I exchange my innocence for ten years for your constant companion

2017/9/13

Suddenly feel very bitter, all living beings are suffering.Thinking about not doing anything, just finding a rich second-generation handsome guy to take care of, and not having to worry about it for the rest of your life... How can you have such thoughts (?ω?υ)??? Everyone should work hard.Although it is really difficult to support a family, everyone is working hard!The world is not benevolent and treats everything as a straw dog, and the damage is not enough to make up for the surplus!No matter how difficult it is, you have to catch up!In fact, it’s just scaring myself. It’s not difficult to do it with your heart and walk steadily step by step.Get used to it!

First finish the work that should be done and the homework that should be written, and then play, so that you can have fun (??ω??)?

Isn't it all for yourself?As long as you please yourself, that's fine!It's really hard to please others, and I don't know how to please.

Just like in the past five days, I have worked hard by myself a little bit, isn't it great?Why do you want to get some reaction from him?Didn't he talk about the same thing as himself?Why expect too much and expect too much?

Compare yourself with yourself.What can you do in such a short time?Before I have accumulated enough qualitative change, I have already consumed all the factors of quantitative change, so what qualifications do I have to pray for qualitative change?

come on, come on, come on!

I am very upset, very envious, very jealous of Chen's girlfriend, because Chen treats her so well.

I also want, I want someone who treats me as well as Chen treats his girlfriend.I long to be loved so deeply by someone.

But why not?My parents and grandma are really good to me, very good, and they really love me.But I want someone to treat me like Chen treats his girlfriend.I really hope, I really want, I really want to.

Is it that I am not worthy now?Am I not good enough now?

Probably.Can't bear even a little bit of suffering, and can't even bear such a little effort, can you expect yourself to give a lot?

Probably because I only know how to ask, but don't know how to give!

I also need to give, learn to be good to him, to be good to him unconditionally, and to give him everything I can.Learn how to give well.

Love is giving.Chen is so tired, yet she still has to care about her girlfriend so meticulously.As a boy, he can't give his girlfriend a sense of security. This kind of love is destined to break up.

And how much pain has a person like Chen who can give people a sense of security endured?

I really envy his girlfriend, I don't know how many blessings she has accumulated in her previous life!

As for me, work hard, come on!Only by unswervingly improving one's own quality can you get the help of noble people and get what you want.

Even if it won't be with him in the end.I will not be like now, doubting whether I have made a mistake in the past two years.Even if I can't be with him in the end, only after I work hard to improve my quality can I attract better people to pursue me!

It will not be like now, sexual pleasure has to be obtained by oneself, and this is also harmful to the body and mind.The current self is really living a terrible life!

2017/9/24

today.Looking at Chen's side face, I really feel impulsive and want to kiss her...

Come on (??ω??)?

2017/12——20187/1/4

2017/12

I want to become what I like!

MMP, entangled in size? Just study hard. When you have the ability, can cast a green shade, and can protect the people and things you want, you will be king.

Want what others can't ask for, get what others can't get, and do what others can't do; you need to endure what others can't bear, and accept what others can't bear!

2018/1/1

You should think like this, the person who belongs to you is also waiting to meet you!So, work hard! (Be good enough for yourself, and hope that the best self meets the best you at the best time!)

2018/1/4

The next life is too far away, instead of hoping for happiness in the next life, it is better to seize the present and try to live this life as you want!A lifetime is too short, not all the beauty and pain can be experienced, I can only choose the path I want most in my heart, and at most three things, go and experience!

Put the one you want the most first, arrange it in this way, and distinguish it clearly, so as not to lose the watermelon and pick up the sesame seeds!

I want to have a good figure.Thin, skinny when dressed, fleshy when undressed, the first stage!

I want someone who loves me.So why is he/she being nice to you?What do you have that deserves to be treated well by others?Always have some abilities and skills!How to find it, where to find it?Go where you feel right!Choose the people in your circle!

I don't want sex!It's definitely not all about sex, it's more about love and a compatible soul!Then work hard!

These are not things that can be obtained by lying on the bed, dreaming and lusting, but by working hard and paying blood and sweat!

Because what I want is more than the average person, so I have to work hard; because my requirements are higher than the average person, so I have to work very hard; because I want to follow my heart in this life, so I have to put in more effort!

Only by putting in more blood, sweat and energy than others can you have more abilities than others and have more time to do what you want to do.In this world, there is another set of rules for the strong.

As long as you work a little harder than the average person, you'll be fine!

How can one's own life be left to fend for itself with the attitude of a bystander!Doesn't your heart feel uncomfortable, doesn't it hurt?

Your life should be arranged by yourself and controlled by your own hands!

I control my own life!

Only you can change your destiny, only you can understand your situation, and only by standing in your own position can you know what you should do!You should take the initiative yourself!Don't let time push you!

The mind should be kept awake at all times, not chaotic and sinking!

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