Linley

In Ning Qingming's life, success is also Ji Lin, failure is also Ji Lin, and when he is dying, Ji Lin is always on his mind.He expected that Ji Lin would rush in at the last moment of his death and embrace him like in an idol drama, telling him that he finally found out that the one he really loved was Ning Qingming...

Ning Qingming understands better than anyone else how ridiculous it is for him to be sentimental.

When the illusion appeared, Ning Qingming was already in chaos, but he still recognized Lin Li at a glance. Lin Li smiled at him, but he shed tears.He said he was really hopeless.Fearing that he would not be able to die, in addition to making two deep cuts on his left wrist, he also turned on the gas stove.In order not to be incontinent after death, he has not eaten water or rice for three days. The only thing he can make Ji Lin admire is this skin. I hope Ji Lin can take a look at it before he burns it.

Ning Qingming was only 27 years old when he committed suicide. He was already the hottest movie star in Huaguo. The media praised him as a hard-working genius, but he felt that he had not changed much compared to the humble and cowardly good-for-nothing in the small county 10 years ago. .

Ning Qingming was born in an ordinary working-class family. His parents were high school teachers in a local middle school. He has an older sister named Ning Qingchen.In Ning Qingming's memory, the elder sister of a compatriot, like those classmates and teachers, has always been full of disgust towards him.There is a world of difference between the two siblings. The elder sister studied well in elementary school and has a cheerful personality. She is like the most favored child in the school, while Ning Qingming is not only dull in character, but also has a dull mind. She is always at the bottom of the list.His parents were angry with him, but they beat and scolded him, but they still didn't make any progress. Gradually, they lost patience with him.

In the fifth grade, Ning Qingming had a new head teacher. Looking at the handsome and pleasant little boy in front of him, the new head teacher was moved with compassion, and gave him free cooking after school every day.Maybe Ning Qingming really doesn't have much talent when it comes to reading. Several exam results have proved that it doesn't work for him at all.In the era when "the teacher doesn't punish you physically, he just abandons you", the new class teacher slapped him hard in front of the whole class in a rage.For such things as corporal punishment, once there is the first time, there will be the second, third, and Nth times... This situation continued until he graduated from junior high school. Ning Qingming's teachers seemed to be particularly fond of his fair little face. Leaving his hideous palm prints on his face.

Every little teenager has his own troubles, whether it is about grades or first love, some of them can be chatted with parents, and some can only be shared with friends.Ning Qingming has troubles, but no one can confide in them. He likes to imagine himself as an ancient heroic general before going to bed every night before going to bed. The study committee member whom I have a crush on, put on a bright red wedding gown for him, straightened his temples, and was doing his makeup...

The past events of the student days were skipped, and the picture was frozen on the love letter hung on the blackboard. It was written by Ning Qingming to the study committee, but it was made public by the person he liked as a laughing stock. Looking at the bowl of chili water on the table again, it still makes people feel overwhelmed. In the illusion, Lin Li gently embraced him, and murmured: "If you are really a dull and stupid child like everyone said, maybe you are still a child." Be happy."

If you don't explode in silence, you die in silence.As soon as the senior high school entrance examination was over, Ning Qingming ran away from home. No one thought that such a yes person would dare to run away from home.Ning Qingming's parents were very anxious, but before the time limit for the disappearance, the Public Security Bureau refused to file a case. When the Public Security Bureau could file a case, Ning Qingming also called. He said that he was in Kaiyang City. Ning's father was silent for a long time, "Yeah." With a cry, he hung up the phone.

If Lin Li didn't respond, Ning Qingming wouldn't dare to just walk away no matter how impulsive he was.Orphan Lin Li is Ning Qingming's junior high school classmate. The two students who are both bad students are assigned to the last row of the class. They don't see each other every day. He didn't dislike him, and he still defended him everywhere. After coming and going, the two became friends.Ning's father and Ning's mother often saw their son playing with a bad and well-known student, and they couldn't get angry. They said to Ning Qingming: "You are already stupid enough, if you catch the habit of a gangster, it will really be over." Therefore, Ning Qingming had to "take the initiative" to give up his only friend.

