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Finally, when it was unavoidable to talk about this question, Cen Sen put down his phone weakly and turned on the speakerphone. He propped his head on his arms and rubbed his temples vigorously, "I don't know if you have seen Marquez's "Love in the Time of Cholera", I think it's pretty good. Once when I was waiting for the plane, the plane was late and never flew. I searched for book reviews in my spare time. I saw a book review on Zhihu that was very well written. He Said—how can there be any love, either it is a fleeting impulse, or a marriage that is essentially a family relationship, or a lust/desire to fill the void under the guise of love, the cholera in the cholera period will end one day, but cholera The love of the period spreads forever, like a plague, it cures loneliness for a short time, and can never eliminate the fate of being lonely in life. Some people don't believe it, and keep looking for it for a lifetime. ①" He took a deep breath and continued: "Two A year, whether it is long or short, many things can happen, and the distance lies there, I can’t guarantee anything, and I won’t force you to guarantee anything.”

Cen Sen didn't give a positive answer. He didn't talk about breaking up, but he didn't promise to wait either.

Li Yuebai's eyes were swollen and painful, and his fingers twisted the hem of the T-shirt so hard that the fabric was almost embedded in his flesh, "Then what do you think is between us, is it impulsive or lust/desire? It definitely can't be marriage."

Cen Sen wiped the corners of his eyes with his fingertips, turned his face away to sniff his nose, and then said to the phone: "It's all there. It's getting late, go to bed early, good night."

Li Yuebai's voice darkened uncontrollably, "Good night."

Cen Sen submitted his resignation letter to the company as soon as he went to work after May Day, and at the same time started to deal with the financial products on hand. That evening, he invited Zheng Chen to dinner, handed Li Yuebai's card to Zheng Chen, and asked him to bring it to Li Yuebai.

Zheng Chen weighed the meaning of Cen Sen's words and asked: "So this is a division?"

Cen Sen loosened his tie, noncommittal.

Zheng Chen: "Is there any problem that I can't explain clearly? Why did I come to this point?"

Cen Sen pushed the menu to him, "He has a problem with Ling Feng, and it can't be resolved by explaining it clearly. He doesn't trust me, and I always doubt him, so I've come to this point."

A few days later, Zheng Chen went to the factory and called Li Yuebai to the office prepared for him by the factory.

"Boss Zheng has something to do with me?" On a hot day, Li Yuebai was wearing a long-sleeved shirt. The skin on the cuff of his left hand was a bit strange, and there was a smell of herbs on his body.

Zheng Chen motioned him to sit down, "It's not about work."

Li Yuebai suddenly raised his eyes and looked at him.

Zheng Chen handed him the card on the table, "Cen Sen asked me to bring it here."

Li Yuebai took it and said thank you.

Zheng Chen: "It's a little effort."

Li Yuebai said: "It's nothing, I'm leaving."

Zheng Chen saw that his left arm was held up all the time, so he couldn't help asking, "What's wrong with your arm?"

Li Yuebai looked down at his left arm, "I was bitten by Zhuyeqing."

Zheng Chennahan said, "Where did you get bitten?"

Li Yuebai pointed to the mountain outside the window: "The mountain over there."

Zheng Chen asked in surprise: "What are you doing running up the mountain?"

Li Yuebai: "I didn't do anything, Mr. Zheng, when are you going back?"

Zheng Chen: "Tomorrow, do you have something to do?"

Li Yuebai: "Bring him something for me."

Zheng Chen stared at him for a moment, and said with emotion: "You two are really struggling."

Li Yuebai sighed, "Did he say anything to you?"

Zheng Chen couldn't bear it anymore and said: "Let me tell you what's good about you? He's been single for so many years, and you're the only real boyfriend who brought him home. How about you, who came out for him and made trouble like the family, now you guys Just bear to part like this?"

Li Yuebai lowered his head and stared at the floor, then raised his head half a minute later and said to Zheng Chen: "I saw a photo of him and Ling Feng at his house, you should both be classmates, right? Do you also think I look alike to Ling Feng? "

Zheng Chen was a little caught off guard, he collected himself, and smiled awkwardly: "It all happened a long time ago, it's all over, he said you have a knot in your heart, you can't be because of this thing, right?"

Li Yuebai smiled wryly, "It happened so suddenly, I was a little concerned, and it took time to digest it. After he knew that I was concerned, he didn't know whether he felt that he owed me or something, so he was always cautious. Anyway, the two of us felt weird. Why did I go out of line? He won't show anger when things happen, accommodating and inclusiveness that are as low as dust are not love at all, forget it, the matter is over, I will go back to the dormitory to get some things, Mr. Zheng, please wait for a while."

Although Li Yuebai's words were not direct enough, but after hearing what Cen Sen said about the reason for the breakup, Zheng Chen also understood that the main meaning he wanted to express was that the two of them no longer trusted each other. Li Yuebai said that the incident suddenly needed to be digested. Do you still mind now, and felt that he was a little unnecessary, because he imagined that if his wife was with him because he looked like her white moonlight, he immediately felt that it was unacceptable and too irritating.

Ten minutes later, Li Yuebai left and returned, holding a cardboard box in his hand.Zheng Chen took it, weighed it without much weight, and asked curiously, "What's inside?"

Li Yuebai: "Wild gardenia is a kind of herbal medicine."

