old man

Qi Zheng opened the drawer, as if opening a long secret love.

There are not many things inside, only a thick notebook, a gift that has not yet been sent, a piece of candy, and two movie tickets.

He opened the book, it was a diary, more like an essay, full of the owner's description of another person.

There is a photo on the front page, which shows a young old man holding a little boy.

The time was a summer 12 years ago, and the handwriting was immature.

It read: He said we are family now, the first family portrait.

Page [-]: In school, someone called me a bastard, and I had a fight with him.Nan Ru came to the school, I thought he was going to be angry, but he didn't, instead he helped me out.On the way home, he gave me a candy.

Page No.15: He asked me to call him dad, I was angry, and he was very sad.I didn't mean it, I really don't want him to be my father, he is my most important person, the existence of a father, no.

No.20 page three: Nan Ru got drunk and vomited badly. He said he had to drink because he wanted to support me.When will I grow up so I can keep Nanru at home.

Qi Zheng watched the handwriting gradually mature.

Look at the content, from the warmth at the beginning to the depression later.

Especially at the age of thirteen or fourteen, nocturnal emission.

The owner of the diary was horrified: I dreamed about him, I... did bad things, and he said they were normal.I know it's not normal, I can't tell him, I'm so scared.If he knows what I want to do to him, will he not want me?

Then the master didn't write again for a long time.

It's already half a year later.

At this time, it was a shocking sentence, he said that I look like her, ruined this face, is it not like her anymore?

Turn another page and ruin this face, and he won't love me either.

Suddenly a drop of water fell on the notebook, Qi Zheng raised his hand and wiped it on his face in a daze, he cried.

2015.6.1

I told him that a girl gave me a love letter, and he was actually very happy.

2016.3.1

I wanted to watch a movie with him, but he said no.Recently his friend introduced a woman to him, and he is going to have dinner without telling me tonight.I know, how could he think he could hide it from me.

2016.5.6

I can't bear it anymore, I have to take the initiative.If he was taken by someone else... I can't imagine.Maybe letting him hate me is better than him hugging other people and saying he loves me, I don't want this kind of love.

No date, just one sentence.

I asked for him and he cried.

2016.8.27

I went to college and I wanted him to stay over there and I raise him.Will he fall in love with me?He will fall in love with me.I want to give him a gift, will he accept it?

This is the end of the diary.

Qi Zheng picked up the box and opened it.

It is a pair of rings, a gift that was not given, and a love that has no end, locked in this drawer, and no one will open it again. "Old Man" 38

The old man stood in the kitchen, looking absently at the teapot.The steam dazzled his eyes.

He sighed, but still took out two glasses.

These two cups were drawn by my younger brother in a lottery in the supermarket. At that time, he secretly bit his ear and said, is this a couple cup?

The old man put on airs and ignored his younger brother. He didn't want to cause such a misunderstanding to his younger brother.

Originally, the relationship between the two people was messed up. He and the child he raised became lovers. What is this called?

Although there was a physical entanglement between the two, the old man still couldn't stand it if he really wanted to define his personality for this relationship.

But what I didn't want at the time, I want now, but I can't get it.

The old man opened a bag of tea and poured hot water into a cup.

He was holding two cups of tea, but Qi Zheng was not found in the living room.

The younger brother's room was half covered, and it seemed that someone had entered.

He pushed open the door, only to see Qi Zheng sitting in front of the desk, the box that he knew his brother had kept locked was opened.

It's not that the old man never thought about opening this box, but he didn't want to believe that his brother was dead, so he didn't want to destroy everything in this room.

He will clean it regularly, but he will not change everything in this room.

Everything remained the same as the moment my brother left, as if time stood still.

It's like waiting for someone who might be able to come back, only to find that nothing has changed here.

He looked at Qi Zheng's back and fell into a trance.

He finally waited for this person, and his brother came back.

Sitting at the table, so familiar.

Although the old man has confirmed that he is the younger brother, in fact, he has not doubted it.

Until now.

He quickly ran to the drawer, and after a long time, he opened his mouth and said, "This box...why..."

His voice disappeared, because he saw Qi Zheng's appearance, he was holding a box, pressed tightly between his eyebrows, closed his eyes, and was in great pain.

The old man also panicked when he thought of what happened when he fainted in pain.

He put his arms around Qi Zheng's shoulder: "Are you okay, does it hurt?!"

Qi Zheng broke away from the old man, and the box in his hand rolled to the ground.

The box was thrown open, and the silver inside pierced into the old man's eyes.

Looking at the pair of rings, he suddenly thought that his younger brother had found a summer job during the summer vacation before going to college.

He didn't know what to do specifically, he only knew that his younger brother would come back at night and do those things to him.

The child is always tired, how can the old man not worry, he wants his younger brother not to be so tired, and he can buy what the younger brother wants.

At that time, the younger brother got off the old man, and the two of them were sweating.

The younger brother hugged him not too sticky, and said, "I can only buy this thing for you."

It turned out to be this, a pair of rings.

The belated ring made the old man's heart twitch fiercely. He was in a trance and bent over to get it.

But halfway, he was grabbed by the wrist by Qi Zheng, very hard.

Qi Zheng suddenly opened his red eyes and stared at the old man: "Actually, I just want to hear this. Are you keeping me because you love me?"

This is an unfinished inquiry from their last phone call two years ago.

It was Qi Zheng and Di Zhen who wanted to ask.