Lin Li dropped out of school in the second year of junior high school. Looking at the vacant seat, Ning Qingming almost cried.How sad he is at this moment, how pleasant he will be when he sees Lin Li again.A year later, Lin Li appeared at the school gate again and gave him his address in Kaiyang, and the two began to secretly correspond.

Lin Li paid Ning Qingming's travel expenses.After arriving in Kaiyang, food and accommodation are also provided by Lin Li.A month later, Lin Li helped him find a job as a waiter in an entertainment club.The skinny Ning Qingming certainly looks younger than 18 years old, if not for his pleasing looks, the manager would definitely not stay.At the request of the manager, Ning Qingming set up Zhang □□ and started working like this.

The first year in Kaiyang was the most relaxing year for Ning Qingming. He got rid of the place that oppressed him for more than ten years. He came to a new environment and met new friends. They praised him for his good looks and his ability to endure hardships. No one would say: "Your parents' food was for nothing, and you raised such a waste", because now he uses the money he earns to support himself.

Fortunately or unfortunately, Ning Qingming first got to know Ji Lin before he experienced the hardships of breaking into society.

Jilin Daning Qingming was 8 years old.At that time, Ji Lin, who had successfully studied abroad, had just returned to China for two or three years. He left behind his huge family business and devoted himself to the entertainment industry with his classmates, with some success.The night Ning Qingming first met Ji Lin, one of Ji Lin's partners drank too much and forced Ning Qingming to go to the hotel with him. Ning Qingming was so frightened that he cried.Like a shining golden god, Ji Lin descended from the sky and rescued him. He said lazily and domineeringly to the drunk, "If I say you can't touch it, then you can't touch it."

At that moment, Ning Qingming's heart was hit hard.

After that day, Ji Lin's angular handsome face and tall and straight figure would appear in Ning Qingming's mind from time to time.So, when Ji Lin appeared in the club again, Ning Qingming took the courage to send a love letter to the study committee member, and asked the foreman to apply for a transfer to take care of Ji Lin's box.Although Ji Lin didn't recognize him, he noticed the eager eyes he cast from time to time.So, he smiled and asked Ning Qingming: "Have we met somewhere?"

Ji Lin would come to this clubhouse two or three times a month, and every time he came, he would ask Ning Qingming to chat with him.Ji Lin knows a lot. No matter what the topic is, he can talk eloquently. He speaks slowly, calmly, but with an unquestionable firmness.He was very well-bred, always smiling and polite, and Ning Qingming fell completely.The little boy who has no deep experience in the world doesn't know what benefits he can get from Ji Lin, he just simply likes him, and he likes him so much that he is ready to turn his back on him at any time.

We have been friends with Ji Lin for nearly a year. One day, Ji Lin suddenly asked him what his dream is. He thought for a while and said, "I want to be an actor." As soon as he answered, he never thought that within a few days, the well-known Meihe Entertainment would offer an olive branch to Ning Qingming. The next day, he was taken into a villa in the suburbs by Ji Lin and started living together.

Ning Qingming thought, God really treats me well.

He works very, very hard, wants to be a qualified boyfriend, cooks soup, cooks, asks about his health, is full of 24-hour filial piety, his manager Chen Hang really can't understand him rushing home as soon as he finishes work, and scares him saying: "You The sky revolves around the stove, be careful to become a yellow-faced woman." Ning Qingming's heart skipped a beat, and he hired fitness coaches, beauticians, and stylists non-stop, and he had to groom for several hours before seeing Ji Lin, just like a receptionist. Driving concubine.Ji Lin was very satisfied with Ning Qingming's innocence and well-behaved, and would return the most tender care. At first, he could spend the night with Ning Qingming three or four days a week. Tighten his abdominal muscles, buy him all kinds of gifts, take him to travel around the world, kiss him on the top of the snow mountain in Northern Europe, and linger with him in the hot spring pool in the polar circle... For a long time, the two People really are like a couple in love.

Lin Li was very afraid that Ning Qingming would be deceived.A junior high school graduate who came to a metropolis from a small town has too little knowledge but too many temptations.However, ever since Ning Qingming had a boyfriend, she could spend whatever money she wanted, pick any scripts she wanted, and the cheerfulness on her body didn't seem like she was forced to smile. Gradually, Lin Li also relaxed his vigilance.

