you after the mist

It started raining in the middle of the night, and it wasn't heavy, but it didn't stop.

Tang Ran didn't sleep well all night, but it wasn't because of the sound of rain, it was because of a dream.Those things that he tried to forget and once thought he had forgotten came to him again on this rainy night.

He knew he was dreaming, and he could even feel the coolness brought by the autumn rain.Forgot to close the window, he thought drowsily.But he couldn't open his eyes, or he didn't want to open them subconsciously, so he soon fell into a dream again.

Tang Ran finally woke up because someone opened the bedroom door, Shen Xi.

"I knocked on the door and called again, but there was no answer, so I came in. Are you sick?" Shen Xi has the key to his house, but Tang Ran always pays attention to privacy. Although he didn't mention it, Shen Xi Xi rarely opened the door by himself.

"No, I overslept." Tang Ran lifted the quilt and got up.

"You go out first, I'll come out after I pack up."

"Okay, it's cooling down, you add more clothes."

When Tang Ran entered the living room, Shen Xi was flipping through the script of "Ben".Seeing Tang Ran come out to look at him, "Why is it so late today?"

Tang Ran always had a regular schedule when she was on vacation, and she woke up after 8 o'clock. When she went in, she really didn't expect that he was still asleep.

"Sleep well on a rainy day." Tang Ran shook his head, he was still not sober. "Did you eat?"

"If you mean breakfast you have, but not lunch."

Tang Ran just looked at the clock, it was almost twelve o'clock.He knew it was getting late, but he didn't expect it to be this time.

"Then stay and eat. There is yesterday's stewed soup in the refrigerator. Is it okay to cook Chaoshou?"

"Are your hands okay?"

Tang Ran walked up to Shen Xi and tore off the band-aid for her to see.

"How did you cut it so deep?"

"No matter how deep it is, it's just a cut, and it hasn't been cut off." Tang Ran took another band-aid and pasted it on. "What's wrong with preparing lunch?"

"Then I'll do the dishes."

"Okay." Tang Ran took the soup and went to the kitchen, "I won't let you eat for free."

Tang Ran cooked it soon, he didn't eat breakfast, but he was really hungry at this moment, he ate it in two or three bites.Shen Xi was afraid that it would be hot, so there was still half a bowl left.

Sitting opposite her, Tang Ran saw that her hair was a little wet from the rain, and went to find a towel for her, "The weather is bad, why did you come here, it must not be because of my hands, you are really persistent." .”

Shen Xi laughed, "Isn't that right? You are the one who can say that you just touched a broken wrist. I can't believe it when you say it was just cut."

This is of course not the real reason, both of them know it well, it's just that the atmosphere is good now and they don't want to interrupt it.

So Tang Ran didn't expose her, but just shook his head, "That was all so many years ago, you still remember."

At that time, Shen Xi had just become his manager, and the two of them were not very familiar with each other.Tang Ran accidentally hurt his hand and didn't think it was too serious at the time.It just so happened that he didn't work during that time, when Shen Xi asked, he only said that it was knocked, and he would be fine in two days.After a few days, Shen Xi found that his hand was not good at all, so he hurriedly took him to the hospital to take a picture, and it turned out that he had broken a bone.

"It's been many years." Shen Xi took the towel and wiped it off, then buried his head and continued to eat.

After sitting for a while, Tang Ran felt a little hungry, so he went to the kitchen to fill up a bowl of soup.

It wasn't until Shen Xi finished eating that Tang Ran said, "Sister Shen, I won't be shooting "Ben"."

Shen Xi paused for a moment, but she didn't look up, nor did she answer.

Tang Ran didn't urge her, but just stared at Shen Xi's hair, he knew she heard it.

Shen Xi waited for a while before putting down her chopsticks, "Stop taking pictures?" She smiled very lightly, with a hint of sarcasm, "I really came here today at the right time."

No one spoke for a while, and the living room became quiet, only the faint sound of rain outside the window could be heard.

After a long time, Shen Xi sighed, as if compromising, "At least give me a reason."

"This drama is not suitable for me, and Director Li doesn't think I'm the right candidate..."

"Tang Ran", Shen Xi interrupted him fiercely, "This is not the reason. If you care about these things, then don't make a movie. I have known you for so many years, and now I am not even worth a word of truth from you."

"Sorry, I..." He couldn't continue, he didn't have a reason to tell Shen Xi.

Another long silence.

Shen Xi lit a cigarette irritably, leaned back in the chair, "You don't mean you're in a relationship and you're about to retire?"

The words came abruptly, "Why do you think this way? It's just this one, not the others."

"You haven't received many plays in the past two years, so I have to ask more questions." She let out a smoke ring before continuing, "It doesn't matter if that's the case, you can tell me directly, don't worry about the fact that we've been together for a while, It's not easy to talk to me, I'm your manager first, and then your ex-girlfriend."

Shen Xi's tone was relaxed, but Tang Ran knew that was not the case.

His name is Sister Shen Xi, in fact, Shen Xi is only two years older than him.The two did have a past, not long, three months.It was Shen Xi who spoke first, on her birthday.

At that time, she drank a lot of wine, and said to Tang Ran with the strength of the wine, "Let's try it." Tang Ran knew that she was not drunk, it was just a cover, to block the embarrassment that might come after being rejected.

"I know you don't love me now, but you always don't hate me. Anyway, you don't have anyone else now, why don't we give it a try, in case you can fall in love with me?"

Tang Ran really didn't love her, Jiang Ning seemed to have taken away his ability to love when he left, or maybe he could only love Jiang Ning in the first place, and it wouldn't work if it was someone else.

