrogative sentences, her tone was affirmative.Gu Sinan suddenly felt annoyed, and he unconsciously tightened his grip on Qin Fangfang's hand.

"Are you angry? It looks like I'm right."

Her laughter became particularly piercing, and Gu Sinan felt his heart being pulled. He wanted to deny it, but he couldn't.

"Sinan, tell me, what would happen to him if he knew that he was just a substitute?"

Gu Simon: "..."

"It's so rare to see you showing such an expression."

Qin Fangfang moved closer, she raised her hand to touch Gu Sinan's face, but was avoided by him.

Gu Sinan took a deep breath, "He's not a substitute."

I don't know where it started, and it goes deeper and deeper.At first, Gu Sinan did see the shadow of Lin Ya in Xu Wei, but the reason for deciding to be together was definitely not Lin Ya.A voice in his heart told himself this.

"The past is the past."

Gu Sinan took out a small pendant from his bosom, snapped it open, and inside was a group photo of the three of them.

"Do you know why Linya committed suicide?"

With cold eyes, Gu Sinan handed the pendant to Qin Fangfang.

"When you married Yan Yun, Lin Ya broke up with Yan Yun. But then Yan Yun kept pestering him and threatening him, if he kept avoiding him, he would divorce you...so..."

"It's impossible!" Qin Fangfang interrupted Gu Sinan, her eyes were hot from excitement, and her facial muscles trembled slightly, "Yan Yun won't do this."

After a long silence, Gu Simon said, "Why do you think I keep persuading you not to be with Yan Yun? Do you think I'm doing it for Lin Ya?"

Mentioning Lin Ya, Gu Sinan also felt sore eyes, "We grew up together, it's not like you don't know, he's such a stupid person..."

Qin Fangfang shook her head, still unwilling to believe it.

"Then why did he commit suicide?"

"Because he loves Yan Yun, but he also loves you. He regards you as his own sister. He is too tired..."

Qin Fangfang covered her mouth, her tears couldn't stop, she thought of the child who was following behind her calling her sister...

She stumbled out and walked to the door, finally couldn't help the churning in her stomach, and vomited it out with a wow.

Gu Sinan followed behind him, he did not keep his promise to Lin Ya, "I'm sorry, Lin Ya."

……

Xu Wei and Gu Sinan always get together less and leave more, they are both too busy, Xu Wei is always worried about gains and losses, and feels that he can't catch each other.He knew it was bad, but sometimes he just couldn't help thinking about it.

The phone rang on the way, but Xu Wei was still asleep.Li Zheng picked up his cell phone, saw that it was Gu Sinan's call, and silently hung up the call.Although he turned a blind eye to the relationship between Xu Wei and Gu Sinan, selfishly speaking, he did not approve of it.

"Hmm...who's calling?"

Xu Wei also heard the ringing of the phone while he was half asleep and half awake. He stretched, stretched his limbs, and looked at Li Zheng with a dazed expression.

"See for yourself." Li Zheng turned around and ignored him.

Xu Wei glanced at the phone, it was Gu Simon's call, and complained while calling back, "Why are you hanging up on me?" The voice was so aggrieved that Li Zheng didn't even notice it.

Gu Sinan quickly answered the phone, and Xu Wei heard something strange in his voice.

"Gu Simon, what's wrong with you?"

Gu Sinan pursed his lips, feeling irritable. He just called Xu Wei subconsciously, and regretted it after being hung up on the phone. Now, listening to Xu Wei's voice on the phone, he didn't know what to say.

"Huh? Why don't you talk?"

Li Zheng was listening on the sidelines, thinking, this kid is quite stubborn, and he doesn't look like he was eaten to death by Gu Simon.

"Xu Wei, I'm in the Sunshine Orphanage in the south of the city."

Xu Wei's face became very ugly. Gu Sinan rarely told him about the past, but he knew that this orphanage was the place where Gu Sinan and Lin Ya grew up together.Where is he now, is he thinking about others when he sees things, or is he feeling hurt when he touches the scene?

"I want to see you, Xu Wei."

Xu Wei's eyes were red, and he gritted his teeth, "You wait for me." Then he asked the driver to turn around and go to the orphanage.

"Xu Wei, what are you doing? The director is already waiting for you over there. What are you playing with? Do you know how hard it is for me to win this opportunity for you?"

Li Zheng yelled at him, straightened up and pointed at Xu Wei: "Give me the phone number, and I'll tell him."

Xu Wei covered the microphone to prevent Gu Sinan from hearing the commotion, but Gu Sinan vaguely heard it, and was startled.

"Xu Wei." Gu Sinan said softly, "Listen to Li Zheng, go to the audition first."

"No, I want to see you now, Gu Simon, I want to see you." Xu Wei was a little emotional, after being together for so long, the uneasiness in his heart finally broke out.

"Hey, listen to me, I'll wait for you at home, okay?"

Gu Sinan patiently comforted Xu Wei, the pain in his heart gradually faded away, replaced by a sense of satisfaction that was cherished by others.

"Don't worry, I'm fine."

Xu Wei unconsciously clenched the hand holding the phone, "Okay, I'll go over here when I'm done."

"Ah."

He hung up the phone, Li Zheng sat aside and got angry, Xu Wei felt wronged, and said sullenly, "I was wrong just now."

Li Zheng glanced at him and sighed, "Xu Wei, what do you want me to say about you?"

Xu Wei lowered his eyes, his thick eyelashes trembling, "I was wrong, don't worry, there will be no next time."

Li Zheng sighed again, he felt that he was about to become an old man in his seventies and eighties, "Okay, calm down, and behave well when the time comes."

Xu Wei nodded. He looked out the window and felt a bit stupid.

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