Lin Li worked as a waiter during the day and a security guard at night. In a state of exhaustion, the two rarely had the opportunity to sit down and chat. Later, Ning Qingming moved away and had a career and a boyfriend. The estrangement became even more logical. They didn't know why Lin Li became a soldier, and since when there was no news at all.

With the nourishment of love, Ning Qingming, who was already astounded by heaven and man, became more and more radiant. Ji Lin naturally felt that he had face, and would take him to banquets, large or small, eight times out of ten.Under the indiscriminate bombardment of the high-quality resources of the brokerage company, Ning Qingming quickly became famous. Once, a rich second generation flattered him: "We are still chasing small stars. Lin Shao has already started to win the role. Is the business doing better than us?" Said, he even knows how to play better than us." Ji Lin jokingly replied: "Young Master Xiang is still called a star? He is the actor who has won the Chunhua Award. I am envious of Ji."

In Ning Qingming's heart, being Ji Lin's boyfriend is much more important than being a star. Ji Lin's words can make him ponder for several days. It seems that he has heard people say that successful people are more attractive. Since Ji Lin envies others Boyfriend is an actor, so he also wants to get an actor, so that Ji Lin can be proud of him. After making up his mind, Ning Qingming began to take his work seriously, and the sudden change of character made his manager Chen Hang both baffled and comforted After reading countless people, he always felt that Ning Qingming's talent in acting should not be wasted.

Whether you can do it or not depends on whether you love it or not. After really treating the job of an actor with heart, Ning Qingming found that he still likes it quite a bit. In the fourth year after Ji Lin was together, that is, when Ning Qingming was 22 years old, he became the youngest actor of the domestic heavyweight Chunhua Award.When he happily held the trophy in front of Ji Lin, Ji Lin was not as happy as he expected, he still smiled so gentlely, he stroked his hair, and said softly: "If you like this kind of award, I will help you You want a few more, the premise is that you have to distinguish between primary and secondary."

Ning Qingming wasn't smart, but he wasn't slow, and could even be said to be sensitive.

When he was in school, he didn't know everyone despised and ridiculed him, so he could only pretend to be dull, or else?Now, it's not that he doesn't know that Ji Lin has many residences, and it's not that he doesn't understand the difference between falling in love and nurturing... He just deceives himself and doesn't allow himself to think.

At first, he studied acting to make Ji Lin proud of himself. Later, acting became a panacea to temporarily numb his emotional pain. He studied scripts all night, memorized his lines backwards, and did not find a substitute for action scenes. He temporarily forgot that Ji Lin wasn't his boyfriend, but... the benefactor. Thinking of this, Ning Qingming's heart ached like it was being torn apart.Because he was afraid that he would not be able to control his emotions, in the past year, Ning Qingming would use filming as an excuse to reduce meeting with Ji Lin. As a result, he finally provoked beatings from the financial master.

22 years old is a sensible age.

Wu Yue, Ji Lin's assistant, once reminded Ning Qingming, "If you want to stay by Lin Shao's side forever, you must restrain your love." Just like that, the last fig leaf was torn away.Next, Ning Qingming perfectly portrayed the role of a caretaker who does not love but pretends to love, who has plans but pretends to have nothing. The actor is the actor, and Ji Lin didn't see the flaw. Within the range of equivalent exchange that he thought, he still loves Ning Qingming very much.

Ji Lin kept his word, the Chunhua Award and the Qiushi Cup, as long as they were well-known awards in China, Ning Qingming won them all over the place. There were countless trophies, big and small, but none of them made him happy.