But Shen Xi was right, Tang Ran didn't hate her, on the contrary she was different to Tang Ran.Shen Xi was his first manager, and he was also the first artist brought by Shen Xi, and even the only one for a long time.They support each other and move forward. They are partners, but they are more like relatives.Moreover, Shen Xi really loved him at that time, when she looked at him, she was humble and pious.

Tang Ran thought they might really have a try.Then he heard his own voice say softly, "Okay."

The company did not allow Tang Ran to fall in love, so they were very cautious, but soon Tang Ran discovered that it was unnecessary, because after the so-called relationship started, their relationship did not change frequently.

Tang Ran tried to give her more care, but that kind of care was always like a relative.Occasionally, Shen Xi would hold his hand when no one was around, but it was just holding hands. Just like this, Tang Ran could feel his slight resistance, and he knew that Shen Xi must have felt it too.

It's really strange, he can clearly play intimate scenes with actresses calmly, but he can't even pretend to Shenxi, maybe because he shouldn't pretend in the first place.

The only kiss between them happened on the day they broke up. Tang Ran's memory of that night was very clear, but it was not for Shen Xi, but Jiang Ning.

It was an awards ceremony held by a video website, and it didn't have much gold content. Everyone gathered together to join in the fun.So he wasn't too surprised when Tang Ran was pulled over to save the scene when the scheduled awards presenter was temporarily absent. It wasn't a formal ceremony in the first place.

But when he got to the backstage, he realized that the other award presenter was Jiang Ning.It was too late to leave again, so he had no choice but to bite the bullet and go on stage.This is not the first time they have met after they separated. They are in the same circle, so it is inevitable that they will bump into each other on some occasions.But I have never been so close, so close that I can touch it with my hand.

That night's performance was even worse than Tang Ran expected. Jiang Ning seemed to be a little calmer than him, but it was not much better.The two of them didn't say a word of pleasantries, and finished the award speech abruptly. Tang Ran couldn't remember who the final trophy was given to.

The award ceremony itself was nothing to watch, but their performance became the biggest highlight of the night.That scene later became ironclad evidence of their discord, and even acquaintances joked about it, "This is too merciless, so it seems that Jiang Ning's robbing of your role is true."

Tang Ran knew which play they were talking about, but the character had never contacted him from the beginning to the end, and he didn't know where the rumors started.

After making it like this, Shen Xi will naturally have to give an explanation.But Tang Ran couldn't explain it, because it belonged to him and Jiang Ning's absurd past, he couldn't tell Shen Xi.

Shen Xi naturally knew that there was no such thing as stealing the role, but she didn't doubt that she went to Jiang Ning. She thought that Tang Ran had encountered something else and was in a bad mood. After all, in her impression, the two of them had no positive intersection.

Seeing that Tang Ran refused to speak, she didn't ask further, but just waved her hand, "It's fine if you don't tell me, it's not bad that you refused to tell me."

After the end, Shen Xi drove him back, and she was very quiet along the way.The silence was not broken until she parked the car in the garage.

She leaned against the window, barely maintaining a blunt smile. "I don't think I really look like your girlfriend."

Tang Ran knew that his silence tonight had hurt her, but it wasn't just tonight, every day after he promised, he was hurting her for the sake of unresponsible feelings.

Tang Ran tried to comfort her, but he was too restless to speak.

At that moment, Shen Xi suddenly turned to kiss him. The kiss was really abrupt, but after Tang Ran realized it, he didn't push her away. He just sat there stiffly, motionless.

That kiss didn't last too long, Shen Xi didn't hurry back until there were car lights flashing by around him.

Then she looked into Tang Ran's eyes, "Let's go here, I give up." Her eyes were still steamy, but her tone was firm, and there was even a trace of relief, which she had never felt in the past three months.She got out of the car, the sound of high heels was very clear in the garage, Tang Ran watched her go away, and did not chase her out.

The next day, Tang Ran drove the car back to her, and neither of them mentioned the matter again.They retreated back within the safety line, or Tang Ran never came out at all, then only Shen Xi went back.

Tang Ran began to call her elder sister again, which was actually only used when they first met, but it reappeared, and some cracks needed to be covered up by it.

"Feel sorry……"

"It's the second time today, Tang Ran, can't you say something else? I mentioned it at the beginning, and I mentioned it at the end, so why are you sorry? You are sorry," Shen Xi turned her head to one side without looking He said, "You are sorry because I was really interested in you at that time, you..."

She smiled briefly, "You shouldn't have agreed to me, but... I forced you."

She continued to smoke that cigarette, looking lonely.

"I drank before going to bed last night, I probably haven't woken up yet, and lost my composure." Shen Xi said.

It's really a poor excuse, but there must be someone to whitewash the peace, Tang Ran has never been good at such things, so he is grateful to Shen Xi for being this person again.

She sat for a while, got up and packed the bowls and went to the kitchen to wash them. Tang Ran looked at her back, she was still shaking, but she didn't drop a single bowl.

When she came out after washing the dishes, she calmed down again. She was so talented in calming down emotions. Tang Ran often felt that she was more suitable to be an actor than himself.

"It's time to talk, so I won't sit any longer. "Ben" I will push it away for you." Shen Xi took the bag and walked to the door. It's a good talk. If you change to another big director..."

Shen Xi didn't continue, and Tang Ran also knew that it was difficult for her, so she could only thank her again.

"Don't thank me, it's my own decision. But don't think that if you don't shoot "Ben", you can continue to have a holiday. Go down the mountain with me tomorrow, and come to the studio in the afternoon to discuss the next work."

"Okay." Tang Ran opened the door for her, "Understood, I'll pack up in a while."