Zheng Chen sniffed through the box, but didn't smell anything.

Li Yuebai smiled faintly, "I'm afraid it will get wet, so I sealed it in a ziplock bag."

Zheng Chen put the box on the desk, "What is the function of this thing?"

Li Yuebai: "The locals say it can cure oral ulcers. On May [-]st, his mouth hurts so much that he can barely speak. I tan him."

Zheng Chen: "Did you post it yourself?"

Li Yuebai hummed.

Zheng Chen had a flash of inspiration, "You can't just pick this for Zhuyeqing to bite, right?"

Li Yuebai smiled, didn't say yes, but didn't deny it either.

After get off work, Li Yuebai drove his grandfather out for dinner, "Let's go eat pizza today." He made a plan, planning to take his grandfather to eat all the restaurants in City B, and tonight went to Pizza Hut.

The old man has never heard the word, "What is pizza?"

Li Yuebai smiled while holding the steering wheel, "You will know when you go."

The car was stuck at the end of the bridge, and the old man looked at the cars one after another outside the car window and suddenly said with emotion: "It would be great if your grandma was here, and I will leave without enjoying the blessing."

The afterglow of the setting sun hit the old man's face through the car window, Li Yuebai stared sideways at his grandfather for a while, and suddenly asked thoughtfully, "Grandpa, how did you meet my grandma?"

Under the watchful eyes of his grandson, the old man was a little embarrassed, "At that time, we were poor and every family could not have enough to eat. Your grandma followed your old woman to escape from famine and came to our house to beg for food. Your grandson was kind and brought them two corn buns. It was already late every day, and the two of them were taken in for another night. Your old mother saw that we still had food left, so she left your grandma at our house. She was only 14 years old at that time."

The friendship between the two Wotou has been hand in hand for a lifetime, raising a whole family of children and grandchildren. Li Yuebai felt a little sour in his heart, and said with a smile: "It must be that my grandma saw that my grandma was born handsome, so he wanted to give his son a self."

The old man smiled, with tears in his eyes, "Your grandma is indeed the most handsome in our ten miles and eight villages. Among these children and grandchildren, you look the most like her. She has been gone for ten years, and she didn't ask me to go there. Do you think she has forgotten me, because she is afraid that when the time passes, she will no longer know me, and I will be left alone."

Li Yuebai turned her face away and concentrated on driving, "No, when you get there in the future, grandma will definitely recognize you at a glance."

There is an old saying in Li Yuebai's hometown that even if there are a lot of children and grandchildren, it is not as good as a half-way couple. When you are old, even if your children and grandchildren are around your knees, you will still feel lonely. Grandpas may not know what love is in this generation, but they have been together for a lifetime. When Yin and Yang are separated I still miss and miss them, their starting point is obviously much better than that of the older generation, why can't they go on?

Li Yuebai suddenly wanted to tell Cen Sen what his grandfather said, but he only had a vague and messy idea, and he couldn't draw any deep conclusions. It doesn't matter anymore.

In the evening Li Yuebai called Cen Sen, but before he could say a word, Cen Sen said he was busy and hung up.Cen Sen was having dinner with his colleagues, because he was about to leave the company, he wanted to treat everyone to a meal before leaving, he was the host, he was too busy entertaining guests, and had no time to make phone calls.

The words became less and less, and the messages became shorter and shorter, not to mention the video chat. Since that day, I haven't opened the video again.In the past, when I was free, I didn’t think it was boring to watch TV. Now I’m living a life like this, and it’s hard to turn extravagance into frugality after I’ve tasted it. Fortunately, there’s my grandfather, Li Yuebai, who is free I can still chat with the old man, the old man is deaf, and the two of them have very loud voices, chatting is like arguing.

On the day of Cen Sen's departure, he arrived at the airport early in the morning. Not long after he sat down, he received a call from Zheng Chen, "I just came back from a business trip these days. You left in such a hurry that I didn't have time to say goodbye to you."

Cen Sen closed the book above his knees, "It's urgent over there, there's no other way, let's get together when we come back, it's not like we won't be back."

Zheng Chen said anxiously: "I still have something to give you, Li Gong asked me to bring it over."

Cen Sen was still on the phone with Li Yuebai last night, including the previous few calls, but he didn't hear Li Yuebai mention it.

Since the last time we talked about it, the relationship between the two has changed subtly again, because there is no promise or guarantee, even though we didn't say break up directly, it actually means break up, one separation and two wide, he is no longer concerned about Ling Feng's affairs Feeling indebted, he no longer guessed how much Li Yuebai hated Ling Feng, and many unanswerable questions about Jia Fei no longer made him feel anxious, "What?"

Zheng Chen panted and said: "Wild gardenias, Li Gong picked them for you on the mountain. They said they are good for treating oral ulcers. I'm almost there. Let's not talk about them. You can send me a location."

The author has something to say: there is no love, it is either a fleeting impulse, or a marriage that is essentially a family relationship, or a lust/desire to fill the emptiness under the guise of love, the cholera in the cholera period will end one day , but the love in the period of cholera spreads forever, like the plague, it cures loneliness for a short time, and can never eliminate the fate of being doomed to be lonely in life.Some people don't believe it and keep looking for it for a lifetime. ①—Excerpt from Zhihu, the author is unknown.