Later, Ji Lin got engaged.Ning Qingming read the news from the newspaper, and Ji Lin comforted him: "Don't be afraid, baby, it won't affect you in the slightest." Ning Qingming nodded obediently and pulled out a not-so-good smile.In Ji Lin's eyes, Ning Qingming is like a kitten, soft and fragile. Looking at his aggrieved appearance, Ji Lin imagined that those actors in the entertainment industry must use the news of their engagement to ridicule Ning Qingming. It's clear, so Wu Yue was specially sent to visit the crew with afternoon tea, the meaning is self-evident.Wu Yue did not see Ning Qingming, the director said he was not feeling well and asked for a half-day leave.Ning Qingming has always been slightly injured, Ji Lin only thought that he was really seriously ill, he finished his day's work early and went back to the villa to see Ning Qingming, that day happened to be the Mid-Autumn Festival, Ji Lin was supposed to go home to accompany his parents.

It was dusk when Ji Lin arrived home, Ning Qingming was lazily nestling on the sofa with headphones on, a pair of long straight legs resting on the coffee table, holding a large bucket of popcorn in his left hand, and grabbing a large handful into his mouth with his right hand, She doesn't look sick at all.The setting sun shone on Ning Qingming's body, casting a faint halo.Seeing this, Ji Lin couldn't help but sigh with emotion, the little guy has been with him since he was 18 years old. Over the years, his stature has grown rapidly and his stature has grown, so why is he still so childish and pretending to be lazy? Hugging into his arms, he was about to say something but found that Ning Qingming was in tears, his mouth was full of popcorn, he looked like a funny hamster, he subconsciously turned his head to look at the TV, Zhou Xingchi and Athena Chu in Journey to the West The picture of the city wall facing each other is still on the screen.

Ji Lin is very irritable, he has been wandering among thousands of flowers for many years, and he sometimes misses them.He ordered Wu Yue to settle down for Ning Qingming, and if the little lover he was entrusted with was really moved, he could not stay any longer, otherwise he would hurt others even if he didn't bother him.Come to think of it, the little beauty who has always been cheerful can cry so desperately, it must be because she has been suppressed for too long, knowing that she is in love but she still has to pretend so hard, it would not be easy for anyone else.That day, Ji Lin and Wu Yue chatted for a long time, and he suddenly realized that Ning Qingming fell in love with him at first sight.When we first met, Ning Qingming misunderstood him as a hero to save the beauty, but the fact is that Ji Lin was dissatisfied with the drunken partner's early business practices, and deliberately looked for opportunities to beat him up. If it wasn't for this, Ji Lin would never Later, when Ning Qingming said that he wanted to be a star, Ji Lin took it for granted that Ning Qingming knew his identity a long time ago, so he took the initiative to approach him. Little did he know that Ning Qingming, who was seventeen or eighteen years old, was very interested in his dream. He was still quite ignorant, if it wasn't for the waiters and friends in the clubhouse who always talked about star dreams, Ning Qingming really didn't know how to answer Ji Lin that day.

Ji Lin had never spent so much thought on Ning Qingming.It is not an exaggeration to say that almost every day there are seemingly pure and ignorant beautiful teenagers sticking to him under the banner of true love. He thought that Ning Qingming was nothing more than that, but he didn't know that he came here with a heart from the beginning. No wonder, I always felt that Ning Qingming was much more caring than other lovers, otherwise she wouldn't have become the one I kept for the longest time.True love is rare, and when he decided to let go, Ji Lin also felt a little regretful, but Ning Qingming, who is obsessed with promises, can be a pet, but it is far from enough to be his partner.Now, all Ji Lin can do for him is to arrange a bright future and send him away safely from his side.

However, this matter does not seem to come in a hurry.Ji Lin consciously distanced himself from Ning Qingming little by little, and at the same time gave him more high-quality resources.Ning Qingming really wants to tell Ji Lin that he doesn't need any resources, he just wants to stay by his side, but after all these years of sharing the same bed, he knows Ji Lin, if he is entangled at this moment, he really can't keep a single thought Living.

Ning Qingming, who can't cry or make trouble, puts all his heart and energy into the movie, his acting skills are at the peak, and his career goes smoothly.Mr. Zhang Shu, a master in the performing arts circle, commented on him most aptly: average talent, but enough persistence.

During the period when Ji Lin gradually alienated Ning Qingming, Ning Qingming still lived in Ji Lin's villa, thinking of his lover who occasionally sent greetings but never showed up. Qingming is grateful. He has been immersed in the entertainment industry for so many years, or has seen or heard countless so-called transactions. He knows that it is rare for Ji Lin to be such a considerate financial backer.

After the luxurious engagement banquet, Ji Lin took the bride-to-be to travel around the world, and it took more than a year to go away.Just when Ning Qingming was trying to force himself to adapt to life without Ji Lin, another big news came: Ji Lin returned to China and publicly broke off his engagement with his fiancée.The next day, Wu Yue appeared in front of Ning Qingming with several contracts and a bank card. He said that Ji Lin wanted to get rid of his emotional debts as soon as possible, and gave Ning Qingming all the villas and cars for free. If he wants to stay in Meihe, then the salary of Brother Yi remains the same. If he wants to do it alone, Ji Lin also prepared a start-up fund for him, and pushed a black card in front of Ning Qingming.

"Why... so suddenly, didn't he say he would give me time?" Ning Qingming asked.

"Young Master Lin has met someone who he wants to spend his whole life with." Wu Yue said: "In this world, anyone can live without anyone, so don't be stupid."

Ning Qingming did not sign or speak, so Wu Yue had to leave a blank document and leave.

Ning Qingming felt that she was a complete joke.In the evening, he put on his costume and babbled and sang "Farewell My Concubine" alone in the empty villa.

Ning Qingming played an actor nicknamed Ameng in the new play "Gone with the Wind", and Ameng and the leading actor Shen Boyuan fell in love with each other because of this farewell my concubine.

The story takes place during the Northern Expedition. The local dignitary Shen's family celebrates the old lady's birthday. Ameng lives in the Shen family's compound with the theater troupe. By chance, he meets Shen Boyuan, the young master of the Shen family.During those days, Shen Boyuan was depressed because his family did not approve of him joining the army. The beautiful and lovely Ameng gave him great comfort. Shen Boyuan liked Ameng dressing up as a woman the most, so Ameng put on makeup every day and sang Farewell My Concubine for him , Under an emotional move, the two had a relationship. The parents of the Shen family were furious. While agreeing to Shen Boyuan's joining the army, they drove away the theater troupe overnight. However, in order to be able to reunite with his lover, Ameng sneaked out of the theater and joined the army under the pseudonym Meng Siyuan. In the past 15 years, Ameng has made numerous military exploits with the spirit of not fearing death. He was appointed as the head of the regiment, and reunited with Shen Boyuan, who was promoted to lieutenant colonel, in a battle. Farewell Concubine, there is a sweet-looking, progressive fiancée by her side, that is, the heroine. Shen Boyuan was influenced by her and developed sympathy and trust for the GCD. After a series of accidents, he resolutely devoted himself to the cause of red national salvation.The joy of reunion turned into bitter resentment. In order to ask for debts, Ameng used a lot of vicious means against Shen Boyuan's troops. However, on the battlefield, when bullets struck, Ameng still chose to stand in front of Shen Boyuan , eventually died.At the end of the movie, Shen Boyuan put down a bouquet of wild flowers in front of Ameng's grave, and he murmured, "Meng Tuanzuo, you are very much like an old friend in my heart."

The director said that the character of Ameng has many things to embody, in addition to the true temperament of being crazy about love, there is also the feeling of family and country that has been sublimated after fifteen years of fighting, and after being blackened, it involves a satire on the internal corruption of GMD.Ning Qingming hadn't read any books, so it was difficult for him to understand that a tragic character from the old era could still embody so many lofty feelings in a beautiful love story. In order to understand the characters, he specially invited World War II historians and The opera master explored and studied day and night, and after a lot of tossing, he entered the world of Ameng as he wished. He felt that he was very similar to Ameng, who lived for love and died for love. Ning Qingming is Ah Meng. Meng, Ah Meng is Ning Qingming, he can't get out...

Ning Qingming sang from night to morning, and danced from morning to night... After not eating or drinking for three days, he was so angry that he couldn't make any sound from his throat.The exhausted Ning Qingming dragged her soft sleeves, closed the doors and windows, turned on the gas, lay down in the bathtub, made two sharp cuts on her left wrist, and then closed her eyes that were once shining like stars because of Ji Lin.